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what the hell is wrong with simbang gabi? it has become orc infested. the noisiest warfreaks on earth are all gathered there. twas my first time to visit church again after sooooo long and there they are... like devils trying to shoo me away. and i did. i went home and the mass hasnt began yet. god.



went to a lot of gigs today. first.. imago played at g4 with a lot of other bands. PARI event hosted by 88.3 jam. then levis xmas party somewhere in pasong tamo. sugarfree, itchyworms, urbandub was there as well. um.. then chinese general hospital with hale. the traffic was so bad and the cabs are like girls wanting broad shoulders and diamond rings. shet.

i was with , , and plus estee yu vi double u eks why zee and her bestfriend. the lechon paksiw and the spaghetti and the fuckinly gigantic yummy chocolate muffin made the whole night. i luv my friends. sobra.

another busy day coming up. *sigh* I WANTED TO CONTINUE GOD OF WAR NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! SIRA CD KO PAKSHET! naghahang sha sa animation after getting the architect's skull. fuck fuck fuck.

christmas wish #2.

visited www.fossil.com and they have this build a watch feature, where you find your own strap and the dial that you like. downside: they only ship in UNITED STATES. shit. im a tied up kid in a candy store.



the olive green one

Dial: Silver finish, a blue degrade dial, three hand quartz movement with date function, and easy to read indexes. Solid stainless steel. 11 year warranty and packaged in a collectible tin. Water resistant up to 50 meters. Case size: 42x36 mm.

Strap: Genuine green leather strap with matching stitch and shabby silver hardware. Strap width: 38mm. Strap length: Ladies <---- shit ka.

Price: $65.00 with free shipping!

the red one

Dial: Silver finish, a blue degrade dial, three hand quartz movement with date function, and easy to read indexes. Solid stainless steel. 11 year warranty and packaged in a collectible tin. Water resistant up to 50 meters. Case size: 42x36 mm.

Strap: Genuine burgundy leather strap with matching stitch and shabby silver hardware. Strap width: 38mm. Strap length: Midsize

Price: $65.00 with free shipping!


PHP 3445.00 lang putang ina!!!! eh yung fossil watches dito umaabot ng 4thou. shit.

please be kind and get me one.

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so here i am contemplating under the moonlight and the stars. alone on the top of a building seeing a part of the bay and bright lights of manila, as i was walking past our house awhile ago, all of our neighbors have already displayed their bright lights and lanterns, santas and wreaths, angels and stars. I wore my jacket coz twas really bitter cold outside. Its clear. another christmas is coming. Yet, the only person whou would yell at me to pin those christmas green boa-like leaves higher or more left above our door isnt home. she would be killing me now by not cleaning up my room, not building up the tree and washing that whiter than white christmas curtain.

i always hated doing christmas tasks. there comes looking for valuable but cheaper gifts and fancy wrappers in a battlefield-like mall. trying to squeeze in the budget after spending for a birthday bash then noche buena. helping other people finding whats round and hairy or long and hard, i almost volunteered to be a gift when che cant find something cute and funny for his monito. (dont start to argue!)
dont start calling me the grinch. i may not have that christmas cheering spirit today, but thats my most favorite holiday. i just feel... lazy and kinda sad without my mom around.

i miss you ma. so much. i miss the way you pull up my blanket and start bashing me with it so i could get up my dusty bed. i miss the way you cook and bug me if it tastes good, and when i answer its like i underestimated it. i miss the way you frown whenever i change channels and watch MTV instead. i miss the way you deliver your daily routine of gossips from my ninang. i miss the way you look whenever you see me wear the same pair of pants for a week, then make me wash all of my clothes after going home.

i miss you. please come home this christmas.

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nicked this from



What does your handwriting say about YOU?
The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.





coolness. :D

post birthday stress

i still havent managed to move on people.

im still here inside my room looking back if things had really happened. my head still hurts. 8 liters of long island iced tea and two liters of vodka melted my brain. after that party, (tuesday morning i think).. abhie and i met at RCBC makati at around 7am to have breakfast. i just took the remaining vodka and a bottle of catsup she mistakenly brought home. and 4 pieces of lemon (just imagine if a guard checks it and tries to figure out what kind of cocktail would she make out of those stuff).

the 3rd floor triple V had a breakfast buffet for only 95fuckin pesos. from eggs to palitaw *sigh*. from 6am to 930pm so we actually ate our morning away. was actually spacey that day for god knows why. and me... i forgot to bring the headband tricia gave her and that small phone charm che bought for her as her december 11 present. so i share the same sentiment.


yum yum yum yum yum yum


abhie and i were actually making fun of the guy on the other table because he got his plate dripping with food. parang sa salad bar. eh pwede namang bumalik dun. at kailangan nya pa talaga ng tagabuhat dahil tatapon talaga. pero in fairness naubos nya. baka tinamad na lang shang bumalik. he made our morning fun-er. *as in bundok talaga ng food. i havent seen a person eat so much longganisa in his life.


And here's to Abhie, my cosmic twin sister..
(taken two years ago.)
my life had never been the same after you. it has become so liberating, full of compassion, friendship, sincerity, honesty and laughter. and of course, as everybody knows it, friends come with friends as well. until our best friends managed to handle each other veeeery well. until fashion club. until the never-ending-we-are-almost-dying laughters.

i love you twin.


that picture from ATC is really freaky right? *i really feel i look like jinggoy estrada there. look at that collar. and that button unintentionally popped out and exposed my chest hairs. tangina.

birthday entry.

ive got no words for it. still.. i cant absorb the fun and everything that happened.


click the picture above. its a link to all of the pictures. it would be a lot easier for us both to check out what happened.




Marv, Gene, Rizza, Josh, Dianne, AJ, Ron, Wey, Teena, Al, Isang
ang aking mga mahal na kabarkadang... sobrang mahal ko.


Acoy, Wawa, Nina, Anna, She
ang mga rewards ng music ko.


Mamu, Joal, Shel at ang pamilya sa Hale


Rico, Kit, Fran, Abhie, Karla and Juz


R3K


Paolo, Ivan, and Iza the gorgeous siblings


Khaz, Steph and Ronald (Burns was cooking the ever tasty chicken parmigiana. luv u burns!)

actually andaming pics. hindi ko lang alam kung ipopost ko pa.

we started at around 830pm. Mariel came as well. sayang di sha nakakain. gusto ko pa manding ipatikim ang luto ko. *sigh* Hale and Imago came. i was really thrilled kasi sobrang nageffort pa sila. they had a gig pa sa malalayong lugar and still, they managed to dropby. Claire didnt make it. *sniff*

so we just ate and ate then i sang crazily, then che made this small notbook box-like thing and made everybody sign. i almost cried when i was reading it. i love you all. sobra.

we played cranium, had 3 cases of beer, 2 liters of Kurant and 8 Liters of long island iced tea. danced all night, played billiards.. hanggang sa nag tumalon na kami ng melrose peeps ng 6am sa pool.

anna, wawerz and ninsikins stayed with us until 9pm of the next day. beat that.

i loved the ps games acoy anna and she. i loved the card. and the book.

shet sobrang saya ko. i dont even know where to start and end this post.

isang makabagbag damdaming pasasalamat.

so araw ko to.

sa isang bahagi ng dekada... alam ng maykapal kung gaano ako kasaya sa ibinahagi nyang mga instrumento kung bakit masasabi kong napakasarap at nandito ako sa kinauupuan ko ngayon. sa napakarami ng taong nagiba ang mga pananaw, anyo at pagkakakilala sa isatisa... nandyan ang mga nagtiis sa kaepalan ko at ang mga tumanggap ng aking kabuuan.

Ona, Tricia, Alvin... ang tatlong taong matagal kong kinapitan ng ubod higpit sa mga oras na hindi ko inaasahang darating. mga nagsilbing bagay sa aking mga bangin at hinding hindi bumigay sa oras na ako na ang gustong bumitaw. Dianne, Teena, Vannie, Isang, Meanne, Teena C., Mau, Dang, Daisy, Josh, Wey, Bong, Alfred, Andrew, Jon, kasama ang mga bumuo ng musika sa buhay ko.. Marvin, Al, Aris, Rei.. walang makakahalintulad sa samahang nabuo ng tawanan, luha, at ng mga kwentong hindi kailanman ipinagkaila sa isat-isa.. sasabihin kong hindi sila makakakita ng gaya nyong lahat... na hindi kailanman matatagpuan ng ganun ganun lang. minahal ang bawat isang parang magkakapatid at nanjan pa rin kahit lumayo ang distansya.

Abhie, Ivan, Rico, Burns, Ronald, Khaz, Alfred, Stef.. mga taong hindi kailanman nagpanggap at ipinakita ang saya, at tawanang (halakhak nga talaga e) hinding hindi malilimutan.. mga taong kunektado sa isang pising mahirap atang pigtalin, at hindi uli sadyang maintindihan ang hinagpis at katotohanan ng buhay ng bawat isa.

Light, Alvin, Marik, Boo, Angel... isang tagay ng kape jan!

Anna, Andrea, She Alejo, Tunetski, Trish, , LT, Nina, Kimoy, Val, Gracie, Leslie, Ned, Teta, Ann Fran, Edz, Dessie, Marielili, Sherylle anne, Chuna and Wawerz... Mike, Diego, Mara, Anj, Joey, Owel, Ja, Yey, at Yam mga sooooooooooooooooooobrang mahal kong mga kapatid sa paniniwala ng iisang musikang inikutan ng aming mga damdamin, hanggang sa ipamahagi ang bawat buhay sa isat isa. mahal na mahal ko talaga kayo at anlaking pasasalamat ko sa musikang nagugnay sa ating lahat. Belay, Celest, Don, Faust, at ang libo libong halers na sumuporta, umintindi at nagmahal sa akin bilang kuya... alam nyong hindi ko kayo iiwan sa gitna ng laban. dahil nasa iisang bangka tayo. mahal na mahal na mahal ko kayo. sobra.

Champ, Roll, Omnie, Sheldon, Aia, Zach, Maps, Tim, Ebe, Diego, Mike D., Sir Raims... salamat sa musikang gumabay sa aking pagkatao.. na bumusog sa aking kaluluwa.. at sa pakikisamang hinding hindi masusuklian ng isang simpleng pasasalamat. Mga tunog lamang na nagkaroon ng lubos na pagkatao at nagbigay ng malaking parte sa aking buhay. dahil alam nyong musika rin ang nananalaytay sa aking kabuuan.

Claire, and Jan... who gave me the opportunity to use all my english skills. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA).. two new girls in my life that i love and gives me the reason to smile on a new day viewing lj, and my favorite series of all time.

Mariel bebepats... ang isa sa mga pinakamamahal kong hindi kailanman nakalimot, sa lahat ng tuwa at mga bagay na mga praning at may topak lang ang makakaunawa.

Sir Darwin Hernandez, Sir Russel Eustaquio, Mam Ethel Cachapero, Ms Chu.. sa pagtitiwalang lubos kong tinatanawan ng utang na loob. Mga taong sa maikling panahon ay nagbigay sa akin ng tuwa at mga salitang huhubog sa aking katauhan. mahal na mahal ko po kayo.

Sa mga LJ friends ko jan!!!!

sa nagiisa kong kapatid, ate winky, hindi sapat ang aking pasasalamat sa diyos na ikaw ang tintingala ko. na hindi kailanman ay inabandona ang kahit anong bunga ng aking pagiging iresponsable at hindi nangiming ilagay ako sa tamang lugar. kay mama at papa na pinuno ako ng pagmamahal na alam kong hindi maibibigay ng sinumang nilalang...na hindi ako tinalikuran sa pagiging suwail at tarantado, sa aking mga tito at tita na patuloy na nanjan sa likuran ko. David, Bruce, Tom, Alexis, Kristin, Aton, Junjun.. ang aking mga anghel na nagbibigay inspirasyon at ngiti sa akin..

Che at Gabby, ang magbibigay ng walang hanggang inspirasyon sa aking pagiging kaibigan, pagiging karamay, pagiging gabay at pagiging tao. Ang naghatid sa aking ng bagong sikat ng araw sa lahat ng karimlan na mistulang bumalot sa aking mundo. O sabihin na lang nating, gumising sa akin sa isang panaginip na di mawawaring masama o hindi. amg nakapagpalasap kung ano talaga ang tamis ng buhay.

To God, who gave me all the wonders of my very fruitful and prosperous years.. i love you po. thanks sobra for giving me everything that i need.

at sa mga taong alam nyo na dapat ay nandito kayo..

Maraming maraming salamat! Masaya talaga ako at nanjan kayo!



so why the hell senti?...

si gabby kasi e. she's the first to give me a gift. when she called sa cell kasi nasa starbucks pako at around 1215am... sabi nya... "dada.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! may gift ako sa yo... *giggles*", i asked her kung ano... she said "basta punta ka rito".. so i was like really wondering kung ano yun. i went home at around 1am and was really really surprised.



and then i hugged her and almost cried. coz she knew that i love cookie monster so much. and then she thought of buying me one. even cheche got so thrilled. i love you babes. *sniff*