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if u had an ex... way back highschool or lets say ten years ago... never had a talk that ur thing was over until u graduated then went separate ways without the phone numbers coz u moved in a new place.. same as that person... then u waited for that person all along then u had someone new... then ur getting married next month... then that person(UR EX) just messages you in friendster...

"HI... NAAALALA MO PA BA AKO? MEJO HINDI KA NA NAGPARAMDAM AFTER GRADUATION. I WAS LOOKING ALL OVER FOR YOU. KUMUSTA NA?"


IS THIS FOR REAL?????????????????????????? CAN SOMEBODY COME OVER MY HOUSE.. BUY ME A MOUNTAIN DEW THEN PAKILAGYAN NG BAYGON. THANKS.

(on a different note... baguio happening will be posted soon i promise. coz right now... i think hell is already opening its gates. im disoriented... disturbed.. in panic.. and clueless of what to do. reply? block? just take things coolly? or.... *dies*)

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overreaction. putang ina paki ko sa kanya.

broken record.

all i have is an empty ashtray for me to fill.
wallowing through these walls of emptiness
as i bounce back and forth
without any redeeming value.
i try to gain everything
that i might have lost
but fuck it has no sense at all
i gather all the letters of the alphabet
that my fingers could reach
while it seize my blood
from flowing through my very whole being
and it gives me a headache
and a stomachache out of being
hypochondriac
i wanna throw up
every memory of you
that i can imagine
and save myself from every
pigments of your shadow
pictures of your smile
recalls of your laughter
and i dont wanna remember
a moment of my gleams
coz all the time i think
that i just made my heart jump
temporarily
it sucked all the future
that i held tightly
with those stars that we both thought
we could have in a lot of possible ways
but to let it go
just to make it fall
for someones wish to be granted
was the fight i gave up
for my own sanity
and now
regretting my very existence
hurts me more.
over and over.
again and again.
i dont know what to do anymore
with everything that i have
seemed like a meaningless tragedy
that ive been trying to abandon for
a quarter of this life
coz i have been finding myself
wiping all of my tears
without anyone hearing me cry.
i am the loneliest broken record
anyone could afford to listen to.

oh my god mraz.

and i had a conversation in ym and suddenly.. as the normal ADHD me.. i asked "bading ba si jason mraz?" then he said teka may ippaste ako.

an interview with jason mraz:

But, it's not just his songs or his boy-next-door good looks that keep him in high demand among fans, writers and critics alike. His provocative pronouncements about love, friendship and music-even sexuality-add considerably to his mystique. When he talked about his latest collection, he even "defined" himself this way: "Jason Mraz is from space"!

In another interview, he disputed rumors that he was gay, but described himself as someone who has a "bisexually open mind. But, I've never been in a sexual relationship with another man."

When we asked him to elaborate on this, he calmly answered: "My mind is open to these things. There are a lot of open minds in the arts and in my social circle. I have quite a number of homosexual friends. When you're raised in that kind of social scene, you question your sexuality, because you have an open mind to love-man and woman!

ISA PA.

Is Jason Mraz claiming to be bi-sexual?

In the latest issue of Genre magazine, Jason Mraz discusses about his unconventional gay relationship, "I had a gay friend I was hanging out with just about everyday. We were basically best friends. It took me about three months before I realized, 'Oh my god, we're dating.' It wasn't until we were out for dinner on Valentines Day that I realized we both we're having a very romantic time together." He adds, "Right before I moved to California he gave me a pretty strong willed kiss goodbye, which I have never experienced before. Unfortunately, he had a little bit more facial hair than I like." The singer is currently promoting his latest album, Mr. A-Z. He later spills more about his sexuality. "I have a bisexually open mind, but I have never been in a sexual relationship with a man. If the right one came along, then sure." He is currently in a relationship with a beautiful young lady but adds, "She's a tomboy, if that helps."

wow. o ano tangina nyo ha!

change

ok xavier.. want to "clean" up your life? and change your lifestyle?

start with your hair!



i cut it myself. and yep i have to dye it back to black. ito na ang simula.

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750am:

im inside that demon's guts now. and i feel so squeamish with the graphics. good thing i am off that stage. im so sleepy and im still searching for moves. the controller is starting to hurt my thumb. shit. i will be dante. i promiss you that.

finished desperate housewives episode 13. i wanted to post spoilers but what the heck. i should be sleeping by now.

ignore me if u dont know what im talking about.

trying to look for a website that i could create my NFSMW car. shit my car rocks.

beaten up earl. tanginang nigga yun sisiw lang. ang angas pa ng voice message.

weird thing im about to beat jewels. thing is she didnt leave any messages. fck man shes hot. sana narinig ko man lang ang boses nya para napagnasaan. lol

im pretty confused with rog and mia. rog said before that mia was just getting some money from me. razor knew about rog and he was like asking me kung san ko sha nakilala. i cant recall kung san nga ba.

and since the policemen had the hots for my car.. (its just a moss green cobalt SS with the highest specs until blacklist 8) i had to use my green mitsubishi with.. a very annoying noise actually. and evem i get the highest engine, transmission, suspension, tires and nitro for it, i feel unsatisfied.

didnt get baron's and earl's car. i wonder what happened to my pink slips. im not getting any good cash fuck. i wanna buy that viper. eh aayusin ko pa yun so gastos ng malaki.

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i want to be dante. i think i have to workout everyday, straight, for 2 years become i REALLY become dante.

im gonna have my shop with no name... eat my pizza, and if ever somebody visits me unwelcomed and try to kick my goddamn big table... ill be jumping high, making my ebony and ivory guns spit burning lead then ill let him taste the edge of my rebellion sword. "fuck you skeleton man and mr-monster-with-a-head-that-explodes". then bash the billiards table, throwing the balls mid-air... then shoot the cue ball to hit all the balls (in slow motion) hitting all the enemies.

suh-weeeeeeeeeeeeeeettt!

and if i transer to another school..

shit i still look like the biggest loser. even in southpark. oh well...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY RON!!!!

sorry i wasnt able to come. ill explain pag nagkita tayo. :(

just woke up and im bored.

well somebody just stole our doorbell. isnt that cute.

im fuckin bored and my plan for the day is...

beat up EARL of Need for speed Most Wanted. how... exciting.