isa pang ka-narci han.

mamaya na tugtog namin. kabado nako. playtime namin is 830 and i promise that ill try to perform sober. ayokong makalimutan yung mga lyrics ko at chords. sheesh.



wala alng gusto ko lang ipost pic ko hahahahaha taena wala akong ma-lj.

why wouldnt dad be proud..

...of a talkative, one week late, spoiled lil angel.. could manage to achieve two straight weeks of stars? oh and two consecutive perfect 4 stars?



now i do understand why some parents pressure their kids to study hard. coz this lil girl taught me that being strict like my dad is never a requirement for a kid to outsmart the whole class.. stars or no stars... she's still the smartest lil angel for me.

para...

sa isang taong lubos na mapagkakatiwalaan.
sa isang taong praning pero hinding hindi ka iiwan sa ere.
sa isang taong pwede kang tumawa at umiyak ng hindi ka huhusgahan.
sa isang taong itatago ang mga lihim mo.
sa isang taong malakas sumigaw.
sa isang taong biglang tumatahimik.
sa isang taong mahilig mag-oha oha.
sa isang taong karamay mo sa lahat ng reklamo.
sa isang taong hindi mangingiming makinig.
sa isang taong nagpapasaload ng hindi nagpapabayad.
sa isang taong marunong umintindi.
sa isang taong fuma-fan.
sa isang taong mahilig magcamwhore.
sa isang taong lubos na mamahalin ninuman.
sa isang taong mahal na mahal ko.
sa isang kaibigan.
sa isang kapatid.

maligayang kaarawan anna. alam mo kung gaano kita kamahal *hugs-oh-so-tight*

*bamf*

my body clock's all messed up.

yeah its been a long time that i havent been on ym or anywhere. even lj. some things are not worth posting. i mean... weird events. that would create another set of questions, judgments, unsolicited advices, and paranoia (for me). but mhen... twas like i entered another dimension with a clock 4x faster. things on that world flew much faster. and emotions SHOULD be discarded.

yeah thats what u call internet love. in which, is an exact paradox of the word itself.

last saturday, rico, tricia and i went out to catch up on whats-hot on our lives. turned out... that MY seat was the hot one. yes. im on hot seat ladies and gentlemen. and let me correct you two..

I AM NOT COMMANDING AND I AM NEVER POSSESSIVE!

pffftt. and i call u friends hmp.

some "astrologer" (as he call himself) read the stars for me. for fun. like thats his hobby and it caught my interest. so we talked and damn.. everything was so true. funny that i am a bit skeptical about it but then i realize... yeah. i am in balance. something good happens.. then bad. then good. *jerome sala's gulong ng palad plays in the background* whatever. so di pala ako pwedeng manalo sa lotto. todo malas ako after that. BADUY.

just came home from a 1-lap jog. tinamad ako kasi gutom nako. bat kasi may burger machine sa mga kanto e. parang nagisip tuloy ako ng sansrival. ugh cream. huling kain kong matino ay yung last time sa pier one after awit awards (thursday). siguro naman by now natunaw ko na yung lechong kawali tsaka baked mussels. yeah i have to be fit na. im not getting any younger and damn... ANDAMI KONG DAMIT NA GUSTONG SUOTIN!!! plus.... di ko maintindihan bat ang mga job offer sakin eh yung mga ayaw ko. yung mga gusto ko eh ayaw sakin. nakakalito ang mundo *and then smokey mountain's kahit habangbuhay plays somewhere*.

my ipod is working again. which is weird coz ive never done anything. like... trip nya lang gumana.

ang bastos talaga ng ninang ko. naaaliw ako kasi maraming bumabati na... uy... parang.. pumapayat ka YATA. i mean ok na yun sakin. at least may pumapansin kahit di ako nagpapapansin. lol sabi ng ninang ko after jogging kasi nakasalubong ko sha habang bumibili ng dyaryo... "di ka man lang nagbago.. antaba mo pa rin". susme di ko alam irereact ko. tumawa na lang ako. sabi ko sa isip isip ko... tangina so ibig mong sabihin wag na kong magjog kasi pinapagod ko lang sarili ko?? hahaha joke praning lang ako. pero ambastos ha. kitang galing ako sa jogging e.

ampangit ng AN AMERICAN HAUNTING. ewan kung bakit pang-tanga ang movie na yun. akala nila nakakaaliw ang twist. punyeta. pinagpalit ko pa ang the fast and the furious para sa walang kwentang hinabol pa namin na palabas.

ok commercial muna, since tutugtog din ang banda namin... (sana matuloy ang fete kasi nakasignup din kami run.)


at dagdag na unforgettable quote na nagpamaga ng mata ko kahapon.. na dadalhin ko sa aking hukay..
"ganyan lang naman ako sa yo e... im just here to pick up your shit".

wala akong macomment. baka nga naman ganon ako kasamang tao para sa kanya. na wala talaga akong naidulot na maayos. na ako lang ang nakahingi ng pabor at tulong all the while. hmmm.

pero P.S. masaya pa rin ako ha. ang ganda ng umaga ko e. :)

to all who texted me happy fathers day... salamat. :) at sa mga nagtext din sakin kung bakit nasa TV ako lol ako rin di ko alam yun.

gabby was oh so proud she had a perfect score in all her activities kahapon. she had all 4 stars. *sigh*

unsent.

how are you? how's work there? it seemed that you don't get tired whenever you get home from the office. oh by the way, i think i topped at my english 8. got flat 1.

sorry i've been such a rotten brat for 18 years. sorry ive never reached your standards. and all i did is to rebel against your system and house rules. it has been a long time since i supressed my opinions about everything you decided for me. and too bad i grew up scared instead of following your rules coz of respect. it was too late when i realized that its really for my own good. which i always doubt when you tell me that. remember the 1000 bucks that got lost in your pocket, and you asked mom about it then you argued? ya its me who took it. i bought a pretty darn good sandals. well... im not really sorry i took it. your wallet was kinda thick that day. kidding.

remember when you asked me to come with you at the coca cola plant at bulacan? when you showed me that you were the engineer who made it. then you asked me to bring a coleman so i can have free royal tru orange. unlimited. hahahahaa. shit. i can still recall how dorky i was then. when we were about to go home, something smelled like rubber and it sounded that there's something flapping outside the car. then the car went wobbly and weird so we decided to stop and check the tires. it was the right back tire. it exploded. then you taught me how to change tires. can u still remember all that? that was the only day that got us talking. and smiling at each other. just a day for how many years.

i know you love me. but why did i grow up hating you? and it was soooo late when i knew everything. that you kept on bragging about me to your office mates. the reason that my report card gets lost for a day, is you bring it to your office, showing them off how intelligent your son is (which is exactly the opposite). that you put down the offer of you being the vice president of your company, so you won't get preoccupied and it might eat your time for your family. for us. why didn't you make us feel special? why didn't you become transparent of loving us? now i regretted all the things i've said. and i even wished you to die. which eventually came true after two weeks, 2 days before mom's birthday. and a million sorry is not enough for you to be back again.

i sometimes cry coz i miss you so much. and i haven't given you anything back. you gave almost everything that i wanted. and i never gave something in return. i took your presence for granted. i made you look bad. that you're irresponsible, airhead, and overlly fucking strict. but you're not. you just did what you have to do. and i took it wrong.

i miss the dinners, when no one will eat if we're not complete. i miss ate's and my time table stuck on the refrigerator. so you can check on us every single second of the day. i miss you, pa. i miss our family being complete and happy. the ones i didn't give any importance before. i never knew what i've got til it's gone. i miss you. and this will be the first time i will say this. too bad you can't hear it. i love you so much. i miss us.

happy fathers day, pa.

awit awards.

xavier is not busy. he's just too lazy to update his journal. pfft.

went to awit awards last night and well... we all know how credible that award-giving body is. (somebody's not invited and YET they won a lot of awards last time hmmmm. bakit nga ba?) anyway mamaya na ang pangungupal, bamboo swept it with 6 (or 7) awards including album of the year. Hale got two awards, tied up with bamboo for best ballad and people's choice for best group. sandwich had a semi-rockestra opening performance singing sugod with sir raims wearing a katipunero get-up, with salakot huh, and a great sandwich flag. it started the show so well. urbandub, dicta license, hale, 6 cyclemind, orange and lemons, and a lot of artists performed. galeng.

backstage, sheldon taught me one of his "resident party boy" move. omnie bought me a beer and i almost choked on it when shel started to dance. oh how i could see the happy vibe in him. ;) sheesh i should have my picture uploaded with paula and all. orange and lemons, omnie and shel, francis brew, and me had a crazy pic and it was so cute. but of course its a lot crazier with the itchyworms lol.


feeling awardee. *sniff* id love to thank all of my supporters especially to san miguel beer for giving me the guts to pose like this. *sniff*

but before that, we went to dea's house, and she drove her car. weve got a video of it. lol oh shit... we shouldve taken a shot where bad vibes came around before pier one. thatd be insane lol. well, yeah thank god ryan was there. so kumain kami nina mamu and nagmeeting ng konti and im still thinking kung paano magwowowrk yung draft ng guidelines ko. basta basta no pressure at all.

my ipod had this sad icon and hindi ko na sha mareset or marestore so i have to go to the apple retail store to have it reformatted. of course they could do that. im just nervous they have to open it for a hardware change coz the signatures might come off. :(

0_o

having a kid in her kindergarten was pretty exciting. seeing her all cute in her uniform, picking up her first lunchbox and seeing the excitement and her willingness to learn.

not until the school supplies rush. when i got the list from che to check how many writing notebooks and what materials she needed... i got the answer to one of my hundred thousand peso questions. why is it that some offsprings outsmart some parents?

for a kinder, they had 8 subjects including geography. GEOGRAPHY? so i thought... maybe they will just teach the directional stuff like where's north and blah but no... they will teach some regions in ASIA as well. geezus. asia? i dont even know where kyrygzstan is.

and of course i already had an idea what notebooks to buy. gabby loves the powerpuff girls so it figures. when i went to that part of national bookstore, everything's mixed up. spiral, composition, 50 leaves, 90 leaves, writing, hardbound and we had an hour left coz im gonna go to capones pa. it was so frustrating with all the manic mothers just throwing away stuff above the notebooks like cartolinas and crayons. so it took us 45 minutes to just get some cute animal cartoons instead and che will be manually taking off the extra 40 leaves coz we really cant see the 50-leaf notebooks. oh yeah lets not forget the mass production of PBB notebooks. pfft.

the lives of those sales clerks might be on hell right now. arranging a mountain of notebooks. when i asked one for a long plastic envelope... she said.. "sir sa school supplies" without even looking at me. due to my frustration and annoyance.. di nako nakapagpigil. "YA I GOT THAT! ALANGAN NAMANG SA BOOKS SECTION DI BA?" then she assisted me kung saan rack nakalagay yung mga plastic envelopes... which is by the way, another mess of a place.

and what the hell happened to the normal art paper? construction paper na ngayon? and the drawing book na hindi nila alam kung ano yun tapos pinipilit nilang ibigay sakin ang sketch pad.

and i just dropped by sa capones and saw celest, joan, jo, joyce, nina, lea, cecil, anna and mamu. i think 20 minutes lang ata ako run. sobrang wala ako sa mood magstay kasi ang mahal tsaka ansikip lol. di pako pwedeng uminom kasi magjjog pako ng 5am. (naks)

awit awards. yey. thursday na.