The Gloom that covers the Earth.

Yeah literally. its summer and we get to choose whether we burn under the scorching hot ultraviolet rays of the sun or swim amidst the irritating humidity. And i get to choose Resaturant City. Or Pet society. lol

Ive been missing a lot of series, still downloading them though but i cant keep my eyes off my pet or my employees. I should try bump my head so i could detach to it. Oh facebook. Why have you forsaken me?

Anyway, im going back to school. Yeah. I dont get to choose MMA coz i feel like a 4-year course takes forever. So ill just finish accountancy then. But i think i could finish off Physical Therapy too. then... omg ill get to wear scrubs. lol wow.  really BIG PLANS huh xavier. (thats just me again talking to myself... in case you dont get it.)

And while studying, im also planning on getting a job. I think its time i could use my idle time to something realistic. I could still party of course. And what i mean by partying is hanging out with JP, Ivan, Trish, Yesh, Ona, Dianne, Ryan, Abhie or Erika and Sam. It always feels like a party without alcohol. Well, except for Trish's version. Life is not even life at all without alcohol.

I havent been blogging on my multiply (thats here) coz hmmm... i feel like i lost my identity trying to filter all the thoughts im going to blog. I am a person part-angry and almost-full fun.  So i think i shouldnt really care about snoopy people. In case youre one of them, ill be delighted if you just delete me if youre so annoyed with what i post. I dont really care if i flood your newsfeed, just fuckin delete me. *sincere smile* (oh i learned from the best!)

i also wanted to try video blogging or make skits which is like TOTALLY funny, (seriously... it never failed when i do it LIVE.) but im just concerned with my computer coz when i tried editing some videos from our video cam, i felt like its going to explode. Processor issue perhaps.

And one last thing, i hate it when its so gloomy yet its so bright. Like theres this bright light covered by a dirty off-white cloth. oh i cant wait for 2012 to come and end THIS AGE (not the world, ok!) coz it seemed like every scientific bully blames the soon-to align planets. Even nostradamus. What the hell is wrong with that guy?

Ive heard that Nostradamus is Hiro Nakamura. yeah yeah. an attempt of a joke.

Treehouse this April presents: Mayonnaise's Torres Video Launch

Lets forget the Bipolar Weather and enjoy a summer weekend with bands and a great video!!! Taralets Bagets!

I know this creature..

that really tried to fit in. As in, super trying hard. Teka, kailangan ko lagyan ng bullets para mas organized. :) medyo gusto ko kasing maemphasize kung bakit ko nasabi yon e.

· She did cosplays even though she doesnt love animes.
· A self-proclaimed "true writer, poet, and an artist." wow. esteem-boost much?
· She had a multiply account selling her used electric breast pumps (have you ever thought of buying a 2nd hand electric toothbrush?)
· She tantrums pag hindi nasusunod yung gusto nya. Or dahil naubusan sila ng ice cream, kasi may friend kaming umuwi ng Italy, tapos walang dalang pasalubong, although hindi naman inannounce sa mundo na magpapaice-cream sha ha, nandon ang buong barkada, except for them, tapos nung naabutan nilang ubos na yung ice cream, gumawa ng eksena. LOL. Talk about patay-gutom hello.
· She bought angel wings, kahit puro utang na yong asawa nya dahil may baby sila.
· She wears corsets, sa labas ng t-shirt. Kung blouse man yon, masyadong malaki for a blouse. Kaya siguro napunta lahat ng manas nya sa braso. Ay grabe, ang laki nung braso non, pero feeling Gisele Bundchen. No exaggerations.
· Nagpapasubo sha ng food IN PUBLIC. They makeout anywhere, everywhere, no matter kung may mga bata. And im not talking about your ordinary kiss ha. This is French , ladies ang gentlemen. She sits on her bf’s lap while RENTING computer. Tapos natutulog din sila don ng magkakandong. Basta parang naging biktima ng Alzheimer’s or Huntington’s. Tipong imbalido na at kailangan ng nurse para makakain. Or caregiver.
· She loves S and M. As in Sadomasochism. I have nothing against it since kanya kanya naming trip yan, pero wag naman tayong maging proud masyado SA FRIENDSTER para ilagay sa about me page natin. Konting discretion naman or kahihiyan para sa mga nakakatandang nag-aruga sa atin. May mga bagay naman kasing hindi na kailangang i-announce. “Hi! I love S & M… do you wanna hurt me?” And she was just 17 when she posted it. Promoting statutory rape? Til now, she is proud to flaunt "underage" sexiness. Not even thinking of her LITTLE GIRL'S welfare. wala pa nga atang one year old anak nya pero my god, bear with the fact that you need your child to grow in a safe environment. Non--predatory.
· She had an “Audrey Hepburn” haircut na sinearch nya pa sa google tapos nagpa "home service" sa kanila kahit ala una na ng madaling araw, at dahil kaibigan rin namin yung naggugupit, wala silang pakialam kung nakakahiya man or what
· She tried to prove that she’s intelligent, one time naglaro kami ng cranium tapos binastos nilang mag-bf yung kaibigan naming hindi naman sila inaano, nagpustahan pa sila ng limang piso kasi hindi raw masasagot yung question, funny thing is, kasama nila sa team yon.
· She tried to write, tapos nangccriticize sha ng gawa ng iba. Like… as if critic talaga sha. Pero grabe… hahahaha. Natawa ako sa “music review” nya. Po-post ko yung link kaso dagdag views pa sa kanya. Eh super sikat pa naman siya sa community namin.
· She pretends she’s still studying at St. Scholastica tapos nung nakita naming naka PWU uniform sha, kulang na lang tumakbo . Minamata raw sha sa starbucks kasi taga-PWU lang sha. WTF. 'Til that moment, ive never actually thought… “anong nakakahiya sa Philippine Women’s University?”
· She pretends to be a lost soul, kaya mas pinili nyang lokohin ang boyfriend nya kapalit ng kalaro nya sa ragnarok. Nadala lang daw sha ng isang series… or movie. Kaya nya nagawa yon. OMG ROTFLMAO.
· And lastly… kaka-blog nya lang regarding HYPOCRITES. Yung mga nagpupunta raw sa simbahan. OMFG. ROTFLMAO. Funny thing is, she just posted sa shoutout nya like a week ago… “Everyone is free to do things. You are not god to tell me what to do.. blah blah.” “I hate people who hates people.” – HAHAAHAHAHA shit HAHAHAHAHAA. Not realizing it came full circle. hahahahahahahaha

Ako magb-blog regarding Irony. Wala yata shang idea kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng ipokrito.

I am such a big fan of her, She’s super courageous. Nakakainis nga lang kasi no matter how hard I try to ignore her, may magrereact sa inbox ko, mageemail, or mababanggit ng ibang tao sa sobrang irita nila. So I have nothing to do but react. Wala kasi shang idea that everyone hates her. Kung tutuusin, naaawa na ako kasi minsan out of the blue mababanggit na lang siya. And once she hears about it, she thinks its because she’s popular. *sighs* Meron pang artworks ng mukha nya, status messages about how they hate her, medyo parang… fact na lang yon under the sun. Parang daga lang. Maruming daga na punung puno ng leptospirosis na virus. You might wanna hate it, pero you co-exist.

Pero ang edge on hating rats, or spiders, you can just exterminate them. So people… stop the hatred. Learn the fact na ganyan lang talaga sha.

I know you may think this is mean. But this is me without trying to be a bitch. This is me, trying to put out the facts, or what we call "common knowledge" about her. Everyone on our community, even the elders, talked to me... "huy nakasabay ko yung kaibigan mo sa jeep, sabihan mo naman at naghahalikan sa harap ng maraming tao."

Im so sorry but i cannot let myself associated with people na gutom sa laman in public. That is not love my dear friends. That is just plain disgusting. May lugar naman kasi para sa lahat ng bagay. At hindi talaga tamang lugar ang jeep, or computer shops.

So once again, its a lesson learned. If you do not want attention, do not seek for it. Stop being provocative. Kasi as much as i wanna stop typing, i really wanna express the disgust im feeling. ang ganda ng gising ko Lord. Kahit naman siguro sinong nilalang, ayaw ng ganyan. Unless, may issues talaga psychologically.

We may want to be expressive or artistic, pero lets keep our feet on reality's ground. We live in a catholic, traditional country, where poverty is one of the major problems, tapos magiinarte ka as if youre blair waldorf? suck it up. be considerate. actually WALA akong pakialam sa trip mo. kaso alam mo kung bakit bobo ang bansang to? dahil sa mga taong gaya mo.

ilang baygon ang pwede kong gamitin, lumayo ka lang para hindi magkasakit ang komunidad namin? malala na kasi yung cancer e. tapos malignant na stage 4 ka pa.

And this is all about an apology?

Okay. ayoko na nito. ang laking kabobohan ko na binasa ko pa yung blog ng may blog paano kasi inadd-add ako tapos nasa notifications. kaya dinelete ko na lang. para wala nang katarantaduhang nagaganap.

kung ang isang tao ay naghihintay lang ng "sorry", hindi yan magkakalat ng isang bagay na ikasisira ng isa pang tao. napaka-simple. ang sorry hindi yan hinihingi. kusa yang binibigay. parang respeto.

isa pa, ang katangiang pansarili gaya ng pag-claim na mapagbigay, understanding, mabait... ay walang iba kundi tinatawag na self-proclaimed. doon, hihintayin mo rin ang ibang taong magsabi non sayo.

ganon kagullible ang mundo. lalo na kung kasiraan ng isang tao ang paguusapan. so if you have the purest intention of just telling your "friend" about what you feel, i do not think you need to have it spread like a virus. hindi ba ang pinakamadaling gawin ay ang lapitan ang isang taong hinihintayan mo ng sorry? ang tawag don, communication.

hindi yung may nadadamay. ang taong may utak, alam yon. hindi ko ituturo sa anak ko na oras na may manakit sa kanya, ipagkalat nya sa mga kaibigan ng nanakit sa kanya. hindi yung kukunin mo ang loob ng mga kaibigan nya. kasi malaking kabobohan yon.

una sa lahat, wag mo kaming gawing tanga. hindi ko na babanggitin ang pangalan mo dahil kinasusuklaman ko ang mga taong gaya mo. walang hobby, walang ibang kaibigan at hindi marunong magisip.

hindi kita inaalisan ng karapatang magsalita. pero kung kaibigan ko na at lahat kami ang sinasabi mong "damay", hindi kami gaya mo na madadaan lang ng sorry. kung na-convert ko ang sorry sa piso, nakapagpatayo na ako ng bahay.

ISANG BAGAY NA LANG? open ang doors mo? para kausapin ka for whats going on? BAKIET??? wala rin ba kaming hobby gaya mo?

i, for one, DO NOT EVEN BELIEVE, or have the slightest sympathy on people like you. thats why i hate condescending people. they think they are the victims, unknowingly, they were the ones who first fired the shot.

kainis hindi ko mapost "for everyone". ang tanga ko idinelete ko pa yung hayup nayon. e di ngayon nagblog ako na hindi nya mababasa. SENSELESS. nanghinayang naman ako sa effort ko.

putangina kasing kuneho yan. aga aga nasisira araw ko.

To Jan Fritz.

Jan in case you havent read my reply using eboy';s friendster account, i also thought of posting this in my blog, with everyone reading what i have told you. as i make this clear, i just want for everyone to know what and how i reacted on this. you had it subjected as "friendships"... well now its easier this way isnt it?

"Dyan-Prits wrote:
> hi! muztah? di ba frendz nman tau... may gs2 lng po me sbhin... lam mo minsan, kh8 ndi directly un mga pnagsasasabi or pinagsisisigaw ni ls, nakaka-offend na din... kh8 ba sbhin natin na pag dadaan ako pag-uwi ko tapos, magsasalita kau nna al ng "ls", tpos, i2 nman c ls, mumurahin kau ng "PI", di ba offending din un, kh8 pa sabihin nating biruan lng un... di pa din un mgandang pakinggan... and, ung mga reactions nya, pra syang bata... bk8 di na lang kz sya mkipagharapan sa kin at ilabas ang galit nya... sanay naman nko sa pagbugbog nya... sanay na ko sa mga pasa sa katawan... lam yan nna ryan.."

jan... si chin to. wala akng friendster and it just so happened that i read this message since i deleted my account, i think you also oughta know what i feel about this kind of situation. 'coz its pretty clear to us, as you also sent me a text message about it.

at first, it wasnt clear to everyone what happened between you and LS. i knew LS for just a short period of time. and now that youve mentioned it, that hes hurting you, that doesnt actually sound right. or... thats isnt even right at all.

LS, with all his might, is trying to avoid you. everytime he's with us, he spontaneously goes home when he sees you coming. he never opened up to any one of us what really happened. i asked him questions. i even thought you were siblings. and when it was made clear to me that you were "exes" as many people would refer to it, i stayed away from the issue.

thing is, for me... its really annoying. first, in behalf of al, rey madriaga, and the people who just became friends with LS, do not have any right to command or post authority above him. we are older than him, but if we try to emphasize that point, you are older than him as well.

second, if he is the one who's hurting you, why does it seem like... as an observer... you are the one trying to reach out for some reconciliation or maybe for a small talk.

third, if you are offended by it, why dont you tell LS himself, and not re-direct it from us. i just have this one question in mind... do u even want us to get involved with this? im just curious.

jan... youre an educator. as far as i can see, i know youre a good person. but come on, as an adult, i know you know what to do. also... now that were here, i want you to know that you should also stop involving other people about your issue. because every single one of us, has its own battle to face.

i am never a meddler. i dont even take interest on this kind of situation. in this so-called friendship... why are we also going to superimpose some "power" or "wisdom" to LS? is it because were older? coz if thats the case... you can try reading this message again so you wouldnt miss my point.

dont get me wrong. but id prefer for you to talk to us in person, rather than send us text messages or friendster message. coz this is tacky, lame and immature.

i also want you to know that im outspoken. and i hope you wont take ANY offense on this reply. thanks.

As the new sun arises..

"none are more hopelessly enlslaved than those who believe they are free"

- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

... i realized that i dont need my friendster and myspace accounts. im also deleting people from my multiply i really havent met or um... didnt know at all.

i also deleted my ym accounts. i am also going to change my number.

back to being not in the middle. now, im taking sides. MY SIDE.

bye deleted friends and stuff. :)

Fighting for Custody.

The battle has just begun.

And there are no other collateral damage but my precious innocent daughter.

This has been one of the shittiest weeks. except when im with my friends. they make me cling on to my sanity.

and to my one and only sister, ang tangi kong kakampi sa lahat ng laban ko. my one and only sponge.

i just feel like sharing this coz ayoko namang clueless ang mundo. too bad i added random people here who couldnt care less but what the heck. andito iba kong kaibigan e.

its just so hard to always put up a happy face. and some people think that they could just do or say anything to me like theyre the only ones who are tired of this sickening cycle. i think im blogging this, for people to also be aware that anyone, in one instance, could just snap. and might do something irrational.

pero yeah, i will be rising above. no matter what, i still have the most important people in my life. nabawasan nga lang ng ilan coz of reasons i cant elaborate, but still. there are still people who could still make me hold on.

i dont wanna get bitter, pero by this experience, i think ill be learning a lot of life lesson.

i will just love myself, stop adjusting, relying and depending on others. coz in the end, all weve got is a handful of real friends, and ourselves.