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How can someone not fall in love with a simple detail as leaving you a note to not forget to take your vitamins. :)

Sense of Purpose.

I have finally felt that I am in a different state of life today. I woke up like a normal person going to the office without any qualms bothering my thoughts. My only concern was the scorching sun. Nothing else.

I am settled. Contented.

I am getting married on September. :D I think none of my friends know it yet, except for two of my bestfriends but of course they don't believe it until it's there. I know what they think about it but I am honestly avoiding that conversation since I am unstoppable.

I don't know if I'm acting idiotic. But I've thought about this well, and I trust my sense of judgment that I'm doing the right move. I'm doing it not just because it's the right thing. I'm doing it because I want it, I am 75% sure that I need it, and it makes me feel complete.

I am also doing it for Gabby. She deserves a happy family that will surpass all issues anyone can have. I also want to wake up in the morning seeing her sleepy face, wanting to go back in bed while I talk to her about how important breakfast is. I also want Che to feel that she is never alone. Seeing her forever sleepy eyes, and her sweetest smile every single day of my life while her head leans on my shoulder.

And I am ready to sleep early, wake up, jog, drink coffee, take a bath, go to the office on weekdays, try to figure out what to cook on weekends, and do the same routine for the rest of my life as long as I'm with them. :)

Thank you babe. I love you.

New Life Lesson Learned.

Do not be impulsive on concluding. Personally I noticed that I would rather believe something really hurtful than believing the person saying its a lie.

But as days pass by, you will end up believing in love. :) It will bring out the worst and best in you. That's why we really have to take time to think and stop ourselves to judge right away.

Love is just a tool. Its too powerful to drive you nuts, make you irrational and cloud your sense of reason. It's up to you what to amp up.

Weekend.

The fact that I was too sick last Friday made my weekend a little bit interesting.

After that Chicken-all-you-want at Max's, I decided to not eat chicken for the rest of the week. I only had two pieces by the way. The third one was a struggle and I just threw it up. I didn't eat rice with it. It's just that the smell of the whole restaurant, seeing chicken bones pile up in every table, made me a little squeamish. Seriously. I was a little bit frustrated with myself since I was actually excited to eat a whole chicken.

Saturday morning and my body gave up. I was feverish and I kept on sneezing. I must've caught flu. (No its not bird flu. I was actually feeling ill since Thursday.) Che and I planned to have me checked up at Manila Med and then thought of bringing Gabby with us since its near the mall and Gab wants to pickup Polly Pocket for herself. Which turned out to be a semi shopping spree for her coz she also got a jacket from oshkosh and some random things at clipper. I also didnt have time for the checkup LOL. We literally forgot the purpose why we all went out. We also wasted money at Tom's World and Timezone. We didn't get anything. It's odd that I think getting a 15-peso stress ball makes it okay wasting 300 bucks. Or 300 1-peso coins on slots to just get tickets. Tickets you could exchange for a prize that is actually cheaper when you buy it on stores. Then ate a lot.

This looks gross as how awesome these taste. Hahahahaha

On a different note, Tricia texted me about a new Yoghurt stand at Robinsons Place, called Fruitty uh... Flavors... or Yoghurt... i forgot. They just blend the yoghurt and the fruit instead of the normal FroYo that we get. Havent tried it yet. The fruits looked good though.

Then just stayed at home yesterday, watched Harry Potter and the sorcerer's stone with Gab, Che and Ehboi as I dwelled and swam on nostalgia with my HP playing cards while I explain to them everything that we see in the movie.

My flu got terrible and my fever spiked up. I was just too lucky I am being taken care of the hottest people on earth hahahaha. i hoped that it would subside but it got worse as the day ends. Now I am staying at home and will be going to Manila Med later after my nap. I just had 4 hours of sleep, coughing with my nose clogged. Uggghhhh. I feel emotionally GREAT though. Seriously. I am a happy sick buhrr.

Inception (2010)

Im not sure if I should regret this not watching in 3D. Chris Nolan made me search for his name at imdb for a list of his movies.

This movie could be a close comparison to "The Matrix" since this one is more about dreams but of course there's a more interesting plot than that. I love Ellen Page. Did Joseph Gordon-Levitt modulated his voice here? It sounded kinda odd, not bad odd.

One of the factors this movie became really interesting is how Nolan depicted an individual's sense of reality. Dreams are a sitting duck for mysteries since everybody has it, (even animals for that matter), that it makes us connect ourselves with what has been going on. It is when we master our consciousness inside a dream and get to control ourselves in it, which makes us relate to all the characters in the movie. We could be the architect, the one who cant let go of memories or the one with an undying guilt.

Scenes were also directed great especially on how the second layer of the dream was made (the one inside the hotel) where the dream is affected by the reality on the first layer, like when you can hear the music in your dream while that music plays in reality where youre fast asleep. The fight scene without the gravity was flawless. You will try to figure out if Joseph was on harness or hes really floating around.

And sure, an idea is like a virus. :)

I left my manners at home.

Went to Rob Place to grab a casing for my phone and thought of passing by to powerbooks and grab some FroYo*. Their Blueberries tasted like raw tamarind so I decided to have butterscotch, cherries and mango for it. While looking around, theres this guy in gray who looked at me twice, and I thought for 5 seconds that I might've known him. When I looked at him again, he smiled and usually when I'm weirded out, i tend to always have this smirk. Then he walked to the other side of the mall and i continued browsing.

We all have this dilemma that mallrats are not usually that friendly, so our usual judgment is... that he could be a "person-for-rent". He doesnt look like it though. He has the biggest smile like a kid to a christmas present. I was texting while walking on the fourth floor and I saw him again at the 3rd floor escalator, looking at me, then he waved. So then I smiled. Thinking... wow. He IS friendly (again, dilemma). I saw him walk out of the mall, went to the left side, and so I went to the right side, going to Ministop but theres this car passing by so I turned around and surprised that he was behind me. WHO IN THE WORLD WOULDN'T FREAK OUT ON THAT? He smiled and gestured, "wait". Then he pulled out a credit card receipt and a pen then wrote... "Sorry I'm deaf. Can i Just at least get your name?"

I hand-signaled, No. (Two hands, waving.) But he insisted on handing me the piece of paper and the receipt. I wrote... "Sorry", then paused for seconds just to write anything else but I was frantic. He hand-signed "name" like a nameplate to his chest then pointed at me, so I wrote my name on the paper. Handed it back to him then i made a two thumbs up.

Two fucking thumbs up. Like "Ayos? Ok na?" Then I walked away and went to Ministop after he just stood there with an awkward smile like... I dunno. It broke my heart when I was in the cab thinking about it.

Then yeah, I rode a cab and the thought made me realize... I didnt even ask for his name. :( I saw him eating alone at Jollibee and I ignored that fact. Maybe because he's deaf, he just wanted someone to spend the afternoon with someone. He looked decent and it felt like he doesnt have ANY intentions. Just to meet people.

The world made me doubt everyone. Personally, what I did was rude, and I don't know how to take it back. Stu. Pid.

Then I met my friends at Rockwell, went to Fully Booked then decided to grab some dinner at ToHo BF Homes. It's a chinese restaurant that started as a Panciteria outside the Intramuros walls at 1888. Dude, thats more than a hundred years. How can you not trust a restaurant that cooked more than a century? Everything tasted great. Without exaggeration. From Seafood Canton, Chicken, to Fried Spare Ribs. It is like hell for a person trying to lose weight. But its REALLY worth it. It also claims that Rizal and Del Pilar hangs out at the Intramuros branch during those era. So at least now we have something in common aside from citizenship.

The dinner made me forgot what happened. But I was awfully quiet until the Leche Flan.


This other half could be shared you know. :(

**Thank you for being there. :D I missed you.