2007 has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride. nakakatawang isipin na kailangan pa ba talaga natin ng bagong taon bago tayo magbago? kasi ako ganun e. for the shallowest reason.
to keep track kung ilang araw o buwan na ako ganito o ganyan. depende sa kung anong binago ko.
its a tradition for tricia and i to meet every new years eve. evaluating the year comparing to last years. kaht siguro fucked up ang lovelife ko ngayong taon, isa pa rin to sa nagbigay sa akin ng realizations, responsibilities, and consideration. last year was a mess. parang yung nakatago lang ako sa dilim tapos nangangapa. realizing na my eyes were just closed. at ngayong taon lang ako nakadilat.
this year, marami rin akong naestablish na relasyon. sa kaibigan at sa pamilya. sa mga kaibigan, they come and go as everyone says, pero i found the people na alam kong kahit tumanda ako at ilang kalendaryo ang punitin, alam kong mahal ko sila at mahal nila ako.
ngayong taon ko lang din mas napagaralan, na lahat ng bagay, interaction, communication... ay 2-way. natuto akong makinig ngayon, maging manhid, magpalampas ng bagay, magsalita at lumaban. mas nakilala ko ang sarili ko.
at simula ng alas-dose, pagtuntong ng bagong taon, marami akong gagawin. marami akong matutulungan. at marami ang sasaya. hindi ko pa kayang mag-isa gawin pero nakahanda na kami para simulan ang babago sa pananaw ng ibang tao. hindi man lahat ang mapagbago namin ng isip, it will be a good start.
pero masarap magumpisa sa sarili. kaya nga tayong lahat sa tuwing may bagong araw na paparating, lahat tayo nagsasaya, may nararamdamang hindi mapaliwanag. dahil alam natin, na bagong umpisa to para sa halos lahat.
hiling ko lang sa bagong taon, na sana, matuto tayong magmahal at rumespeto. that individually, we somehow practice love and respect everyday. towards other people. there will be chances na hindi tayo tama sa mga desisyon, pero the next day, we get to ponder, and we could have a choice to fix it all up. wag na tayong maghintay pa ng susunod pang mga bagong taon. nasa atin lang naman ang pwedeng ibago ng mundo.
ng mundo natin. at ng mundo nila.
its a ripple effect. what we do today, will just come back to us tomorrow. irregardless of what.
na sana... next year, maging masaya ang lahat ng tao.
happy new year people. may we love each other more.
12.31.2007
The biggest bisyo aside from smoking.
do you know that certain feeling when you buy a shirt that has a 4-digit tag on it? that certain feeling like... you know you should regret it but its the absolute opposite?
its like you know that chocolate will make you fat and youre on a strict diet but you eat it anyway?
thats what happens when i go to Zara and Topman :(
im not really a person who loves branded clothing or a fan of signatures but if this country is really good with imitations... why cant they just make a ripoff of zara or topman's cut kahit plain lang or striped ang print?
and one thing i LOVE about those brands is the simplicity.
im a fan of striped shirts. weirdly, there are a lot of local brands with really good stripes pero ang print.. or worse... yung burda... its like youre a walking billboard ad.
ask ivan about shirt with BIG decals. and after asking... takbo na kayo. AGAD.
and one thing, some calvin klein apparels are made here in our country. since we are good with plagiarism and piracy, why not apply it to clothes?
and i wanna make it clear. basta maganda ang tela, simple, maganda ang cut sa shoulders, sa sleeves, at walang MALAKING BRAND LOGO.. tapos ang usapan.
its like you know that chocolate will make you fat and youre on a strict diet but you eat it anyway?
thats what happens when i go to Zara and Topman :(
im not really a person who loves branded clothing or a fan of signatures but if this country is really good with imitations... why cant they just make a ripoff of zara or topman's cut kahit plain lang or striped ang print?
and one thing i LOVE about those brands is the simplicity.
im a fan of striped shirts. weirdly, there are a lot of local brands with really good stripes pero ang print.. or worse... yung burda... its like youre a walking billboard ad.
ask ivan about shirt with BIG decals. and after asking... takbo na kayo. AGAD.
and one thing, some calvin klein apparels are made here in our country. since we are good with plagiarism and piracy, why not apply it to clothes?
and i wanna make it clear. basta maganda ang tela, simple, maganda ang cut sa shoulders, sa sleeves, at walang MALAKING BRAND LOGO.. tapos ang usapan.
12.30.2007
Yearend binge.
"Anong yearender meal?? LIFE ENDER KAYA TO!"
Since naisip ko talagang magpaka-"healthy" (ulul xavier. *duro self*) for next year, naisip kong magpabili ng liempo pero to my surprise, hindi lang yun ang binili for dinner. pero pagkatingin ko pa lang, na-high blood nako. sana uminom na lang ako ng mantika kung ganito na lang din pala ang usapan.
1. Andoks Liempo. (ano yung nasa plastik? di ko maintindihan. hindi ko naman nakita sa lamesa yan kanina. multong puto? ooooooohh.)
2. Chicharon.
3. Pares.
4. Camto (ewan yan daw yun pero putek. ayokong kainin feeling ko babagsak ako.)
ano to suicide?
Since naisip ko talagang magpaka-"healthy" (ulul xavier. *duro self*) for next year, naisip kong magpabili ng liempo pero to my surprise, hindi lang yun ang binili for dinner. pero pagkatingin ko pa lang, na-high blood nako. sana uminom na lang ako ng mantika kung ganito na lang din pala ang usapan.
1. Andoks Liempo. (ano yung nasa plastik? di ko maintindihan. hindi ko naman nakita sa lamesa yan kanina. multong puto? ooooooohh.)
2. Chicharon.
3. Pares.
4. Camto (ewan yan daw yun pero putek. ayokong kainin feeling ko babagsak ako.)
ano to suicide?
New Year's Resolution.
Happy new year everyone!!! May we lessen the baggages to move forward conveniently for the coming days. *group hug*
12.27.2007
Isang huling papansin na lang...
As this year waves goodbye, it just figures that i should bid goodbye to you as well. It was crazy.
di ako papansin pero ewan ba. pakiramdam ko kailangan kong magexert ng masyadong effort at enerhiya sayo. nakakapagod. di ako galit. di rin ako bitter. ayaw mo nito di ako unfair, kahit paano may idea ka sa mangyayari. the favor of giving you closure. so you should thank me instead.
i just do not want people like you in my life. i could play your game you know. at mamamatay akong panalo. yan ang tinatawag na snob appeal. pero sana bumagay sayo.
you are too preoccupied with whats bothering you. do you know whats bothering you? its you being too preoccupied. youre in a sick cycle of finding yourself in a haystack. youre the needle by the way, so goodluck with that.
you belong to this year. and since its going... you, my dear...
... are so gone.
P.S. im so sorry. im just too fed up.
di ako papansin pero ewan ba. pakiramdam ko kailangan kong magexert ng masyadong effort at enerhiya sayo. nakakapagod. di ako galit. di rin ako bitter. ayaw mo nito di ako unfair, kahit paano may idea ka sa mangyayari. the favor of giving you closure. so you should thank me instead.
i just do not want people like you in my life. i could play your game you know. at mamamatay akong panalo. yan ang tinatawag na snob appeal. pero sana bumagay sayo.
you are too preoccupied with whats bothering you. do you know whats bothering you? its you being too preoccupied. youre in a sick cycle of finding yourself in a haystack. youre the needle by the way, so goodluck with that.
you belong to this year. and since its going... you, my dear...
... are so gone.
P.S. im so sorry. im just too fed up.
Post-Christmas Post
ok fine. merry christmas.
i woke up at round 4pm of december 25. so i think my christmas gifts for my inaanaks are a bit late. its so weird that all the kids wake up as early as 6am on a christmas day. i mean... hindi ba dapat ang event eh kahit after lunch?
tumugtog lang kami from 6pm-9pm tapos uminom ng sandali. mga 2 hours. pero tinamaan ako putsa. hindi ko maalala ininom namin. malamang fundador at alfonso. wala man lang kurant at strong ice. pffft.
ryan always gives the BEST GIFT ever. tangina lang. and he said it was lame. pffft. nung birthday ko it was a topman scarf (na sobrang gusto ko yung kulay) then he gave me AN ORIGINAL DVD OF RENT. plus a silver letter C pendant. what is that. its too much ryan. too much. hay.
so i woke up at around 12pm of the 26th and guess what... ive been throwing up and my tummy has been grumbling all day. i dont know if im food poisoned or its because of the drinks from christmas night.
i went to rob place, bought a wall clock, and called ryan up to complete the stickers for his starbucks card. we ate at chef d angelos na naisuka ko rin pagdating sa starbucks.
so i had some christmas vomit after pasta paella and shrimp spinach pasta. putek, sayang.
and since i got drunk, i guess i brushed off someone in my life. *sigh*
merry christmas everyone. i hope you got my point.
demmit... im getting old.
i woke up at round 4pm of december 25. so i think my christmas gifts for my inaanaks are a bit late. its so weird that all the kids wake up as early as 6am on a christmas day. i mean... hindi ba dapat ang event eh kahit after lunch?
tumugtog lang kami from 6pm-9pm tapos uminom ng sandali. mga 2 hours. pero tinamaan ako putsa. hindi ko maalala ininom namin. malamang fundador at alfonso. wala man lang kurant at strong ice. pffft.
ryan always gives the BEST GIFT ever. tangina lang. and he said it was lame. pffft. nung birthday ko it was a topman scarf (na sobrang gusto ko yung kulay) then he gave me AN ORIGINAL DVD OF RENT. plus a silver letter C pendant. what is that. its too much ryan. too much. hay.
so i woke up at around 12pm of the 26th and guess what... ive been throwing up and my tummy has been grumbling all day. i dont know if im food poisoned or its because of the drinks from christmas night.
i went to rob place, bought a wall clock, and called ryan up to complete the stickers for his starbucks card. we ate at chef d angelos na naisuka ko rin pagdating sa starbucks.
so i had some christmas vomit after pasta paella and shrimp spinach pasta. putek, sayang.
and since i got drunk, i guess i brushed off someone in my life. *sigh*
merry christmas everyone. i hope you got my point.
demmit... im getting old.
12.23.2007
My People Of the Year 2007.
I dont know if i should wait for the end of december before i post this, but i wanna take the opportunity now to do my list of the people who had a big part in my life this year.
2006 was the worst year EVER. (and 1998.) guess ill talk about it on my yearender post but today, im going to acknowledge the people who influenced me BIG TIME this year.
JM ISIDRO - you were saving me every once in a while. sa dami ng hassle sa buhay ko, ikaw yung safety net. andami kong napagadaanan pero wow sa pagkasubmissive. kahit topak ako... walang epekto, nandyan ka lang. hindi ko kaya yung ginagawa mo. kasi pag ikaw may topak, manaka nakang murahin kita ng sandamakmak. but you never asked anything in return. as much as i wanted to repay you with all your good deeds, hindi ko matatapatan.
MAMU ETHEL CACHAPERO - for providing us the most enjoyable nights this year. mga experiences na talagang alam naming maikkwento namin sa ibang tao, mga pagkaing hindi ko alam kung saan ilalagay, mga gigs na taob ang lahat ng rockshows, mga projects na nakakapagbayad ng kuryente ko, mga katatawanan, sa music na NAPAKALAKING part ng nagagawa mo (anbd everyone should know it) and thanks so much for being there whenever i needed you. promise talaga mamu, pag nanalo talaga ako sa lotto, bibili tayo ng kotse mo at ng van para sa kiddos. im wishing you all the love in this planet. i sincerely feel you deserve it. *hugs*
ANNA SY - we have been together through our ups and downs. mga insider tsismis, mga sisa moments mo, secrets... sobrang mahal kita anna. as in sobra, lahat ng moments natin pag magkasama, walang dull. its either kumakain tayo, dumadaldal or tumatawa. sa pakikiramay mo nung sobrang lugmok ako, sa pakikinig, sa ym moments... taragis. dumadating nga ang mga araw na wala akong kausap pero pag wala ka sa YM, naweweirdohan ako. lammo yun. basta alam kong online ka, everything will fall into places just in case the day gives a sign that its going to fall apart.
CECIL ENRIQUEZ // LEA PAGSISIHAN - alam ng lahat na duo talaga kayo, kaya when that argument hapopened last year, half of us were broken hearted. sobrang thanks for being che's friend as well. pag kasama natin si che sa gigs, at nandun kayo, sobrang enjoy talaga sha tapos nagkkwento. miss na miss ko kayo lagi. i just hope kahit paano we could hangout like before again. alam nyo naman pareho kung gaano ko kayo kamahal.
ANDREA BOBADILLA - i dont know if i already told you how much i love you. remember the time when you let me drive your car? yung kasama natin si anna? grabe its one of the funniest moments na pag naaalala ko sa jeep or sa cab, natatawa talaga ako. dea, thanks for trusting me with a lot of things. weird na kahit 2 years ago lang tayo nagkakilala, parang antagal na. i will always remember the laughs, the shortcomings, the heartbreaks weve talked about and for random things. luv u dea. *hugs*
WALTER SY - wawaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. sa yo ako sobrang comfortable. i trust you with all my heart. ngayong taon, ilang beses lang tayo nagkita, pero i felt that we became closer in a lot of ways. i consider you one of my best friends in the gigging industry (oo, may industriya ng ganon). for introducing connie talbot, your amazing camera (hahahahaha) for the laughters, for the memories, for the series' spoilers and lahat lahat na. i heart you wawa. this country needs you. *hugs*
JOAN STA ANA // HANNAH ALCANTARA // HAZEL LAUDE // CELEST FLORES // JAMIE DEL ROSARIO - mga little sisters ko. nung na-meet nyo si gabby, i was the happiest dad alive kasi alam kong she will have big sisters. its just so weird that i feel like your age pag kasama ko kayo. hahahaha. sa mga tawa nyo pag humihirit, grabe buong-buo ang gimik. it may sound weird coz i never get mushy around you, pero nawawala yung mga iniisip ko whenever youre around. pinagsama sama ko kayo sa part na to kasi eto rin sasabihin ko sa lahat. i love you sooooooo much. for being generous, super sweet, thoughtful, lahat lahat na. people should know that youre all witty, smart, and friendly. they thought na may sumthing sa samahan nyo, pero its just the warmth e. nothing negative. good vibes tayong lahat. *group hug*
DON ENRICO PEÑALOSA // SEVEN BARRETTO - goodluck naman sating tatlo. for being sweet, funny and camwhores. hahahaha. its so HOT being with you both. same with all the kiddos, ramdam talaga yung kakulangan pag wala kayo. *hugs*
MONTY MACALINO // GRACIELLE POTENCIANO - kung kapatid ko ang hale, kayo naman ang mga pinsan ko. kahit sobrang bihira na tayo magkita, ramdam ko pa rin na iisang pamilya tayo lalo na when it comes to music. gracie, thanks for being sooooo sweet, i know that youre my gig-dancing partner pero dahil sobrang busy na ng buhay... i want you to know that i always miss you especially when i hear anino and taralets hahahaha. to monty, thank you for being such an inspiration, for being one of the funniest people around, and for the great great talent you have. *hugs*
ELIZA DELA FUENTE - friiiiiiiiiiieeennddd. ive never been so grateful in your existence in my life. kahit super busy ka, you still make time for us. yung bonding nating hindi mapapantayan. mga hosting nating super spontaneous na nagbubulungan pa onstage HAHAHAHAHA. mga food for thoughts, the jokes, the kalandian... wow. as in super mahal din kita and you should better know that. this year was really something. i think yung closeness nating lahat became more soild and thank god youre a part of my life.
CHAMP LUI-PIO - hey bro. i dont even know where to start with you. sa dami ng secrets natin at sa dami ng pwedeng makabasa nito, malamang sa personal na lang natin pag-usapan. pero thanks for staying real, humble, honest, and for being a REALLY REALLY GOOD FRIEND anyone could ever had. di talaga ako magtataka bakit andaming magmamahal sayo. youve never changed from the very first time i met you. and sa lahat lahat, thank you for making me feel important. for being such a considerate person. at hoy mas bata ka sakin kung makasaway ka akala mo kuya kita. oo na matured ka na. :P pero seriously bro, salamat! *doing the champ hug na may tapik tapik pa sa likod*
SHELDON GELLADA - isa ka pa. sobrang salamat for having the weirdest humor (hahahaha) and people should know that youre a person with taste and intellect (nakanangtoots!). you have the greatest family ive ever met. for hanging out randomly, at sa nissins cup na curry na talagang pinagdamot mo pero nalagyan ko na ng mainit na tubig. shel, sobrang proud ako sa inyo for being your friend, and being a part of the hale family, not for any superficial reasons but because of the warmth and sincerity of the group, which is really amazing and unbelieveable. one of my best days are definitely with you. sa mga napagdaanan mo this year, i am thankful that im there to listen, to witness and to learn from you. ^_^
OMNIE SAROCA // VEEJAY ABLES - hay kahit hindi ako nakatambay sa paranaque, sobrang laki ng pasasalamat ko sa inyo sa mga bagay bagay na hindi ko na yata dapat ipost dito. alam nyo pareho kung gaano ko kayo kamahal. *hugs*
YAEL YUZON // AIA DE LEON // TIM CACHO // ZACH LUCERO // EBE DANCEL // ARMI MILLARE // CHRIS PADILLA // IVAN GARCIA // BOBBY PADILLA // JUGS USGUETA // KELVIN YU // CHINO SINGSON // DIEGO MAPA // MAPS ACADEMIA // RAIMUND MARASIGAN // KUYA MIKE DIZON // RIA BAUTISTA // ROLL MARTINEZ - for providing this generation one hell of great music this year. and personally, for still having the warmth whenever we bump into each other. those small talks are always special. i may act cool whenever we talk about random things pero sobrang flattered ako whenever we smile to each other. i always wish for more albums, success and for people to recognize how dedicated you are with your craft. everytime i hear you in my speakers or headphones, it changes my day to something else. knowing that what you create is what my soul feeds on. youre always my inspiration and i know that others feel that as well. i will always look up to you no matter what.
ERIKA HOCSON - one of the bestest friends EVER. we may have little times together, pero maaaaaaan, our times are on extremes. grabe tayo tumawa when were together, pag may problems, we really talk about it. kai, you know how much i love you. the series we talk about, the loves of our lives (hahahaha), the secrets we keep, and MY GOD. FOR GIVING CHARLIE TO ME. i love him sooooo much. for greys anatomy and for those rands about uggs and chims (HAHAHA). i just wish for us to have more time together. more starbucks, more shiverrr, and more mango rhums. i hope next year, were UBER HOT and well be laughing to those losers' faces. until they die and feel sorry for everything theyve done. of course its a given that youre my BFF. so anywhere we may be, you know that you are always in my heart. *hugs hugs*
JIM MASINSIN // EBHOI SUGAY // RAE EDGAR RAMOS // AL JOMAIH LAMBOLOTO // RICHARD LINAO // SID DEL PRADO // KIM DEL PRADO // JEFF ANCOT // DINNO ZAIDE - nagumpisa lang sa isang munting shop, hanggang sa nauwi sa mga tugtugan. usually, the default things are the most ignored. anjan naman kasi lagi e. usual na sa atin yung magkasama, pero di na natin napansin na tayu tayo rin ang nakabuo ng isang pader na laging nasasandalan pag may hassle sa mga shota, sa mga nanglalast-hit na di naman kanila, sa mga parties na nangaagaw ng monster drops, sa hiraman ng mighteer, at sa mga bagay na di na maiintindihan ng mga normal na tao. hahaha. kahit abutin na tayo ng liwanag ng araw, tawa pa rin ng tawa kasama yung RC, zesto, goto, isaw, pugo sa tapat ng shop. at dapat mga tsong, alam nyo kung gaano kayo kaimportante sa akin. kahit alam nyong bad vibes ako, nanjan kayo para dumamay. or kahit kailangan nyo ng umuwi. *kabogs sa dibdib na akala mo tambay ng certeza* hahahahaha.
RYAN EDRICK RAMOS - my other new BFF. i swear to god, i didnt imagine before that well get close as this. sobrang thanks for listening to my rants and you know ill defend you til the end. i really dont like it when nice people are taken advantage of. youre the most kind-hearted and generous person ive ever met. sobrang swerte ang friends mo sayo. one of the best cooks, my book buddy and my co-couch potato. thank you for trusting me with everything rye. it means A LOT to me. *hugs*
REI MADRIAGA // ARIS INGUILLO - oi mga kapatid, bat di pa tayo nagppraktis ng buo? hehehehe. pero kahit on the low down YO tayo... dito lang ako para sabayan kayo. ;)
DIANNE UYANGUREN - short and sweet, we always tell how we love each other so bad, im so sorry for being a bitch to you, pero you should know na bitch ka rin. baka nahawa ka lang sakin hahahahaha. pero seriously, i know i could count on you through my troubled times. thanks for being one of the best people ive known. dont change friend ha. even though i might have some shortcomings, you should know that i love you so much.
IVAN OCAMPO // ABHIE TRILLANA // BURNS PUZON // TRICIA HERMOSURA // RONALD NICOLAS // LESLEE HERMOSURA - hello. may masasabi pa ba ako sa combo nyo? for all the times we shared, its like... CRAZY. the funnest, funniest, hottest, craziest group ever. you know how much i love you of course. kahit lagi tayong late sa mga meet-ups natin, wala pa ring siraan ng good vibes. (isa lang naman ang nanginjan satin at kilala na natin yon) hahahaha. for being there on my lowest of lows. i love you so much and i guess i dont know what to do with my life without you on my side. walang papantay sa wit natin kahit writers pa ng friends or will and grace. love you so much, guys. IVAN, that switchfoot concert was something ive never expected. one of the biggest surprises ive had in my life. our early morning kalechehan is one of the best. as in akala mo mga walang pinroblema ever. thanks for being really thoughtful and sweet. i love you so much friend. ABHIE, you know how much i adore you as my twin. ikaw ang tagaumpisa ng mga conference na yan na kinakayagan ko ng ibang tao para masaksihan nila kung gaano tayo katarantado magusap. sa lahat ng videos at random things na napapagusapan natin tuwing umaga o hapon, i just wanna let you know na kahit di ka ispirito eh ramdam kita everywhere i go. luv u twinnie. TRICIA, ONA and LESLEE, susme, hindi pa natin alam ang meaning ng salitang sarcasm eh napractice na natin, habang naglalaro pa tayo ng 5-10 sa looban. siguro naman hindi ko na iisa isahin ang nangyari sa loob ng lahat ng taon na yon kasi isang hiwalay na post yon. alam nyo na yun. si tricia nga hindi na nagcomment kasi taun taon na lang e. hahahaha
sa inyong lahat, uulitin ko, mahal na mahal ko kayo. this year wouldnt be a year of reality for me if it werent for you. *hugs*
2006 was the worst year EVER. (and 1998.) guess ill talk about it on my yearender post but today, im going to acknowledge the people who influenced me BIG TIME this year.
JM ISIDRO - you were saving me every once in a while. sa dami ng hassle sa buhay ko, ikaw yung safety net. andami kong napagadaanan pero wow sa pagkasubmissive. kahit topak ako... walang epekto, nandyan ka lang. hindi ko kaya yung ginagawa mo. kasi pag ikaw may topak, manaka nakang murahin kita ng sandamakmak. but you never asked anything in return. as much as i wanted to repay you with all your good deeds, hindi ko matatapatan.
MAMU ETHEL CACHAPERO - for providing us the most enjoyable nights this year. mga experiences na talagang alam naming maikkwento namin sa ibang tao, mga pagkaing hindi ko alam kung saan ilalagay, mga gigs na taob ang lahat ng rockshows, mga projects na nakakapagbayad ng kuryente ko, mga katatawanan, sa music na NAPAKALAKING part ng nagagawa mo (anbd everyone should know it) and thanks so much for being there whenever i needed you. promise talaga mamu, pag nanalo talaga ako sa lotto, bibili tayo ng kotse mo at ng van para sa kiddos. im wishing you all the love in this planet. i sincerely feel you deserve it. *hugs*
ANNA SY - we have been together through our ups and downs. mga insider tsismis, mga sisa moments mo, secrets... sobrang mahal kita anna. as in sobra, lahat ng moments natin pag magkasama, walang dull. its either kumakain tayo, dumadaldal or tumatawa. sa pakikiramay mo nung sobrang lugmok ako, sa pakikinig, sa ym moments... taragis. dumadating nga ang mga araw na wala akong kausap pero pag wala ka sa YM, naweweirdohan ako. lammo yun. basta alam kong online ka, everything will fall into places just in case the day gives a sign that its going to fall apart.
CECIL ENRIQUEZ // LEA PAGSISIHAN - alam ng lahat na duo talaga kayo, kaya when that argument hapopened last year, half of us were broken hearted. sobrang thanks for being che's friend as well. pag kasama natin si che sa gigs, at nandun kayo, sobrang enjoy talaga sha tapos nagkkwento. miss na miss ko kayo lagi. i just hope kahit paano we could hangout like before again. alam nyo naman pareho kung gaano ko kayo kamahal.
ANDREA BOBADILLA - i dont know if i already told you how much i love you. remember the time when you let me drive your car? yung kasama natin si anna? grabe its one of the funniest moments na pag naaalala ko sa jeep or sa cab, natatawa talaga ako. dea, thanks for trusting me with a lot of things. weird na kahit 2 years ago lang tayo nagkakilala, parang antagal na. i will always remember the laughs, the shortcomings, the heartbreaks weve talked about and for random things. luv u dea. *hugs*
WALTER SY - wawaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. sa yo ako sobrang comfortable. i trust you with all my heart. ngayong taon, ilang beses lang tayo nagkita, pero i felt that we became closer in a lot of ways. i consider you one of my best friends in the gigging industry (oo, may industriya ng ganon). for introducing connie talbot, your amazing camera (hahahahaha) for the laughters, for the memories, for the series' spoilers and lahat lahat na. i heart you wawa. this country needs you. *hugs*
JOAN STA ANA // HANNAH ALCANTARA // HAZEL LAUDE // CELEST FLORES // JAMIE DEL ROSARIO - mga little sisters ko. nung na-meet nyo si gabby, i was the happiest dad alive kasi alam kong she will have big sisters. its just so weird that i feel like your age pag kasama ko kayo. hahahaha. sa mga tawa nyo pag humihirit, grabe buong-buo ang gimik. it may sound weird coz i never get mushy around you, pero nawawala yung mga iniisip ko whenever youre around. pinagsama sama ko kayo sa part na to kasi eto rin sasabihin ko sa lahat. i love you sooooooo much. for being generous, super sweet, thoughtful, lahat lahat na. people should know that youre all witty, smart, and friendly. they thought na may sumthing sa samahan nyo, pero its just the warmth e. nothing negative. good vibes tayong lahat. *group hug*
DON ENRICO PEÑALOSA // SEVEN BARRETTO - goodluck naman sating tatlo. for being sweet, funny and camwhores. hahahaha. its so HOT being with you both. same with all the kiddos, ramdam talaga yung kakulangan pag wala kayo. *hugs*
MONTY MACALINO // GRACIELLE POTENCIANO - kung kapatid ko ang hale, kayo naman ang mga pinsan ko. kahit sobrang bihira na tayo magkita, ramdam ko pa rin na iisang pamilya tayo lalo na when it comes to music. gracie, thanks for being sooooo sweet, i know that youre my gig-dancing partner pero dahil sobrang busy na ng buhay... i want you to know that i always miss you especially when i hear anino and taralets hahahaha. to monty, thank you for being such an inspiration, for being one of the funniest people around, and for the great great talent you have. *hugs*
ELIZA DELA FUENTE - friiiiiiiiiiieeennddd. ive never been so grateful in your existence in my life. kahit super busy ka, you still make time for us. yung bonding nating hindi mapapantayan. mga hosting nating super spontaneous na nagbubulungan pa onstage HAHAHAHAHA. mga food for thoughts, the jokes, the kalandian... wow. as in super mahal din kita and you should better know that. this year was really something. i think yung closeness nating lahat became more soild and thank god youre a part of my life.
CHAMP LUI-PIO - hey bro. i dont even know where to start with you. sa dami ng secrets natin at sa dami ng pwedeng makabasa nito, malamang sa personal na lang natin pag-usapan. pero thanks for staying real, humble, honest, and for being a REALLY REALLY GOOD FRIEND anyone could ever had. di talaga ako magtataka bakit andaming magmamahal sayo. youve never changed from the very first time i met you. and sa lahat lahat, thank you for making me feel important. for being such a considerate person. at hoy mas bata ka sakin kung makasaway ka akala mo kuya kita. oo na matured ka na. :P pero seriously bro, salamat! *doing the champ hug na may tapik tapik pa sa likod*
SHELDON GELLADA - isa ka pa. sobrang salamat for having the weirdest humor (hahahaha) and people should know that youre a person with taste and intellect (nakanangtoots!). you have the greatest family ive ever met. for hanging out randomly, at sa nissins cup na curry na talagang pinagdamot mo pero nalagyan ko na ng mainit na tubig. shel, sobrang proud ako sa inyo for being your friend, and being a part of the hale family, not for any superficial reasons but because of the warmth and sincerity of the group, which is really amazing and unbelieveable. one of my best days are definitely with you. sa mga napagdaanan mo this year, i am thankful that im there to listen, to witness and to learn from you. ^_^
OMNIE SAROCA // VEEJAY ABLES - hay kahit hindi ako nakatambay sa paranaque, sobrang laki ng pasasalamat ko sa inyo sa mga bagay bagay na hindi ko na yata dapat ipost dito. alam nyo pareho kung gaano ko kayo kamahal. *hugs*
YAEL YUZON // AIA DE LEON // TIM CACHO // ZACH LUCERO // EBE DANCEL // ARMI MILLARE // CHRIS PADILLA // IVAN GARCIA // BOBBY PADILLA // JUGS USGUETA // KELVIN YU // CHINO SINGSON // DIEGO MAPA // MAPS ACADEMIA // RAIMUND MARASIGAN // KUYA MIKE DIZON // RIA BAUTISTA // ROLL MARTINEZ - for providing this generation one hell of great music this year. and personally, for still having the warmth whenever we bump into each other. those small talks are always special. i may act cool whenever we talk about random things pero sobrang flattered ako whenever we smile to each other. i always wish for more albums, success and for people to recognize how dedicated you are with your craft. everytime i hear you in my speakers or headphones, it changes my day to something else. knowing that what you create is what my soul feeds on. youre always my inspiration and i know that others feel that as well. i will always look up to you no matter what.
ERIKA HOCSON - one of the bestest friends EVER. we may have little times together, pero maaaaaaan, our times are on extremes. grabe tayo tumawa when were together, pag may problems, we really talk about it. kai, you know how much i love you. the series we talk about, the loves of our lives (hahahaha), the secrets we keep, and MY GOD. FOR GIVING CHARLIE TO ME. i love him sooooo much. for greys anatomy and for those rands about uggs and chims (HAHAHA). i just wish for us to have more time together. more starbucks, more shiverrr, and more mango rhums. i hope next year, were UBER HOT and well be laughing to those losers' faces. until they die and feel sorry for everything theyve done. of course its a given that youre my BFF. so anywhere we may be, you know that you are always in my heart. *hugs hugs*
JIM MASINSIN // EBHOI SUGAY // RAE EDGAR RAMOS // AL JOMAIH LAMBOLOTO // RICHARD LINAO // SID DEL PRADO // KIM DEL PRADO // JEFF ANCOT // DINNO ZAIDE - nagumpisa lang sa isang munting shop, hanggang sa nauwi sa mga tugtugan. usually, the default things are the most ignored. anjan naman kasi lagi e. usual na sa atin yung magkasama, pero di na natin napansin na tayu tayo rin ang nakabuo ng isang pader na laging nasasandalan pag may hassle sa mga shota, sa mga nanglalast-hit na di naman kanila, sa mga parties na nangaagaw ng monster drops, sa hiraman ng mighteer, at sa mga bagay na di na maiintindihan ng mga normal na tao. hahaha. kahit abutin na tayo ng liwanag ng araw, tawa pa rin ng tawa kasama yung RC, zesto, goto, isaw, pugo sa tapat ng shop. at dapat mga tsong, alam nyo kung gaano kayo kaimportante sa akin. kahit alam nyong bad vibes ako, nanjan kayo para dumamay. or kahit kailangan nyo ng umuwi. *kabogs sa dibdib na akala mo tambay ng certeza* hahahahaha.
RYAN EDRICK RAMOS - my other new BFF. i swear to god, i didnt imagine before that well get close as this. sobrang thanks for listening to my rants and you know ill defend you til the end. i really dont like it when nice people are taken advantage of. youre the most kind-hearted and generous person ive ever met. sobrang swerte ang friends mo sayo. one of the best cooks, my book buddy and my co-couch potato. thank you for trusting me with everything rye. it means A LOT to me. *hugs*
REI MADRIAGA // ARIS INGUILLO - oi mga kapatid, bat di pa tayo nagppraktis ng buo? hehehehe. pero kahit on the low down YO tayo... dito lang ako para sabayan kayo. ;)
DIANNE UYANGUREN - short and sweet, we always tell how we love each other so bad, im so sorry for being a bitch to you, pero you should know na bitch ka rin. baka nahawa ka lang sakin hahahahaha. pero seriously, i know i could count on you through my troubled times. thanks for being one of the best people ive known. dont change friend ha. even though i might have some shortcomings, you should know that i love you so much.
IVAN OCAMPO // ABHIE TRILLANA // BURNS PUZON // TRICIA HERMOSURA // RONALD NICOLAS // LESLEE HERMOSURA - hello. may masasabi pa ba ako sa combo nyo? for all the times we shared, its like... CRAZY. the funnest, funniest, hottest, craziest group ever. you know how much i love you of course. kahit lagi tayong late sa mga meet-ups natin, wala pa ring siraan ng good vibes. (isa lang naman ang nanginjan satin at kilala na natin yon) hahahaha. for being there on my lowest of lows. i love you so much and i guess i dont know what to do with my life without you on my side. walang papantay sa wit natin kahit writers pa ng friends or will and grace. love you so much, guys. IVAN, that switchfoot concert was something ive never expected. one of the biggest surprises ive had in my life. our early morning kalechehan is one of the best. as in akala mo mga walang pinroblema ever. thanks for being really thoughtful and sweet. i love you so much friend. ABHIE, you know how much i adore you as my twin. ikaw ang tagaumpisa ng mga conference na yan na kinakayagan ko ng ibang tao para masaksihan nila kung gaano tayo katarantado magusap. sa lahat ng videos at random things na napapagusapan natin tuwing umaga o hapon, i just wanna let you know na kahit di ka ispirito eh ramdam kita everywhere i go. luv u twinnie. TRICIA, ONA and LESLEE, susme, hindi pa natin alam ang meaning ng salitang sarcasm eh napractice na natin, habang naglalaro pa tayo ng 5-10 sa looban. siguro naman hindi ko na iisa isahin ang nangyari sa loob ng lahat ng taon na yon kasi isang hiwalay na post yon. alam nyo na yun. si tricia nga hindi na nagcomment kasi taun taon na lang e. hahahaha
sa inyong lahat, uulitin ko, mahal na mahal ko kayo. this year wouldnt be a year of reality for me if it werent for you. *hugs*
12.22.2007
Santa!! Aabot pa ba to sa Pasko?
Pero seriously, i always wish for that simple peace every year. for us, the next generation and the next next. Hope everyone gets what they want this christmas! :D *group hug*
12.20.2007
The Carollers' Grinch
I really dont want to be taken as a snob or anything much worse, but i started to hate those annoying carollers. I really think there should be a minimum number of members and not go as solo artists then fall in line and play the same song over and over. if they have to pay royalties for the Noche Buena Song (Kaysigla ng gabi ang lahat ay kaysaya...), the composer will be richer than Bill Gates.
But come on, Philippines? Royalties? Im just making an exaggerated point.
There used to be those cute charming kids (ehem ehem ehem. i hope you got the point mga kab-batch kong carollers), who had dynamics when singing, their tambourines on beat and when they start to sing, the serenity of the holiday nights calms down your everything. you get to listen, ponder, feel sad if youre manic depressive and pay as low as 1 peso to 5 for each group.
But if you live in an area where kids do not seriously have an idea what theyre doing, all dressed in black with their emo hairs, not wearing slippers, and after giving them three pesos (kahit duo lang sila na sobrang out of tune), you will get embarassed by hearing Thank you, thank you, amBABARAT ninyo thank you, and they start to run, cussing. Its like trick or treating 9 days before christmas. O_o The fact that theyre just shouting like kids with ADHD throwing christmas tantrums or whatever you call it, THEY STILL WANNA GET PAID!
3 days ago, ive gathered all my 25cents and pisos, thinking... may use din pala to pagkatapos ng isang buong taon. and i thought aabot sha ng 24. pero my god, i dont know if they have this station or headquarters where they all meet up and tell everyone, "puntahan nyo to, hindi to nanghihingi ng tawad" (that.. didnt actually sound right.) so for just one night, i guess i ran out of coins. and the others... are not even thankful or happy. what the hell is happening!
even in simbang gabi, hindi nabubuo ang isang misa ng walang riot sa dulo. again, teens dressed in black, with their sticky hairs, short short shorts, and they actually come in PACKS. hence, i dont even go to church anymore. because... i still wanna live until christmas. or after even.
/me chanting im a christmas person, im a christmas person.
But come on, Philippines? Royalties? Im just making an exaggerated point.
There used to be those cute charming kids (ehem ehem ehem. i hope you got the point mga kab-batch kong carollers), who had dynamics when singing, their tambourines on beat and when they start to sing, the serenity of the holiday nights calms down your everything. you get to listen, ponder, feel sad if youre manic depressive and pay as low as 1 peso to 5 for each group.
But if you live in an area where kids do not seriously have an idea what theyre doing, all dressed in black with their emo hairs, not wearing slippers, and after giving them three pesos (kahit duo lang sila na sobrang out of tune), you will get embarassed by hearing Thank you, thank you, amBABARAT ninyo thank you, and they start to run, cussing. Its like trick or treating 9 days before christmas. O_o The fact that theyre just shouting like kids with ADHD throwing christmas tantrums or whatever you call it, THEY STILL WANNA GET PAID!
3 days ago, ive gathered all my 25cents and pisos, thinking... may use din pala to pagkatapos ng isang buong taon. and i thought aabot sha ng 24. pero my god, i dont know if they have this station or headquarters where they all meet up and tell everyone, "puntahan nyo to, hindi to nanghihingi ng tawad" (that.. didnt actually sound right.) so for just one night, i guess i ran out of coins. and the others... are not even thankful or happy. what the hell is happening!
even in simbang gabi, hindi nabubuo ang isang misa ng walang riot sa dulo. again, teens dressed in black, with their sticky hairs, short short shorts, and they actually come in PACKS. hence, i dont even go to church anymore. because... i still wanna live until christmas. or after even.
/me chanting im a christmas person, im a christmas person.
EMI Christmas Party
The traffic is unbelievable. I really havent noticed if all the christmasses had this kind of traffic. Or maybe half of manila's population had a car last year or started doing bus lines or jeeps.
I walked from galleria to Discovery Suites, then went straight to the 22nd floor. The girls are AWESOMELY HOT! :))
Sandwich started the evening, then Sugarfree, Hale then Hilera. You know, every time i watch Hilera, i get to love them more every single gig. They played The Police's De do do do and Message In a Bottle. Tangina sobrang galeng. ewan ba. ang galeng. Hale played two new songs to be released next year pero shempre di ko na ilalagay kung ano yun hahaha.
The food. Shet the food. I dont even want to start with it because until now, everytime i try to breathe, like its coming out of my mouth piece by piece. ANG DAMI KONG NAKAIN.
Thanks sa gift Champ. i love it. :D
To Mamu, Anna, Leeza, Jolly, Ayen, Chris, Bobby, Ivan, Champ, Bianca, Oms, Nikki, Veej, Shel, Lesley, Ate Chu, Angel and Roll na pinagod lang ng traffic for 2 1/2 hours... the night oozed AWESOMENESS because of you. Group Hug!!!! sobrang saya. Dapat nga magEK tayo lahat! n_n woot.
trivia: woot is merriam webster's word of the year for 2007. WOOT! :D
I walked from galleria to Discovery Suites, then went straight to the 22nd floor. The girls are AWESOMELY HOT! :))
Sandwich started the evening, then Sugarfree, Hale then Hilera. You know, every time i watch Hilera, i get to love them more every single gig. They played The Police's De do do do and Message In a Bottle. Tangina sobrang galeng. ewan ba. ang galeng. Hale played two new songs to be released next year pero shempre di ko na ilalagay kung ano yun hahaha.
The food. Shet the food. I dont even want to start with it because until now, everytime i try to breathe, like its coming out of my mouth piece by piece. ANG DAMI KONG NAKAIN.
Thanks sa gift Champ. i love it. :D
To Mamu, Anna, Leeza, Jolly, Ayen, Chris, Bobby, Ivan, Champ, Bianca, Oms, Nikki, Veej, Shel, Lesley, Ate Chu, Angel and Roll na pinagod lang ng traffic for 2 1/2 hours... the night oozed AWESOMENESS because of you. Group Hug!!!! sobrang saya. Dapat nga magEK tayo lahat! n_n woot.
trivia: woot is merriam webster's word of the year for 2007. WOOT! :D
12.13.2007
Steve Aoki.
Im not really a big fan of clubbing. although during the rave phase, i was kinda... a sheep. LOL. no seriously, i somehow love club music. but seeing me inside a club, i doubt it.
Ive only gone to Embassy thrice. Two birthday celebrations, and that MTV event. I was not really into dressing up anymore but just jeans, a shirt and most of the time, with a jacket. Until today.
Abhie and I were planning to go to a Steve Aoki event kasi sobrang dami kong naririnig na ang galing daw. so after our birthday, inisip nga naming umalis ngayon. But last night during our celebration, JP said that we'll be going there anyway. VIP. suh-weet. when he told us na its one of the "after party" celebrations, nagblush yata ako. kaso madilim.
I was hesitant pa to dance coz again, im not really into dancing. i look like a bouncing marshmallow to begin with. pero when aoki started to get on with his macbook, ay putsa. nalimutan ko yata ang mundo. umaapaw sa awesomeness, man. umaapaw.
with abhie, pao, ivan and JP there. plus seeing erika, janna and the gang... oh man. helena, janthina and her friends were there too, (jan, in case youre reading this, thank you for still remembering my birthday. god i heart you). it was really an afterparty. with hundreds of strangers in it. too bad i cant leave my place. i really wanted to dance with erika and janna (i miss the hot hot sandwich) but when i tried to go out, ayaw na akong papasukin. and besides, hindi alam ng mga bouncers kung saan yung entrance dun sa kabilang part. inisip ko sanang tumalon pero, baka ma-hassle pa ako. hindi yon rock show, i pondered.
pero ito lang ang masasabi ko... the first day of my second 26th year... i think my following days will be different after meeting Steve Aoki. tangina.
Ive only gone to Embassy thrice. Two birthday celebrations, and that MTV event. I was not really into dressing up anymore but just jeans, a shirt and most of the time, with a jacket. Until today.
Abhie and I were planning to go to a Steve Aoki event kasi sobrang dami kong naririnig na ang galing daw. so after our birthday, inisip nga naming umalis ngayon. But last night during our celebration, JP said that we'll be going there anyway. VIP. suh-weet. when he told us na its one of the "after party" celebrations, nagblush yata ako. kaso madilim.
I was hesitant pa to dance coz again, im not really into dancing. i look like a bouncing marshmallow to begin with. pero when aoki started to get on with his macbook, ay putsa. nalimutan ko yata ang mundo. umaapaw sa awesomeness, man. umaapaw.
with abhie, pao, ivan and JP there. plus seeing erika, janna and the gang... oh man. helena, janthina and her friends were there too, (jan, in case youre reading this, thank you for still remembering my birthday. god i heart you). it was really an afterparty. with hundreds of strangers in it. too bad i cant leave my place. i really wanted to dance with erika and janna (i miss the hot hot sandwich) but when i tried to go out, ayaw na akong papasukin. and besides, hindi alam ng mga bouncers kung saan yung entrance dun sa kabilang part. inisip ko sanang tumalon pero, baka ma-hassle pa ako. hindi yon rock show, i pondered.
pero ito lang ang masasabi ko... the first day of my second 26th year... i think my following days will be different after meeting Steve Aoki. tangina.
12.12.2007
Isang Taus-Pusong Pasasalamat Mula Sa Isang Tumandang Nilalang
Una sa lahat, gusto kong pasalamatan ang mga nakilala ko at higit ko pang nakilala ngayong taon. Some people might think that the randomness of destiny is just a little thing. naniniwala akong we all have a reason why weve met.
The past year was something for me. sabi nga sakin, masasala ko kung sino at ano ang totoo. guess ive had that taste of reality, sabihin man nating hindi maganda yung lasa, pero pakiramdam ko, dun ako gagaling.
Sa mga lahat ng kaibigan kong nagtitiwala, nakikipagtawanan, hindi humuhusga, maraming natututunan sa isat-isa, gusto kong malaman nyo na sa araw araw na ginawa ng diyos, lagi akong nagpapasalamat.
Hindi ko kayo iisa-isahin. kilala nyo sarili nyo at sana alam nyo kung gaano ko kayo kamahal.
sa lahat ng bumati, sa friendster, sa text, sa facebook, at sa kung saan saan pa, salamat. sa susunod samahan nyo na ng regalo. LOL shempre patawa lang yan. baka may magsabi na naman ditong makapal ang mukha ko.
hemmingway, thank you. sobra.. *group hug*
The past year was something for me. sabi nga sakin, masasala ko kung sino at ano ang totoo. guess ive had that taste of reality, sabihin man nating hindi maganda yung lasa, pero pakiramdam ko, dun ako gagaling.
Sa mga lahat ng kaibigan kong nagtitiwala, nakikipagtawanan, hindi humuhusga, maraming natututunan sa isat-isa, gusto kong malaman nyo na sa araw araw na ginawa ng diyos, lagi akong nagpapasalamat.
Hindi ko kayo iisa-isahin. kilala nyo sarili nyo at sana alam nyo kung gaano ko kayo kamahal.
sa lahat ng bumati, sa friendster, sa text, sa facebook, at sa kung saan saan pa, salamat. sa susunod samahan nyo na ng regalo. LOL shempre patawa lang yan. baka may magsabi na naman ditong makapal ang mukha ko.
hemmingway, thank you. sobra.. *group hug*
12.10.2007
Before That Day
After the NuRock Awards, i became busy with all i should be really busy about. It also came to a point where i couldnt even watch the series ive downloaded from last week. At pag tumatanda na talaga ang tao, darating ka talaga sa point na marerealize mo... ay potek bukas na pala birthday ko. Not to mention that you remembered it because your friends reminded you of it.
I was actually thankful with the year that i had. last year, as far as i can recall, is the worst year of life. this year, i somehow enlightened myself with a lot of things, understood more of the truth, and knowing what really important and whats not. im working on being a perfectly responsible person with self-control. siguro mga 2012 pa yon mangyayari. ive met a lot of new and wonderful friends, became acquainted with the "special ones" and had the right amount of love a person needs.
i havent posted kahit nung NURock awards kasi andami ko talagang ginawa. we also stayed in laguna last friday til sunday morning for the event that i worked on. nakakangarag talaga, andaming hassle pero it was almost nothing because of the people im working with.
until i realized na fuck... hindi ko nga naman naplano ng maayos kung anong gagawin ko sa birthday ko. and of course, gusto ko kasing makasama lahat ng mahal kong kaibigan. kung kaya ng pera at kung kaya ng lugar. e di magsaya.
its also the right day for me to thank all of my friends.. na kung wala sila, hindi ko alam kung san ako pupulutin. hindi ko na iisa isahin dahil sa dami ng mga mahal kong kaibigan, hindi majjustify kahit ng amnesia ang makalimutan ko sila. pero i want you to know, na kahit isang oras ko lang kayo nakasama, nakapagusap tayo at may nalaman tayong mga bagay sa isat-isa, kaibigan na ang turing ko sa inyo. tawagin nyo na akong feeling close, pero para sa akin, friendship begins with a small chat. we tend to disregard little nice things, pero para rin sa akin, its really a big deal.
teka inaantok na ako. mamaya ko to itutuloy hahaha.
1104PM
so i went to the office and JM got me a lucky zippo. its green and it has a clover mark. next thing i knew, i got a free drink at starbucks at sabi ng barista swerte ko raw kasi random. heehee. makatay nga ng lotto bukas.
anyway, starting tomorrow, i hope my next year will be much succesful and happier. and i wish for the world to unite. :D
I was actually thankful with the year that i had. last year, as far as i can recall, is the worst year of life. this year, i somehow enlightened myself with a lot of things, understood more of the truth, and knowing what really important and whats not. im working on being a perfectly responsible person with self-control. siguro mga 2012 pa yon mangyayari. ive met a lot of new and wonderful friends, became acquainted with the "special ones" and had the right amount of love a person needs.
i havent posted kahit nung NURock awards kasi andami ko talagang ginawa. we also stayed in laguna last friday til sunday morning for the event that i worked on. nakakangarag talaga, andaming hassle pero it was almost nothing because of the people im working with.
until i realized na fuck... hindi ko nga naman naplano ng maayos kung anong gagawin ko sa birthday ko. and of course, gusto ko kasing makasama lahat ng mahal kong kaibigan. kung kaya ng pera at kung kaya ng lugar. e di magsaya.
its also the right day for me to thank all of my friends.. na kung wala sila, hindi ko alam kung san ako pupulutin. hindi ko na iisa isahin dahil sa dami ng mga mahal kong kaibigan, hindi majjustify kahit ng amnesia ang makalimutan ko sila. pero i want you to know, na kahit isang oras ko lang kayo nakasama, nakapagusap tayo at may nalaman tayong mga bagay sa isat-isa, kaibigan na ang turing ko sa inyo. tawagin nyo na akong feeling close, pero para sa akin, friendship begins with a small chat. we tend to disregard little nice things, pero para rin sa akin, its really a big deal.
teka inaantok na ako. mamaya ko to itutuloy hahaha.
1104PM
so i went to the office and JM got me a lucky zippo. its green and it has a clover mark. next thing i knew, i got a free drink at starbucks at sabi ng barista swerte ko raw kasi random. heehee. makatay nga ng lotto bukas.
anyway, starting tomorrow, i hope my next year will be much succesful and happier. and i wish for the world to unite. :D
12.06.2007
Too Much Information
Does everybody still know how conversations with friends work? have you ever felt youve given too much information that was sensitive to you and never expected a violent reaction? or a judgment? minsan kasi i dont know how it works now.
i just came home so heavy hearted. i dont know feeling ko pagod lang ako, maraming iniisip, kaya kung anu ano rin ang lumalabas sa bibig ko. alam nyo ba yung feeling na may bagay ka nang dapat palang itago kahit paano kasi hindi sa lahat ng oras, nasa iisang linya kayo. i know everybody has their differences pero sometimes, if youre overfamiliar with anyone, nalilimutan na yung boundaries kung hanggang saan lang pwedeng nakakatawa or sobrang nakakasakit.
yung sobrang personal.
siguro id like to somehow defend myself na hindi ako social climber. ive never pretended that im rich. nagkataon lang sigurong may arte ako sa katawan. pero kahit kelan siguro hindi ko inisip na mayaman ako at hindi ako nakikipagkaibigan sa "mahihirap". nagtataka lang ako kung bakit ako macoconnote as a social climber. dahil ba may kakilala akong celebrity? eh hindi ko naman kaibigan ang iba ron. eh kilala ko e. anong magagawa ko magkakilala kami. should i pretend that im sooooo down to earth na dapat hindi ako nagkkwento about them? akala ko masaya pag may insider tsismis? hindi pala.
at kahit hindi ako graduate, i know that i could stand for myself. kaya kong mabuhay without using anyone. mabuti sana kung namumulot ako ng pera. or nanghihingi. eh hindi e. marunong ako dumiskarte. nagkataong marami akong alam. bakit parang dapat maramdaman kong wala akong pinag-aralan? i dont even think im incompetent. i dont even pretend that im smart. coz i really know what i do. so i dont think pointing it out is as personal and hurting as my jokes.
may tinapakan ba ako sa mga kaibigan ko? or ibang tao? may ginamit ba ako? kasi kung meron... pakisabi kung sino. at least kahit paano kaya kong ipagtanggol ang sarili ko.
its too much drama saying these things personally. ayoko kasing magkasamaan ng loob. pero sana naman, as much as i dont judge anyone, and since i call some of my friends the best, magkaroon naman tayo ng kahit konting pigil sa sarili natin, before opening our mouth that could offend anyone.
masaklap pa nito, eto yung mga taong hindi ko inano.
i dont know if i should feel apologetic about something. i dont even know if i deserve those things. pero sana, always think na if ever my other friends judge you in a way na hindi ko gusto, one thing i surely know, i will defend you as much as i can.
im so sorry if ever ive said anything na katumbas ng mga nasabi nyo sakin. or higit pa. pero as much as what i could recall, i really dont deserve it.
you know why i blogged it? because my heart couldnt contain it. i wanted to cry. and for the last time ive asked myself, sa ganitong klase ng sitwasyon, to whose shoulders im gonna cry upon?
lesson learned, i think i should change the way i am.
i just came home so heavy hearted. i dont know feeling ko pagod lang ako, maraming iniisip, kaya kung anu ano rin ang lumalabas sa bibig ko. alam nyo ba yung feeling na may bagay ka nang dapat palang itago kahit paano kasi hindi sa lahat ng oras, nasa iisang linya kayo. i know everybody has their differences pero sometimes, if youre overfamiliar with anyone, nalilimutan na yung boundaries kung hanggang saan lang pwedeng nakakatawa or sobrang nakakasakit.
yung sobrang personal.
siguro id like to somehow defend myself na hindi ako social climber. ive never pretended that im rich. nagkataon lang sigurong may arte ako sa katawan. pero kahit kelan siguro hindi ko inisip na mayaman ako at hindi ako nakikipagkaibigan sa "mahihirap". nagtataka lang ako kung bakit ako macoconnote as a social climber. dahil ba may kakilala akong celebrity? eh hindi ko naman kaibigan ang iba ron. eh kilala ko e. anong magagawa ko magkakilala kami. should i pretend that im sooooo down to earth na dapat hindi ako nagkkwento about them? akala ko masaya pag may insider tsismis? hindi pala.
at kahit hindi ako graduate, i know that i could stand for myself. kaya kong mabuhay without using anyone. mabuti sana kung namumulot ako ng pera. or nanghihingi. eh hindi e. marunong ako dumiskarte. nagkataong marami akong alam. bakit parang dapat maramdaman kong wala akong pinag-aralan? i dont even think im incompetent. i dont even pretend that im smart. coz i really know what i do. so i dont think pointing it out is as personal and hurting as my jokes.
may tinapakan ba ako sa mga kaibigan ko? or ibang tao? may ginamit ba ako? kasi kung meron... pakisabi kung sino. at least kahit paano kaya kong ipagtanggol ang sarili ko.
its too much drama saying these things personally. ayoko kasing magkasamaan ng loob. pero sana naman, as much as i dont judge anyone, and since i call some of my friends the best, magkaroon naman tayo ng kahit konting pigil sa sarili natin, before opening our mouth that could offend anyone.
masaklap pa nito, eto yung mga taong hindi ko inano.
i dont know if i should feel apologetic about something. i dont even know if i deserve those things. pero sana, always think na if ever my other friends judge you in a way na hindi ko gusto, one thing i surely know, i will defend you as much as i can.
im so sorry if ever ive said anything na katumbas ng mga nasabi nyo sakin. or higit pa. pero as much as what i could recall, i really dont deserve it.
you know why i blogged it? because my heart couldnt contain it. i wanted to cry. and for the last time ive asked myself, sa ganitong klase ng sitwasyon, to whose shoulders im gonna cry upon?
lesson learned, i think i should change the way i am.
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