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How can someone not fall in love with a simple detail as leaving you a note to not forget to take your vitamins. :)

Sense of Purpose.

I have finally felt that I am in a different state of life today. I woke up like a normal person going to the office without any qualms bothering my thoughts. My only concern was the scorching sun. Nothing else.

I am settled. Contented.

I am getting married on September. :D I think none of my friends know it yet, except for two of my bestfriends but of course they don't believe it until it's there. I know what they think about it but I am honestly avoiding that conversation since I am unstoppable.

I don't know if I'm acting idiotic. But I've thought about this well, and I trust my sense of judgment that I'm doing the right move. I'm doing it not just because it's the right thing. I'm doing it because I want it, I am 75% sure that I need it, and it makes me feel complete.

I am also doing it for Gabby. She deserves a happy family that will surpass all issues anyone can have. I also want to wake up in the morning seeing her sleepy face, wanting to go back in bed while I talk to her about how important breakfast is. I also want Che to feel that she is never alone. Seeing her forever sleepy eyes, and her sweetest smile every single day of my life while her head leans on my shoulder.

And I am ready to sleep early, wake up, jog, drink coffee, take a bath, go to the office on weekdays, try to figure out what to cook on weekends, and do the same routine for the rest of my life as long as I'm with them. :)

Thank you babe. I love you.

New Life Lesson Learned.

Do not be impulsive on concluding. Personally I noticed that I would rather believe something really hurtful than believing the person saying its a lie.

But as days pass by, you will end up believing in love. :) It will bring out the worst and best in you. That's why we really have to take time to think and stop ourselves to judge right away.

Love is just a tool. Its too powerful to drive you nuts, make you irrational and cloud your sense of reason. It's up to you what to amp up.

Weekend.

The fact that I was too sick last Friday made my weekend a little bit interesting.

After that Chicken-all-you-want at Max's, I decided to not eat chicken for the rest of the week. I only had two pieces by the way. The third one was a struggle and I just threw it up. I didn't eat rice with it. It's just that the smell of the whole restaurant, seeing chicken bones pile up in every table, made me a little squeamish. Seriously. I was a little bit frustrated with myself since I was actually excited to eat a whole chicken.

Saturday morning and my body gave up. I was feverish and I kept on sneezing. I must've caught flu. (No its not bird flu. I was actually feeling ill since Thursday.) Che and I planned to have me checked up at Manila Med and then thought of bringing Gabby with us since its near the mall and Gab wants to pickup Polly Pocket for herself. Which turned out to be a semi shopping spree for her coz she also got a jacket from oshkosh and some random things at clipper. I also didnt have time for the checkup LOL. We literally forgot the purpose why we all went out. We also wasted money at Tom's World and Timezone. We didn't get anything. It's odd that I think getting a 15-peso stress ball makes it okay wasting 300 bucks. Or 300 1-peso coins on slots to just get tickets. Tickets you could exchange for a prize that is actually cheaper when you buy it on stores. Then ate a lot.

This looks gross as how awesome these taste. Hahahahaha

On a different note, Tricia texted me about a new Yoghurt stand at Robinsons Place, called Fruitty uh... Flavors... or Yoghurt... i forgot. They just blend the yoghurt and the fruit instead of the normal FroYo that we get. Havent tried it yet. The fruits looked good though.

Then just stayed at home yesterday, watched Harry Potter and the sorcerer's stone with Gab, Che and Ehboi as I dwelled and swam on nostalgia with my HP playing cards while I explain to them everything that we see in the movie.

My flu got terrible and my fever spiked up. I was just too lucky I am being taken care of the hottest people on earth hahahaha. i hoped that it would subside but it got worse as the day ends. Now I am staying at home and will be going to Manila Med later after my nap. I just had 4 hours of sleep, coughing with my nose clogged. Uggghhhh. I feel emotionally GREAT though. Seriously. I am a happy sick buhrr.

Inception (2010)

Im not sure if I should regret this not watching in 3D. Chris Nolan made me search for his name at imdb for a list of his movies.

This movie could be a close comparison to "The Matrix" since this one is more about dreams but of course there's a more interesting plot than that. I love Ellen Page. Did Joseph Gordon-Levitt modulated his voice here? It sounded kinda odd, not bad odd.

One of the factors this movie became really interesting is how Nolan depicted an individual's sense of reality. Dreams are a sitting duck for mysteries since everybody has it, (even animals for that matter), that it makes us connect ourselves with what has been going on. It is when we master our consciousness inside a dream and get to control ourselves in it, which makes us relate to all the characters in the movie. We could be the architect, the one who cant let go of memories or the one with an undying guilt.

Scenes were also directed great especially on how the second layer of the dream was made (the one inside the hotel) where the dream is affected by the reality on the first layer, like when you can hear the music in your dream while that music plays in reality where youre fast asleep. The fight scene without the gravity was flawless. You will try to figure out if Joseph was on harness or hes really floating around.

And sure, an idea is like a virus. :)

I left my manners at home.

Went to Rob Place to grab a casing for my phone and thought of passing by to powerbooks and grab some FroYo*. Their Blueberries tasted like raw tamarind so I decided to have butterscotch, cherries and mango for it. While looking around, theres this guy in gray who looked at me twice, and I thought for 5 seconds that I might've known him. When I looked at him again, he smiled and usually when I'm weirded out, i tend to always have this smirk. Then he walked to the other side of the mall and i continued browsing.

We all have this dilemma that mallrats are not usually that friendly, so our usual judgment is... that he could be a "person-for-rent". He doesnt look like it though. He has the biggest smile like a kid to a christmas present. I was texting while walking on the fourth floor and I saw him again at the 3rd floor escalator, looking at me, then he waved. So then I smiled. Thinking... wow. He IS friendly (again, dilemma). I saw him walk out of the mall, went to the left side, and so I went to the right side, going to Ministop but theres this car passing by so I turned around and surprised that he was behind me. WHO IN THE WORLD WOULDN'T FREAK OUT ON THAT? He smiled and gestured, "wait". Then he pulled out a credit card receipt and a pen then wrote... "Sorry I'm deaf. Can i Just at least get your name?"

I hand-signaled, No. (Two hands, waving.) But he insisted on handing me the piece of paper and the receipt. I wrote... "Sorry", then paused for seconds just to write anything else but I was frantic. He hand-signed "name" like a nameplate to his chest then pointed at me, so I wrote my name on the paper. Handed it back to him then i made a two thumbs up.

Two fucking thumbs up. Like "Ayos? Ok na?" Then I walked away and went to Ministop after he just stood there with an awkward smile like... I dunno. It broke my heart when I was in the cab thinking about it.

Then yeah, I rode a cab and the thought made me realize... I didnt even ask for his name. :( I saw him eating alone at Jollibee and I ignored that fact. Maybe because he's deaf, he just wanted someone to spend the afternoon with someone. He looked decent and it felt like he doesnt have ANY intentions. Just to meet people.

The world made me doubt everyone. Personally, what I did was rude, and I don't know how to take it back. Stu. Pid.

Then I met my friends at Rockwell, went to Fully Booked then decided to grab some dinner at ToHo BF Homes. It's a chinese restaurant that started as a Panciteria outside the Intramuros walls at 1888. Dude, thats more than a hundred years. How can you not trust a restaurant that cooked more than a century? Everything tasted great. Without exaggeration. From Seafood Canton, Chicken, to Fried Spare Ribs. It is like hell for a person trying to lose weight. But its REALLY worth it. It also claims that Rizal and Del Pilar hangs out at the Intramuros branch during those era. So at least now we have something in common aside from citizenship.

The dinner made me forgot what happened. But I was awfully quiet until the Leche Flan.


This other half could be shared you know. :(

**Thank you for being there. :D I missed you.

Fun On The Set of Harry Potter

Ill miss Harry Potter. <3

Hipstur say whuuuuttt

hahahahahahahaha omg sorry i just enjoy making fun of myself LOLOLOL

That Lane You Do Not Want To Get Through.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyayari sa panahong to. Alam kong wala akong dapat problemahin. Wala akong dapat isipin. Pero minsan pag nababalikan mo kung ano ka dati, gusto mong tumigil don. Gusto mong walang nagbago.

Hindi ko maintindihan kung ano yung klaseng lungkot na nararamdaman ko. Pag nakakasama mo yung mga dati mong kasama sa buhay, pag nakikita mo yung mukhang sa loob ng ilang taon mo nakasama at hindi mo na gaanong nakakausap, mag-iisip ka kung anong nangyari. Kaya kahit boses man lang, o text, gusto mong maramdaman na andun pa rin kayo sa isat isa. Na kunektado kayo.

Hindi ko rin naman mapigilan na magtanong kung sino ang mas matimbang sa bagong kinakasama. Kahit alam ko namang hindi masasagot ng diretso yon, pilit kong tinatanong. Dati kasi alam kong malaki ang mundo ko. Marami akong matatakbuhan. Marami akong makakausap. Ngayon, alam kong kahit pwede ko pa ring gawin yon, ramdam mo na hindi na talaga pwedeng maging gaya ng dati.

Dati may mga taong hindi kayang mabuhay ng wala ako. Exag. Pero pag nabitawan naman kasi yung mga salitang yon, dati, iisipin mong habangbuhay ganon. Pero alam nyo, hindi talaga. Nagbabago talaga lahat. Nawawala isa isa.

May mga alaala talagang sobrang ganda at sobrang saya. Pero sa tuwing sasagi yong mga yon sa isip ko, bakit ako nalulungkot? Naisip ko, hindi talaga pwedeng ganun habangbuhay. Magbabago at magbabago talaga ang mundo. Mapapalitan ang lahat ng mukhang araw araw mo kasama. Pati sarili mo, hindi mo mamamalayang napalitan na rin.

Wala lang. Minsan, hindi mo maintindihan kung ano na ang pakiramdam ng dating pamilyar.

Monday.

Oh yeah. It's Monday once again. *sigh*

I used to hate Mondays. Now, I don't know what i feel about it. Yes, that's a Jughead comic book. :D



I was with Gabby the whole day yesterday, working on her "How to Save the Earth" Slogan. Did her assignment and i didn't know 3rd graders have Sociology. Yes. Sociology. Like whut.

Coco's Rockwell

We're here right now at Howzat watching the NED-BRA match. We just came from Coco's, a grill resto next door with a douche manager.

We went to Coco's first and ordered food for our dinner there. Suffice to say that we ordered food for the whole resto. No kidding. There's five of us, and we had three family packages and two large pizzas. Well, getting ready for the match basically.
They had a screen installed at the front but their house music was too loud. So we reasonably requested to have it turned down since everybody is watching the game.

Our waiter said that everyone is really requesting for them to turn off their music but as Benj talk to the manager, Arvin Pineda (as what the guard said), he bluntly said..

"Blah blah blah... Hindi kami sports bar, hindi namin kayo pinilit pumunta dito, e di umails na lang kayo."

What the fuck is that??? Is that how you answer to a customer's request? BS.

So we transferred here at Howzat, enjoying our beer without the Black Eyed Peas singing in the background. That ass of a manager should get fuckin fired.

Btw, their food sucks too.

Bagnets and Department Stores.

Had another visit at 8065 Bagnet in Estrella Street Makati. Had Spicy Ginataang Bagnet (but I promise you I ate only a few slices. I can't stand Fried Pork not like before. Im old T_T)

Then afterwards we went to SM Makati and I wondered why am I trying to settle with my rubber shoes. It's times to grab a loafer and just for less than a thousand, I saw two pairs, same style different colors. I am definitely going to grab a pair next week. Definitely.





Then on the ground floor, We saw a Twilight-branded make-up. I really didn't come close since I think it's crazy. Well, girls go gaga on Twilight but what make-up do they sell? Pale? Blood red? Like... what?

I woke up craving for you. (Or should I just blame Vince for this)

I remembered that lunch where I had two rye breads and this. I actually wanted to eat the whole pack without the bread.

Now I am obliged to go to the nearest Grocery and grab this lil cheesy baby.

My God. Pagkain na naman.

Oh.

I haven't smoked for 6 days.

Thinking about that makes me wanna smoke. Damn. Eetz a chrap.

So how do i begin.

I have been thinking of going back here in Blogspot, not really because of the "kids" (no no, im cutting them off some slack since i know they have just survived pre-pubescence, circumcision/menstruation, hormonal imbalances and other gross stuff) but mainly of, i dunno, the traditional way of blogging. Tumblr became too easy hence people there get so bored easily that's why they keep on biting each other's faces off.

And the Twitter-like following. Srsly, it affects the hell out of me whenever someone unfollows. Like WHAT? IM NOT INTERESTING ENOUGH? As if that's a life-changer.

Anyway, Yeah I miss blogspot. feels like 2001 again haha. I reconsidered LJ but the codes there were too complicated. I seriously became a graphic/web designer in an instant, learning codes from blogging. Oh, the joy. Multiply is too dated, and to my surprise, Blogger has this new Template Designer feature. Where you just click on things and voila, prettify.

I mainly don't know what to blog anymore hahaha. Drama is a decade ago, partying died along with my youth, so I guess i have to do the the adult-way of blogging.

Porn.

No, just kidding. Don't get too excited perv. I'd just blog my usual activities and let's see it from there.

And no, porn isnt one of my usual activities. Go away.

Back.

Same old same old. That spot I was blogging on recently is full of kids. *shivers* Not that I hate kids. But most of them are self-righteous, more than superficial, idiotic ignorant kids.

And yet I do follow great people. It just so happened that whenever I'm bored, I click some of my uh... non-menstruating followers and I get shit on my dashboard about Love, God and Starbucks. The wrong perception of those.

Now I have to configure this DNS shit for my domain to work here.

Welcome me back! *u*