woke up at around 1230mn. and now im drinking beer so icould get back to sleep. tinatamad naman akong magjog.
ilang araw na lang pasko na.
im fckin bored. sana mapamodify ko na ps ko. kaso wala pang money. *sigh* gran turismo 4. *heavy sigh*
11.30.2005
Ultraelectromagneticjam.
this is actually an eraserheads fan dream come true. since the band scene/rock scene has evolved in sooo many categories.. it was a really good idea fusing the acoustic, the classic, the r&b, the jazzy, the pop, the indie.. and the new breed of rock.. together in one album, having a piece of the root. the eraserheads.
i know i may not be a critic.. but hey.. im a big fan of eraserheads. promising without the biases, grudges.. and resentments. lets begin from my best.. up to the challenged.
BEST CUTS:
alkohol - radioactive sago project probably my best cut of the album. although the track might sound a bit of "astro".. lourd played it soooo well. "putangina.. shet pahingi ng yelo.." was it really on the original? coz if it wasnt.. *applauds* it kinda lost a bit of an eheads touch. BUT THAT IS ONE HELL OF A RADIOACTIVE REVIVAL!!
maling akala - brownman revival - as if you need my opinion on this one.
superproxy - francis m. one of my favorite cutterpillow tracks. the feel of this seemed like p diddy and jimmy page in "come with me". francis m gave it a very good feel (and i know hes a part of the original).. so it really fitted like a glove. the scratching, the guitar, the rap, at ang mga bagsakan nung intro plus the scratch.. tangina perfect to pump the adrenalin.
huwag mo nang itanong - MYMP i was literally taken aback when i first heard that they are doing the song. but when i heard piano keys.. plus juris' innocent voice. made me sigh. although the song's sarcasm didnt match the voice. but it was damn fine. since they do covers forever.. of course it would be good. duh.
spoliarium - imago when i heard imagos doin the song and played it at mayrics.. i almost regretted that night. i love this song. my co-eheader jon.. were really excited about it. i expected the sustained high notes somewhere there but yes... some oohh oohh aahhh part made me feel like im in the song. as in IN the song. oh aia you know how much i looooovvveeee youuuu.
with a smile - south border again im a fan of the song. (i dont think i should emphasize that again on the following ones.) twas like hearing with a smile for the first time. boyz II men style. ay south border pala. my bad. :x twas actually really good to listen to.
tikman - sugarfree eh diyos kaya si ebe. susmaryosep. kailangan ko pa bang sabihin na.. MAHAL KO ANG SUGARFREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i know no biases... but ebes voice (in which naihalintulad kay ely ng matagal tagal ding panahon), ay di hamak na mas may consistency, power at emotions kesa kay ex-idol ely buendia.
wag kang matakot - orange and lemons clem sang the song. and it was really fit for orange and lemons to have coz of its sound. a bit 80s and that cool voice. :D
alapaap - 6cyclemind uh... um... where did they record this??? i know its hard for 6cm coz the song is really really untouchable.(sorry no intentions there. ayoko lang talaga yung pagkakaengineer ng tunog)
ok eto na...
magasin - paolo santos wrong song for paolo i guess. twas sung well.. but i didnt actually see paolo's realself there. i thought chicosci would be doing the song. boo. (and everybody thought.. magasin??? acoustic???) jon said.. "ay anjan pala si lito camo"
ligaya - kitchie nadal this is definitely a love ko to epilogue. oh yodel all you want with that delay effect in your voice.. and youll be an official yeti without batting an eyelash. (and theres a part where she kinda laughed.. sa ahit ata yun.. it was really awkward. lol)
overdrive - barbie almabis kulang na lang tumalon ako sa ilog. lol. kdding aside.. i feel like i was riding a horse and not driving. barbies voice is too sweet. like pancakes with maple syrup soup.
pare ko - sponge cola so every word there has to end in letter H? "oh dyos koh.. anoh bah naman itoh. di bah. tanginah." yael performs this good in live. i dunno whats with recording this song in proper delivery.
torpedo - isha jusko lord ampangit ng pasok ng drums. naawa daw ako kay yzza.. ay liza pala.. ha? mishka? akala ko ba liza?... ahh. isha? isha ignacio sumthin like that?.. sorry natanga ako. di ko kasi sha kilala. geez.
huling el bimbo - rico j. puno oh yeah DEFINITELY ANG HULI! but im relieved its not The company's techno version. thank god thank god.
pero eto...
HARD TO BELIEVE - cueshe i actually gave this band the benefit of the doubt para sa album nato.. pero ang nasabi ko lang...
O_o
mamaya na sa UP. :D ng magkaalaman na.
11.28.2005
LOST s02e08
i had finsihed downloading LOST since saturday. i just remembered it now and even im too sleepy at 7 in the morning.. i still managed to finish the episode. adik.
yes it was an episode of ana lucia. :( it made me sad that everything fell when she was shot by this kid having a bad judgment. that led her to lose her baby, that led to lose her husband, and led her to lose her job.. mostly her life.
of course i was angry when she shot shannon. she tied up sayid and all... but when she was offered herself to be killed.. my heart melt.
when rose and bernard saw each other.. omg i burst into tears. even when sun and jin hugged each other.. knowing what theyve been through.. *sigh*, and i had goosebumps when ana lucia and jack saw each other. they flirted, expecting a drink together in the plane.. and there they are standing, around the plants and bugs.
this series is unbelievable. *sigh* sorry michelle rodriguez. your still that monotonous actress. but i guess your role has a good edge in it. so cry a lil aight?
yes it was an episode of ana lucia. :( it made me sad that everything fell when she was shot by this kid having a bad judgment. that led her to lose her baby, that led to lose her husband, and led her to lose her job.. mostly her life.
of course i was angry when she shot shannon. she tied up sayid and all... but when she was offered herself to be killed.. my heart melt.
when rose and bernard saw each other.. omg i burst into tears. even when sun and jin hugged each other.. knowing what theyve been through.. *sigh*, and i had goosebumps when ana lucia and jack saw each other. they flirted, expecting a drink together in the plane.. and there they are standing, around the plants and bugs.
this series is unbelievable. *sigh* sorry michelle rodriguez. your still that monotonous actress. but i guess your role has a good edge in it. so cry a lil aight?
random 002.
i woke up wondering where id have rakki modified. i cant go poor and homeless just to play gran turismo. duhr. a dvd game costs 2000 - 4000 bucks. are they INSANE?
so i thought i was late going to imago's groupee tv taping at mugen bar. (why would they name it groupee tv? isnt it a bit... *you dont believe in labels xavier.. remember?*). pero sa tagal ng taping.. umalis nako at nagpunta sa megamall to canvas some drumset for my cuz. then went to their house.. then pumunta sa bday sa burgundy. :D
now.. i have a bunch of incense for the bad elements blah blah. my aunt gave it to me para maging at peace naman daw ang room ko. lolz.
sabi ko.. "hindi incense ang kailangan ko auntie... DRYER!"
so i thought i was late going to imago's groupee tv taping at mugen bar. (why would they name it groupee tv? isnt it a bit... *you dont believe in labels xavier.. remember?*). pero sa tagal ng taping.. umalis nako at nagpunta sa megamall to canvas some drumset for my cuz. then went to their house.. then pumunta sa bday sa burgundy. :D
now.. i have a bunch of incense for the bad elements blah blah. my aunt gave it to me para maging at peace naman daw ang room ko. lolz.
sabi ko.. "hindi incense ang kailangan ko auntie... DRYER!"
11.26.2005
adik.
akala ko tuluyan mo na akong iiwan. kaytagal kitang hinintay. hanggang sa dumating sa punto na hindi ko na inintindi na mapapasaakin ka pa. at naririyan ka bigla.. kung kailan hindi na kita inasahang darating pa. magpapakita sa sakin. ilang gabi tayong nagsama at alam mo na tuluyan kitang inibig. sayo lang umikot ang mundo ko.
meron nang dumating. at araw araw ko shang kasama. patuloy na inibig. pinantayan ang nararamdaman ko gaya ng naramdaman ko sayo. hindi ko sha binitawan. pero hayan ka... magpapakita sa harapan ko at inalay ang sarili. tao lang ako. pero kahit kailan.. hindi ko naisip na isa kang pagkakamali. at kahit kailan.. hindi ko pinagsisihan ang pagdating mo. kahit mahati ang oras ko... wala akong pakialam. dahil hindi ako makasarili simula nang akoy mabuhay. pero para sa yo.. kakalimutan ko ang lahat. kahit pagusapan ako.. yuyuko na lang ako pero hinding hindi kita bibitawan.
nang isang araw biglang ayaw mo na. at wala akong magawa. dahil ayaw mo na nga. at yun lang ba yon? may nagsabi sa aking marumi ka. pinakinggan ko ba? pinilit kong makasama ka pa rin. pero mistulang wala ng saysay.
hanggang sa dumating ang oras na kailangan ng madurog ng aking puso. at kailangan kitang bitawan at iaasa na lang sa kamay ng iba ang mangayayari sa yo.
buti na lang nagbalik ka. dahil wala ka naman palang sira. kahit tekken pa lang ang orig game ko.. hayaan mo gagawan kita ng paraan.
wag ka nang magloloko rakki ha. tangina ibebenta na talaga kita.
my sincere and deepest condolensces to Pat Morita's family. *wow close kayoooo???? amp* i loved karate kid!!!! i will wax our windows forever the way you want to, sensei. *bows*
meron nang dumating. at araw araw ko shang kasama. patuloy na inibig. pinantayan ang nararamdaman ko gaya ng naramdaman ko sayo. hindi ko sha binitawan. pero hayan ka... magpapakita sa harapan ko at inalay ang sarili. tao lang ako. pero kahit kailan.. hindi ko naisip na isa kang pagkakamali. at kahit kailan.. hindi ko pinagsisihan ang pagdating mo. kahit mahati ang oras ko... wala akong pakialam. dahil hindi ako makasarili simula nang akoy mabuhay. pero para sa yo.. kakalimutan ko ang lahat. kahit pagusapan ako.. yuyuko na lang ako pero hinding hindi kita bibitawan.
nang isang araw biglang ayaw mo na. at wala akong magawa. dahil ayaw mo na nga. at yun lang ba yon? may nagsabi sa aking marumi ka. pinakinggan ko ba? pinilit kong makasama ka pa rin. pero mistulang wala ng saysay.
hanggang sa dumating ang oras na kailangan ng madurog ng aking puso. at kailangan kitang bitawan at iaasa na lang sa kamay ng iba ang mangayayari sa yo.
buti na lang nagbalik ka. dahil wala ka naman palang sira. kahit tekken pa lang ang orig game ko.. hayaan mo gagawan kita ng paraan.
wag ka nang magloloko rakki ha. tangina ibebenta na talaga kita.
my sincere and deepest condolensces to Pat Morita's family. *wow close kayoooo???? amp* i loved karate kid!!!! i will wax our windows forever the way you want to, sensei. *bows*
11.25.2005
random 001.
WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU DO AFTER WAKING UP?
i go online.
boooooooooo!!!!!!
i am officially hooked up. and since abhie and i talked about me having a very big issue with time management and self discipline, its time for me to be my own shrink and start patching things up. omg. i dont wanna be 40 and addicted with netsurfing while the world is having a world of its own. or either way.
i woke up at around 8am. i had 12 hours of sleep!!!!! yey im normal again!
coffee coffee coffee!!!!
RE: Ultraelectromagneticjam tribute album
we may really have a lot of opinion with who covered what. and most of
us agrees that some bands "may not" be that worthy covering an
eraserheads single. the bands that we.. (hate is a strong word).. are a
bit "challenged to listen to" have fans as well. and as much as we
could disagree to the idea of them.. in the album.. it could help the
bands that we like.. na hindi pa nila napapakinggan ng masinsinan.. get
their attention and support them as well. for example.. rico puno..
some "matured" people could be a fan of mr. puno then listen to what
our generation loves. thus, they could understand as more. hence.. more
album sales.. more gigs.. more appearances and more materials for us to
listen to.
i, myself, nanghihinayang na there could be a "better" band playing
that eheads single that i love. but everyone is allowed to have a
chance (kahit sometimes... i really feel that i lose control and
napapamura na lang ako hearing that band's name. tao lang.) malamang
fan din naman sila e. we just wish they could give better justice to
it. and lets hardly cross our fingers.
pero sa "sayang ang P250", i think majority naman ng nasa album is
really worth spending that money. just skip the track(s).
my two cents.
this fuckin freaked me out. i had goosebumps for like 10 minutes.
Backmasked Jingle Bells
i go online.
boooooooooo!!!!!!
i am officially hooked up. and since abhie and i talked about me having a very big issue with time management and self discipline, its time for me to be my own shrink and start patching things up. omg. i dont wanna be 40 and addicted with netsurfing while the world is having a world of its own. or either way.
i woke up at around 8am. i had 12 hours of sleep!!!!! yey im normal again!
coffee coffee coffee!!!!
RE: Ultraelectromagneticjam tribute album
we may really have a lot of opinion with who covered what. and most of
us agrees that some bands "may not" be that worthy covering an
eraserheads single. the bands that we.. (hate is a strong word).. are a
bit "challenged to listen to" have fans as well. and as much as we
could disagree to the idea of them.. in the album.. it could help the
bands that we like.. na hindi pa nila napapakinggan ng masinsinan.. get
their attention and support them as well. for example.. rico puno..
some "matured" people could be a fan of mr. puno then listen to what
our generation loves. thus, they could understand as more. hence.. more
album sales.. more gigs.. more appearances and more materials for us to
listen to.
i, myself, nanghihinayang na there could be a "better" band playing
that eheads single that i love. but everyone is allowed to have a
chance (kahit sometimes... i really feel that i lose control and
napapamura na lang ako hearing that band's name. tao lang.) malamang
fan din naman sila e. we just wish they could give better justice to
it. and lets hardly cross our fingers.
pero sa "sayang ang P250", i think majority naman ng nasa album is
really worth spending that money. just skip the track(s).
my two cents.
Backmasked Jingle Bells
[none]
ive been your father, ive been your mother
who could ask me for more
ive been your sister, ive been your mistress..
oh how ive missed this band. ive got the dvd finally. yey.
11.24.2005
breakfast
i woke up at around 9pm. wow. and now im a bat.
have to jog kaso tinamad na. by 6am, abhie, trish, ivan and i are going to meet for breakfast somewhere in makati. time to call trish. *sigh*
ano bang klaseng body clock to. geez.
*1035am* (im in a cafe finishing my choco.. all the letters in this keyboard is gone. as if dinilaan ng isang chinese na mejo acidic ang laway. why chinese? coz all the websites that i go to are encrypted in chinese characters. settings in chinese. even the desktop. f4. a fan? a mystery.)
trish was freaking out coz when i called her at around 545am.. i said that we should meet at 630. its like this... i went inside the bathroom at exactly 550am and expected that i wont make it at 615, so i texted that we meet at 630. in a hurry, i got out at around exactly 615 and when i was drying my hair.. she texted "burger machine..5 minutes". in awe, i replied.."10 minutes" and i was like hurrying dressing up, getting out of the house, she already got a cab and waited for me. trish: "san ka n b? nagpapatawa ka ba? kanina ka pa papunta ah." i ran and sumakay ng jeep, para makapunta agad sa kanila. it was like 3 minutes away lang. u know how the system works... maghihintay ang mga jeepney hanggang sa mawalan ng ulirat ang mga pasahero nya. when i was near, i ran (and i look like im jogging coz i was wearing my ramones jacket and my running shoes with the black cargo pants), and rode her cab.
trish: *yelling* "ok ka lang???? may pasok kaya ako ng 8!!! anong oras na??"
xave: "sabi ko 630. and my god! babae ka ba? did you even take a bath??? when i called you up.. after 20 minutes ready ka na? normal ka ba???"
trish: "mabagal ka lang talaga. tsaka nagshower lang ako coz naligo nako kagabi."
xave: "so ayun.. NALIGO AKO! AND NOW ITS A BAD THING??? jesus christ! its your fault my god. may nilulunok ka bang bato or sumthin when you prepare. coz it is so unbelievable na nagawa mo lahat ng morning routines mo ng 20 minutes!!!!! at babae ka!!!"
and while on the cab..
trish: "hay nako, nagaway kami ni *bleep*. not that kami pa huh. we were like talking about christmas bonus and sabi nya ilibre ko raw sha and i said.. may utang ka pa kaya sakin."
xave: *nods*
trish: "i was talking about yung simpleng kfc na he promised tapos he made a big deal out of it.."
xave: "ah. na tipong feeling nya sinusumbat mo yung kung anuman ang mga utang nya sa yo?"
trish: "oo. ewan ko ba dun. lagi na lang kami nagaaway. kaya sabi ko pagusapan na lang namin yung mga hindi pwedeng mapagawayan. like... *5 second pause* clouds!"
xave: "ay favorite ko cumulus."
trish: "ako cirrus. *laughs* parang yung kinalat na bulak."
xave: "ano sagot ni *bleep*?"
trish: "nimbus."
xave: "tapos sinabi mo... sarcastic ka ba??? alam mong nagssymbolize ng lungkot ang nimbus dahil nagdadala ng ulan? nangaasar ka ba? ha? HA???!!! GANYAN KA BA LAGI???"
trish: "ay pwede pa rin palang pag-awayan."
trish and xave: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
trish: "hav u read an email with this really really good furcoat and its made out of raccoon fur? my god its so good kaso grabe yung pagpatay nila sa raccoon. hinahampas nila grabe. as in they grab its tail and just bang its head anywhere hard."
xave: "oh my god. how barbaric. sana meron man lang silang special rock or sumthin na dun nila hinahampas ang mga raccoons na yun. thats so inhumane."
trish: "ya. tama. a very special stone. at eto pa.. yung isang raccoon buhay pa tapos umiiyak pa habang binabalatan. my god di ba? or.. umarte lang yung racoon."
xave: "siguro turuan. sabi iiyak kung kelan alam nya yung cue. wala man lang ginawa yung camera man? geez. *pause* omg.. ate and i watched this discovery channel episode where this guy killed an elephant and got its tusk and while cleaning up the tusk, he killed a baby elephant then cut off the ear and sat on it. i mean bat di nya na lang kinuha yung ear nung mommy elephant? my god, ate and i really cried! nakakaawa sobra."
trish: "shit. bat naman yung sa baby elephant pa yung kinuha nya."
xave: "exactly! pinatay nya pa huh... well baka maganda yung texture. maybe he was taking care of his black african ass na maging pinky rose lang."
trish: "ah hes BLACK? thats why."
xave: O_o "my god trish. thats the most discriminative racist thing ive ever heard."
(silence)
trish and xave: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA.
and so on. (i know were silly. but whoever says that we are.. we are much HAPPIER BEINGS than you. bleh.)
we had a breakfast at rcbc makati, waited for abhie to logout and i had..
pancakes, bacon and eggs, then a venti warm choco. while talking about divisoria, manananggal in manila, kris aquino's "ha??" moment (credits to ivan for that!) and a lot lot more. oh mr. sun, touch my skin. its not everyday that i see you! then abhie and i had some serious talk when i accompanied her going to malate. she has this meeting for her "new journey". good luck best!
on a different note.. i am so thankful i have the bestest friends anyone could ever have. abhie, trish, ivan (sayang di ka humabol). its good that we know each other that well. we know when to make our jaws hurt, have the best laugh, tap each others back and tell each other that we are always here. na never naging cliche coz trust me.. they have been there in my downest and best days of my life. alam namin kung paano lulugar sa bawat isa. i love my friends. and i love mornings. :)
have to jog kaso tinamad na. by 6am, abhie, trish, ivan and i are going to meet for breakfast somewhere in makati. time to call trish. *sigh*
ano bang klaseng body clock to. geez.
*1035am* (im in a cafe finishing my choco.. all the letters in this keyboard is gone. as if dinilaan ng isang chinese na mejo acidic ang laway. why chinese? coz all the websites that i go to are encrypted in chinese characters. settings in chinese. even the desktop. f4. a fan? a mystery.)
trish was freaking out coz when i called her at around 545am.. i said that we should meet at 630. its like this... i went inside the bathroom at exactly 550am and expected that i wont make it at 615, so i texted that we meet at 630. in a hurry, i got out at around exactly 615 and when i was drying my hair.. she texted "burger machine..5 minutes". in awe, i replied.."10 minutes" and i was like hurrying dressing up, getting out of the house, she already got a cab and waited for me. trish: "san ka n b? nagpapatawa ka ba? kanina ka pa papunta ah." i ran and sumakay ng jeep, para makapunta agad sa kanila. it was like 3 minutes away lang. u know how the system works... maghihintay ang mga jeepney hanggang sa mawalan ng ulirat ang mga pasahero nya. when i was near, i ran (and i look like im jogging coz i was wearing my ramones jacket and my running shoes with the black cargo pants), and rode her cab.
trish: *yelling* "ok ka lang???? may pasok kaya ako ng 8!!! anong oras na??"
xave: "sabi ko 630. and my god! babae ka ba? did you even take a bath??? when i called you up.. after 20 minutes ready ka na? normal ka ba???"
trish: "mabagal ka lang talaga. tsaka nagshower lang ako coz naligo nako kagabi."
xave: "so ayun.. NALIGO AKO! AND NOW ITS A BAD THING??? jesus christ! its your fault my god. may nilulunok ka bang bato or sumthin when you prepare. coz it is so unbelievable na nagawa mo lahat ng morning routines mo ng 20 minutes!!!!! at babae ka!!!"
and while on the cab..
trish: "hay nako, nagaway kami ni *bleep*. not that kami pa huh. we were like talking about christmas bonus and sabi nya ilibre ko raw sha and i said.. may utang ka pa kaya sakin."
xave: *nods*
trish: "i was talking about yung simpleng kfc na he promised tapos he made a big deal out of it.."
xave: "ah. na tipong feeling nya sinusumbat mo yung kung anuman ang mga utang nya sa yo?"
trish: "oo. ewan ko ba dun. lagi na lang kami nagaaway. kaya sabi ko pagusapan na lang namin yung mga hindi pwedeng mapagawayan. like... *5 second pause* clouds!"
xave: "ay favorite ko cumulus."
trish: "ako cirrus. *laughs* parang yung kinalat na bulak."
xave: "ano sagot ni *bleep*?"
trish: "nimbus."
xave: "tapos sinabi mo... sarcastic ka ba??? alam mong nagssymbolize ng lungkot ang nimbus dahil nagdadala ng ulan? nangaasar ka ba? ha? HA???!!! GANYAN KA BA LAGI???"
trish: "ay pwede pa rin palang pag-awayan."
trish and xave: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
trish: "hav u read an email with this really really good furcoat and its made out of raccoon fur? my god its so good kaso grabe yung pagpatay nila sa raccoon. hinahampas nila grabe. as in they grab its tail and just bang its head anywhere hard."
xave: "oh my god. how barbaric. sana meron man lang silang special rock or sumthin na dun nila hinahampas ang mga raccoons na yun. thats so inhumane."
trish: "ya. tama. a very special stone. at eto pa.. yung isang raccoon buhay pa tapos umiiyak pa habang binabalatan. my god di ba? or.. umarte lang yung racoon."
xave: "siguro turuan. sabi iiyak kung kelan alam nya yung cue. wala man lang ginawa yung camera man? geez. *pause* omg.. ate and i watched this discovery channel episode where this guy killed an elephant and got its tusk and while cleaning up the tusk, he killed a baby elephant then cut off the ear and sat on it. i mean bat di nya na lang kinuha yung ear nung mommy elephant? my god, ate and i really cried! nakakaawa sobra."
trish: "shit. bat naman yung sa baby elephant pa yung kinuha nya."
xave: "exactly! pinatay nya pa huh... well baka maganda yung texture. maybe he was taking care of his black african ass na maging pinky rose lang."
trish: "ah hes BLACK? thats why."
xave: O_o "my god trish. thats the most discriminative racist thing ive ever heard."
(silence)
trish and xave: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA.
and so on. (i know were silly. but whoever says that we are.. we are much HAPPIER BEINGS than you. bleh.)
we had a breakfast at rcbc makati, waited for abhie to logout and i had..
pancakes, bacon and eggs, then a venti warm choco. while talking about divisoria, manananggal in manila, kris aquino's "ha??" moment (credits to ivan for that!) and a lot lot more. oh mr. sun, touch my skin. its not everyday that i see you! then abhie and i had some serious talk when i accompanied her going to malate. she has this meeting for her "new journey". good luck best!
on a different note.. i am so thankful i have the bestest friends anyone could ever have. abhie, trish, ivan (sayang di ka humabol). its good that we know each other that well. we know when to make our jaws hurt, have the best laugh, tap each others back and tell each other that we are always here. na never naging cliche coz trust me.. they have been there in my downest and best days of my life. alam namin kung paano lulugar sa bawat isa. i love my friends. and i love mornings. :)
tinin tin tin tin tin tin tin tin.
havent slept yet. i am officially awake for 28 hours and 39 minutes. *eyes throbbing*
words that got stuck inside me. reformat, backup files, partition, install, reboot, corrupt, uninstall, re-reformat, re-partition, re-install, re-reboot, trial, register, DONT register, PANIC! delete.
i have to install everything again. sana buhay na lang ang pedeng ireformat. hindi pc. huhuhu. ANG MGA FILES KO?!!!!!!??!!! WUHUHUHUHUHUHU!!! *shreaks while kneeling... rain pours... muddy.. arms spreaded eagle-like** ANG MGA FILES KOOOOOOOOOORRRGGGHHHH!!!!
on the other hand... my everything is moss green. :D even my winamp player!
oh. and my bearshare is ruined. ayaw ng mainstall ng maayos. malungkot na buhay. shet.
words that got stuck inside me. reformat, backup files, partition, install, reboot, corrupt, uninstall, re-reformat, re-partition, re-install, re-reboot, trial, register, DONT register, PANIC! delete.
i have to install everything again. sana buhay na lang ang pedeng ireformat. hindi pc. huhuhu. ANG MGA FILES KO?!!!!!!??!!! WUHUHUHUHUHUHU!!! *shreaks while kneeling... rain pours... muddy.. arms spreaded eagle-like** ANG MGA FILES KOOOOOOOOOORRRGGGHHHH!!!!
on the other hand... my everything is moss green. :D even my winamp player!
oh. and my bearshare is ruined. ayaw ng mainstall ng maayos. malungkot na buhay. shet.
11.23.2005
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*breathe xavier breathe*
i woke up.. went donwstairs.. heated 2 slices of pizza, got a glass of milk, went upstairs, turned on my pc, cant connect at first, finding out that my system is corrupted. no icons sa network connection, cant find bluetooth and some shitty popups telling blahblahs. so i went downstairs turned on my ps2.. and it cant read ANYTHING. like it doesnt know anything. (his name is rakki. my ps2.) its like rakki saying.. "ano tong mga to? ano to? ano ang cd? ano ang pinagsasabi mo? sino ako?" sumthin like that.
so here i am. masakit at mainit ang ulo, coz i wole up too late.. and now i cant find an installer and a repair service for my ps2.
THIS DAY FUCKS!
so pag wala ako at di online ng mga ilang days.. tuliro ako nun at naghahanap ng repair shops. i warned rakki na isosoli ko sha. hah!
i woke up.. went donwstairs.. heated 2 slices of pizza, got a glass of milk, went upstairs, turned on my pc, cant connect at first, finding out that my system is corrupted. no icons sa network connection, cant find bluetooth and some shitty popups telling blahblahs. so i went downstairs turned on my ps2.. and it cant read ANYTHING. like it doesnt know anything. (his name is rakki. my ps2.) its like rakki saying.. "ano tong mga to? ano to? ano ang cd? ano ang pinagsasabi mo? sino ako?" sumthin like that.
so here i am. masakit at mainit ang ulo, coz i wole up too late.. and now i cant find an installer and a repair service for my ps2.
THIS DAY FUCKS!
so pag wala ako at di online ng mga ilang days.. tuliro ako nun at naghahanap ng repair shops. i warned rakki na isosoli ko sha. hah!
11.22.2005
yeeehaaaaaa!!!!
her friend uses different names while ordering at STARBUCKS.
1. customer name: free
"One venti mocha frappuccino for FREE!" *sabay tingin lahat ng barista*
2. customer name: ever
"One grande hot tea for EVER? *sabay tingin lahat ng tao*
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHA i cant wait to try this!!!
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yan ang bunga ng aking depresyon. pininyahang adobo. isa sa mga specialty ko. nilutuan ko si che. :)
white flag.
nandito pa rin ako. nakatitig lang sa isang kahon habang pinipilit bulagin ng liwanag ng araw na sumisingit sa pinto. akala ko paggising... tanggal na ang bigat ng loob ko. antagal ko ring nakatulog. pero hindi pa rin maalis lahat. iba pa rin ang takbo ng isip kong tila nabalutan na ng hamog. minsan... iniisip ko kung totoo ang sumpa ng isandaang taong pagtulog. hati talaga sa gitna. masaya dahil mas malabong masaktan ka sa panaginip pero.. pwede pa ring bangungutin. nakakatakot dahil baka paggising mo.. ganun pa rin ang mundo. mas malala.. wala na ang mga taong pinaghirapan mong mahalin.
bat ba adik ako sa pagbabago. hindi dahil sa hindi ako marunong makuntento. dahil.. pagod lang akong mabigo at masaktan. dahil baka makalabit ko ang sarili ko at sabihing ako ang may kagagawan ng lahat ng sakit. sana hindi na lang ako marunong magisip. sana wala akong nararamdaman. akala ko natapos ko na ang panahong ganito ako. pero.. ang tagal kong naglakbay, nandito pa rin ako sa umpisa.
napakarami kong tinatago. pinapatunayan sa lahat na masaya akong tao. ano ba yung batayan ng saya? kung sa lakas ng tawa, at mga ngiting hindi nawawala.. mukha nga akong masaya. kahit nasa akin na ang halos lahat na makapaglilibang sakin.. tangina nandito pa rin ako. iniisip ang mga taong hindi na dapat isipin. nanghihinayang ba ako sa lahat ng napagsamahan? para saan ba lahat ng ginagawa ko? bat ganito. wala ata akong napala. naguwi lang ng sakit at nilatag sa kama na lagi kong hihigaan gabi gabi at gigisingan pag umaga.
nakakalungkot dahil masakit din para sa mga taong "mahal" ako. pero hanggang ngayon.. kung alam kong mahal ako ng mga taong tinutukoy ko.. bakit may quotation marks ang salitang yan. (tangina nalimutan ko tagalog ng quotation marks). bobo nako. hindi nako marunong magisip. tangina tangina tangina. masarap sanang maging bobo. pero sana.. hindi natatauhan pagdating ng panahon. yung tipong bobo ka lang habangbuhay. na kahit gamitin ka.. hindi mo maiisip na gagawin nila yon. eh bobo ka nga e. iwas sakit. iwas gulo. mas madali sigurong sumaya.
naglakad ako mula rito hanggang sa isang lugar na hindi ko pa nakikita. naglakad ako ng malayo, nakakapagod at mabato. pero bakit ganun, kung ano yung batong nasipa ko sa umpisa.. nandito pa rin sa harap ko. kulang na lang.. pagtawanan rin ako.
sabagay.. nakakatawa nga naman ang pagkatao ko. kahit ano pang paninindigan at pakikipaglabang gawin... tatawa lang lahat. dahil wala akong saysay. buo na ako sa isip nila at ganon kakilala. kahit sabihin kong mali ang pagkakakilala sakin... ano pa ba ang magagawa ko?
magpapaalam na naman ako. walang hanggan ko nang ginawa to.
bat pa kasi ako tatambay sa lugar nato? para saan? wala namang mangyayari. tatanghod lang, papalakpak, magbibigay ng papuri, tatawa, yayakap, tatapik sa likod, pagkatapos.. ano na? balik sa pagkataong wala na namang mapupuntahan. dadayain ang sarili na bibigyan ka ng direksyon ng mga taong inakala mong naging kaibigan mo na. pero isang malaking HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.. dahil putang ina.. ginagamit ka lang pala.
A Y O K O N A! balik uli ako sa umpisa. isa lang akong token sa monopoly. na pinapatakbo ng gulong ng dice at umaasa sa swerte ng kamay na gagamit sakin. na alam kong matatalo lang uli at malamang.. ihagis ako pagkatapos. ilalagay sa kartong tinititigan ko ngayon, hanggang sa alikabukin.. na parang matutulog ng isandaang taon.
game over. ayawan na. as in. A Y A W A N N A!
11.21.2005
people.
we meet people. in the most ordinary and in the strangest ways. i myself, during this journey.. i have met and showed the real me. no pretentions. i just let my heart do the things it wanted me to do. no self-intentions until..
i tried having as many friends as i wanted. ive met a thousand people trust me but it went down to not more than twenty. not everybody knew i cried about that. its so weird that i am too emotional about having people a part of my life. i find having new friends larger than anything i could ever wanted.
but just months had passed, everything changed. i took some rest, caught up with everything ive left in my life.. then everything is like the beginning again. i didnt know them at all. its so weird. like.. theres this awkward feeling in the air that exudes whenever i talk to them. some.. havent changed at all, then missed like im really.. special. and thats what everybody wanted right? we wanted to be needed. we wanted to be a "someone" to some people's hearts. but this world really sucked. majority of who lives in it just goes on without looking back.
i offered myself to everybody ive met. until it seemed like i was too much of a help. i dont know if ive offended anyone.. but i really felt sorry when it happened. im not paranoid. i just know what i feel. and believe me.. i know when a person is already annoyed by my presence. i dont seek attention as well. i just wanted to feel.. needed. i am actually not expecting anything in return.
sometimes.. its so weird that people lose respect to some. they step out of the chalk line everybody draws. doesnt anyone do that? like.. we have the golden rule right? then if you dont want to be offended.. dont offend. its the simplest rule ive known.
some.. became abusive. okay, we label ourselves as "friends" but dont maximize the benefits. do we really have to check out each other's limitations? its too sad coz im the kind of a person that quits easily. once you hurt me.. i will never EVER give you a chance of hurting me again.
now here is the benefit of the doubt gone bad. when some people think im stupid, i may play dumb, but.. think again. and again. once a favor.. say the magic word. please. coz i never owe anyone anything. trust me on that. now.. i hate some people ive met. they think they're good, cool, but they're the word ABUSE personified. especially the ones who thinks they can get away with ANYTHING. oh i badly wanted to drop names.. but still.. i dont wanna hurt anyone. i am still fuckingly hopeful, that they werent aware of what they are doing. but its sooo bad, they thought it was as normal as their everyday life before. kids, check your diaries and start from january. check if i already existed in there. if within those dates.. my name wasnt there.. think if I deserve to be treated when weve only met for months. coz i am fucking sure.. I HATE YOU AS OF THIS MOMENT I AM WRITING THIS.
i can live with all my friends from before. and i am eternally grateful for people ive met by now. some, i mean. coz within this timespan, some people have done the biggest things that made me happy. just by being sincere and humble. oh you know who you are.
i think what i need is to focus. coz ive left the people more important than anything and i am so sorry i made them wait. but thats the point.. they waited. and they never expected anything in return from me.
so lets please respect each other when it comes to a lot of things. coz ive given enough already. and the keyword there is enough.
i tried having as many friends as i wanted. ive met a thousand people trust me but it went down to not more than twenty. not everybody knew i cried about that. its so weird that i am too emotional about having people a part of my life. i find having new friends larger than anything i could ever wanted.
but just months had passed, everything changed. i took some rest, caught up with everything ive left in my life.. then everything is like the beginning again. i didnt know them at all. its so weird. like.. theres this awkward feeling in the air that exudes whenever i talk to them. some.. havent changed at all, then missed like im really.. special. and thats what everybody wanted right? we wanted to be needed. we wanted to be a "someone" to some people's hearts. but this world really sucked. majority of who lives in it just goes on without looking back.
i offered myself to everybody ive met. until it seemed like i was too much of a help. i dont know if ive offended anyone.. but i really felt sorry when it happened. im not paranoid. i just know what i feel. and believe me.. i know when a person is already annoyed by my presence. i dont seek attention as well. i just wanted to feel.. needed. i am actually not expecting anything in return.
sometimes.. its so weird that people lose respect to some. they step out of the chalk line everybody draws. doesnt anyone do that? like.. we have the golden rule right? then if you dont want to be offended.. dont offend. its the simplest rule ive known.
some.. became abusive. okay, we label ourselves as "friends" but dont maximize the benefits. do we really have to check out each other's limitations? its too sad coz im the kind of a person that quits easily. once you hurt me.. i will never EVER give you a chance of hurting me again.
now here is the benefit of the doubt gone bad. when some people think im stupid, i may play dumb, but.. think again. and again. once a favor.. say the magic word. please. coz i never owe anyone anything. trust me on that. now.. i hate some people ive met. they think they're good, cool, but they're the word ABUSE personified. especially the ones who thinks they can get away with ANYTHING. oh i badly wanted to drop names.. but still.. i dont wanna hurt anyone. i am still fuckingly hopeful, that they werent aware of what they are doing. but its sooo bad, they thought it was as normal as their everyday life before. kids, check your diaries and start from january. check if i already existed in there. if within those dates.. my name wasnt there.. think if I deserve to be treated when weve only met for months. coz i am fucking sure.. I HATE YOU AS OF THIS MOMENT I AM WRITING THIS.
i can live with all my friends from before. and i am eternally grateful for people ive met by now. some, i mean. coz within this timespan, some people have done the biggest things that made me happy. just by being sincere and humble. oh you know who you are.
i think what i need is to focus. coz ive left the people more important than anything and i am so sorry i made them wait. but thats the point.. they waited. and they never expected anything in return from me.
so lets please respect each other when it comes to a lot of things. coz ive given enough already. and the keyword there is enough.
astonishing xmen. :D
I had whedon's astonishing xmen from 1-12. and its cliffhanger was about prof x's dark secret. while i was browsing... ive read this post from a message board that made me laugh like a hyena. kudos to rico. this ones for you. hahahaahaha.
That does it! I have confessions I must share with you all!
Oh, what now?
Mr. Sinister is your real father? You secretly created the Sentinels? The Fake Xorn was your dark side given form?
You're gay. That's it, right?
What? No, of course not. Bobby's the one who's gay.
My boyfriend's gay?!
Back to my revelation--
Bobby can't be gay. He said he and I were just experimenting with and exploring our friendship.
WHAT?!
Hey, that's the same line Storm tried to use one me.
Ixnay, ixnay.
I haven't met her. Is she the newest X-man?
W-what?
Will you all shut up? I'm trying to bare my soul and share these confessions with you all!
Seems like the men around this place like baring things...especially to each other!
Hear me, X-men! I am no longer the secret keeper you knew! I am gossip! And rumor incarnate! Now and forever, I am Tattletale!
Oh, bloody hell.
Xavier's dark secret is...he secretly based the first X-men uniforms on bondage gear!
What?! Jean, you know that's not true!
I don't know. Those old uniforms did have a tendency to ride up in the seat.
Will you all shut up? That's not one of the confessions I want to share at all!
Then what is it, Oh Blad Boon and Bane of our lives?
I simply want to share with you my Confessions...On A Dancefloor CD that I just bought this week. It's the best Madonna album in years!
Huh?!
Take it from Charlie X. Buy my new CD Confessions On A Dancefloor. It'll be a genesis of fun for you!
Oh, heck. We're commercial shills now?
Well, it takes a lot of money to run this operation, you know. By the way, Scott, can you put these decals on the X-jet promoting the album and the single "Hung Up." Emma and Storm, I'll need you to change the Xavier Institute of High Learning sign into the Xavier Institute of Madonnalogical Studies.
Don't forget to pass out the mandatory red string for them to wear too, bub!
Yes, ma'am.
J'accuse!
Yes. I could use a nice soak in the jacuzzi myself. All this madness is quite more than I care to handle!
Oh, my god. Bobby owns EVERY Madonna album? He must be gay then!
Sigh.
Look, you don't have to be gay to like Madonna.
But it wouldn't hurt!
That does it! I have confessions I must share with you all! Oh, what now? Mr. Sinister is your real father? You secretly created the Sentinels? The Fake Xorn was your dark side given form? You're gay. That's it, right? What? No, of course not. Bobby's the one who's gay. My boyfriend's gay?! Back to my revelation-- Bobby can't be gay. He said he and I were just experimenting with and exploring our friendship. WHAT?! Hey, that's the same line Storm tried to use one me. Ixnay, ixnay. I haven't met her. Is she the newest X-man? W-what? Will you all shut up? I'm trying to bare my soul and share these confessions with you all! Seems like the men around this place like baring things...especially to each other! Hear me, X-men! I am no longer the secret keeper you knew! I am gossip! And rumor incarnate! Now and forever, I am Tattletale! Oh, bloody hell. Xavier's dark secret is...he secretly based the first X-men uniforms on bondage gear! What?! Jean, you know that's not true! I don't know. Those old uniforms did have a tendency to ride up in the seat. Will you all shut up? That's not one of the confessions I want to share at all! Then what is it, Oh Blad Boon and Bane of our lives? I simply want to share with you my Confessions...On A Dancefloor CD that I just bought this week. It's the best Madonna album in years! Huh?! Take it from Charlie X. Buy my new CD Confessions On A Dancefloor. It'll be a genesis of fun for you! Oh, heck. We're commercial shills now? Well, it takes a lot of money to run this operation, you know. By the way, Scott, can you put these decals on the X-jet promoting the album and the single "Hung Up." Emma and Storm, I'll need you to change the Xavier Institute of High Learning sign into the Xavier Institute of Madonnalogical Studies. Don't forget to pass out the mandatory red string for them to wear too, bub! Yes, ma'am. J'accuse! Yes. I could use a nice soak in the jacuzzi myself. All this madness is quite more than I care to handle! Oh, my god. Bobby owns EVERY Madonna album? He must be gay then! Sigh. Look, you don't have to be gay to like Madonna. But it wouldn't hurt!
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