2008 YearEnder Post.

Its a half and an hour before we start throwing away our calendars. And im here, ran inside my room coz every single friend that i have here in our neighborhood is holding a firecracker.

And my hands preoccupied by covering my ears. My god i hate them.

I think New Year's Day has always been the day i look forward to. Its like the rewind button without the rewinding purpose. And that doesnt even make sense.

Im sincerely Happy. I think this year was so messy, it built me as a person. Ive faced my demons alone and my friends around me, letting me know that i have them around me. I was so laid back until there came the mess. But they never left me. And i am so happy because i know im so blessed.

• Tricia Hermosura - it was this year that we never saw each other that often. But you were always with me no matter what. I could literally hug you while typing this, (talk about multi-tasking) and utter i love you so much for being the bestest friend ever. I think weve even had telepathy coz of this friendship. Like when our eyes meet, we know the words were about to say.
• Yeshyee Hermosura - My god. If there comes a time that we have our own sky-is-the-limit budgeted event, MTV will crumble to pieces. The harnesses, the fireworks, the LCD screen background, the choreographies... walang tatalo. I think si Ona lang. with Ivan. hahahaha.
• Ronaldo Nicolas / Abhie Trillana-Icamina / Ivan Ocampo - I love you so much that i almost caused our friendship to fall apart. But you were still there. No matter what. And you tried understanding me, making me realize things i shouldve done as an adult. It came to my senses that this phase of my life is one of those wake-up calls. Those laughters we shared, those craziness no one could ever imagine... this year was one hell of a roller coaster ride. And thank you for taking me off my own roller coaster. Yeah it was nauseating already. I love you guys. (I really should start getting used to the fact that abhie's last name is icamina, hahahaha.)
  
• Erika Hocson - Wow. And should i say wow. We have come this far. And in every battle in your life, you should expect that im just a step behind you. You have been the sweetest, the nicest, and the most thoughtful of all. And i would not let anybody hurt you like *insert asshole's name here*. I love you!
• Ethel "Mamu" Cachapero - There came a time that you were struggling with your own battles. And as much as you wanted me to fight my own, you still helped me with every chance that you get. I am grateful that i have you. And i will find that right time where i could somehow give back that kindness we had. I will never ever leave your side. I love you mamu. so much.
• Leeza Dela Fuente, Celest Flores, Don Peñalosa, Hannah Alacantara, Hazel Laude, Jamie del Rosario, Lea Pagsisihan and Cecil Enriquez - you have been my sisters (and don... my.. brother?... hahahaha) and though i might seem to be so preoccupied and we dont see each other... always think that i am wishing to be there with you. I hope for more years. And more bricks to scream on. hahahahahaha
• Champ LuiPio, Sheldon Gellada, Roll Martinez, Omnie Saroca, Lesley Espiritu, Abby Mañalac, Emy Calcena and Anna Sy - My treehouse family. My Hale family. Its always a breath of fresh air whenever we see each other. This year has been that year where i think one of the turning points has come. But the music that connected us will always be on maximum volume. And more years for us!!! :D
• Monty Macalino, Gracie Potenciano, and Luanne Manlapaz - whenever we see each other sa gigs, you were like the fireplace when the place is all covered with snow. The warmth from you guys will never be matched. And i really feel glad that youre a part of my music life. More years to come para sa Fernando Torres!!!
• Wawa Sy - akala mo wala ka rito noh. Gagu mahal pa rin kita! :D kahit di tayo nagkikita ng madalas, para kang christmas gift para sakin pag sumusulpot ka. luv u still wawerz!
• Ryan Edric Ramos - I love you BFF. Thank you for being there when i need to be cheered up. For making my days special. For the laughters, the series that we share. The food, the cookings. I sincerely think that were triplets. It just so happened that im a decade away. LOL.
• Rae Ramos / Dianne Uyanguren - kayo talaga e. fan ako ng loveteam nyo kahit maraming epal. Kayo ang bida ng koreanovela ko. hahahahaha
• Rey Madriaga / Al Jomaih Lamoboloto / Gene Aris Inguillo - my blood brothers. I have shared years of music with you. And that kind of music we are playing together is something that no age or disease could remove in my system. Pag nagka-amnesia ako, isang tugtog lang ng what if or stolen sky... babalik yata ang alaala ko. seriously. kayo ang tattoo ko. permanente na kayo at walang atrasan. darating ang araw, tayo na ang kakaway at pipirma hahahaha. mahal ko kayo. :D
• Rae Ramos / Jeff Ancot / Sid and Kim Del Prado - kayo naman ang mga pinsan ko. simula pa lang to ng tagumpay. darating din kayo don. hanggang ngayon yung paniniwala ko with your music, you will get what you deserve. :)
• Ehboi Sugay - ang isa sa mga pinakapasaway. Pero eto ka pa rin at eto pa rin ako. So eto tayo.

At sa mga hindi ko nabanggit, hindi yon dahil nakalimutan ko kayo, yun ay dahil mag ttwelve na kakaisip ng dedication sa bawat isa. and the fact that we know each other, and youre in my phonebook, the kind of a person i am, you should know by now that youre special. Sa lahat ng bandang sumali sa treehouse. Sa mga taong nanonood sa treehouse at sa mga taong sumusuporta ng bandang pinoy... kung alam nyo lang kung gaano ako kasaya at natutulungan nyong bigyan ng pagasa ang mga musikerong gustong marinig at DAPAT marinig ng buong mundo. Happy New Year sa Lahat at sa Pamilya nyo.

Ingat sa paputok and may we all face the coming year with contentment and happiness. Tagay para sa inyong lahat! :)

I lost my Wallet. This Holiday Season is the Bomb YEAH!

Gabby and I went to Robinsons to get food for Charlie. And a dog soap. She wanted to go to the amusement center and we played there for an hour.

We went to National Bookstore and got something for our Xmas Party tomorrow. I had it wrapped. and the way it was wrapped SUCKED bigtime.

at dahil sa pukinginang cab driver na yon, ang dami kong dala, wala pa shang barya. SA ISANGDAAN! WALA SHANG BARYA SA ISANGDAAN. putangina. pagkabunot ko ng wallet ko, after saying na wala shang barya, kumuha ako ng pera sa bulsa ko para sa barya nya.

pagkauwi ko... wala yung wallet. andun lahat cards ko. putanginang buhay to.

Happy Holidays!

Ryan The Temp Santa Slash Christmas Guru.

Its official that Ryan really is the Christmas bear... that is, if there is a carebear for that.

I was so bummed yesterday until 8pm. Coz i have been alone since Sunday and the only Christmas-y object here in our house are the christmas lights outside our house. and i doubt it that my uncle wanted to put the lights because its christmas. It's so people could see his plants on nighttime.

The gig started ok, Rae singing two songs and Dinno taking over. Classic. hahahahahaha. I know how Rae gets so annoyed whenever it occurs Then a British guy jammed with us, making me sing "Message In A Bottle" and Coco playing on drums. Al's in tandang sora and Gene with his in-laws. So i got really exhausted hoping that we will be playing. Coz Sid's Mom is expecting it. Until Rey came and we played for an hour.

Rae's Eheads Fruitcake Book is Amazing! Ryan is a sneaky sneaky gif-giver the fact that he knows what i shouldve bought then he buys it for me as a gift. That Purple Zara Jacket will never be trumped hahahaha. Then he got me this Scarf from Topman for Christmas. Dianne gave me Panda coasters (kasi ako nga raw si kungfu panda. wow.)

The Noche Buena is... of course, nakakahighblood. I went out of my sisters house coz they had this broiled chicken and LOTS of lechon kawali. Hypertension anyone? Had Kurant before the Ramos' famous Hot Cocoa. Then Dinno and I watched Teeth. Such a Christmas Movie.

JM has been missing in action. :( what is wrong with that person. It's christmas and i have been expecting him since sunday.

Ivan called me up at around 12mn. My cheeks are still hurting from now. We were just laughing the whole conversation.

Tricia and I didnt have the opportunity to call each other. well, Yesh, Rye, Her and I had a pre-christmas gathering. Rob Manila, eating at Gumbo and laughing all night while eating.

Ryan woke me up at 145pm. He brought gifts and Candy canes. Well acually, there were 7 candy canes hanging on the computer table. I ate one. It was actually eight. hahahaha

So to all... of course Merry Christmas to you and your family. Hope when new year comes, we have cleared ourselves and showered each other with love. :D

Lethargic and Annoyed.

Since Friday, my body has been absorbing alcohol. I have tequila, vodka and beer streaming in my veins. As I have myself waking up at 3pm today, I agreed on having Cup Noodles and a liter of Minute Maid coz i really do not have the energy to type, lalo na of thinking what to cook.

Whats worse... is the tagalized version of Twilight.

Wouldnt be twilight the english version of Lobo? whatever that is. Ive heard its a love story between a werewolf and a human being. tama nga ba ako? baligtad nga lang. yung werewolf yung babae.

So whats the difference of making us see the same story everyone has already seen or read? Ah. siguro it caters the people who dont fully understand English. Sana lang hindi nila gawing tagalog ang bagong buwan, eklips (forgive me for that, i tried googling the tagalog word for eclipse and it showed tagalog version of total eclipse of the heart which is "bakit hindi ka naging tapat"... ugh. abnormal drowsiness coming up.), at sa pagbasag ng bukang liwayway (in fairness parang 70s film by lino brocka ang title na yan).

I strongly believe in the Filipino's talent. We have a lot of creative minds canoodling somewhere pero i really do not get the idea, why do we always have to have a version of EVERYTHING. pero lets give them credits for that. Talented talaga tayo sa paggaya. With added drama, and such.

I saw the casting at twilightsaga.multiply.com. if you do not want to get offended, do not highlight the space below.

Rayver Cruz will star as Edward Cullen and Shaina Magdayao as Isabella Swan in the local television version “Twilight.” The hit vampire novel has been bought by ABS-CBN has bought for more than US$1 million with Ignite Media as co producer. The taping is set to start next year by Feb. in Baguio, Tagaytay, Bukidnon with some parts to be shot abroad. To be directed by Cathy Garcia Molina, the TV adaptation will focus on Edward and Bella’s love story to be treated as drama, romance and fantasy. The unofficial cast includes Valeen Montenegro as Alice Cullen, Gabby Concepcion as Dr. Carlisle Cullen, Luis Manzano as Emmett Cullen, Al Tantay as Charlie Swan, Yayo Aguila as Renee Dwyer, Fred Payawan as Jacob Black, Carlos Agassi as James, Chin Chin Gutierrez as Esme Cullen, Karylle as Rosalie Hale, Joross Gamboa as Jasper Hale, Jessy Mendiola as Jessica Stanley, Empress Schuck as Angela Weber, Brad Murdoch as Laurent, Nikki Bacolod as Victoria and Aaron Villaflor as Mike Newton. Rayver and Shaina were former love team partner but the tandem did not work. It seems their tandem will click in “Twilight"

Ok eto na yung word vomit e.

Sa lahat naman ng gaganap na James (edited: i typed in Jasper hours ago... sorry.), BAKIT NAMAN SI CARLOS AGASSI POR DYOS POR SANTO? SIRAAN BA TO NG BAIT?

Pero ito hindi ko kinaya. Nasa Twilightsaga.multiply din nakuha hahahahaha.


galeng di ba. ito naman kay greenpinoy.


Twilight paper. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA. Yan ang creativity. Barugin nyo ang mga taong akala nila cool yang mga pinaggagagawa nila. Oh and by the way, find that petition site for "Takipsilim". Wow. they hated the version so much, they will really find a way to make it stop.

Pero kung ang rights daw ng twilight is costing around 1 million dollars, mukhang si Paquiao ang magbabayad out of his panalo at sha ang gaganap na Edward Cullen. Sa baguio raw gaganapin e. Wow forks. Tinidor.

Sige lang. gaya lang. sino ba ang malulugi. Nood na lang kayo ng ibang channel. Kaya ayoko ng manood ng local channels e. Mauurat ka lang kahit sa balita pa lang.

Birthdeps Eve.

I think this is the only birthday i will never try to celebrate. This is the only year that i really didnt feel any excitement or anything. Shit yeah im getting old.

Time flew so fast. And i really never noticed that my day is fast approaching.

It's Abhie's birthday too. I remembered the perfect birthday we celebrated last 2005. I read the notes cheche compiled secretly while we were celebrating. I remembered ourselves having fun. Jumped on the pool at around 4am. Randomly. Drunk with 30 bottles of gin and 3 liters of vodka. 2 cases of beer. All of my friends were there. Aia was there. and i read her note when we were so thankful that we have each other in our lives. but of course i messed up.

Abhie gave birth yesterday. Of course i got excited. but we have loose ends that I need to tie. She was so pissed off i disappointed her. in a lot of ways. coz i didnt grow as a person. And evaluating my year, yeah. i think i got stuck last 2005. Just in case you read this, consider this as my open letter. I really do feel sorry things had to happen this way. And Ivan was right. I kept on running my whole life. If theres a new word for sorry, i think thats it that i will be using.

I miss my mom. There were a lot of years she missed my birthday. Well of course i am too old for this kind of drama shit. But what do you know... old people still has issues. Or the fact again, that i am stuck.

I just wanted to sleep for 2 days. so it would be december 12 then. I wouldnt be thinking what food to cook, what my friends were expecting, what i would be busy of, hosting them, getting drunk with them. in fact, there were many days within this year that it has happened. so why would it be too significant. para lang akong saksi ni jehovah. ngayon naintindihan ko na.

i am not proofreading this. and for the past couple of days, hindi ako nakakatulog. naglalaro ako ng tokobot. kanina sa mall, i was slurring. thank god ryan was there to cheer me up. i trance, drank bottomless orange juice and had potato chips, talk, then trance again.

i really do not know if i am making sense today. its just so irritating that i have to oblige myself to be cheery coz of my birthday and christmas. i really do not feel cheery at all. cheery is not even my pretend-emotion.

im happy in a sense that i have friends. few of them are really excited on celebrating it. and im still afraid to disappoint them. coz im not emo. im just so blank. so blank, i really do not know what i am thinking right now. i think my hands got its own thoughts. it just keeps on moving and typing.

so okay. happy birthday to me. happy birthday abhie. i love you and i wish for pele to be as healthy as a horse. (pun intended. ivan's private joke. teehee) -- yey humor!

so there. i have to go to sleep now. and pretend its a happy day to look forward to.