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i just had a glimpse of the 79th oscar and wow, jennifer hudson won huh. thats a pleasant surprise. too bad the thing she wore in the red carpert is kinda

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what bolero is that? a bolero for a soon-to-be broiled chicken. and um... i love anne hathaway. but she looked like one might hell of a piñata having a bow on her chest and on her.. uh, tail.

ive watched the "dreamgirls" oscar performance, and i just had this kind of stress, like, if beyonce's vocals bop ur head one note at a time and this bop goes a notch stronger whenever its one note higher, ill be pretty beat up. and my head will be all bluish black. sumn like that. and then, make it two times coz jennifer hudson made me feel that too. i dunno if beyonce had her vocal calisthenics exceed the normal limit coz of the fact that hudson got the best supporting award but again, this is not an angela velez-regine tolentino im-better-than-you thing onstage right? wow. point of comparison.
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watch heroes. damn its gettin better and better. and one thing that surpised me..



is Stan Lee, creator of the xmen series and a lot of superhero blahblahs, made a cameo on the 16th episode as a bus driver. coolness. as of prison break, i dunno. its still one hell of a nerve-wrecking suspensed series.
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kevin zegers has a new movie. "it's a boy girl thing". dont u think body-swap themed movies are just so redundant? BUT... im still goin to watch it. LATER! hahaha.
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im actually ANNOYED with Daniel Radcliffe's sarcasm whenever he's asked about Harry Potter. Havent he thought it was actually Harry Potter that gave him a career. that nude play of him may come as one of his burntout retorts and not "ooh im such a great actor i wanted to be naked in front of a live audience, that would be a great challenge" image.

and people are actually saying that the parents shouldnt be angry with him posing like that and lets just be happy hes playing a different "sensible" role. well, the fact that jumping on a role like that, without subtlety, could really cause a commotion. i mean, i have a 7-yr-old niece who likes him as daniel radcliffe because of the fact that hes harry potter, how would they get to absorb the fact that he's now naked with horses. didnt he get any teenybopper role offers THEN do that birthday-suit thing? he shouldve made a GP movie in between harry potters. sheesh. ok, lets just imagine Tom Taus the Anak Ng Bulkan doin his kiddie stuff (if ever theres an Anak Ng Bulkan trilogy or worse, a 7-part movie, im so sorry my train of thoughts seemed to be a lil LRT1-ish and i couldnt find a child actor that would suffice the comparison... well id try IC Mendoza but...) then he stars in a new play "Machete 3". come on.

i know i know i couldnt care less seeing his perky nips like that but wtf, what about the kids?

Night Thoughts

PBB season 2.

as i was suffering from migraine, and talkin to leeza in ym, i overheard the neighbor's tv playin a new version of the PBB theme so i went downstairs and checked on the dusted television.

twas the army-themed opening of PBB.

it became an awfully star search i must say. if we say filipinos (er.. the word PINOY in Pinoy Big Brother mightve had a meaning somewhere), they shouldve got ordinary filipinos. normal "we- love-noontime-shows" filipinos. not half-pinoys half-something. it shouldve been more interesting.

but eyecandies will make our lives a lot prettier. and i say, theyve got a handful there.

If ur a fan of house and greys.. watch this.

taena ng madtv. wala akong masabi. christina yang rocks. hahahaha

some kind of miracle.

Have you ever really felt that sometimes, there is no point in fighting, and the least thing that you could do is just give up? I mean, there would be times that all those supposed hurtful things would be just plain normal, which i suppose we call numbness, but when you dont feel anything anymore, you tend to look for the pain just to have that kind of sense in living, then its right then and there you stop to fight.

There would be times in our lives that we just stare at the pink sky, anticipating for whats going to happen within that certain day, and you ask for something, like... change or consistency, but it always disappoints you when some people just go and it would be tiring to meet new ones, or how you would put up with this and that, or stand up to something bad that was left the day before. but when you just have those few options every single day, those frequent disappointments, you shake your head then start to think that you are already way too weary.

Why are we all in a certain deadline? we are all time-pressured to make the right decisions and we all know we dont make the right ones, or even have the right choices. then we in certain situations, we give up, breathe hard, then just talk to ourselves in our minds or pray, as some people call it, asking for a little miracle so things would be good without doing anything just for that time. and little by little, the chances that we believe that there is worth fighting for, fall like dying leaves.

And little that we know, we are just living for moments. moments, that we could share to those new people, moments that could give us the strength when we are putting up to this and that, and the moments that we have our grip on while fixing whats left of yesterday. The moments that will make us keep fighting... that would be enough miracle.

"...at the end of a day like this, a day once so many prayers answered, and so many arent, we take our miracles where we find them, we reach across the gap. And sometimes against all odds, against all logic... we touch."
-Meredith Grey
Grey's Anatomy

yey bday.

"..Everything is conditional. You just can't always anticipate the conditions."

Dr. Gregory House
House MD

...works for me.

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woke up at 4pm then went to Jim's late birthday celebration. the band "Sourberry", (composed of Sid, Kim, Ryan, Jeff and Dino) played at the party but i kinda sang for more than 3 hours. whew. then they played one of my songs. which was really good. ^^ Went to Karen's birthday (Che's Sister) at around 1030pm. A bit drunk, had a lil headache, fell asleep at around 12mn then woke up at around 4. I'll try to upload the pics on Monday, JM forgot the USB cord for the cam. sucks. shempre wala na ko sa mood nun. sira na momentum.

i feel dehydrated.

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907am
why the hell did i give Avril Lavigne the benefit of the doubt that it was just a bad sellout slip when she did her second album "under my skin"?

have you seen the first single "girlfriend" in her new album?

worse. it made me puke i am now more dehydrated than amoeba itself.

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1102am
taena may bago akong crush. for the longest time, may crush na rin ako. at hinding hindi nya malalaman kasi alam nyang malabong magkacrush ako sa kanya. wahahaahahahaaha. ansarap. parang highschool uli.

Some Kind Of Miracle.

Have you ever really felt that sometimes, there is no point in
fighting, and the least thing that you could do is just give up? I
mean, there would be times that all those supposed hurtful things would be just plain normal, which i suppose we call numbness, but when you
dont feel anything anymore, you tend to look for the pain just to have
that kind of sense in living, then its right then and there you stop to
fight.

There
would be times in our lives that we just stare at the pink sky,
anticipating for whats going to happen within that certain day, and you
ask for something, like... change or consistency, but it always
disappoints you when some people just go and it would be tiring to meet
new ones, or how you would put up with this and that, or stand up to
something bad that was left the day before. but when you just have
those few options every single day, those frequent disappointments, you
shake your head then start to think that you are already way too weary.

Why
are we all in a certain deadline? we are all time-pressured to make the
right decisions and we all know we dont make the right ones, or even
have the right choices. then we in certain situations, we give up,
breathe hard, then just talk to ourselves in our minds or pray, as some
people call it, asking for a little miracle so things would be good
without doing anything just for that time. and little by little, the
chances that we believe that there is worth fighting for, fall like
dying leaves.

And little that we know, we are just living for
moments. moments, that we could share to those new people, moments that
could give us the strength when we are putting up to this and that, and
the moments that we have our grip on while fixing whats left of
yesterday. The moments that will make us keep fighting... that would be
enough miracle.

"...at the end of a day like this, a day once so many prayers
answered, and so many arent, we take our miracles where we find them,
we reach across the gap. And sometimes against all odds, against all
logic... we touch."

-Meredith Grey

Grey's Anatomy

Confessions of a YouTuber.

Everytime i get connected to the www, i have these must-visits or must-checks websites. Like my Gmail, Friendster, Journal Friends, Multiply visitors, Myspace, Torrents (for those series that i watch) and our Yahoogroups. So ive made a bookmark tool to just lessen the hassle of uh... typing (YES I KNOW IM LAZY!). And recently, i saw myself doing my own video blog due to those gazillion times that i search for something to watch*... and yes, thats in YouTube. note that its 750am and i havent had any sleep yet. checking on my previous post, inaantok na raw ako pero dahil sa YouTube, eto ako nagpopost para sa website na yan. taena.

A lot of those people i know visit YouTube just for trying to catch up on a music video that they missed, funny commercial clips, news clips and some series that were divided on 5 parts. And it was just recent that i fixed my YouTube background, picked up some favorites and subscribed to the videos of strangers that are pretty much interesting for me. (I am such a sucker, i even subscribed to lonelygirl15). Happyslip is a Filipina-American who does crazy skits of her relatives, homemade soap operas and just plain funny conversations. David Choi is a Korean-American who composes his own songs (and he actually made the songs available for download last Feb 19 in Myspace... just for that day), a really really great singer, and Ailee.. i actually forgot her username but damn shes such a cute asian. Well she sings actually but more of covers. Some people do have REAL talents in which they could show to the world, hassle-free (but you still need a lil gut doin it) and little by little you realize... the world is full of interesting... and fckedup people.

YouTube actually demolished one of the detachments that we have since the dark ages and i am actually pleased that the haters, the self-obsessed, the inventors, the songwriters, the burntouts and the people with-lotsa-ideas are somehow compressed in a small box which they find comfort in. We share ideas no matter where and who we are. Because we can actually visualize and hear the experiences a person could have.

It took me a year to do this post and ive never actually imagined that im going to have this, but yet again. *cues David Choi's "YouTube: A Love Song" softly in the background*

So... Are you a YouTuber?


*i recommend http://www.fanpop.com ... thanks to che, for watching AMERICAN series. emphasis on american kasi baka magsearch kayo ng Mara Clara doon or Jewel In The Palace.

antok.

woke up at 4pm and ive no idea how to go to 19east alone. i mean, i think itll be traffic. or if i leave our house by seven, lawton would scare the hell out of me so i guess im off to take a cab. i just hope that the cab driver would try not to be an asshole. oh god. i hate commuting. i am again a hermit crab.

ill be hosting the night with Hilera and Hale. hope things would go fine.

i actually woke up with a song in my head and i feel so frustrated not recording the melody right away. i got the words but damn i lost the tune. it got me off the mood.

and im so paranoid about a lot of things lately. i mean... i know theres something going on behind me and the very least thing they could do is try to talk me out of it. Operative word... PARANOID. That statement is so uncalled for.

ok. off i go.

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Feb 23, 325am

yeah. the gig was all good. i was hostin like crap. coz i was supposed to do my spiels while the band is settin up but there's this giant screen in 19east and they only get it rolled up when the band's all ready and once the band's ready na, i dont think i should make them wait and the audience. so i was talkin with an average speed of 100 words/minute. what the hell. hay bawi ako sa susunod.

chris and bobby jammed with hale. played broken sonnet and underneath the waves. suhweet. its so good i didnt know i was missin those songs.

oh and theres this girl from UP socio who interviewed me regarding her thesis. she was compiling interviews from e-group moderators and there were questions that actually made me think. nice nice nice.

after the show, mamu, joal, anna and i went to ortigas then greenhills then anna's place. at 2am. tapos nagsiopao. mukha nakong siopao speaking of.

pics will be uploaded tomorrow sa multiply ko. em so sleepy.

edited 453am


on second thought... its already uploaded. ^^

di mapakali. tsk tsk

reedited my header coz it seemed like it was drawn by a 5-yr-old kid named gabby. hee hee ipagyayabang ko lang ung bago kong gawa. ^^



its actually me. payat nga lang at nakapagahit. JM drew it then i photoshopped. tag team. i just love it so much. *hearts*

rehearsal was ok. but aris the gitARIS didnt receive the notice so hes absent. Ryan, Al, Dian and Rey were here and talked about the first songs we should polish like: Brighter Than Sunshine, How To Save A Life, Suspension and some compositions.

Just feel like posting and posting. i am obsessed with my lj. lol

Its time...

... to change layouts. hee hee. i changed my multiply layout and my livejournal layout. check it out yall.

it all began when i edited gabby's pic. ^_^ parang... nainggit ako na japanese inspired yung prints kaya ayan. hee hee.

hay nako YouTube.

i uploaded my first YouTube stupidity. the upload was succesful but weirdly whenever i click to my vid, it says "The video you have requested is not available. If you have recently uploaded this video, you may need to wait a few minutes for the video to process." and i already uploaded it 18 HOURS AGO! few minutes daw... shyet.

its actually nonsense. well its my first time to do it so try to be nice. i have feelings too ya know.

edited 632pm



i reuploaded the video and it worked sheesh.

sunday.

its a typical day. i woke up at 3pm, went downstairs to get some coffee while waiting for the water pump to get the shower working, took a bath, brushed my teeth went upstairs with my mug, and watched grey's anatomy while enjoying it.

and i was on episode 16, the 2nd part of the 3-part accident episode... then in the middle of it, my heart almost stopped... seeing meredith grey like that.

i was in panic. and damn its just a tv show. i was watching intently, taking a sip then my hand shook, burnt my tongue then the hot coffee splashed all over my chest. great. just perfectly great.

i paused it, cleaned up the mess... then played it again, and cried. why do tv shows like these makes so much sense? omfg im so pathetic.

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speaking of almost having a breakdown... Britney Spears flew coach from miami to LA, shaved her head, and had 2 tattoos. i am really sad it had to happen to her. she almost had everything. almost.



heres a CNN clip regarding the issue.

fuchsiang pagibig

has anyone checked out the new Silent Sanctuary album "Fuchsiang Pag-Ibig"? I totally recommend the album. A lot of songs captivated me the first time ive heard it. wow. (special thanks to JM *mwahugs lol*)

i love "rebound", "nagtahan" (the fact that i live near there and i bet anjo wrote this song lol), the non-christmas song "parol", the good-vibed "summer song" and gawd... KISMET!!! i love love LOVE the song.

"And I’ll drive for 2 hours
To bring Butterfingers
I don’t mind the distance
This kismet’s a dance.."

*cries* i love butterfinger.

i wonder, did they have a new vocalist? sessionists na lang dapat vocalists nila. like the exact opposite of chris carrabba. hee hee.

but they should keep their new vocalist. :)



GET GET THE ALBUM! ITS SO GOOD. :)

That Once A Year Thing

everything began out of it. our every beginning was caused by either a
mistake, or some magnetic invisible force that bound two people. we
might not want generalizing things after the argument of its existence,
whether if its really there waiting for us to find or those
philosophers just made it up so we could start naming behaviors then
help us out of oblivion. like trying to have a definitive answer since
no one could prove us wrong about it.

its so weird that love is
just like a matter of opinion. and yet, we tend to use it then try to
choose one out of its 9 meanings. sometimes, it fills the void in us
but for some, it makes them emptier, the warm attachment gives them the
cold shivers. but knowingly, love shouldnt be just a phase. it was
meant to be established, be familiarized with, be sincerely felt and be
well-decided. because after stage 1 of trying to convince yourself,
next would be both sides' thoughts. plans. then there goes the
you-wanted-your-own-space phase and the compromising. next thing youll
hear, sparks die. not the author. what i meant was the magic. THE magic.

its
just so bad when things dont go out the way you thought it would turn
out. you try to build your world around it, then it crashes down. along
with your "everything". i mean, cmon.

is it because of the
everyday drama we watch on television the reason why we try to be more
definite with what we feel? or what we do perhaps. like the "looking",
the "waiting", and the "dreaming" for mr or miss right.

love
shouldnt be celebrated like couples prancing in a mall, holding hands
like kindergartens, wearing things with a shade of red (at the same
time), and mocking people out of them being single in ONE DAY. try it
everyday if you want to. hope you get contented woth YOUR LIVES!
*pants*... O_o wow. thats one hell of a rant. now back to being normal.
it just proves that im not a fan. lets just say if INC doesnt have
christmas coz of the fact that giving should be an everyday thing,
maybe for me... loving is like that. christmas = valentines. i just
dont like the mush and the sap and the cheese. its just... too sweet.

now
the word love is overrated. we dont even know what it really means
anymore. and we tend to hurt each other for the wrong connotation for
one might know how to really love and the other might've had it
superficially. then we look, we wait and we dream. then its the same
thing happening again. so we get tired of looking, waiting and dreaming
until we dont know that its the real thing, within grasp, in front of
our eyes. then we stop believing that it does exist.

love might hurt. might be really painful. but living with thorns would be all worth it rather than living without the roses.

say i love you. then mean it.

that once a year thing.

everything began out of it. our every beginning was caused by either a mistake, or some magnetic invisible force that bound two people. we might not want generalizing things after the argument of its existence, whether if its really there waiting for us to find or those philosophers just made it up so we could start naming behaviors then help us out of oblivion. like trying to have a definitive answer since no one could prove us wrong about it.

its so weird that love is just like a matter of opinion. and yet, we tend to use it then try to choose one out of its 9 meanings. sometimes, it fills the void in us but for some, it makes them emptier, the warm attachment gives them the cold shivers. but knowingly, love shouldnt be just a phase. it was meant to be established, be familiarized with, be sincerely felt and be well-decided. because after stage 1 of trying to convince yourself, next would be both sides' thoughts. plans. then there goes the you-wanted-your-own-space phase and the compromising. next thing youll hear, sparks die. not the author. what i meant was the magic. THE magic.

its just so bad when things dont go out the way you thought it would turn out. you try to build your world around it, then it crashes down. along with your "everything". i mean, cmon.

is it because of the everyday drama we watch on television the reason why we try to be more definite with what we feel? or what we do perhaps. like the "looking", the "waiting", and the "dreaming" for mr or miss right.

love shouldnt be celebrated like couples prancing in a mall, holding hands like kindergartens, wearing things with a shade of red (at the same time), and mocking people out of them being single in ONE DAY. try it everyday if you want to. hope you get contented woth YOUR LIVES! *pants*... O_o wow. thats one hell of a rant. now back to being normal. it just proves that im not a fan. lets just say if INC doesnt have christmas coz of the fact that giving should be an everyday thing, maybe for me... loving is like that. christmas = valentines. i just dont like the mush and the sap and the cheese. its just... too sweet.

now the word love is overrated. we dont even know what it really means anymore. and we tend to hurt each other for the wrong connotation for one might know how to really love and the other might've had it superficially. then we look, we wait and we dream. then its the same thing happening again. so we get tired of looking, waiting and dreaming until we dont know that its the real thing, within grasp, in front of our eyes. then we stop believing that it does exist.

love might hurt. might be really painful. but living with thorns would be all worth it rather than living without the roses.

say i love you. then mean it.

February might not be enough...

...but my life is full of beautiful people born on it.
(8TH: Burns Puzon, Cecilia Enriquez and Arthur Lui-Pio 9th: Walter Sy)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYS!!!

I am wishing you all the luck and success in this world. i swear you gave me so much happy moments in my life. :) i love you i love you i love you!!!

about a b*tch.

have you ever felt that feeling when youve thought that all your life, you have been trying to be nice and in that one moment of complain, you snap, coz no matter what you do and how you do it... youre still the bitch that everybody talks about?

isnt it so tiring when all those dramas and shits that youre living with just happen as often as an edsa rally? i mean... there's surely nothing wrong with some downs and lows in your life but... when youre the antagonist of somebody's telenovela... where do u choose to stand? succumb to somebody's issue or have the word bitch written all over youre forehead.

this comes with a plus if you have been the biggest bitch to your friends. and when you try to talk about it, they say its nothing serious. but when its ALREADY serious, youve left with no choice and a handful of words youve been dying to say.

i get the fact that everybody has issues, but crap, if youve been so inhibited and yet pretend that everything's cool and life is a laughing matter, then your house of cards came crashing down, dont blame it on the bitch. because seriously... the bitch has been compromising a lot just to preserve whats left real and sincere. the bitch has been there to preserve the thing that you call companionship, which you label friendship or that shit youve been dying to use on a hallmark card. and yet again.

people get tired smiling, nodding, and letting you do things when you boss around. and those people dont deserve to be called a bitch. coz seriously... those people are DYING to say that YOU are the bitch but again, i honestly think that being a bitch is a lot better than being DENSE. at least the bitches get to know that they're hated. unlike you.

caught up.

am a friggin big sack of potato. i havent slept since yesterday catching up with smallville, greys anatomy, and one tree hill.

and i strongly suggest that if u dont wanna watch a heart-attack inducing episode, stay away from one tree hill season 4 episode 9.

if u wanted to still be annoyed with lana's weird way of speaking like shes talking to flies, begin with season 1. coz until this season... im betting my life she's still the same i-wanted-to-know-the-truth sl*t with the vocal cords of a bumblebee.

i actually get it that lois lane is clark kent's destiny. but wow. the writers really ruined lana lane's image. id rather want her dead than be a skank. you know what i mean?

there's a new eyecandy in smallville. wonder who might that be. *wink wink*

and grey's... not having a single complain. still loving all of them. except for the isaiah washington (dr burke) issue telling t.r. knight (george o'malley) that hes a fag (he actually said the word according to katherine heigl). a lot of people has been complaining and requesting for the producers to fire isaiah and they all think its just one petty quarrel. so what if... mcdreamy says hes a niggah. would they try to punish patrick dempsey for being a racist or its just another itsy issue for them? im just curious.

another bad news... tweener of prison break was arrested from having a gross vehicular accident and killing a 17-yr-old boy. he was later proven positive with alcohol twice the legal limit and was high with coke. sad but now he should try and look for another scofield so he could really break prison. for real.

now i have to sleep or people might confuse narcolepsy and wimpiness if i fall down all of a sudden.

hear ye hear ye!!!

i have never denied that im a big fan of this group. and now that they're coming back... i hope they will still sound as good as before. ^_^

*bop*

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other... its just a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to. And once weve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by, no matter how much we hurt them. The people who are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, close can be too close but sometimes, the invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."

-Meredith Grey
Grey's Anatomy