had one of those best sleeps. have u had one without a dream? like u just closed ur eyes, felt light then woke up after almost 10 hours feeling way way fine? the only thing that made me awake was hard rain. i was supposed to be as good as dead, in a good way.
oohh how i love rain. the next thing i knew is i got dressed up right away, had my headphones and jacket then went straight to burgundy. while marcy playground and dave matthews serenaded the drops on my head, i had my socks squishing. fun. *squish squish*
now im facing my pc, had three slices of new york cold pizza and a pitcher of cold iced tea. this couldve been more perfect with hot chocolate and marsh mallow. with kfc brownie. but that will be the scene later. swear to god.
m looking 17 floors above manila, seeing it drown with what everybody thinks, loneliness. dark is not lonely, rain is not sad. its the warmth which comes inside us to fight with the coolness that tries to cover surrealism. *blink blink* damn! too much sex and the city marathon. karyo bradshow. wehehe.
*burp*
5.22.2004
hohum
got over the last week of training. starting today, we'll be having live calls for ojt. yey. and my bespren lipovitan is ubos na. ive got 4 hrs of sleep everyday and my body's starting to cope. yey.
m havin fun actually. tiring but i bet its fun.
m havin fun actually. tiring but i bet its fun.
5.18.2004
mondays. blah.
had a tiring weekend. went to my dentist to have my braces checked and she pulled one of my molars. trish texted me to meet at starbucks rob. i was shaking then coz of the medicines i took. then ron texted me, and kit, thet they were in malate. so rico also came. then i saw my self drinking alcohol. yan ang bagong bunot.
sunday, it was bong's son's birthday. at jollibee taft. nothing extraordinary. just an annoying faggot as an emcee and a feeling close mascot.
woke up early to watch troy with che. para di ako ma late mamaya. balita ko nakakatakot daw bagong trainors namin.
ive been looking for the sundays album and i cant see one. pikon na pikon nako. tagal kong nalaman na the sundays pala yung kumanta nung gumugulong song sa utak ko tapos ngayon, wala akong madownload, wala pakong makitang cd. ano bang kasalanan ko? phutek.
sunday, it was bong's son's birthday. at jollibee taft. nothing extraordinary. just an annoying faggot as an emcee and a feeling close mascot.
woke up early to watch troy with che. para di ako ma late mamaya. balita ko nakakatakot daw bagong trainors namin.
ive been looking for the sundays album and i cant see one. pikon na pikon nako. tagal kong nalaman na the sundays pala yung kumanta nung gumugulong song sa utak ko tapos ngayon, wala akong madownload, wala pakong makitang cd. ano bang kasalanan ko? phutek.
5.14.2004
asshole in the making
yesterday..
- my lower back hurt almost killed me. i feel like its internal, one of the organs i mean. the kidney, urinary track, i dunno. i was about to faint coz of the pain and good thing it went away when i took a pill.
- che and i had an argument again when i was about to go to the office. not a petty quarrel.
- i left my wallet again when i was already inside the cab, papunta ng makati, mejo lagpas kalahati na. so i was 7 minutes late and i had an attendance final stern warning. though that was my first late.
- we had the half of the final exam, and i failed. thought i was about to be out. the trainor did not tell me the instruction for 6 items and all i can afford is 8 mistakes. i had 9.
- we had discusions and the trainor aked if anyone had questions. she answered sarcastically and made me look stupid. though i gave the favor back to her. and it made everything okay. hahahahahahaha. she was the one who looked stupid. and annoyed as well. the whole class was laughing at her back. gaga kasi sya. akala mo maganda, patay naman lahat ng buhok.
today, all i can enjoy is my bacon cheeseburger supreme and my biggie iced tea. feel like im used of having bad days, turning out to be normal. and having my burger with me becomes more special.
napakasarap talagang maging manhid. :)
- my lower back hurt almost killed me. i feel like its internal, one of the organs i mean. the kidney, urinary track, i dunno. i was about to faint coz of the pain and good thing it went away when i took a pill.
- che and i had an argument again when i was about to go to the office. not a petty quarrel.
- i left my wallet again when i was already inside the cab, papunta ng makati, mejo lagpas kalahati na. so i was 7 minutes late and i had an attendance final stern warning. though that was my first late.
- we had the half of the final exam, and i failed. thought i was about to be out. the trainor did not tell me the instruction for 6 items and all i can afford is 8 mistakes. i had 9.
- we had discusions and the trainor aked if anyone had questions. she answered sarcastically and made me look stupid. though i gave the favor back to her. and it made everything okay. hahahahahahaha. she was the one who looked stupid. and annoyed as well. the whole class was laughing at her back. gaga kasi sya. akala mo maganda, patay naman lahat ng buhok.
today, all i can enjoy is my bacon cheeseburger supreme and my biggie iced tea. feel like im used of having bad days, turning out to be normal. and having my burger with me becomes more special.
napakasarap talagang maging manhid. :)
5.12.2004
train a trainor.
didnt have enough sleep, as usual, and still, im chemically imbalanced coz of coke light and half a pack of yosi.
i lost my wallet yesterday. good thing i remembered i fell my bag in the office. so i txtd them and asked if my wallet was found. and so they did. too bad the person who got it had a sneering eye for me ever since. a trainor named jerome., he is so fuckingly annoying ewan ko bat anlaki ng galit sakin. sya lang ang nakilala kong trainor na ubod taas ang tingin sa sarili. ewan ko nga ba bat ako napasok sa opisinang to. andaming maeere. buti pa sa ps dati, ansaya ng lahat. ngayon, akala mo mga kanong hilaw na di nakakakilala ng mga bagong employee.
that is how they treat their new employees mga kaibigan. iintimidate na mahirap ang mga calls na makukuha. e kailangan lang naman familiar ka sa lugar sa states. peste. memory lang ang kailangan, konting logic, pakiramdam nila e naging magna cum laude na sila ng biochem. di naman siguro ako papasa ng exams every end ng week kung engot ako. eh puta, andali lang naman talaga. antok lang ang kalaban mo.
tangina nya ilang beses nya ng sinisira araw ko. kung makairap ang baklang yon akala mo babaeng kalbo. ampangit naman ng ipin. mukha pang maysakit.
aargh. tangina nya talaga.
i lost my wallet yesterday. good thing i remembered i fell my bag in the office. so i txtd them and asked if my wallet was found. and so they did. too bad the person who got it had a sneering eye for me ever since. a trainor named jerome., he is so fuckingly annoying ewan ko bat anlaki ng galit sakin. sya lang ang nakilala kong trainor na ubod taas ang tingin sa sarili. ewan ko nga ba bat ako napasok sa opisinang to. andaming maeere. buti pa sa ps dati, ansaya ng lahat. ngayon, akala mo mga kanong hilaw na di nakakakilala ng mga bagong employee.
that is how they treat their new employees mga kaibigan. iintimidate na mahirap ang mga calls na makukuha. e kailangan lang naman familiar ka sa lugar sa states. peste. memory lang ang kailangan, konting logic, pakiramdam nila e naging magna cum laude na sila ng biochem. di naman siguro ako papasa ng exams every end ng week kung engot ako. eh puta, andali lang naman talaga. antok lang ang kalaban mo.
tangina nya ilang beses nya ng sinisira araw ko. kung makairap ang baklang yon akala mo babaeng kalbo. ampangit naman ng ipin. mukha pang maysakit.
aargh. tangina nya talaga.
5.11.2004
5.10.2004
whats it?
its election day today. and i dunno what to write except for updates the past weekend. btw, bear with my uncontrollable migraine.
friday: well, migoi's trying to quit the training. we had our 2nd week final exam and three of them failed. they have to retake the exam tonyt, 10pm.
saturday: cant recall if i slept this day. went to burgundy to pay my derma a visit but instead, i made myself guilty of eating 6 slices of new york pizza again. oh. i guess i posted that day. with my pic. *grins* sat night; kit txtd me. told that anne was somewhere in manila(our kabarkada ofcmate who lives in bicol). they saw each other in watsons megamall. weird. of all people, in all places. and as a bonus for kit, he saw winston. new guy with a bright yellow jacket who kkept checking him out. 3 hours after, we were singing in music21 jupiter with rico and the 4 of us.
sunday:
had a busy day preparing for gabbys bday. i got her snow white themed cake and weirdly, they bought her a snow white banner and snow white costume. looked like we had a theme but not. everybody was there, family, friends *sigh* nakakapagod lang talaga ng sobra.
today: had a terrible terrible migraine. still had it nga pala. went to rob place to look for a polo. good thing sale sa ABU. nakatipid ako kahit paano. im with wine, jonie and ron (where: gbox videoke). ron went home right away kasi nahuli sya ng sister nya. sabi boboto lang daw. so si wine lang ang kasama kong kumain sa cheesecake etc. missed my choco malt.
...instead of that ink (that i dont really know what its called) on my right index finger, i had a bbq flavoring stain instead. that's a socially aware person :p...
friday: well, migoi's trying to quit the training. we had our 2nd week final exam and three of them failed. they have to retake the exam tonyt, 10pm.
saturday: cant recall if i slept this day. went to burgundy to pay my derma a visit but instead, i made myself guilty of eating 6 slices of new york pizza again. oh. i guess i posted that day. with my pic. *grins* sat night; kit txtd me. told that anne was somewhere in manila(our kabarkada ofcmate who lives in bicol). they saw each other in watsons megamall. weird. of all people, in all places. and as a bonus for kit, he saw winston. new guy with a bright yellow jacket who kkept checking him out. 3 hours after, we were singing in music21 jupiter with rico and the 4 of us.
sunday:
had a busy day preparing for gabbys bday. i got her snow white themed cake and weirdly, they bought her a snow white banner and snow white costume. looked like we had a theme but not. everybody was there, family, friends *sigh* nakakapagod lang talaga ng sobra.
today: had a terrible terrible migraine. still had it nga pala. went to rob place to look for a polo. good thing sale sa ABU. nakatipid ako kahit paano. im with wine, jonie and ron (where: gbox videoke). ron went home right away kasi nahuli sya ng sister nya. sabi boboto lang daw. so si wine lang ang kasama kong kumain sa cheesecake etc. missed my choco malt.
...instead of that ink (that i dont really know what its called) on my right index finger, i had a bbq flavoring stain instead. that's a socially aware person :p...
5.09.2004
call center.
walong oras nakaupo
mumurahin lang ng kano
hikab mong nakamamatay
paguwi para kang gulay
gigising sa gabi
wala ng traysikel sa tabi
ang bespren mo ay headset
may katabi ka pang bwiset
bawal kang magtagalog
kahit mukha kang nognog
samahan mo pa ng maarte
mga mukha namang bulate
ang kakampi mong kape
at vitamins na bote bote
kapalit ng bulsa mong puno
ang pagkaubos na ng dugo
tanginang buhay yan
araw araw puyatan
dila mong puhunan
parusa ng lalamunan
mga hilaw na kano
kung magisip naman ay bano
kailangan pang magtiis
sa officemates mong burgis.
mumurahin lang ng kano
hikab mong nakamamatay
paguwi para kang gulay
gigising sa gabi
wala ng traysikel sa tabi
ang bespren mo ay headset
may katabi ka pang bwiset
bawal kang magtagalog
kahit mukha kang nognog
samahan mo pa ng maarte
mga mukha namang bulate
ang kakampi mong kape
at vitamins na bote bote
kapalit ng bulsa mong puno
ang pagkaubos na ng dugo
tanginang buhay yan
araw araw puyatan
dila mong puhunan
parusa ng lalamunan
mga hilaw na kano
kung magisip naman ay bano
kailangan pang magtiis
sa officemates mong burgis.
5.07.2004
luna.
magtatago, sisilip
sa unan nya'y magtatakip
luha nyang puhunan
paanan ng langit ang laan.
iiyak, ngingiti
sa mga pekeng buka ng labi
at si luna sa ilalim ng mundo
lulubog, pipikit, maglalaho
tulala, iikot
ang prinsesang malikot
oras na mabatid ang katotohanan
si luna'y di na mapipigilan,
sa unan nya'y magtatakip
luha nyang puhunan
paanan ng langit ang laan.
iiyak, ngingiti
sa mga pekeng buka ng labi
at si luna sa ilalim ng mundo
lulubog, pipikit, maglalaho
tulala, iikot
ang prinsesang malikot
oras na mabatid ang katotohanan
si luna'y di na mapipigilan,
5.06.2004
coffee stains.
ive got coffee stains on my notebook
and footprints on my floor
your handmarks on my cheek
and on the knob of my door
those are your mugmarks on the table
and one on the cloth
pens with all your labels
spilled its inks in my thoughts
i have your coffee stains on my notebook
and your smile in my mind
the words in nostalgia
that you left behind.
and footprints on my floor
your handmarks on my cheek
and on the knob of my door
those are your mugmarks on the table
and one on the cloth
pens with all your labels
spilled its inks in my thoughts
i have your coffee stains on my notebook
and your smile in my mind
the words in nostalgia
that you left behind.
bad signs
wee. it has been my 2nd week enduring english policy and with that jibberish accent. di ko nga kabisado pilipinas, amerika pa kaya! demmit.
well lemme see... there are 264 bad days in my year and yesterday was one of them. ill not go into details. we had lunar eclipse and a meteor shower. isnt that a bad sign? and when i woke up awhile ago, i saw blackbirds without black clouds. like hundreds of them. weird. felt like god's giving weird signs.
oh btw, rico's sister already knew everything. and isnt that one of the bad signs? legal? *shrug* ewan.
well lemme see... there are 264 bad days in my year and yesterday was one of them. ill not go into details. we had lunar eclipse and a meteor shower. isnt that a bad sign? and when i woke up awhile ago, i saw blackbirds without black clouds. like hundreds of them. weird. felt like god's giving weird signs.
oh btw, rico's sister already knew everything. and isnt that one of the bad signs? legal? *shrug* ewan.
5.03.2004
lil angel
went to the zoo yesterday with gabby, bruce, alex, kent and david. also with che and ate. grabe. akala mo nakainom ng isang boteng vitamins si gabby sa sobrang hyper.
then kinagabihan, kit, rico and i went to malate para uminom. la lang. normal sabado gimik. nagvideoke naman sa music21 para maiba.
5.01.2004
pisara sa hangin
sa ilang kumpol ng alikabok
likha ng paubos na yeso
ang dumampi sa aking mga mata,
dinahilan para sa mga sinungaling na luha
pangalan mong isinambit
ng tinig na katunog ng hangin
di sumisipol
di nagbabadya
upang di makuha
upang di masira
ng mga mapanlinlang na katiwala
mistulang panaginip
ang kumpol ng mga ulap
puting pulbo
pisarang asul
katotohanang di naaabot
ng mga mapangarap na kamay
katotohanang
ikaw lang ang nagbigay
ipu-ipong alikabok
na pumuwing sa mga mata
mistulang binulag
ng hapding dumaan lamang
kinusot ng mga kuyom na palad
kasabay ng mga hikbi
isinulat lang kita
sa pisara ko sa hangin
alaalang nakapinta
at walang balak burahin
iginuhit na lang kita
sa mga luha kong buhangin
mga luhang di naubos
mga luhang kayhirap bilangin
mga luhang bumuo ng dagat
mga luhang sakdal alat
mga luhang bumuo ng mundo
mga luhang di maitago
likha ng paubos na yeso
ang dumampi sa aking mga mata,
dinahilan para sa mga sinungaling na luha
pangalan mong isinambit
ng tinig na katunog ng hangin
di sumisipol
di nagbabadya
upang di makuha
upang di masira
ng mga mapanlinlang na katiwala
mistulang panaginip
ang kumpol ng mga ulap
puting pulbo
pisarang asul
katotohanang di naaabot
ng mga mapangarap na kamay
katotohanang
ikaw lang ang nagbigay
ipu-ipong alikabok
na pumuwing sa mga mata
mistulang binulag
ng hapding dumaan lamang
kinusot ng mga kuyom na palad
kasabay ng mga hikbi
isinulat lang kita
sa pisara ko sa hangin
alaalang nakapinta
at walang balak burahin
iginuhit na lang kita
sa mga luha kong buhangin
mga luhang di naubos
mga luhang kayhirap bilangin
mga luhang bumuo ng dagat
mga luhang sakdal alat
mga luhang bumuo ng mundo
mga luhang di maitago
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