3.27.2008
The Struggle.
its like when we played monopoly last night. 8 players. and im the only one who kept on getting the "give every player 50$" chance card and bouncing back and forth to jail. 6 times before i got the first 200 salary on passing Go. That is one obvious circumstance of what im talking about. and the shallowest of course.
also... i checked on my blood pressure. i havent been eating fatty food and i think because of the heat... i have a 160 over 110 on average. talk about near death experience.
i am emotionally scattered. nakakasawa na ang drama pero i always find an open time for it. instead of just lying down, resting, people get to flick my ears. and i rested my case after brainstorming with myself. trying to find a deeper reason than an astronomical relevance.
codependency.
i really think that there will come a day... nobody will actually care for anyone but himself.
3.19.2008
3.18.2008
Pata pata pata Pon!***
Ive upgraded my PSP to 3.90 m33-2 a month ago. And i have this friend, who has a friend, na gustong mag-upgrade ng unit (pag irerefer naman ako sana may bayad. lol eh hindi e. pinasakit lang ulo ko.) tapos nagprisinta na iupgrade ang psp nya. wow. ang sweet.
since i wanted to practice upgrading psp (for champ and shel), i tried working on some stuff sa psp nya. galing sa firmware 3.03 oe-a, iuupgrade ko sha sa latest, which is 3.90 m33-2. pero hindi ganun kasimple yun.
3.03 oe-a > 3.03 oe-c > 3.52 m33 > 3.52 m33-4 > 3.90 m33 > 3.90 m33-2
6 stages. wow naman. so yung psp nung friend nya, hindi nagagamit kasi kahit magpaload ka sa mall ng games, hindi yun magwowork.
and why the need to upgrade hanggang 3.90 m33-2? because may mga bagong games na hindi nagwowork sa mababa. actually pag 3.71 m33 na yung psp mo hanggang 3.90 m33-2 safe na yun. thing is, marami ka kasing katarantaduhang pwedeng gawin pag tamang angas ang firmware mo.
unfortunately... when i was on the 3.52 m33-4 papuntang 3.90 m33, the psp BRICKED. meaning... kung nung 2006 nangyari sayo yon... isa na shang makintab at stylish na paperweight. nakalagay don update failed (error FFFFFFFE) contact technical support for assistance tapos maghahang na sha. Then if you turn it on... iilaw lang yung green light sa power tapos walang screen, then mawawala after 30 seconds.
most of the time, bricking happens when youre trying to upgrade... or load... then you accidentally turn your unit off. kaya hindi pwedeng magupgrade ng mas mababa sa 75% ang battery. pag pinaayos mo sha sa sony... papalitan nila yung motherboard... which is... hindi talaga mura. mapapabili ka na lang ng bago.
but some hardcore awesome geeks did reverse engineering and created a program for the battery. its called pandoras battery. you have to have an extra battery then re-program it and you also have to have an extra pro-duo memory card. tapos gagawin mong magic memory stick. believe me, its really magic.
imagine your gadget. dead. tapos sasaksakan mo lang ng battery... gagana uli.
....
*well actually that sounded normal. O_o*
pero sira yung gadget ha. i mean... paglagay mo pa lang ng battery... maaayos sha. imagine a big save on money and hassle. downside is... pag wala kang extra battery, hindi mo na magagamit ung battery mong reprogrammed as a normal one. so ang ginawa ko, yung battery nya ginawa kong pandoras battery and what do you know... pwede shang ibalik sa normal state. ginamit ko yung battery ko as the normal battery then inalter ko yung sa kanya. tapos binalik for normal use. so i think... if youre a person who upgrades, downloads themes and applications for your psp... you have to have it. hindi ka na kakabahan pag nasira psp mo unless mababasag mo sha or hahablutin ng batang rugby sayo.
so what i did is bricked his psp 5 times... trying firmwares from 3.90 m33-2 up to 3.80 m33. ayaw talaga. and there are certain motherboards pala na nagbbrick pag inuupgrade higher than 3.52 m33-4. tapos pandoras battery lang.. then upgrade from 1.50 > 3.52 m33 > 3.52 m33-4. pero at least... he can use his psp na without needing UMD.
pwede na akong pumwesto sa greenhills. n_n
*** Patapon is actually a new cool game for PSP. it has the same feel with LocoRoco kasi aliw. and no. hindi pinoy ang gumawa nyan. its actually the sound they make na parang tribesmen. pata-pata-pata-pon! *thumps sibat on the floor* sadly it only works beyond 3.52 m33-4. check your system software. :)
** and click on the links for reference on how to upgrade, do a pandora and reverse. :)
3.13.2008
♫♪ Google It... Just A Little Bit... I wanna see you Google it... ♫♪
( 1. the age you'll be on your next birthday )
( 2. a place you'd like to travel to )
( 3. your favorite place )
( 4. your favorite food )
( 5. your favorite animal: Wild and Domestic )
( 6. your favorite color )
( 7. first name of your significant other or crush )
( 8. the town in which you live in )
( 9. your screen name/nickname )
( 10. your first job )
( 11. a bad habit you have )
( 12. your worst fear )
( 13. your favorite object )
( 14. first name of a past love )
( 15. name of a past pet )
( 16. best friends nickname )
( 17. your first name )
( 18. your middle name )
( 19. your surname )
( 20. your major in college )
Mine is:
1.

2.

3.

4.

5.

6.

7. Lol. The Name is Che. i typed in racyll and unfortunately... it just surprised my guts out.

8.
9.
10.

11. ew.

12. @_@

13.

14.

15. Doogie. Sa kanya ko talaga nakuha heehee. ^_^

16. whoa.

17. Cute. ^^

18.

19.

20.

3.12.2008
Looong Week.
Losing internet connection has been insanely boring. and the only day i was looking forward was the incubus concert.
It was so good. unfortunately, vitamin lang ang tinugtog nila from SCIENCE album. pero still awesome.
Capones last night. I just got drunk.
Hangover. Classic.
at hindi ko na sha itatype. puro reklamo lang naman yon.
ok lets start.
♫ ♪ Incubus Concert: ♫ ♪
it was dreamy. surreal i might say. Incubus has been one of my biggest influences. And Im seriously gay for brandon boyd. GAY FOR BOYD. to give you a slight background, I love the way he writes. i love how the band experiments on the their effects. i love that they shift from one sound to another, albumwise. Brandon had a book called White Fluffy Clouds which shows some of his artworks and some written words. At first... i was just amazed of how he sings. our band covers a lot of incubus songs and our first succesful cover was summer romance. somehow. tapos he draws? and writes random things like that? damn.
upon typing it... that sounded so shallow. pero i dont know how to elaborate it. i am usually in awe pag sha ang gusto kong idescribe.
so in comparison to their previous concert here... mas enjoy nga yung dati. mas maraming songs... and i was just in the middle. a bit far i presume. ngayon... hes just 20 feet away.
imagine the one you idolize was continents away days ago. tapos andun na sha sa harap ko that night. (kahit im a person with less 4k in his pocket).
i freaked out when they played vitamin and the warmth. i think i almost dislocated ivans shoulder.
isang malalim na buntung hininga lang ang hinugot ko ngayon. hanggang dyan na lang siguro ang entry na yan.
♫ ♪ Capones Last Night ♫ ♪
Sobrang tinatamad akong magpunta nung una. bonus pa ang taxi driver na walang alam sa makati. I was supposed to be spinning for that night somehow. Unfortunately, late na yung text ni champ so hindi ko nadala yung ipod. e di ansaya sana.
Capones was jampacked. Daming celebs hahahaha. shempre ako lasing.
who wouldnt take advantage of an open bar? at brandy-filled chocos. hay.
after that, dinala ko si anna sa playground sa salcedo hahahaha.
♫ ♪ That Binibining Pilipinas Craze ♫ ♪
i never liked pageants. it just gives a reason for laiteros and laiteras to spend time on their couch.
then ive seen that youtubed q&a of janina san miguel.
of course id be a hypocrite when i say na she's worthy of the title and i didnt mind her response to the question. natawa ako... kinilabutan and thinking... "fuck what was she thinking!" i had my hands on my mouth and somehow felt scared for her.
pero dont you think saying shes boba is a bit overboard. malay nyo naman magaling sa math.
when i watched that gma news... what lhar santiago (yun ba yung name nung correspondent?) said made me disagree so bad. na hindi naman iniintindi ang sagot kundi ang tindig at porma.
so para saan ang question and answer portion? wala lang. pampalipas oras. bawal kumain ng apoy sa stage e. so thats a safer entertainment. well-justified. *insert sarcasm here* i actually thought that its one of the most crucial parts in judging. especially when that person will be representing our country to some beauty contest.
beauty contest nga naman. hindi battle of the brains.
somehow... i could say na hindi sha dapat nanalo. not because she was stuttering or had a big problem speaking in english. pero dun sa nilalaman nung sagot nya. wala kasing sense.
she shouldve answered in tagalog. somehow.. kahit balu-baluktot ang tagalog non... hindi mabibigyan ng emphasis... kasi tagalog e. yes, i think shes confident. nakuha nya pang tumawa e. pero astig. kasi natawa sha.
personally, its really a very mean thing to say that shes boba. napaka-considerate ko naman pag inisip kong pressure yon. ilang bansa naman ang gumagamit ng interpreter.
she shouldve chosen to speak in tagalog. kahit english yung tanong... e ano ngayon. nakakaintindi naman siguro yung mga judges ng tagalog. ano pat binibining pilipinas yon kung nagmistulang laban lang pala sa english class.
speaking of problems in specific languages... kung ikaw ang judge... papanalunin mo ba to?
3.04.2008
Soundtrack Of My Life
Got this from Jamiebeybeh!
RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each event, press the next button to get your answer.
3. write the title of the song.
opening credits: I'm Your Man - Leonard Cohen [ how apt. ]
waking up: Lost - Michael Buble [ Kaylungkot naman shet ]
falling in love: Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Kyla [ Nyokz. ]
fight scene: Untitled 1 - Minus The Bear [ masayang away to mala-matrix. ]
breaking up: Vampire - Antsy Pants, Juno OST [ hahahahahahahaha ]
preparing: Speak Free - Incubus [ rakrakan na!!! ]
secret love: Boys Dont Cry - String Quartet Tribute To The Cure [ aba aba aba ayos! ]
life's okay: Look Where We Are - Hooobastank [ hmm, pwede.. ]
heartbreak: Your Name Here - Straylight Run [ awts. ]
mental breakdown: We will become silhouettes - The Postal Service [ para naman akong nasiraan kung ito yung tugtog ]
driving: Good Grief - Foo Fighters [ karera ata ]
flashback: Your Love - Wyclef Jean, 50 First Dates OST [ kaysaya magbalik sa kahapon ]
happy dance: A Decade Under - Taking Back Sunday [ pano to sayawin? lol ]
regretting: Take A Chance - The Magic Numbers [ O_o ]
long night: Lightness - Death Cab For Cutie [ er.. ]
final battle: Take Our Time - TLC [ bat may ganitong category sa soundtrack ng life ko? action ba to? ]
final credits: Peace - Norah Jones [ patay tayo jan... natalo ata ako sa final battle. lol ]
3.03.2008
Hope Against Hope
as time passed by, we mightve changed. not because that is life itself but because of survival. there is alwas a phase that we see ourselves stuck in the middle of a forked road. one is to where we are sure of where were heading and one is to find out what's it there in the end. ive been such a curious boy. and curiosity always kills the cat.
all the roads that we walk onto dont necessarily have to be full of obstacles. but its just like walking barefoot on a dirty uneven road. i have travelled a long way baby... but if this is the place where im supposed to go to... i will not hesitate to go back where i started. and i might say ive never walked on comfort. i swallowed my pride, i act unrewarded... not because i wanted to... but just to have a little credit, that i could be a good friend.
it must be so airheaded and arrogant to say that some people are envious on what i have. i wasnt actually designed to think that way. so when some people think that they get used or taken advantage of.... same rates apply. what do i have, anyway? and what do you have?
i am never unfair. i was raised to have a conscience and build camaraderie. thats why i never got into sales. coz i can never sell a product i dont believe in just to get commission. because i feel awkward about it.
i am here where i stand... because i wanted to gain people in my life. i wanted to have fun. i wanted to understand more about the things that i really love. and to understand more about life.
many people knew that i am talkative. i make myself funny. just to fuck out the boredom around us. isnt that the reason why we need companions? friends for that matter... is deeper than that. it has never been a problem that our so-called friends build a life of their own. of course we have different perspectives.... different reasons. but as a friend... you share a common ground. and that is trust. that is where you defend each other... recognizing and emphasizing the times you have been there for each other.
some of us focuses more on the negative side. and that, i think, is how the world shaped us. we build our defenses... before the war starts. but... what if... thered be no war? those walls between us might create it. miscommunications... paranoias. its so strange that some people could just easily shrug it off. pretending that we are on the same page though we really dont understand that much. are we that willing to live a life like that?
so living a quarter of this life... i get to learn a lesson ive never wanted to learn in the first place. why need a lot of people you think youre friends with... if you have a handful to cry on.
i will be walking back. little by little. because im tired of people destroying what i believe in, pulling back all my hopes, and sucking all the respect i have left for myself. i am hoping not to hope anymore.
Imagine (David Archuleta)
I thought David is kinda overrated coz hes just young but.. yeah he really can sing.
Goosebumps. i think ill start watching Am Idol again.
3.01.2008
Whew.
Anyway... The launch was succesful pero soooobrang tiring.
February 29 is the day where i didnt eat ANYTHING. Except for a small pack of bread pan na pinaglumaan ng panahon and one Polo candy VJ gave me.
Pagkagising ko pa lang, i tried finishing some graphics for the event tapos diretso agad ng printing sa Q Ave./Araneta. I was supposed to go to Makati pa for Ivan since i told him a week ago na dadaan ako sa office nila... pero there are circumstancial circumstances (as roll wouldve put it). Ive wasted 500 pesos for cab fare. Great. nagmamadali ka na, nagkarally pa sa makati. at damay ang buong mundo. weird right?
ok keywords to remember muna tayo bago yung sumunod na paragraphs:
Tired. Starving. Migraine. Pressure. And i have to smile the whole night.
The gig started late. It was really fun. naghost pa kami ni erika. Thing is... im the usher for the media, i was also the host and the organizer all at the same time. talk about multi-tasking. idagdag mo pa ang migraine survival. So i sit down alone... trying to regain strength para makangiti uli and talk to people. Sabi ko nga... tiring but really fun.
Medyo mas marami ang tao nung mayrics. Isabay ba naman si Ne-Yo sa launch namin. At ang rally. pero marami pa rin ang nagpunta ha. Kaya isang matinding woot para diyan, hehehe.
I also had the chance to talk to Jayson of Rivermaya regarding super random things. To Julianne on how good she is, and to Yael regarding Lost. sweet. :D
anyway... i wanted to sleep the day off. it was half BAD and half good. ive thought about quitting on some stuff pero i talked to myself off it coz im not a quitter.
There will be major changes starting today. change is good. change is everything. Thank god makakapagpahinga ako the whole week. I wanna see my real friends. i miss them so much. sila lang ang sumbungan ko sa mga bagay na hindi ko na naiintindihan. Sila lang yung tagapagtanggol ko. and thank god they dont teach me to just run away. i miss you friends. tara lets go out please.
Kaya ako? hindi ako magsasalita. ipapahinga ko na ang sarili ko coz im tired of defending myself on a lot of things.
Monty... sobrang salamat. Hindi mo lang alam na gusto ko ng umiyak kanina nung niyakap mo ako. wala kang katulad.