year of the gadgets.

i have a dec 22 post, a christmas post and some same old shit posts to follow.

but i just like to brag about my newly found gadget.



well, im really a sucker for gadgets and this year, guess i got the things ive wanted. ive been nice. so i guess santa gave me things without waiting for christmas.

i had my md last february.


my p800 last april then sold it for..


my 6230.


and my casio exilim last august.


happy new yaer! more gadgets to come.

a supposed bad day.

well, it all started because of my fucking playstation. since my sister was bugging me for about a month now about fixing it, i made a move awhile ago to have it done. a xmas gift of some sort.

also, set an early dinner for me and . kit was supposed to be with us but he changed his mind. ask abhie about it. (chonamae: DAH!)

so here's the bad part. i hadnt had any sleep coz rico went to our house at around 6am coz he has to go back to his office at 8. so i just watched about a boy. (i love the movie. britishly funny) and mang nonie, the ps fixer, had it "fixed" at around 11am. only to find out that my ps cds arent around. not even a single one. and i paid 1,200 fucking bucks for just the bearings. i had 77 missed calls to aj coz he got all of my cds, and thank god for she has some. i tested it and it did not work. fuck. lens has to be replaced. costs almost 3000 bucks. i shouldve bought a new one.

ivan, abi and me went to ice monster just for me to obsess about my bad day (and bad texts) just for us to be disturbed and annoyed by j lo's lets get loud. so we walked, had smoke and went to bj's. had my "sample platter" of 5 quail eggs and 8 squid balls, mineral water and 1 pack of ivan's marlboro lights. yan ang dinner.

8 pm. ivan has to go to the office and abhie brought me into one of pedro gil's finest places. ukay ukay. ive got a red damn good sweater, a preppy sleeveless (which is her xmas gift for me) and i bought che a maroon blouse. tangina. ang saya. then we decided to go to burgundy. there we had our real dinner. seafood ala king, beef stew, lechon, buko pandan, fish fillet and slices of meat caldereta. yum. *burp* until...





we met lui. what a friggin coincidence. we talked over two green teas, a coffee jelly and one pack of winston lights. sobrang saya. binawi ang badtrip ko sa playstation.

a zoo date.

well, i was about to go to che's office earlier coz teena and josh wasnt home, then i saw gabby with her lola. so i hailed a cab and hurried them so there would be no discussions that could open. we just spent the whole afternoon together and oh my back hurts so much. but it was a lot of fun.

babysitter.

yesterday, i attended a wedding for the first time in my life. since i didnt have any friends who had a church wedding yet, (or there was one but i wasnt invited. no one was invited by the way.) this is the first one that i forced myself into going on a church with that kind of ceremony and there was a special reason. it was the wedding of michael (older brother of che) and sheila. che was the maid of honor and gabby was one of the flower fairies. gabby was of course one of the most annoying fairies you'll meet. she doesnt wanna stay inside the church (and WE have the same reason), its so boring. and sappy. well, if ever there is a more special reason behind it, or i am close to the couple, that maybe i can attend and relate to. full-heartedly. so i just chased her around like a yaya, with gel, tucked-in polo, slacks and black leather shoes. (see? im not into this kind of occasions.) but it was really cute though. we both know that mike was really the hard working type, and sheila was the really conservative one. its like a couple from the 50's. everybody knows that they are really for each other. i mean, they're 10-year relationship is not a joke.

today, since im bored and it's sunday, james just wanted for us to gather and drink. im with che's cousins, noc, jun and aries, with onin, and with james. bf of che's sister. it was really fun seeing them again. kaso ambilis malasing. kakaaliw. we ended at 4am.

christmas na raw.

nakasabit na ang xmas light samin. yehey.

and i had a really hard time gluegunning the lights on the border of our window and door. josh helped me with the leafy thing when it started to fall off. sabi nga ni dianne, .."ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang hirap ng pagkakabit ng christmas lights. hinahangaan ko na ang mga taong nagkakabit nito.." *sniff* yan ang mga realization. thanks dianne. my christmas wont be the same without you.

josh and i watched how to lose a guy within 10 days. di nako nakapagsimbang gabi sa sobrang antok.

: marami talagang salamat sa pagtulong sa lj-cut na yan. matagal kong binuno at salamat sa pagsagot. btw, i love the barbie pornstar episode mo.

minamadali nako ni che. hafta go to a christmas party. and later, im with kit and abhie coz its abhie's last friday in manila (for this year).

birthday pics.

finally.. geez. here are the pics. enjoy.

blah.

cant i just finish the freakin pictures?

we tried burning it on a cd so we can browse it using the dvd player. thought it was saved as the normal jpeg file, but like the normal days i have, it wasnt. im so pissed off since i locked my digicam away to neverland.

my mom yelled at me like the normal high school wake up calls coz i peed on her plant. i know i know, it was so disgusting, but hey, im drunk. dont blame me. blame the alcohol. (oh dear, ive been drinking since friday night of last week.)

shitty day. guess im back to normal.

the birthday aftershocks.

well. the next day after saturday (which is obviously a sunday), i slept the whole day. and then, i dunno what day it was when i started editing the birthday pics. so i went using adobe, then when i was about to add the last picture then the computer crashed. so we tried burning it in a cd then it did not work. it was such a lovely day.

first greeters:
text - josh
personal - dianne and ron
landline - abhie (which is her birthday as well)

just wanna thank sum people.

teena, vanni, dianne - for helping me cook the 500 siomais we have to endure.
teena - for the spongebob cell protector
dianne - for the two packs of jellyace and going to rob for the lemons
josh - for the 3 packs of winston lights
abhie - for the the tequila that made the night weirdly exciting
bongski - for calling twice staright from finland. parang celebrity huh. may phone patch pa.

and to light. who gave me a hate poem and claimed that he did not hate me. which is a bit ironic. kiddo, lets stop ruining our remaining days. mag-isip tayong mabuti kung nakakatuwa pa ba ang mga pwede nating sabihin sa isat isa.

people who came:
beach_bitch, junkedstar, candymaker, _sillyrabbit_, kit, rico, john, vanni, teena, josh, jay-ar, al, mheann. carl, isang, bert, mac, marvin, hart, bryan, gene, and my two girls, gabby and che.

details? nah. guess i forgot some of the details after 1am. pics will be posted hopefully later.


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fpj died. i mourn coz he has helped the industry before. no comment of him being a politician. and i mourn more coz he's only human. like all of us. and he has a lot of friends and family members that sorrows. rip.
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finished watching the last season of friends. man, i cried when everyone was leaving their apartment keys. just wondered, all of my favorite series ended this year. sex and the city, friends, *sigh* good things should not last.
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watched kitchie, imago and barbies cradle awhile ago. sumwhere in glorietta. i was with josh and he enjoyed it thank god. i forced him to come with us coz teena had a tutor appointment. aia... \m/... walang tatalo sa yo gerl.

wohoo..

today, is officially my birthday. have'nt slept yet (coz i have a different time zone, remember?) everybody's 7am wake up call rings at around my 3pm. eerybody sleeps at around 10 pm and me at around 6am. earliest is 4.

oh.. and.. Abhie!!!!

our barkada might have our tonight, and tomorrow night. it cant be possible to have the inuman inside our house since its still messy and stuff, we might look for another place. whatever.

my wish: lets mind our own lives. and not others. i wish everyone must be sensitive, when to and when not to do stuff, and lets get fucking rich without stepping on anyone's toes. be broke but happy, coz money is everybody's problem, and anyone can get it if they want to. lets still learn how to dream, since it's the only free thing in this world (except in japan coz you have to pay for their dream maker), and lets love each other. i know it sounds sappy and fuckingly cheesy, but hey, if we know how to be easy with each other, no suicidal will exist. well, probably.

material things, i still want an ipod. i dont know why. i wanna have a 100 gig pc, cable internet without its bills, every color of converse chucks, fossil watches (this is plural), good read books, playstation 2 (since my girl is on a tight budget, but the dvd player is waaaaayy good), transparent electric violin and guitar, boss amplifier and a dog.

so if anyone got a gift like those above, feel free to text me and i'll give you my special siomai, for free.

thanks sa lahat ng bumati. im lucky enough to have friends like you.

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for the advanced greetings.. thanks.

weird. keiko can greet me advanced coz we dont see each other anymore, but ron and light?? at bakit kayo nangbabati agad eh 2 days pa? magpapakita kayo huh. hmpf.

watched taking lives in dvd. abhie and kit was right. the movie was good. i let them spoil the ending, so im not sure now if im biased with my review. in a suspense thriller, it has been overused that the "psycho killer" usually is the one nearest the protagonist. movie will lead you to the most obvious suspect then bam.. the thought oh-my-god-the-killer-was-with-her-all-the while comes into ur mind. formulated.. 1960's pscycho flick? wes craven's scream? but to my surprise, i liked the ending.

to angelina jolie, can i just uh... make love with you? that lady is so fuckingly hot.

i am full. had 2 slices of black olives/anchovy pizza (sounds so yucky) and 2 slices of garlic/shrimp pizza. red mountain dew and a bad spaghetti with meatballs. yellow cab. tip lang: dont EVER buy the spaghetti with meatball if you're the saucy type. ew.

i am gonna skip dinner, i dont wanna go to my aunt's house hungry. baka pag nagkakain ako dun, sitahin na naman ako. since when did i have an eating disorder? i dont binge, goddamit. i just have high sugar intake. i like sweets. who could blame me? there's strawberry ice cream, chocolate eclair, strawberry soda, peppermint mocha frappuccino, and whoa, those are just idea-impulses. wala pa yung pinag-isipan talaga.

i had 7 missed calls and 12 messages last night, just watching dvds again and put my phone to "TahimikAngMundo" mode. from now on, im not gonna let anyone interfere my movie times. hmf.

making an acoustic band.

following necessities for a band to make it on their own.

A - 2 acoustic guitars. so u can practice anytime in your living room without banging the neighbor with amplifiers. tipid pa sa studio. sa studio na ang polishing.

B - lyric and tab sheets. the internet has been so friendly and generous to aspirants.

C - blank papers and a pen. since some tabs are not that reliable, try doing your own style.

D - guitar picks. no explanation needed. be sure not to forget it so here's a tip. put a hole on it then attach it to your home keys. if u forget your pick, you cant come in your house. nice.

E - yosi and lighter. a must. the object that keeps our sanity. besides mountain dew.

F - egg shaker. adds up the beat. if u have an improvised monkey (a box you can drum around. consists a bass and the snare sound.), a much better fdeal.

G - ash tray. if you do not have any, try improvising like an old used ice tray. ash tray, ice tray, sounds alike. :)

H - mini discs and player. - portable recordable gadget u can bring around just in case someone in the band forgets what the real sound of a certain song sounds like.

I - mobile phone (preferably a camera phone) - so late band members cant lie by sending an mms of where they really are.

J - digicam - so u can play around and be triggerhappy, not missing the unforgettable embarassing togetherness of each other. (some clients needs a good picture of the band. this is the astig-est cheapskate way.)

K - blank cd-r. so u can search for some songs instead of buying an original 450 cd if u wanna cover. u can also record on a voice recorder mp3 player and remind yourself of how silly and out of tune u were by burning it. that is, if ur a techy and well-equipped grungy.

rock on!

sabay bawi.

my girl cant wait to show her birthday gift for me.
a brand new dvd player and the complete season 5 and 6 of sex and the city.
tsk. she really does know how to get me back. *sigh*
/me playing hard to get

so i had the "advanced" birthday gift and had a test drive on it last night, tried to finish 6 dvds, had seafood cup noodle a pitcher of water, 18 missed calls, 4 messages, and 7 hours floated away. just me and the girls.

my "mommy" (she was the eldest sister of my dad), came home last week from germany and intrigued me with a 10am december 8 talk at mandaluyong (my other aunt's house.) i woke up at around 11 so patay patay nako. arrived there at 12, expecting it's about my so called not normal life, but, fortunately (or un), she wanted to talk about my next year trimester. preferably CSB and i should get the course that i want. oh they cant live without me having a diploma. until...

she was really angry with me being "slightly" overweight (like do i really have to tell this on public?)

she compared me to my "hunky" cousin:

cousin:
- attends yoga classes
- black i-dunno-what-type-of-karate belter
- religiously goes to the gym
- went to military school for 2 years
- scuba dives
- speaks french, greek, german, spanish and latin
- a freak
- an airhead
- an arrogant asshole

me:
- a bitter suicidal loser
- and very much happy. thank you.

geez. so she wanted me to go to the gym right away, stop smoking, and moisturize. yep. you heard me right. she wants me.. so bad.. to moisturize.

have they forgotten im a guy? or my skin is too dry?

disclaimer:
two words.
i moisturize.
hmpf.

ym conference wid bongski.

teena_fizh: cutie ba katabi mu diane
eli_cadiz: happy happy tau
jologsschoolboy: yezzzzzzzzzz
animosityforthyself: oi hindi ko linya yun huh ke jim carrie yun. nigaya ko lang.
animosityforthyself: uu.
teena_fizh: nde c chin ha
animosityforthyself: inom tayo!
eli_cadiz: promise ko poyan senyo
jologsschoolboy: liitan nyo font
animosityforthyself: papainom ako ng sago nila paula!
animosityforthyself: unga.
eli_cadiz: papakalasing taung lahat
jologsschoolboy: binabasa ng birthday gift natin kay dianne
jologsschoolboy: tina ang gwapo
eli_cadiz: hahha
jologsschoolboy: kakahiya yung ubo ko
animosityforthyself: liitan niyo! ang tyut niya taena!
eli_cadiz: pakistani lang yang kausap nyan
teena_fizh: maliit na ba...
jologsschoolboy: ang fresh
animosityforthyself: unga. TO ke dadi.
jologsschoolboy: tanginang maliit na font yan
animosityforthyself: anliit naman nyan ninay.
jologsschoolboy: buti na lang may kendi ka
jologsschoolboy: sniff
jologsschoolboy: im saved
eli_cadiz: maliit na yan sa paningin nya
jologsschoolboy: ang fuge!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
animosityforthyself: hehe... wamat.
animosityforthyself: uu nga.
animosityforthyself: putangina niyo.
jologsschoolboy: gaga
eli_cadiz: hahahah
jologsschoolboy: binabasa ng katabi nya
eli_cadiz: patchu kau!
jologsschoolboy: liitan mo
animosityforthyself: buti na lang maliit font ko di niyo mababasa na minumura ko na kayo.
jologsschoolboy: gago nababasa ko
animosityforthyself: ay danon bah.
animosityforthyself: ayus lang hindi naman gano halata eh.
eli_cadiz: patchu nababasa ko yan
jologsschoolboy: ang fuge dianne
animosityforthyself: unga.
jologsschoolboy: taga saan yan
teena_fizh: dami pimples
animosityforthyself: wet na si tina.
teena_fizh: at mukang nakafonda
jologsschoolboy: mukhang mabango yung betlog
animosityforthyself: ay nakafonda?
eli_cadiz: hahaha
teena_fizh: mumumu...
eli_cadiz: d2 chin puro dakota
animosityforthyself: taray! tanong mo brand.
eli_cadiz: llao na pag friday
jologsschoolboy: ay
teena_fizh: ay ano kaya amoy...
jologsschoolboy: may araw ang mga titi sa finland?
animosityforthyself: turuan mo ng tamang pag-apply ng fonda nay.
teena_fizh: baka tansan..
eli_cadiz: yung mga hombre d2 nagshoshow
jologsschoolboy: di naman noh
jologsschoolboy: ano ba yan tina
jologsschoolboy: ang weird mo sa chat
teena_fizh: liit naman niyan
jologsschoolboy: lolz
eli_cadiz: lolz'
teena_fizh: bong lakihan mu ng konti
animosityforthyself: so pag thursday bong yung mga medium sizes na etits nagkalat dyan?
eli_cadiz: ok na na
jologsschoolboy: hahahahahaha
jologsschoolboy: hala
eli_cadiz: plangganitang pula
animosityforthyself: so monday ka? the smallest?
jologsschoolboy: may spy na
eli_cadiz: w8
jologsschoolboy: wag na pahalata
eli_cadiz: may tao sa labas
animosityforthyself: unga.
jologsschoolboy: ay parang ang liit
teena_fizh: ay oo..
jologsschoolboy: sori
jologsschoolboy: ang oa ng liit
animosityforthyself: ayaw mo bang ipabasa message mo sa'min chin?
jologsschoolboy: pero ang cute
animosityforthyself: unga.
teena_fizh: ng spy..
animosityforthyself: tyut ng verdana na font eh.
jologsschoolboy: yaaaaaaaaaaaakkk
eli_cadiz: chin may kapitbahay kami d2
teena_fizh: ay humarap seu dianne..
jologsschoolboy: oo nman
eli_cadiz: fafble delicious
jologsschoolboy: natural may kapitbahay kayo no
animosityforthyself: saan/ bong?
animosityforthyself: ahhh...
animosityforthyself: eh di fafahin mo. pokpok.
eli_cadiz: d2 lang sa tabi namin
jologsschoolboy: secluded ba yung bahay nyo?
jologsschoolboy: ahhhhhh
animosityforthyself: wahahahah...
eli_cadiz: pag nagkakangkangan cla ng gf nila
jologsschoolboy: putang ina
eli_cadiz: rinig d2 sa bahay
jologsschoolboy: ivideo mo
eli_cadiz: hahahaha
animosityforthyself: kangkangan talaga amp.
jologsschoolboy: tapos benta natin sa recto paguwi mo
jologsschoolboy: lolz
animosityforthyself: unga.
eli_cadiz: hahaha
animosityforthyself: para extra income ka bong.
eli_cadiz: gagah
animosityforthyself: batet?
animosityforthyself: okay lang yun.
eli_cadiz: parang condo kc d2 yng mga bahay
eli_cadiz: wall lang ang pagitan
jologsschoolboy: ahhhhhhhh
eli_cadiz: ang nyetang babae
animosityforthyself: ahhh.. butasan mo.
jologsschoolboy: huwaw
jologsschoolboy: eh di bate ka ng bate jan
jologsschoolboy: ayuz yan
jologsschoolboy: kasi malamig
animosityforthyself: unga.
eli_cadiz: kung humalinghing kala mo labas abot hanggang bituka yung etits ng syota nya
jologsschoolboy: eeeeeeewww
animosityforthyself: pag-uwi mo dato kuluntoy na etits mo kakabate mo dyan.
jologsschoolboy: morbid tsong
animosityforthyself: unga. kakasuka.
eli_cadiz: honga
jologsschoolboy: /me singing chestnuts roasting on an open fire
jologsschoolboy: lolz
eli_cadiz: lolz
animosityforthyself: gugutom na ko.
eli_cadiz: w8 balik ako
eli_cadiz: luto lang akosandali
animosityforthyself: papainom ka ba chinnie?
animosityforthyself: okies.
Yahoo! Messenger: eli_cadiz has declined to join and sent: Thanks, but no thanks.
bongnogz has left the conference.

animosityforthyself: taray! me kausap pa sa cel habang nakikipagchat sa'min.
animosityforthyself: si ninaypuro cyber.
teena_fizh: nde naman...
teena_fizh: tara na ba..
animosityforthyself: hehe..


mis na namin si bongski.

one bad day.

december 2: we had our gig at green valley bowling and billiards. valle verde 1, pasig. at kasabay ng bagyong yoyong, kami'y basa habang ako'y nilalagnat, inuubo, sinisipon at malat. i already had 6 packs os strepsils and 2 packs of streptuss. (damn. i forgot about jal's difflam.) call time is 3 pm, (i wonder why kahit ang tugtog namin ay 730pm) but we really have to go to the studio to rehearse and polish some songs, since hindi nakapagpractice si rei kagabi coz he has to go to the hospital dahil sinugod ang mom nya coz of asthma attack. 2am. i called the organizer para itanong kung pede pang magbackout, and just to give the impression of how unprofessional i am lalo na pag anxious. (coz nga ballroom ata ang tugtugan na gusto. sino bang hindi kakabahan?)

so dahil sa baha, traffic at tangang taxi driver, nakarating kami ng 6pm. pero wala pa naman kaming gagawin dahil wala pang yung mga tao. we talked to the organizer na ang first set namin is alternacoustic and 2nd set is reggae. since kakain pa sila (sila:35-127 yrs old. wala nga atang 35 e.), so instead na mobile ang tugtog, pinag-acoustic namin ang drummer namin since marami syang alam na mushy old songs and rondalla member sya.

only to find out na ang isa sa mga organizer, which happened to be a rich old screaming faggot, eh gustong tumugtog ang banda agad. we overheard the fag, ".. i hired them as a band and not a one man show. they're ruining my night.." PUTANG INA! KUNG TUMUGTOG KAMI NG FOR YOU NG STAIND TSAKA ISRAELS SON NG SILVERCHAIR HABANG KUMAKAIN SILA NG LUMPIANG SHANGHAI NILANG 40 PESOS ANG ISA NA KASINLAKI NG DIRTY FINGER KO, MALILIGAYAHAN BA YUNG TANGINANG BAKLANG YON!!!

so we started the first set right away, and after 3 songs, ang sabi ng matandang babae sakin ng pabulong (lumapit naman sya at nakangiti) "..can you please hurry up, coz the power has been cut around the subdivision area,and.." (ito yung matindi habang dinideliver nya ng nakangiti..) "..you're wasting our time.." WALANG PUMALAKPAK, NAKINIG AT SA SOBRANG BADTRIP KO, I FINISHED THE SET NG 5 SONGS LANG.

the band was really pissed at naginuman na lang kami sa bowling area. only to realize na may mga kasama pala silang DI at naghihintay pa rin ng ballroom. pakshet pala sila e.

after 4 days, heto ako ngayon, having nightmares of that fag.

aaaaarggghhh. ang hirap talagang gumalang ngayon.

what's better than the britney and madonna kiss?

the john mayer and adam levine kiss. lolz.

sick.

our band is playing at a christmas party on thursday.

last saturday, i panicked coz the party organizer asked if we already have the lineup, and she was asking about "ballroom" songs. i feel like someone just forgot THAT WE ARE AN ALTERNATIVE/REGGAE BAND. last month, when she asked about our band, i emphasized that we are an alterock band and i tried talking to her that we can't play coz of one big reason. the crowd. it consists of age bracket 35-127 yrs old. h christ. to add a lil twist in this game, i have nasopharyngitis. started yesterday. and a lil touch of fever, cold and cough. yehey. im soooo ready for thursday.

/me checking mails

*taka* anong meron sa yahoo? bat di gumagana? wag silang ganyan at yayahoohin ko sila.

aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggghhh! when will the suffering enddddd?????

maiba tayo, i was checking my friends list and i saw gloriouspopstar's entry. hehehehe. thanks sha.

LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER:	doll master
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW:	god of small things
FAVORITE BOARD GAME:	scrabble
FAVORITE MAGAZINE:	gq
FAVORITE SMELLS:	kenzo, tommy girl
COMFORT FOOD:	sago
FAVORITE SOUNDS:	imago's, kitchie's
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD:	confused
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING:	what to do.. what to do..
FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE:	el pollo
FUTURE CHILD'S NAME:	gavin jacque
FINISH THIS STATEMENT: "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY, I WOULD":	fuck everyone
DO YOU DRIVE FAST:	hell yeah
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL:	yep
STORMS -- COOL OR SCARY:	scool
WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR:	a maroon lxi honda. plate #ukd919
FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK:	tequila and vodka
FINISH THIS STATEMENT,'IF I HAD THE TIME, I WOULD LOVE TO':	fuck everyone
DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI:	hindi ako kuneho
IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE:	violet
GLASS HALF-EMPTY OR FULL:	full
HOW MANY CITIES/TOWNS HAVE YOU LIVED IN:	four
FAVORITE PLACE TO RELAX:	bathtub
FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH:	soccer
WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED:	the dust monster
TOILET PAPER/ PAPER TOWEL--OVER OR UNDER:	eh?
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

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we had our regular friday gimik last night. kaso starbucks lang kami and music 21 ktv. after that bagsak nako.

i was with abhie, kit, and iko.

just opened the package from germany. sent by my "mommy". she's actually my aunt but she was the one who took care of me when i was a toddler so i cal her that. she wanted to adopt me but of course, my parents did not agree. (kung ngayon pa in-offer ang adoption eh hindi na kukurap ang mga yon maidispatsa lang ako).

had perfume, 2 pants and 3 shorts. but my uncle and my mom wanted the shorts so tig-iisa na tuloy kami. they really love my two girls dahil halos isang karton eh kanila.

sakit pa ng ulo ko. hanggang ngayon. may praktis pa kami mamaya and just dropped by while downloading some of the songs.

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ang kitchen naming mistulang building sa tagal matapos, ay isang malaking katarantaduhan. malalaman ng isang tao na hindi na maganda ang hassle na nangyayari sa buhay nya kapag ang mga sumusunod na ito ang mga tanong sa sarili.

- nakakain ka na ba sa ibabaw ng ilalim ng upuan?
- namula ba ang mata mo ng dalawang araw dahil sa alikabok?
- nakapagluto ka na ba ng noodles sa labahan ninyo?
- naubos na ba ang mga damit mo dahil hindi ka nakapaglaba ng dalawang buwan?
- nakagastos ka ba ng mahigit dalawang libo para sa masusuot na damit dahil di ka nga makapaglaba?
- nakatapos ka na ba ng 4 libro sa loob ng tatlong araw dahil di ka makanood ng tv?
- nawala ba ang remote control ng compo nyo dahil sa mga tambak na gamit?
- nagmistula bang kulay semento ang blue mong converse?
- nakapaghiwa ka ba ng bawang at sibuyas sa may hagdanan?
- tumira ka na ba sa kwarto mo ng mahigit tatlong linggo?
- naghugas ka na ba ng pinggan na may pintura at semento?
- ginusto mo bang kumain sa malinis na plato pero hindi ka makakita ng kahit isa?
- naghanap ka na ba ng plato habang mistulang mamatay ka na sa gutom?
- sinubukan mo na bang magbukas ng lata gamit ang tinidor?
- nakapaghalo ka na ba ng corned beef gamit ang tinidor na pambukas mo ng lata?
- nanghiram ka na ba ng pambukas na lata sa kapitbahay na kahit si mcgyver ay magtataka kung paano gumagana yon?
- nabaliw ka na ba habang umaasang gaganda ang kusina at banyo nyo?

ako, isang namamakyung OO.

breakfast: (1:25PM GMT +8hours)
3 tigdadalawampisong sago
5 boy bawang
1 tiglilimampisong melon
3 isaw

lunch: (4:40PM GMT +8HRS)
7 pan de coco
1 starbucks na warm choco without whipped cream (uy sosi.)

dinner: (mamaya pa to.)
ang walang kamatayang sashimi sa tokyo tokyo.

.... sana umabot ako ng birthday ko. *kaba*

(kasalukuyan akong nagddownload ng songs para sa lineup namin. 225 kb na lang,,, biglang na discon. back to 0. wow. cant i just kill myself?)

geez.

forgot sex and the city again. pushit.

watched the premiere of the polar express last night at powerplant cinema 6.
walang katuturan, pero christmas.
nakakahilo, pero christmas.
ang galing ng animation, at christmas.

had practice last night paguwi. pati ngayon, kagagaling ko lang ng practice. wala na akong lakas para kumanta pero shige, usapan e.

wala akong nagawa buong araw. nagpahilo lang sa track #6 ng imago. (kung gusto nyong malaman, bumili kayo ng cd.) (lumilindol ba?... puta, hita lang ng katabi ko.)

nahihilo, nahihilo, nahihilo.

(bat ba laging eheads ang tugtog dito? ala na atang ibang cd. hahay.)

blah.

lets have the normal news first.

thanks bespren aj for the premiere tickets. it has been a while since i went to a premiere night.

do you know the feeling of having this very bad headache then after taking 4 mefenamic acids, the hurt is gone but u feel its still there. thats what im feeling right at this very moment. oh wait...

*blink blink*

i was checking my friendster and i gave my ex a birthday message. she's 24 and i was like teasing her about being 26.

EX wrote:
> pakyu.
>
> Xavier wrote:
> > kidding. alam naman ng lahat na 25 ka lang.
> ano k
> > b. :p
> >
> > so hows (the bank where she's working) dami kong utang
> jan.
> > nagngumusta lang.
> >
> > EX wrote:
> > > anak ng tokwa. 26 mo muka mo!! i hate
> > > you!!!! :D
> > >
> > > Xavier wrote:
> > > > i think i have to greet someone a happy
> > > birthday.
> > > > late though.
> > > >
> > > > happy 26th birthday. lolz

KELAN PA SYA NAGSIMULANG MAMAKYU? geez. nagulat lang ako.

anyway, back to where i was, my migraine was like this annoying meralco-man during your 8am sleep.... (bat ang liit ng bigmac ngayon. tanginang buhay to), and can you imagine this sound in the movie the grudge? like this high-pitched dial tone whenever toshio appears? i had that last night and at my peripheral view, i saw somebody walking from the terrace into my room, and i didnt look at it, but its clear that it's not normal. it has like normal soulder length hair, straight body, in white, walking slowly (unlike the sadako moves),i closed my eyes, prayed, and counted to 50, i was afraid to open my eyes then turn my head towards it, i was too fragile last night, if ever its in front of me the time i opened my eyes, i know im gonna die of fear. im not usually afraid of ghosts but last night was way freaky. the only light was my green nitelite so i opened my study table light and my room's. i wasnt supposed to post this but it still disturbs my whole morning, just the thought of it i mean.

okay. next topic. (im not used to this horror crap.)

while listening to the cab's radio station, 90.7, (can we blame them?) when i was going to powerplant, the drivers were playing with their two-way radios. nagtatanong kung ano ang tagalog ng orange. sagot ng isa, ponkan. sagot ng isa, sankis. sagot ng isa, dalandan. tapos may humirit, "berdi ang dalandan. hindi oreyns. bobo." lolz. tangina. pinasaya nila ang araw ko.

gotta go. post post na lang.

bubbles.

*smile*

*sigh*

What did it mean to be crazy?

People would say for example, that certain sportsmen were crazy because they wanted to break records, or that artists were crazy because they led such strange insecure lives, different from the lives of "normal" people. Then there are people who had often seen pushing supermarket trolleys full of plastic bags and rags and proclaiming the end of the world.

"...insanity is the inability to communicate your ideas. its as if you were in a foreign country, able to see and understand everything thats going on around you but incapable of explaining what you need to know or of being helped, because you don't understand the language they speak there."

"We've all felt that."

"And all of us, one way or another, are insane."

veronika decides to die
-paulo coelho

bad day.

is it everybody? or am i entirely the word mistake made in human form?

due to some very very personal reasons, i had a very bad day. i broke down again and i cant help it anymore. my mom and i had a fight again. (wuz new?) she wanted to wake me up coz we have to buy stuff for the renovated bathroom and kitchen. and since i only slept for around 1 hour, i cant just stand and do the hokey pokey like im uber excited. in the first place, i cant go outside the door without taking a bath (since our bathroom's under repair, i have to go to my sisters house.. yadda yadda.. and my mom wont like delays. so in short, i am a sleepless, batheless, morning glorified freak going to deal with chinese tinderos/as so.. it cant happen.) and since (again) she knew the colors and how the things looked like, she can go there and haggle with it herself. but no, she chose another color, (in fairness, white mixes with everything. but the supposed color was blue) and i freaked out to look on a door with a fish-stained glass. ew. i said plain. is it hard to tell it to the chinese peeps. no. she just wanted it her way. just to annoy me i guess. and when i commented with everything i saw, she blamed me and told me im not helping. so i just shut up like a spoiled brat, went to my room, talked to my sister and cried. (thats not just the deal, those were just the things that triggered everything and my sanity, crashing down.)

and i had another thing that ruined my entire day, i called a band practice coz our drummer was around. i texted aia and tim that i cant go tonight coz of that, went typing and stuff for our playlist, then just gene and marv was around. the bassist, i dunno where the hell is he. but i am so pissed off. and since rico quoted claremont about jean grey, "..the person who tries so hard to be strong that she sometimes forget she's human."

im in human mode from now on. lived to hurt. to decide. to defend. and i dont give a fuckin care if i also hurt others. a dog eat dog world? *shrug*

hangganan.

nangusap ka na ba sa kumpol ng batong nilumot? itinanong kung hanggang saan ang taas ng pangarap na ipukol sila para makita ang munting iglap ng ganda?

ang lalim ng karagatan na mababaw para sa buhangin, naramdaman mo n ba?

nakakatawang inaabot ng katauhan ang langit. pinagisipan ang mga laruang nakakayanang labanan ang pababang hila ng mundo. nagdasal para makarating lang sa malaking asul na kumot habang hawak ang mga bituing ikinandado ang mga hiling na di natupad. mga patawad na hindi naipadala. mga tanong na hindi nagtutugma.

nilalabanan ang katotohanang ang langit na inaasam, pag narating, may patutunguhan pa. nag-aagawan sa init at dilim na hindi namin gugustuhin ninuman. at hindi kailanman papangarapin.

gusto ba talaga ng lahat mapunta ng langit? o impyerno lang ang gustong takasan? mundo lang ang gustong lutangan? pero ang totoong langit, hindi talaga pansin. hindi tinitingala, hindi nililingon.

dahil sa iba, langit ang apoy na maaaring idaan sa takas. sayaw sa baga, na hindi nilubayan. nangapa sa dilim para makakita, ng hindi gumagamit ng liwanag.

mga emosyong luha ang itinatangis sa ibang nakangiti. nakangiti sa mga luhang itinatangis.

nasaan ba ang langit?

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ok. here it goes again.

i have been really busy editing some pictures. i was supposed to post my poems and those pix but i always lose my diskette. twice. (oh so dumb)

i thought i promised to stay off alcohol. but on a monday night, i had a bottle with josh, marvin and jr.

speaking of malate (in which i didnt know what part i mentioned it), last sunday, josh, teena, marv, jr, jon and i went to abhie and i's regular "shisha"-an. (shisha - an arabian tobacco, puffed in a weird instrument invented by a lampshade maker i suppose, or a big water pipe, in which called as "bong" here in da pilipins. bong, on the other hand, is used for juti prut, if u know what i mean)

monday: deja vu

funny thing, marv was really angry when she saw teena and us having shisha on jr's phone video. thought we were having an illegal thing going on. but it seemed like, he was more addicted than anyone.

gene showed us his brand new powder-smelling acoustic guitar. neat. he also made me hear those new songs in our acoustic playlist. which consists of 91 songs as of the moment. we're still trying to beat ipod's capability. . acoustic pa lang yun ha. wala pa yung rakrakan.

ill try to post the pics by tomorrow. if i could

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i lost what i posted again. bullshit.

as.

had been running down from ages
lurking past the shadows of predecessored rages
finding myself staring at the same
dark-blue pinholed blanket of self-inflicted shames.

as to the heavens that heard you
wove a fallacy of two
whispered a soul back to me
from a not so distant treachery.

i said i love you
so many times
i know youve heard me
you still chose to cross your line
i said i need you
but baby i lied
you're nowhere beside me
but you know im doing fine.

since when did a mastered craft
sweetly surrenders to words which makes you laugh
cheering for the creation of the world
that succumbs and crumbles after you.

as you can see the shattered pane
of that wrecked running train
has been flashing in front of me
delivered by an epiphany.

haha.. zzzz

it has been the 5th consecutive night that i got drunk. and last night was a red signal.

abhie, rico and "gary" (he's this goodboy-looking ex-suitor of abhie) went to see me. friday night. we ate pizza and gary wanted to drown his family problems. (i really do wanted to help, but come on! i just knew him for like what.. 130 minutes?) and since we do not have any plans of using thie night for some serious partying, he should make it his treat. so we went to the blue room and just got some drinks then abhie texted iann and khaz.

we decided to end the night there in their place, but ei, the party was just getting started. when we talked over some things like adobe photoshop, lj wallpaper, tool, wolfgang, and an acoustic fat tuesdays version of britney's toxic and some stuff, i felt like this bumblebee girl in blind melon's no rain video. where after being an outcast she finally found her place. well, that four-cornered room consisted of people without inhibitions (except for an ass) and 3 hidden mini-koala bears. enjoyable was an understatement. even fun. god i loved the place. so iann got this vodka-mountain dew code red-sprite thing and it was really good. not until, i passed out.

yep. for the first time in my history, i fucked up. but good thing im not the barfy type. i just passed out like a tamagotchi set to sleep. damn. pretty embarassing but that was the sign i should get real water. not alcohol. first i didnt really feel im getting woozy or anything then, snap, my head hurts. i hit the floor from indian sitting. the "gary" incident, (yep, there was a gary incident) is not worth blogging.

so thank god for friendster.

me <--> abhie <--> ivan <--> iann <--> khaz

i had another world that i can see myself living into. again.

temptation

*tired*

just done finishing my new lj bg and i wanted to finish and edit all the pics that i have but i havent done it yet.

ill post sumtym tomorrow. im soooo tired.

/me singing sleep all day

keekay.

did u see the moon at around 5am? damn it was good. with those two big bright stars around it. took a picture of it and i forgot where i put my cam. ill check tom.

im done with meg cabot's boy meets girl two days ago. it was so funny. that's the part where i become gay. when i like girls stuff which by rules, the girls and Only GIRLS like it. like oil-free moisturizers, khaki sling bags, flavored lip balms and colored stud earrings. i dont wanna look dirty by the way. well, if having a girlfriend of 6 years and a 2 yr old kid isnt excuse enough, i might convince myself that i am gay. and i should tell my parents about it. and everyone. maybe i am gay. maybe i am not. who the fuck cares by the way.

ive been playing the guitar for 3 straight days now. and we also bought kitchie nadal's cd. and would you believe, our band had 80 songs in hand. and those are just acoustic songs. neat. i guess we're packed to have auditions by next month.

busy boy.

this pc is so dumb. i lost my 2 posts. can i just say pakshet.

hmm..

like ive said twice, i had dinner with tricia last friday. ron, jonie and dianne followed. then kit and abhie. we were so noisy sa don henricos. pero major saya. too bad i forgot to take pictures. (sobrang taglish daw sabi ni rico)

i spent a lot again. i maxed out my credit card. just bought boy meets girl by meg cabot (kikay) and the god of small things by arundhati roy. im just finished reading deception point and now, im stuck with eleven minutes (coelho).

i kept on looking for brown's digital fortress pero wala pa ring stock. and trust fund boys by whosoever. hay.

ang tagal matapos ng bahay. good thing ryx comes with me to look for the right things.

the dust, the noise, the tv-less days, *sigh* good thing i have my books. kaso dahil sa sun cellular, telebabad lang ako. masakit na ang tenga ko dahil sa headset.

a week's post

got to manage to sneak in and use my gf's net connection. teehee. have been soooo busy the past week. our kitchen and bathroom is still under renovation. already a week now. and its one hell of an inconvenience.

thursday: congratulations imago!!!! they have already launched their 2nd album entitled "take two". freedom bar with all of my prends and they launched it with typecast (played "rainsong") and twisted halo (played "bathala"). weve got a lot of pictures and since im just sneaky here, dont have the time to upload it. i had the pin, the album, the shirt and the poster. geez. got so high after the gig. mean, literally. *wink wink* ive felt every pulse beating, ate 15 pandesal with strawberry jam and butter, barfed, and told somebody over the phone..
anong nararamdaman mo..
para akong nasa loob ng tupperware sa gitna ng grocery. gets?
*click*

the bastard hung up... sheesh.. oh well..

friday: star city with che and her office friends. got the pictures as well and ill try to upload it as well.

saturday: went to glorietta to do some "serious" shopping. 30 blank cds, (odie and garfield oh-so-cute cds), 2 shirts, pillows, and i dunno whatelse. after that, went home and had sabado nights with the tropa.

sunday: went to glorietta again for the winnie the pooh trick or treating with the kids and gabby. fuck those stores without the candies.

monday: nov. 1. all saints day. didnt go to the cemetery since we dont have a dead person here. (is that good?) we just had another serious inuman. like 8 big bottles of beer, long neck of empi (if u dont know what it is... its emperador) and again, 14 bottles of beer. and we're only 5 people. walang tama. syet.

tuesday: went to the dentist. bad day since my head hurts and the house is sooo dusty.

today, gone to sm manila. to buy a new book. :)

happy november.. eh.

epiphany #41

im just plain tired.
with nothing new in my life...
oh, a sponge cola cd.
a big SSDD post-it stuck on my forehead.
with a big letter L on the back of my shirt.
glasses that doesnt hide my swollen eyes.
swollen eyes coz of spongebob.
ugly movie.
bad coffee.
broken keychain.
lost pair of my favorite earring.
a supposed bad movie.
lying advertisers.
misleading slogans.
migraine.
tummyache.

*sigh*

*oversensitivity mode on.
warning: if the eyes go smaller, take two steps backward, or you might lose a turn.

parke sa bahaghari.

tumaas-bumaba ang tubig na hindi inintindi ang dahilan kung bakit. basta alam ko, iba ang lukso ng tuwa sa makikita mo ang sirit. tumakbo, lumundag sa paraisong natatabunan ng usok. naghahanap ng ngingitian, kakawayan, kapalitan ng mga pinulot na batong katumbas ay kayamanang nakukuha sa magkabilang dulo ng mundo. tuturo ka sa buwang nagpapatawa sa likod ng malaking kulapol ng ulap, kalaro ang mga bituing nangingiliti at umiindak. tuyong damong berde pa rin ang kulay, tipaklong sa dampa ng palad, tutubi sa dulo ng sinulid. gulatang nakapagpapasakit ng tyan. sorbetes na mistulang langit sa ibabaw ng apang lumalambot, hawak ng mga malalagkit na kamay. slide, takbo, akyat sa hagdan, slide, takbo, akyat sa hagdan, aray nauntog ang ulo ko, slide, takbo, dapa, bangon, akyat sa hagdan, slide.. alam nyo na ang susunod.

ililipad pa ba ako ng pitong pulang lobo, tapos lulundagin ako ng mga isda habang dumadaan sa dagat?

ang ganda ng dilaw na puno, tapos asul na bulaklak na may paruparong mas malaki sa bahay. pero di ako natatakot kasi mabait siya. lahat ng mga taong patpat, nakangiti. magkakahawak ang kamay. pati araw may mukha, katabi ang mga ibong letter M. iidlip ako sa hapon, para tumangkad, sabi nila. tsaka wala naman talagang multo sa aparador e.

nasa labas ng bahay lahat, at talagang sasampuin mo ang pulang lobo. para lumipad tayo papalayo sa paraisong nilukob ng kamunduhan.

pwede pa bang maging paslit muli?

a boy had a dream.

i woke up with a heavy burden inside my heart. the sun was shiny. the weather was great. but to what was happening around me, i started to ask myself if i was ignorant.

the domino effect. life is nothing but a circular standing domino pieces. if contact equates hurt then the hurt we do to others goes back in a long process, and that's how we tend to not remember it, then the hurt goes back to us. but we keep on hurting each other. in tiny ways. now, people finds it hard to smile anymore. and we do not know how we affect each other's lives. because everybody doesn't care.

we hated this place. this country. this planet. but we never supported it in many ways. on how we pollute our environment. on how we disregard traffic rules. and then we hated traffic. which is also the effect of ignorantly doing things the easy way.

we ask for the real happiness. on how we find bars of gold. our treasure chest. but we disregard the paths, the choices, the decisions we take. because mainly, the focus of the ideal happiness that we consciously know is convenient. we want things easy. and whenever things go scary, we never face it. we run away. unknowingly, the simple joys are the real happiness. the satisfaction of getting the reward after a chaos. as simple as getting a bonus leaf or magic flower after bumping those rocks and those mysterious boxes, jumping fireballs and ducks that looked like turtles. we don't have the princess yet, but we'll get there. after so many stages.

and we don't support each other. because we also try to save only ourselves. because we thought we grew up in a dog eat dog world. but we're not dogs. we're higher beings, who knew it well that if we're sensitive with each other, we will know what will be satisying for everyone. this planet is just one hell of a big basketball team. with just one big basketball ring. we just have to know where our places are, then we'll be having a lot of points. and losing will not exist. the eeny-weeny problem there is eveyrbody loves drama. twists. the bigger problem, addicted to it.

so love, friendship, blahblah, falls into their right places. if we just know that we do not have any intentions of hurting anyone, how could we go wrong. we can get what we want, without stepping into anyone's toes. we just have to wait. for the right time. we should not hurry and at the same time, not take anything for granted. lucky are those who knew when they'll die. because that is when they will ask for quality time to love and befriend the world. but do we really have to wait for that kind of time? i thought everybody wants to be happy.

again. im not preaching. and just slightly, i see god as our life. god is in us. if u know that church song, god is in the hungry, god is in the jail, god is in the little child that wails. if we hurt anyone of us, we hurt god, we hurt ourselves. the domino effect. it leads back to us. pretty good sample is the tithes thing. the bible demanded(take note of THAT term) 10% of what we get and give to god. according to some people who interpreted that. because if we dont give anything to god, (god=church according to some), god will also do the same thing. but isn't god in the hungry, the beggar, the thirsty? why do we have to focus on giving to priests who have cars. who lives well. who eats well. i dont get it. where's god there? i dont treat the bible as a normal paperback, but isnt it subjective of our own interpretation? the tenth part there could be the umpteenth, the nth, a metaphorical symbolism of how to share. for me, god equates life. life needs balance. and i am embracing life. so i am a believer.

i said too much. actually, i still have a lot of thoughts about this place. i dont think we need to be highly intelligent just to observe what's beyond our control. we create our own environment. we do not need to blame anyone for what's happening but ourselves. it's really difficult but starting over, are two big strong words. heard again and again.

i have never dreamed to be a hero. i have never dreamed to be always right. but if i was heard in any way, my little dream could be granted.

to change the world.

pitong minuto at dalawamput syam na segundo

minsan mahirap yatang huminga. dahil na yata sa usok na hindi naman nakabuti kahit kailan. o dahil may mga nakasabit sa leeg ko, nakikinabang, pero hindi marunong mamigay. nakakalito.

minsan ayaw mong magturo. pero mas matalas ba talaga ang pandinig kesa sa paningin? dahil sa dami ng ating pwedeng makita, hindi na rumirehistro ang totoong anyo. at iyon pala, salita lang ang makapabibigay ng totoong o maling kulay dahil mas tinuon ko ang sariling makinig. o mali lang ako magisip. o mali talaga ako. nakakalito.

minsan gusto mo lang humiga. dahil pagod ka na. pero mistulang nakakakapagod ang magpahinga. bubuo ka ng eroplano sa papel, ashtray sa lata, o kaibigan sa plastik. dahil ganun lang yata ang buhay. tayo nga ba ang lumilikha ng mga sariling multo? o binuhay tayong may mga gumagala talagang hindi natin nakikita? na kahit anong bait mo, kahit anong intindi, sarili mo ang huling kalaban. kung ikaw ba ang manghihingi ng paumanhin dahil nag-isip ka ng masama laban sa kanila. o naniwala ka sa narinig. o naniwala ka sa nakita.

o dahil sadyang tanga akong magmahal. nakakalito.

lick, shoot, suck er..

it went to those petty things a naked eye almost missed seeing. a spinning spiral hypnosis of make believe or surrealism. the hunger of being the icy self-esteemed form you can imagine, clouded the reasoning and responsibilities life has brought since you learned how to play monopoly then won.

a meaningless tragedy one has always forgiven, but unforgotten. for we try to count the lessons we have to teach to one another, it was the value of the days laughing over four empty bottles and two used glasses that stops us from starting the learning process. some might cause hurt, others might cause beans to spill surprisingly. unneeded though and misses all the points.

until the world evolved like a pokemon becoming a monster. words lost its definition like a simple yes to a maybe, a no, or an i-could-not-understand-you-but-what-the-heck phrase. from aardvark to zulu. like a rare blue canary you entrust to some hands but lets it choke by squeezing it to death. caused by losing self-control and its cuteness. amazement that you cannot help thus the jungle animal type of instinct. bite my head off coz your hungry, out of glutton and not of survival.

sick.
absurd.
pathetic.
opportunist!

and then they pray of happiness.

it wasnt actually a cheese on a mouse trap. but everything suddenly clicked and snapped. just like something took a bite on it then died. it was just a cheese, that killed a part of a soul and broke a trust so hard to earn, almost impossible of gluing all back together.

so once you ask a favor, make yourself one. for the moment we blink, everything changes to a woozy hot lemonny feel we cant say sorry of. the actions we do are the judgments we make.

lates.

havent posted some of my stuff. so heto na silat humahabol.

isang pirasong langit.

ang hinubog na kundimang ipinakapit sa pisngi ng puso'y maaaring pagbuhusan ng panahon upang manakaw ng lupit nitong tinawag nating mundo. ngunit kailanma'y di nangambang maagaw ito dahil patuloy kong aawitin hanggang balutin ako ng saliw ng yong pag-ibig.

nahapo na yata ang prusisyon ng mga salita para sa pagbibigay liwanag ng nalilok na imaheng kayang silayan ng iyong mga mata. sapagkat mag-iba man ang liku-likong daan, hindi ko papayagang mabasag ang nasaksihan na ng lahat, 'yun at yon pa rin ang makikita ng buong katauhan, ang aking sinimulang hindi magtatapos.

sa nakaraang napagmasadan ko ang sariling nakatingala sa malawak na bughaw na langit, naghintay pala akong makita uli itong umiiyal. nang maipon ko ang lahat ng kanyang luha at sabihin sa makalawang mas maganda siya pag nakangiti. bagkus, ay hiningi ko ang lahat ng buong kalangitan, upang alagaan ang hindi nya maingatang sarili. nangakong hindi ka na luluha muli.

at kung ikaw ang anghel na bumaba dahil sa mga sugat ng iyong mga pakpak, likha ng mga batong mapangutya, ako ang gagamot at sasalo sa lahat ng ipupukol sa iyo. maramdaman mo lamang na lilipad ka pa rin, dahil sa lahat ng aking magagawa. maghihilom din ang lahat ng sugat ko, hayaan mo, dahil yakap ko ang buhay. na kaiinggitan ng lahat.

hindi ako nagdarasal dati. nahihiyang humiling sa kahit sampung patak ng ulan lamang para sa natuyuang mga mata, sa kahit dampi ng liwanag para sa nadilimang daan, at sa kakampi para sa digmaang hindi natatapos.

ngunit ng iabot sa akin ang isang pirasong langit, kulang pa ang magsalita ang aking puso, para sa pasasalamat na hindi kayang tapusin ng iba. dahil hindi lahat ng anghel ay laging natatagpuan sa likuran natin, hindi lahat ay isasama ka sa paglipad, at hindi lahat ay may kakayanang maghintay.

bugtong sa mandaraya.

sumbong ng pusong ligaw para sa mundong mapanglaw ay hindi naririnig ng mga hubad na tenga kalaban ang mga mapangahas na halakhak sa likod ng mumunting salitang nagmistulang mga bubog sa putikan habang sumasayaw kang nakayapak. makapupulot ka pa ba ng bayaning hindi naman pala kayang sagipin ang sarili? umagos man ang luhang masahol pa sa pait ng buhay ay hindi nakasasagip ng damdaming matagal ng lunod sa pulot na akala'y matamis, isa lang palang lapot na mahirap takasan. isang hablot sa hanging ikinuyom pa sa palad para matitigan ang akalang may ganda, pinilit sagipin para sa sarili, sa pag-iisip na may aagaw sa tunog na nilikha ng pagaspas ng mga dahon o sa musika ng paglubog ng araw.

mga bagay palang hindi naaaninag ng mga hambog na mata ang pilit mong inilitgtas sa mga kamay ng mananakit. sugatan man ang binti'y pilit itatakas. tagain man ang bisig, pilit aabutin. mapanindigan lang ang isinumpang mga tulang namutawi sa sinungaling na labi.

isa lamang akong bata na walang hinangad kundi ang magbigay ng pag-asang maghahatid sa lahat ng ngiti. diniktahan ang sariling masakit ang manakit. ngunit lahat na pala ng tamis ng umaga ay binabawi rin ng dilim. dilim na mas nagtatagal pa sa liwanag. dahil ang umaga'y mas mahirap hatiin para sa lahat. pinag-aagawan. pinagdududuhan.

may mga likha palang hindi dapat ingatan.

parang ikaw.

the first production.

in behalf of my bandmates, i would like to thank all the people who participated our very first production. sa lahat na rin ng sumuporta, it'll not be succesful without you. i just cant find the words to thank who tried and made them self stuck with us for a few hours.

the tickets were almost sold out coz we are expecting just a hundred people. and we were a hundre and 14 there. it was overwhelming. sayang di nakapagstay yung iba.

sa dalawang guest band, salamat din at sinalo nyo ang slot namin na hindi ko na kinaya dahil sa pagod. sa mga lyrics na nakalimutan ko, di na mauulit yun.

isa pang ulit, maraming salamat. mabuhay po tayong lahat.

..

i just broke down. the pressure, the worries, the petty fuckers.. it all ran straight into my head, then i suddenly i just burst into tears without knowing what the main reason is.

my heads fucking up again. i dunno if i should go drugging as well to have my balances back. i just dont know how and what to think anymore.

oh, ive got one silly question: why do some people say yes if they actually meant maybe or no? im not the type of a person who challenges an argument if s/he, e.g. can't come, disagrees, going to be late.. i mean, what's up with that? NEVER AKONG NAGING MALABO KAUSAP. PAG HINDI, HINDI! AYAW MO, WAG MO. I just dont know where they got that time-wasting, hope-crushing attitude. it sickens me too much. every single person around me. weird. i go moronically adjust my time frame/zone, because that person said yes. and my minutes just go flying out to wasteland. Putang ina, and thats with a capital P.

some people just dont understand what u sacrifice for them. mga walang kwentang tao. and i feel like, my college galit-ako-sa-mundo-without-a-cause role is trying to suck into my system again.

epiphany # 31

our gig will be on october 9. same date with alicia keys. wow. my friends will be choosing over our band and alicia keys. isnt that a tough one?

i myself wanted to watch her concert here. dang.

its quarter to 10 in the evening and i actually wanted to be stuck with the book that i have right now. i cant believe you can actually see "busy" when you cant watch your supposed scheduled tv shows, cant read the books you bought and sneak in a cafe just to have an extra time to post.

we're still nervous for the gig next saturday. hope it goes well.

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we have only two weeks to practice. *kaba*

tickets available.

6230

sold my p800 last monday. got sick of it. its too bulky and its kinda malfunctioning in a way. i dont like the resolution.

so my baby and i went to rob place so i had it traded. looked like i waste money within the span of 1 1/2 month. ill be contented with this one. (unless, 7610 becomes cheaper after 6 months).

new wallpaper. new shirt. new phone.

a saturday stalker.

around 5am last saturday, somebody told me the worst accusation ive had in my whole life.

there's this girl, well, we cant deny the fact that she's pretty, just allegedly freaked out coz she "saw" me following her to her work. she said she recognized me and I on the other hand looked at her. she also said that i was with lucky following her to rockwell. lucky is a friend, but i swear to god i'll start having a session with a shrink if anyone can see me with lucky going to rockwell. at any mall as well. he CANT be a shopping partner. god. second, he's too gay to function. mabuti pa kung titi sya para sundan ni lucky. e hindi e. una maganda na nga siya, pangalawa, babae, pangatlo, bobo.

so in fact, her family is so angry, coz i was "stalking" haer. and my wifey was also accused that she's texting her like.. "tigilan mo ang asawa ko, pokpok ka." my gf's answer to the accusation, "hindi ako pumapatol sa bobo, lalo na sa mga babaeng nakapustiso." (ahahahahahaha. that's my wife-to-be. hooooooooo!)

i cant believe they namedropped and unfortunately, i was the "main" stalker. wala naman silang ebidensya. at lalong wala akong motibo para sundan sya. oo na maganda sya. pero di ko sya type. tse!

i talked to them the next day, to start cleaning up my ass with no shit on it. they started the shitty things, and i dont know why should i exert effort to explain. here's my monologue-ish speech to her aunt.

"..my parents didn't raise me to talk about other people's lives. they did not waste money for some school so i can fail values education and prejudge, and ruin other's life. nobody cant deny that she's pretty. but i have a fiance. and im not stupid to start thinking about a third party, then stalk her. if ever i want one, isn't it too stupid to stalk who's house is 6 meters away? it's illogical. u said that you heard us talking about her. then i should ask u, what's it for me? i dont even like her. she's 17. im 24. i have a partner. i have a kid. i have so many hobbies, i even lose time for myself, i dont think i can still have a slot to follow someone. and accuse that i soooooo love her. i sympathize for the fact that somebody is texting her, calling her and its degrading her i know. but i dont think its fair for me to be involved in a very cheap, moronic, psychotic and a very pathetic case. its really hard for us to live in an environment like this. and im also a victim of the chismosos and chismosas. i dont think im gonna be like someone that i really hate. i dont want to start hating myself more.."

there. i guess it's enough for them. my moms really angry and ches family as well. kapal ng mukha. i thought i was the stalkEE. ive been everything my god. i was a member of a cult, a drug addict, babaero, may syotang mas matangkad ng three inches sa kin, nakabuntis ng kaphone pal, and now... stalker?! putang ina. pag may namatay sa lugar namin, ewan ko na lang.

they ruined one saturday of my life. i will ruin their life on a saturday.

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we'll be going out tonight. its bethie's birthday. she's 20 yrs old now, she's dutch and we will be having fun in music 21. alan, our taiwanese friend without kim. it seemed like a united nation gimmick. ive never thought i had foreign friends. we are also with floris. he's a dutch guy. and uh... with oliver, my sister and g.

i just woke up by the way. and my head hurts.

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im half finishing dan brown's angels and demons. damn. fiction or fact, every detail was intelligently put. alien ata to e.

headache. major traffic coz of the rain. we'll watch stepford wives later.

oh and i bought message in a bottle vcd. just thought of comparing it from the book. the movie sucked by the way.

6 books and a tea.

i had measles. the most enjoyable measles ever.

well, ive never experienced just listening to norah jones, reading 6 books and having lots of strawberry tea. it made me feel so relaxed, inside and out. i re-read message in a bottle, the notebook and a walk to remember. i finished tuesdays with morrie, the da vinci code and dreamcatcher. well message in a bottle made me cry at around 5am but tuesdays with morrie got me crying for almost an hour. geez. its like everything crashed in front of me. the things i did, the friends i lost and i dont know if i still can regain everything back. well its life. and everything is beyond my control.

i just realized that if ever i may be sorry for everything that had happened, others wont care. so i detach myself of being sorry and go on with my life.

cant imagine life could be sooooo easy. and beautiful.

oh, and to share something else, last friday, we went to kit's pad at citiland. and i saw jujiin. he knows ivan. abi's best friend. small world. and juj is so cute. (i know he might read this but what the heck. u really are cute)

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last wednesday, ron and i just tripped around my room til 4am. well, it goes like this.

he had the frustration of being an fhm model. i had the frustration of being a photographer. so what we did is somehow make our dreams real somehow. he became my model and i made him my subject.

i wanted to post the pics but i think i have to get his permission first.

thursday, i ent to the hospital to visit my bandmate's grandma. when i arrived i wasnt expecting to cry that hard. grabe, sobrang nakakaiyak kasi yung itsura ng lola nya. (well, the barkada calls her mama). there are a lot of hoses that were attached to her.

friday, she passed away. i guess it's better that way. rather than seeing her catching her breath through a machine.

and uh.. 5pm of that day, rico, kit, abi and i met at rob place. just ate at mangan and a 6 hour talk marathon. which is not new at all. went to our house para maginuman and nagdebate lang naman sila ng tito kong kupal. well being kupal and bobo at the same time is a really bad combination. ive got two of those in my life.

ron, comment k n lang kung ready kang ipost ko ang pics. ehehehe.

new look for the bored.

hee hee. i got sick of my long hair. rather than spending thousand bucks for having a protein treatment and a new haircut, i did it the cheapskate way. ehehehehe.

oh. this was around 330am. after watching the village and incubus concert on videos.

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two days ago, there's this female college student who rode a taxi then locked the doors. there's this modus operandi that holduppers just crash in the cab to get ur stuff and do soething worse. afternoon, she was using her mobile phone and of course, her doors were locked. take note: shes using a 5210. then all of a sudden, the window of hind left door was punched and it almost smashed right into her face. just to get her phone.

facts that scared me:
1. its within our vicinity.
2. ive never thought a 5210 was something somebody would take the risk of hurting his fist just to get that. and man, i know a car window is a bit thick...
3. i got my new phone already. whatta story.

rainy days and mondays.

im trying to sell my 3650 coz i got sick of it. gusto ko ng bagong phone. i dunno if ill get a 7610 but its too flashy. i guess i have to settle with a P800 then.

we had a band practice last friday, then we went to kels malate last saturday. sunday was a bore so i just transferred all my phone files and burned it in a cd so i can transfer it back in my new phone. in case sipagin akong maglakwatsa bukas.

i just found myself with headphones, drowning in a pitcher of iced tea while watching sex and the city then prince and me on dvd. sheesh. i dont know whats happening to me.

ang trapik. letse.

good ole chatting.

im way bored. i chatted my way out of my dimension.
i ran out of sites to surf,
tv shows to watch,
cereal to eat,
money to spend,
people to talk with
.. so i chatted. my disguise nick.. (warfreak)

(ad sa main)
(davedude)anyone has a place? i can come over if you want to tonyt. lets have some fun. im 23 m rizal.
(mack) (warfreak) rizal?
(warfreak) r u willing to go to san andres manila?
(warfreak) lolz
(davedude) layo pare
(davedude) xenxa na
(warfreak) hee hee
(warfreak) nagpapatawa lang
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(warfreak) what kind of music do u listen to?
(ROCKER23) alternativ rock
(ROCKER23) y
(warfreak) nuthin
(warfreak) just because of ur nick perhaps
(warfreak) like what bands?
(ROCKER23) like limp bizkit
(warfreak) .....
(warfreak) ah okay
(warfreak) alternative nga
(warfreak) rocker ka talaga huh
(warfreak) *giggle*
(ROCKER23) oo naman. pure rocker talaga ako. i love simple plan.
*warfreak starts to pee in his pants, laughing
(warfreak) babay na po. di kita kinaya.
(ROCKER23) ? y?

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(SleaZyKiD) do you know any good sites?
(warfreak) i wish
(warfreak) so i could quit chatting and surf instead
(warfreak) why not?
(SleaZyKiD) you can do both cant you?
(warfreak) nah
(warfreak) ya i could
(warfreak) but id rather quit chatting, puro sex laman ng utak ng mga tao. peste
(SleaZyKiD) ah sige. bye.
(warfreak) tangina ka. isa ka pa pala.

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naaliw ako kahit pano. sarap mamburot ng tao. lalo na pag manyakis. eheheheehehe.

prints.

ang masaksihan ang lila at rosas na mga ulap habang nagaagawan ang liwanag at dilim ay isa sa mga tagpo ng buhay na napakahirap bitawan. nakakatakot na maaaring di na maulit muli. parang gusto mong kunin, angkinin. o mas simple, isang larawang hindi pwedeng mabura.

at ang pagkawala, habang nababalot ang paligid ng dilim, lilikha na ng mga sugat na kahit hindi ganon kalalim ay masakit. inilalabas ang mga luhang hindi mo ipinagdadamot. na umaasang matutuyo rin ang mga luha, maghihilom din ang mga sugat. pero ang alaala ay tagos pa rin sa puso. napakahirap magpaalam. ilang ulit mang subukan, ganun pa rin ang hapdi. hindi ka masasanay.

sanay marinig ako ng mga anghel. habang dahandahan na silang binabawi ng antok. hindi na ako hihiling ng bituin. hindi ko na nanaising matulog sa buwan. hindi ko na kukuliting maglaro sa mga ulap. gusto ko lang magising. sa panaginip na ako lang yata ang lumikha.

tsaka bukas, sana ganun pa rin ang kulay ng mga ulap. para hindi ako mapagod umasa. hindi mahilo sa paikot ikot na buhay.

mood swing 76.

i was sent to the hospital yesterday morning. i was nauseous since 5 am and i kept on throwing up no matter what i drink or eat. my mother panicked a little coz i was about to collapse and im starting to look so pale. well, i had my regular medicine to prevent barfing. coke. my mother was so pissed coz the doctor wanted me to be observed for the whole day but i wanna go home. so ako ang nasunod. and it worked. gumaling ako. hehehe.

i had self inflicted wounds again. napraning lang ako nung lasing ako last saturday. it was fun though. para na tuloy akong adik. ganun talaga ako topakin.

well, the morning's bright today and i found myself having a bowl of banana nut clusters while watching will & grace. im watching "catwoman" with my girl later.

as of now, im still waiting for this blaster worm prevention to finish downloading. (while they're having bible study. isnt that um... bad? i mean, it touches my heart though but some other things are really not into my uh... type of lifestyle. guess im not ready yet.)

nice day. bright sunshine. cool jars of clay.

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i have been technically living inside a mall since two weeks ago. ive been roaming around finding a perfect shirt, perfect headphones and perfect sneakers. still i cant find what i want.

ive watched garfield and ella enchanted yesterday. wholesome muna ang mga movies ko ngayon. susunod liberated 2 naman. hee hee.

i had the new sugarfree album "dramachine". the pics inside the sleeve was taken from our place. kaso pikon si ebe, wala na naman pangalan ko sa tenkyus nya. "..at sa mga taong nasa phonebook ko...". damay na siguro ako dun kahit pano.

bad taxi.

im now working with the fifth chapter of "kissing christian". my friends told me not to post it here so they could have a surprise and excitement while they read it.

im actually annoyed with what happened 5 minutes ago. i was going here in burgundy, then i waited for a cab for about 20 minutes. since it was a bit traffic, the driver's starting to do a small talk. he was asking for directions so i said burgundy is near la salle. and just a step, starbucks is almost me.

he asked if i was studying. i said no. i guess he thought i graduated from la salle. he was making a joke about me being rich, and i said of course with full humility and a bit embarassed, no. i wont be working if im rich.

then there's this girl who was trying to hail the cab that i was riding, and he was like yakking about the girl's butt or sumthin. starting to talk dirty. til it led to sex.

then i saw one of my friends in front of la salle, so i tried to hide, called him in his cel and teased him with the one he was talking to.

my bill was 67.oo and i gave him a hundred. i was waiting for my change and he kept on telling stories and i was a bit worried. i was waiting for my change. til he asked for my number. and i said "huh? para saan?". and he didn't answer back. he gave me a 20 peso change and said, "to naman. para number mo lang e. text kita minsan". i just hurried to get out of that fucking cab. i was starting to have goosebumps.

putang ina nya. im wearing my dirtiest black boggy cargo pants, a gray shirt, four earrings and a "rocker" bracelet, and i bet i dont look gay at all. buti sana kung pogi sya eh. bwiset. hinamon ko na sana ng suntukan.

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went shopping to divert depression.

later, kit, abi, lui and rico will be going to have our "inuman" street style. hope to enjoy our late friday night reunion.

love is suicide.

changed my ljs layout. alang magawa eh.

it's tina's bday yesterday and we had some small gathering. we 9 bottles of brandy and i did not have any hint of being drunk. i slept and this morning, i cant get up and then i felt drunk. weird. alcohol delay. i threw up without anything inside me except my guts.

kinda depressed for being fickle minded and not doing anything to improve my life. i felt like i am sick of thinking what to buy, what to eat and still uncontented of what i have. especially with love.

i know i love the ones i love, but why do i entertain some new "interests" and not think of who'll be hurt. and i also think why do they have to be hurt coz i still love them as intense as before. nothing has changed. except for my mood swings.

sick. i feel like i always kill myself.

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damn. it took me for almost a month before i logged in back. i had a pc problem here so i got lazy scanning what shits this box.

i actually updated this but it didnt go through. well for the past two weeks (or three), i sold my harry potter paperbacks and bought hardbounds. its like a year before they release a paperback after the hardbound so i guess this is much better since i always buy in every exact release date. i heard rumors that book 6 will be out on november.

watched mean girls. its like a more wholesome jawbreaker. very entertaining from start to end. i remembered tricia and ron is like lindsay lohan. too good to lait. ahahaha.

ambagal ng kenny rogers magdeliver huh. tangina nila. lagi pang may mali. anyway...

im planning to buy a gameboy sp today. im tired of the advance since it doesnt have an adaptor. since im always bored, i get to cook pasta every single day and i bought microwave so if i have a guest, ill just heat it (kahit isang buwan ng nasa ref) *devilish*. kidding. baka matakot na sina diane at ron.

oh. and i didn't know i was such a good kisser. *shhh* somebody just told me casually. i dunno how that person knew. ;p

im working with my new book now. novelish and ngayon ko lang narealize na mahirap pala. i just finished 3 chapters. "kissing christian". well sam is the main character and its a bit interesting. ill post each chapter in case i have time. :D

x.

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my head hurts. i dont have a job to rob my normal night sleep but i still cant sleep during the wee hours of the night. weird.

well, everybody kinda hated my decision of resigning. and im starting to think "deeper" <--- (since when did this happen), and all i can do is stare in the mirror and brush my hair. (ahahahaha. kidding.) now i dont have money to go to where i want to go. at least i have all the time. rather than having the money but no time going anywhere. *shrug* ewan. putang ina.

at least i can play my violin and start to practice again. drum the drum and guitar the guitar. *sigh* im bored. big time. i dont have anything left to do.

pumasok kaya ako sa office mamaya? baka naman maiskandalo sila. lolz.

sloth.

wow. just imagine me facing the computer without an internet connection. for almost 12 hours everyday. its like having one half gallon of choco mint baskin robbins when ur having your how-to-lose-weight-in-10-days program. fck.

and now, i am about to resign. yes sir. i am 4 days absent having quality time for myself like, watching spiderman 2, eating cookies and having a glass of milk while watching the 5th wheel, (uh.... sexy? ahaha wrong match), listening to alisha's attic, mallrats soundtrack, cambio and twisted halo for almost evry minute evry hour, doing kim's homework, drunk for three straight days, having my cellphone fixed when it suddenly corrupted itself kahit maraming memory (damn technologies, u depend ur life on it and it suddenly surrenders to its weakness, gago).. instead of having it swapped for a 7610, i have to keep it for awhile dahil halos overhauled lahat, programs, housing and stuff, throwing my money away in exchange of ruffles cheddar and sour cream, starbucks eclair and empanada, non-fat iced choco without whipped cream (spare me the guilt please. i know i know. no unsolicited comments! just indulge with the words in bold letters, for me if ur a friend) making me an official couch potato while having my headphones on my ear while watching porn cds. at least malakas ang sound. hee hee. and enjoying our newly installed shower so i take a bath for uh... 4 times a day. (i so love my hair! <--- said in a hillary duff-ish way)

and now, monday, i have to go to the office and i have to face my team manager. its either:

- act weak, as if i just recovered miraculously from a dreaded illness. effect: no disciplinary actions or warnings. i still have my job. uh.. *pity me placard on my chest*

- act tough. as if i have the right to be absent though its a "blackout" (call center term, meaning you cant be absent during those times, fourth of july festivities so we receive like a thousand calls individually. kadiri!). reasoning: abuso. pinoy ako. (music: noypi-bamboo) effect: sindak sila dahil "potential asset" ako ng team. ahahahaha. (hope nobody in the office reads my lj) so may job pa rin ako.

its up to me if is resign or not. im in a call center tour mode. i want a 20,000 salary! (as if! <---- said in an alicia silverston-ish way). i dunno. gusto ko munang magpahinga for a month.

defense: i had a fever. pramis. nagkataon lang na i enjoyed it. :)

i am so fucking lazy.

ps: theres this website with mpegs of somebody playing the mario (nintendo days) soundtrack in piano. damn. amazing. and alvin disturbed my mind when i found him sniggering over videos of beheaded hostages in iraq. im scared.

a wet fete.

tim(imago) said it was supposed to be the biggest fete de la musique of our 10 years.

after our dinner with rico, kit and abhie, i was really sad coz i cant watch fete this year coz of my sked. so around 830, inside our office, i was boringly taking calls and this bright lie came across my mind. lame, but it's the most convincing lie that can make my team manager send me home. uh... lbm. *grins* so after an hour and a half, i logged out and told my story. and then i thought.."syyeeeettt... ansya, mapapanood ko imago ngaun"

after my 170 php cab fare, it rained suddenly, and not just an ordinary dropping of sky water, kahit sumilong ka sa pinakamalaking tolda, babasain ka ng punyetang ulan. the stage collapsed while radioactive sago project was playing and evrybody was rushing under roofs and uh.. inside restos. i met ron. i was hungry but when i checked my wallet, i left my credit card and my atm sa house. so i panicked a little, pero wala ng choice. we were supposed to wait for the rain to stop but when diego (monsterbot, cambio) said that the stage was grounded and they wont play anymore, it was a hint that i have to go home before i get cold.

then we saw tim and waved, then we approached him and told him my frustration (segue: aia, thanks sa txt. made me a lil bit better). and he was also annoyed coz 5pm pa lang andun na sya. he gave us his id and stubs, so we enjoyed a meal, a beer, and a bottle of beer.

then everything went okay again. thanks timot. babawi talaga ako.

globe telecom: bakaw

globe just had the servers cut. i just downloaded my softwares and there it goes.

PUTANG INA!

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Thank god 4 technology! I can blog while here in d office. Sa cel huh. Ansaya! Its my lunch and cant wait 2 go home 2 enjoy my cajon. Ü

popcorn review.

at long last, ive had my dayoffs. and just to feel its worth, the sked is jampacked.

i was supposed to go the dentist to have my brackets adjusted, and uh... to have it stuck again. i had 4 brackets that went off when i ate those crackers. and i thought i wouldnt care. til now, it hurt so bad. guess my jaw is moving. *scary*

oh fuck. there were big films shown last month. that was, uh.. "troy", "and the day after tomorrow". also watched "harry potter 3" when it opened last june 2. and you know what, all the executions were great. dunno if im being old or whatsoever, but here are my comments.

troy focused on brad pitt's $17.5 million naked body and the storyline was a bit different with homer's iliad. never occurred during my 3rd year high school days that it was a more.. uh.. sweet valley-ish coz of that goddamn love story. and orlando bloom was more beautiful than helen of troy. actually, there was a rumor that liv tyler was going to play the role. wow. a prologue of the prologue of lord of the rings. good thing gandalf and those hobbits weren't there.

the day after tomorrow became emotional. with some funny conflicts, especially when that russian ship DECIDED to park on the front of that public library where they were stuck. have the girl wounded her leg then after you forget it coz she was goddamn okay until after an hour, siberian wolves were chasing after them. on that twisted ship. wow. hungry for action? tara. gawa tayo ng pahirap.

harry potter 3 is highly disappointing. that was my favorite book but the movie was so dark, dragging and important points were unnoticed. ampangit talaga. puta.

pirated dvd na lang. sinasayang na ng hollywood ang pera ko.

(bubble thought)"...uh.. 10am dentist... then uh.. lunch.. rob place.. then uh.. get my cajon then party afterwards... tapos.. paguwi uh.. laba. :s .. phutek."

apologies of the unfaithful

it has been 11 months since we endured the laughters we never expected from each other. and 8 months of weeks without a fight.
im so sorry we were dragged into this kind of situation.
im so sorry we dreamed while having our spoonful of peanut butters while looking at those funny constellations.
im so sorry i always have to be 15 minutes late. or 2 hours which you claim.
im so sorry u have to choose to go to our house just to see me. travelling for worth 130 taxi bucks. for almost everyday.
im so sorry u have to miss me.
im so sorry i have to miss you too.
im so sorry i have to break things up.
im so sorry i loved u as we never expected.
im so sorry u loved me back.
im so sorry i love her more than anyone.

im so sorry i have to be married.

it happens and waiting to be discovered

- i told you fantasia would win. *grins* where's my 200 bucks, sucker?

- chocolate eclair has been inside starbucks pastry chillers since they started. and it was just last week that i ate one. *sigh* better than a drug. today, i wasted $5 to have 4pcs. then do you hear bulimia?

- wearing a blue lanyard in our office means you're just waiting to be regularized or already a reg. wearing red means the people who wear the blue ones can close the elevator door if they dont want to wait for you. whaddaya i think what color im wearing now.

- becoming a boy with my xmen comic collection, while listening to "well its true that we love one another" of the white stripes causes a fight. e.g. with my neighbor who had a sick pleasure with filipino novelty songs. oh i'd love to stoop down to her level. but not in my time. id have the chance to burn their cd player and i know im done.

- 3500 peso bill of electricity made me sick. and beacause i rarely watch tv anymore, i destroyed the remote control so my uncle couldnt watch it while im outside the house. not selfish, just... uhmmm... being a teacher. (ew. lame.)

pics and nostalgia

"..baby, baby...all i want is you..."

had one of those best sleeps. have u had one without a dream? like u just closed ur eyes, felt light then woke up after almost 10 hours feeling way way fine? the only thing that made me awake was hard rain. i was supposed to be as good as dead, in a good way.

oohh how i love rain. the next thing i knew is i got dressed up right away, had my headphones and jacket then went straight to burgundy. while marcy playground and dave matthews serenaded the drops on my head, i had my socks squishing. fun. *squish squish*

now im facing my pc, had three slices of new york cold pizza and a pitcher of cold iced tea. this couldve been more perfect with hot chocolate and marsh mallow. with kfc brownie. but that will be the scene later. swear to god.

m looking 17 floors above manila, seeing it drown with what everybody thinks, loneliness. dark is not lonely, rain is not sad. its the warmth which comes inside us to fight with the coolness that tries to cover surrealism. *blink blink* damn! too much sex and the city marathon. karyo bradshow. wehehe.

*burp*

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