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i just broke down. the pressure, the worries, the petty fuckers.. it all ran straight into my head, then i suddenly i just burst into tears without knowing what the main reason is.

my heads fucking up again. i dunno if i should go drugging as well to have my balances back. i just dont know how and what to think anymore.

oh, ive got one silly question: why do some people say yes if they actually meant maybe or no? im not the type of a person who challenges an argument if s/he, e.g. can't come, disagrees, going to be late.. i mean, what's up with that? NEVER AKONG NAGING MALABO KAUSAP. PAG HINDI, HINDI! AYAW MO, WAG MO. I just dont know where they got that time-wasting, hope-crushing attitude. it sickens me too much. every single person around me. weird. i go moronically adjust my time frame/zone, because that person said yes. and my minutes just go flying out to wasteland. Putang ina, and thats with a capital P.

some people just dont understand what u sacrifice for them. mga walang kwentang tao. and i feel like, my college galit-ako-sa-mundo-without-a-cause role is trying to suck into my system again.