4.30.2008

Much Easier.

Have you ever tried looking back, and thought... everything was so much easier. It was easier to committ mistakes, and yet never regret it. Easier to procrastinate, coz you always think theres so much time, and you detest that opportunities doesnt knock twice. It was easier to trust, and no matter how scarred you get, you always think its a symbolism of your bravery. Of you taking risks. And now, the wounds that you had hurts more than it was before when someone accidentally touches it. 

It was easier for change back then. Do you ever get that feeling that its much scarier now to take  one step away... or even forward? Those laughters that felt sincere and now... you become so cynical, you try to own paranoia at its finest.

I think we are not afraid to get old. Were just becoming more aware of reality around us. And we all know its not a pretty sight.

Ive never regretted anything. Its just that... i regret that i know more.

4.23.2008

The Starbucks Principle?

I just couldnt stand it anymore. Ive read posts and ive got an email about this article... and its just... lame. this article has been posted ages ago. eh kaso nakakairita talaga to.

    Haven’t you noticed how Starbucks has taken the place of Megamall, Enchanted Kingdom and Jollibee? Today, Starbucks spells gimmick. Suddenly everyone is mad about coffee, and is willing to spend a whopping hundred bucks for “one tall mocha frappe please!” or “I’ll have one grande iced coffee please!” Everyone claims it’s different, it’s something else and it’s to die for. Instead of catching a nice flick at the cinema, the Filipinos’ new idea of fun is to voluntarily park their buns at the café and gulp all the caffeine they can.

     No one knows exactly why Starbucks has become the hot spot, when what they serve is just foamed Blend 45 for crying out loud. Oh, try pointing this out to Starbucks fanatics (ex. the likes of teeny-boppers and kikay girls), and you can expect getting attacked on how little you know about coffee. Get ready with answers like “Duh! Starbucks isn’t just coffee! They’re ground beans and processed chocolate and skimmed milk! What do you know about that?”
They have a point there, though, because even in the United States, when you talk coffee, Starbucks comes first. Their ingredients never questionable, and if I’m not mistaken, Starbucks is an establish-since-year brand. In short, Starbucks is the coffee authority. But it ends there. Starbucks is coffee, period, certainly not a gimmick place of some sort, not convincing enough as an alternative for the mall. This, I repeat, is the case in the United States.

     But Starbucks invades Manila and here it becomes an obsession. As you may have already seen, the interior of Starbucks cafés are all designed to create a distinct ambience. Notice the Italian-tiled flooring, to the cowboy-motif wall covering, to the fancy lamps, tables and chairs crafted like those only seen in home magazines. Of course, who would miss the complicated bar counter, behind which all the grinders and blenders are displayed as if to remind you they really do process your cappuccino.

     I mean, who can resist frequenting a posh place like this? Instead of worrying about other important things, the typical kikay teenager puts on her best dress and with her kikay friends goes straight to Starbucks where she orders “one tall caramel frappe please!” This takes time to prepare, which is fine. She feels rewarded by the fact that the ethical barista would shout her name across the room by the time her frappe is ready. After she claims it, she heads for the self-service counter where she takes excessive packets of extra sugar, extra cream and an inch thick of Starbucks tissue paper for souvenir. Then she sits by the front window, hoping someone she knows would pass by and see her drinking expensive coffee. She takes remarkably mall sips in order to prolong her stay, like a real smart-***.

     During the entire process, there is the obligatory flaunting of Nokia cell phones, the occasional eruptions of “yeah” and “sure” here and there. You get the impression everyone in the room is from the conyo sector. Pathetic as it is, the Starbucks atmosphere is so contagious that it simply brings out the social climber in one.

     You have to admit that the Philippine franchiser of Starbucks-whoever-he is-deserves credit. He’s certainly not stupid. He sees through us Filipinos, and definitely knows how to flatter us. Mr. Starbucks is aware of the average Pinoy desire to be associated and considered among the elite because well, in reality, the average Pinoy is far from being that. The average Pinoy home is less attractive than a place like Starbucks. The average Pinoy meal is without garnishes. The average Pinoy environment is less comforting and convenient than the service of Starbucks.

     But when in Starbucks, the average Pinoy is instantly made to feel he’s in New York, or Las Vegas, or Paris, or anywhere else but Manila – one probable reson why we Filipinos buy this flick. We are total suckers for anything that is western in concept. But Starbucks has gone beyond colonial mentality; it has become pure escapism. It helps us forget about the EDSA traffic jam, the hostages in Mindanao, and the decreasing popularity of Erap. In this age of harsh realities of poverty and chaos, anything that offers oblivion and temporary indulgence sells fast. No matter how costly it is.

     With their little creativity in repackaging, Starbucks is no longer just coffee. It’s already a religion. That we Filipinos practically worship that green logo with the exotic lady shows where we derive our strength to move on. It is from the promise of Starbucks every pay day.

- Nick Garcia

starbucks beans are imported and it has to deal with taxes. we all know that when something is imported, it costs more. when he referred the starbucks coffee to blend45 connotes sarcasm... a need of wit is necessary to pull that off.

its stereotypical to say that the starbucks fanatics are kikay and teenyboppers. he should do his research on demographics.. and no... starbucks isnt franchised by "mr.starbucks"... the name is bienvenido tantoco. its so funny that he has to use snob appeal on his writing, the fact that he's annoyed by a marketing gimmick entirely made by snob appeal. ironic isnt it?

we are not jut paying for coffee. its the service that you want. the ambiance. that relaxing couch inside the cafe after that long stressful day. most of the time, people are there to have conversations or meetings.

the implication was so disappointing. saying that an "average pinoy" should just deal with nescafe 3-in-1s and doesnt deserve a little luxury for himself. because what? we have to deal with "more important things". sapalagay nya ba mura ang isang chickenjoy meal sa jollibee? dahil ano? mas nakakabusog yon?

cowboy-motif wall covering. wtf. hahahaha. now that made me laugh. is it because it's brown? LOL saan ba walang social climber? sa jollibee ba wala? kahit sa burger machine meron e. sa loob ng jeep, at sa LRT. meron at meron nyan.

kung gusto nyang magpakapulitikal, wag nyang daanin sa bad sarcasm and moronic observations. ang tawag dyan... sourgraping.

putangina badly researched at ignorante.

4.22.2008

Gossip Girl s01e14 - The Blair Bitch Project

Thank God my life's back to normal. Who's not excited for this day? Gossip Girl is fucking back.

I know, i know, i should getta hold of myself.

The Episode is a Jenny-Blair tug of war. Unfortunately... i am hating Jenny MORE.

And a new antagonist is coming to upper east side. Georgina Sparks.

Im stopping myself from posting details. I know some people would hate me. hehe.

Handwriting Analysis,

Got This from Jay-ar's Blog. Inneresting hahaha.

Mine is hundred percent true. weird. feeling ko kakilala ko ex ko gumawa ng site nato LOL.

http://handwritingwizard.com/


4.17.2008

Tag yourself.

HOW THIS BLOG TAGGING WORKS

Each blogger starts with random facts/habits about themselves.**

Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.

At the end of your blog, you need to choose 10 people to get tagged and list their breads.
Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

1. I Love Animals. They amaze me and i always dreamed of having my own backyard zoo. I know its crazy. I just dont like carnivores who attack each other. thats gory.

2. I am Kikoy. I always get to like girly cute stuff. Ive got lip balms i dont use. I just use it whenever i get to see it and smell it. My daughter loves me so much coz of it. She gets to get it from me since i know its more appropriate. And of course i could get to buy her stuff shed definitely like. I just dont like dolls ok. Its fuckin creepy. Just those korean thingamajigs, squishy, furry stuff. Or little hanging ones.

3. Im a frustrated artist. Ive had courses from Science to Business but ive never thought of getting an art course. which is weird. Many people thought i could be a great advertising student. I like to draw or paint but... i always get to feel bounded by thinking im trying too hard for people to appreciate it. weird. i also dont care about what i think. all at the same time.

4. Im not a couch potato but i do watch a lot of series. it just amazes me how american writers create characters from actors and actresses who were once unpopular and still, they get to be fair in choosing on how to cast. I mean... i had faith with our industry before... until youll finally notice that breaks werent fair and they get to cast those "pretty people" (which is still subjective by the way) who suck on acting. And those horrifying redundant plots. They think the audiences are still stupid. i dont get to watch local channels. not by choice but because i think paying for cable is a waste. so i just watch youtube and download series that i like.

5. i always wanted to be physically active. i wanted to master a sport, a martial art, or b-boying. i know how to dance. i just dont look good when i do it. and i think id look a lot scarier when i finally get to be a ninja. im not a fan of naruto. i just wanted to be a ninja ever since. to kill those drug addicts that ruin other people's lives. or those thieves roaming around. see. being a ninja finally made sense.

6. some people always get to think that im japanese or korean. weird. i thought i look like a person with chromosomal defects.

7. im religious in my way. i just dont get to agree on some traditional ways especially with the church. i always get to see them as judgmental, narrow-minded and self-imposing. i dont expect people to be perfect after hearing a mass or whatsoever, but i got to know a lot of people who religiously go to the church and still be the same bitch or asshole, stepping on other people's foot. i dont get it. and i hate it. really hate it.

8. im a good cook. not being biased or whatsoever but you can ask people who have eaten my pastas, siomai and tomato based ulams. :D im also good on making desserts and smoothies. ;) i want to have my own restaurant. pramis.

9. one of my pet peeves is when a person gets to be so sure about something... without knowing its hundred percent wrong. it gets into my nerves seriously. like i almost want to hurt him/her.

10. im a big wisher. i always wanted to make the world a better place.

**actually it needs 10 but i think id go on with the randomness. im starting to feel the fun e hahaha.

11. my whole name is gretchen xavier pepito. yeah gretchen. that could explain the #2 fact. Gretchen is actually a masculine name from germany. it means greece. its a tradition in our family to have an influential person or a saint or a significant country in our names. again Gretchen means Greece and Xavier from the saint. not the xmen. Ive actually met a guy from AMA Makati with the same first name. i find it cool. heehee. That's why my daughters name is Francine Gabrielle. Francine from France (significant because of French Fries hahahahaha) and Gabrielle from the angel. ^_^

12. I used to not eat fish. I just dont like when i see a face on my plate. i eat tuna in cans though. I am allergic to a lot of things. especially crab and shrimp shells.

I really cant think on who to tag but just feel free to be tagged.. ok fine... im tagging anyone who reads this. :D

4.12.2008

Tired and Head Beaten Up Against the Wall.

It has been quite some time that ive been thinking about a certain thing. and thank god i wasnt the only one noticing it. So i was figuring out how to change things by not saying any word.

6am and still doing the Laundry. tsss. So while i was waiting for the machine to stop spinning, i was deleting application invites in my friendster. I just feel so OC seeing those red notifications everytime i click Home. And then i saw this NEW Horoscope thing.

The Bottom Line

Accept what you can't change and stop beating your head against the wall. Move on.

In Detail

Circumstances beyond your control could cause you to feel a little bit of stress today, so you will have to get some perspective. Think about it this way -- if these things are beyond your control, then what can you really do about it, anyway? Accept what you can't change and stop beating your head against the wall. Your attitude towards the day and your attitude towards what happens today will be mismatched -- there is some disappointment in the air.



i really have to listen to the stars.

4.07.2008

The Falling Out.

It has been such a blur to me. I mean, the phrase itself. I always believed that once we fall in, we never "fall out". such as tucking out. but now it gets me thinking... what could be the right phrase to use when one day, you suddenly realize, that the person you thought you knew wasnt the same person at all. the feeling after that realization.

some things are meant to change. and i also believed that people, no matter what, dont change. i think its the first impression that deceives us. so we think that the person changes after some time, but, its because were starting to see the real face behind the mask.

can youth actually be a reason? so thats why getting old sucks. because when you reach a certain age, and show such a disgusting trait, its what theyll think you are. absolutely. but when youre young, people could actually rationalize it by considering the age. how young is young anyway.

i think some differences are tolerable. but when ivan started to emphasize that line between us all that gets all blurred up, i get to stand up on my half... and try to point where everyone's boundary is. its how we protect ourselves emotionally. ive had my share of pain. getting too comfortable with new people i meet is my weakness. and i never thought it could have a complication when time comes. it is again why, china built that wall.

i also thought i was a perfectionist. but i never saw myself as someone perfect. i could be the meanest upfront person, but i know ive got a way with it. there could be people to prove it. when i tolerated characteristics that makes me grit my teeth, i get to see that i could be passive. ive never asked for perfection. i thought it was clear right from the very start that all i want, is a person with a bag of sensitivity.

in every falling out, nobody wins. its not a competition to begin with. i thought it hurts when you get left behind. but instead, what hurts the most... is when youre the one who gets to realize it all, and starts leaving. when you get left behind, at least you get to hope, even a little. but when you're the one leaving, its the absence of it that makes you step out of what you have then dwell with the worst feeling you could ever feel.

4.06.2008

And almost everyone thinks that 80gb is fun..

ang init. wala na yata akong magagamit na panglarawan o kung anupaman. ang. init.

idagdag pa natin ang timing na pagtaas ng kuryente kasabay ng consumption sa bawat pagbukas ng ref para makakuha ng malamig na tubig o yelo at ng aircon... para mabuhay ka sa ganitong klase ng init. gusto kong magmura pero putangina ang init.

nagpapatawa pa ang maynilad sa paghuhukay dahil hindi raw kami nagbayad. kaya delayed ang paghuhukay ng tubo samin. eh kung sampalin ko sila ng bill na binabayaran ko sa 711. taragis. patunayan mo man, isasagot.. "eh ser... hindi naman po kami ang may hawak ng master list." so nakanino ang master list? wala. walang makakasagot. dahil sa opisina ng maynilad... sabi na forward na raw. anong katarantaduhan ang nangyayari sa mundo.

at kasabay ng init... high blood.

fine. dun naman tayo sa mga bagay na medyo hindi jologs ang angal.

when ipod created 80gb and 160gb memory for the so-called classics... we jump for joy. coz nothing in this world that you can hear couldnt be missed while on the street. if you love bollywood... fine, whatever makes you happy. or... watch your favorite series while inside a steaming hot FX.

so i got ALL my albums (8206 songs to be exact) in my ipod and my 1st and 2nd season of heroes, 3rd season of prison break, 1st season of gossip girl and daria. plus all my favorite movies (if only, 300, empire records, etc)

all those happiness and love and good vibes... could pop like a bubble. when your ipod comes crashing down. without any fucking reason.

last time i checked it... twas fine. i was just playing the guitar along with coldplay and the fray and snow patrol then i paused it, safely removed it (keyword: SAFELY)... and then, there was nothing. i checked my playlists and its all gone.

i restarted it, reconnected it and there's this looooong orange bar, meaning, the memory's occupied but the ipod doesnt read it as music. i searched for answers... visited apple's site and the only way to have it fixed is RESTORE it. in pc words... reformat.

ARE THEY FUCKING KIDDING ME? backup 80gb files in my pc? HAVE THEY GIVEN A SINGLE THOUGHT THAT BACKING UP 80GB FILES WOULD BE A FUCKING WASTE OF SPACE LIKE THE UNIVERSE?

of course i have all my albums burnt in dvds pero kumusta naman yung mga album artwork na inisa isa kong isearch para lang... maayos. tapos ganun lang?

if i die in aneurysm... please blame apple.

4.03.2008

♪ Pitong Araw ♫



Hale's newest (and wow... hottest) first single taken from the upcoming third album "Above, Over And Beyond" can be requested at your favorite radio stations. Oh yes ladies and gentlemen... they are definitely back with a lot of energy, and promising new songs.

Here are the numbers you could contact through text messaging... and lets put them back where they belong. number 1 baby!

[*] magic 899 (message) send to: 2968
[*] 4lifesong (message) send to: 2366
[*] max fm (message) send to: 2968
[*] nuvote (message) send to: 29107
[*] loveradio (message) send to: 2299
[*] radio lsfm (message) send to: globe: 2311/ smart:350
[*] energy (message) send to: 2299
[*] pm mellow (message) send to: 2948
[*] rx 931 (message) send to: 29761931
[*] star fm (message) send to: 29765
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[*] jam 883 (message) send to: 2968
[*] wave 891 (message) send to: 2968

sabay sabay nating itext ang mga stasyon na yan! walang pilitan :D

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For the people who commented and read my "Goodbye Everyone" blog... that was an April Fools Day post heehee. Wasnt expecting na medyo kakalat sha pero na-touch ako. hanggang ngayon may nagtetext.

Im not going anywhere. andami kong mahal rito e. siguro pag di nako makakain at kailangan kong kumayod ng dolyares. or euro for that matter. :) pero shempre gusto kong sabihin na mahal na mahal ko kayo hehehe. patawad sa joke. sa susunod na taon... buntis ako hahaha.

4.01.2008

Goodbye Everyone.

I will be leaving everything by now. Everything came so sudden.

I had a call from my aunt telling me to get my plane ticket to germany by wednesday. I didnt even know what to react but to just get packed and... i dont know... i dont really know what to do anymore.

they got so pissed off when i tried to argue about it. my uncle was furiously shouting "magpakatanda ka nga. puro banda banda na lang inaatupag mo. wala ka nang pinatunguhan." i dont think is till have time to brawl.

i just really think i should go with the flow that life has to offer me. I didnt even know how to say this to my friends personally.

you know who you are. i love you so much guys. and im so sorry. :( ill just make everything short. i love you so much. ill contact you once i get there.


dont you think its too dramatic for april fools? hehehehehe. n_n luv u guys!