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i have been technically living inside a mall since two weeks ago. ive been roaming around finding a perfect shirt, perfect headphones and perfect sneakers. still i cant find what i want.

ive watched garfield and ella enchanted yesterday. wholesome muna ang mga movies ko ngayon. susunod liberated 2 naman. hee hee.

i had the new sugarfree album "dramachine". the pics inside the sleeve was taken from our place. kaso pikon si ebe, wala na naman pangalan ko sa tenkyus nya. "..at sa mga taong nasa phonebook ko...". damay na siguro ako dun kahit pano.

bad taxi.

im now working with the fifth chapter of "kissing christian". my friends told me not to post it here so they could have a surprise and excitement while they read it.

im actually annoyed with what happened 5 minutes ago. i was going here in burgundy, then i waited for a cab for about 20 minutes. since it was a bit traffic, the driver's starting to do a small talk. he was asking for directions so i said burgundy is near la salle. and just a step, starbucks is almost me.

he asked if i was studying. i said no. i guess he thought i graduated from la salle. he was making a joke about me being rich, and i said of course with full humility and a bit embarassed, no. i wont be working if im rich.

then there's this girl who was trying to hail the cab that i was riding, and he was like yakking about the girl's butt or sumthin. starting to talk dirty. til it led to sex.

then i saw one of my friends in front of la salle, so i tried to hide, called him in his cel and teased him with the one he was talking to.

my bill was 67.oo and i gave him a hundred. i was waiting for my change and he kept on telling stories and i was a bit worried. i was waiting for my change. til he asked for my number. and i said "huh? para saan?". and he didn't answer back. he gave me a 20 peso change and said, "to naman. para number mo lang e. text kita minsan". i just hurried to get out of that fucking cab. i was starting to have goosebumps.

putang ina nya. im wearing my dirtiest black boggy cargo pants, a gray shirt, four earrings and a "rocker" bracelet, and i bet i dont look gay at all. buti sana kung pogi sya eh. bwiset. hinamon ko na sana ng suntukan.

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went shopping to divert depression.

later, kit, abi, lui and rico will be going to have our "inuman" street style. hope to enjoy our late friday night reunion.

love is suicide.

changed my ljs layout. alang magawa eh.

it's tina's bday yesterday and we had some small gathering. we 9 bottles of brandy and i did not have any hint of being drunk. i slept and this morning, i cant get up and then i felt drunk. weird. alcohol delay. i threw up without anything inside me except my guts.

kinda depressed for being fickle minded and not doing anything to improve my life. i felt like i am sick of thinking what to buy, what to eat and still uncontented of what i have. especially with love.

i know i love the ones i love, but why do i entertain some new "interests" and not think of who'll be hurt. and i also think why do they have to be hurt coz i still love them as intense as before. nothing has changed. except for my mood swings.

sick. i feel like i always kill myself.

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damn. it took me for almost a month before i logged in back. i had a pc problem here so i got lazy scanning what shits this box.

i actually updated this but it didnt go through. well for the past two weeks (or three), i sold my harry potter paperbacks and bought hardbounds. its like a year before they release a paperback after the hardbound so i guess this is much better since i always buy in every exact release date. i heard rumors that book 6 will be out on november.

watched mean girls. its like a more wholesome jawbreaker. very entertaining from start to end. i remembered tricia and ron is like lindsay lohan. too good to lait. ahahaha.

ambagal ng kenny rogers magdeliver huh. tangina nila. lagi pang may mali. anyway...

im planning to buy a gameboy sp today. im tired of the advance since it doesnt have an adaptor. since im always bored, i get to cook pasta every single day and i bought microwave so if i have a guest, ill just heat it (kahit isang buwan ng nasa ref) *devilish*. kidding. baka matakot na sina diane at ron.

oh. and i didn't know i was such a good kisser. *shhh* somebody just told me casually. i dunno how that person knew. ;p

im working with my new book now. novelish and ngayon ko lang narealize na mahirap pala. i just finished 3 chapters. "kissing christian". well sam is the main character and its a bit interesting. ill post each chapter in case i have time. :D

x.

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my head hurts. i dont have a job to rob my normal night sleep but i still cant sleep during the wee hours of the night. weird.

well, everybody kinda hated my decision of resigning. and im starting to think "deeper" <--- (since when did this happen), and all i can do is stare in the mirror and brush my hair. (ahahahaha. kidding.) now i dont have money to go to where i want to go. at least i have all the time. rather than having the money but no time going anywhere. *shrug* ewan. putang ina.

at least i can play my violin and start to practice again. drum the drum and guitar the guitar. *sigh* im bored. big time. i dont have anything left to do.

pumasok kaya ako sa office mamaya? baka naman maiskandalo sila. lolz.

sloth.

wow. just imagine me facing the computer without an internet connection. for almost 12 hours everyday. its like having one half gallon of choco mint baskin robbins when ur having your how-to-lose-weight-in-10-days program. fck.

and now, i am about to resign. yes sir. i am 4 days absent having quality time for myself like, watching spiderman 2, eating cookies and having a glass of milk while watching the 5th wheel, (uh.... sexy? ahaha wrong match), listening to alisha's attic, mallrats soundtrack, cambio and twisted halo for almost evry minute evry hour, doing kim's homework, drunk for three straight days, having my cellphone fixed when it suddenly corrupted itself kahit maraming memory (damn technologies, u depend ur life on it and it suddenly surrenders to its weakness, gago).. instead of having it swapped for a 7610, i have to keep it for awhile dahil halos overhauled lahat, programs, housing and stuff, throwing my money away in exchange of ruffles cheddar and sour cream, starbucks eclair and empanada, non-fat iced choco without whipped cream (spare me the guilt please. i know i know. no unsolicited comments! just indulge with the words in bold letters, for me if ur a friend) making me an official couch potato while having my headphones on my ear while watching porn cds. at least malakas ang sound. hee hee. and enjoying our newly installed shower so i take a bath for uh... 4 times a day. (i so love my hair! <--- said in a hillary duff-ish way)

and now, monday, i have to go to the office and i have to face my team manager. its either:

- act weak, as if i just recovered miraculously from a dreaded illness. effect: no disciplinary actions or warnings. i still have my job. uh.. *pity me placard on my chest*

- act tough. as if i have the right to be absent though its a "blackout" (call center term, meaning you cant be absent during those times, fourth of july festivities so we receive like a thousand calls individually. kadiri!). reasoning: abuso. pinoy ako. (music: noypi-bamboo) effect: sindak sila dahil "potential asset" ako ng team. ahahahaha. (hope nobody in the office reads my lj) so may job pa rin ako.

its up to me if is resign or not. im in a call center tour mode. i want a 20,000 salary! (as if! <---- said in an alicia silverston-ish way). i dunno. gusto ko munang magpahinga for a month.

defense: i had a fever. pramis. nagkataon lang na i enjoyed it. :)

i am so fucking lazy.

ps: theres this website with mpegs of somebody playing the mario (nintendo days) soundtrack in piano. damn. amazing. and alvin disturbed my mind when i found him sniggering over videos of beheaded hostages in iraq. im scared.