nostalgia.

from left to right: thats scott, l.a., me, j.r., and wine. those are my friends that were really really close to my heart (except for scott dahil bf lang sha ni l.a. that time kaya mejo nakapag-usap naman.) lahat yan wala na sa circle ko. l.a. and j.r. are my childhood friends na nasa australia na. wine is somewhere na hindi ko alam. we had a fight last year na wala na atang chance maresolve. :(


taken last sunday. gabby was really really happy that day na kumakanta pa sha habang naglalakad then nakatulog sa cab habang yakap ko, at nakangiti huh. i bought her a charmed bracelet...


...na talagang she hugged me after i gave her the bracelet nung sinundo namin sha sa playbox rob manila. she said "i love you dada" and then hugged. *sigh* my girl is so big na.



the reason of my being. my wifey. i would not know how to survive life itself without her. alam ng diyos kung gaano ko to kamahal. at alam ng pagkatao ko na walang makakapantay sa kanya... sa kahit anong paraan. *sigh*

waaaahh mushy! yoko na! *sniff*

sha po si tamtam. ang aking wrist rest. mahal ko yan. :) lagi akong masaya pag nakikita ko shang nagaabang sa pc ko. hehehe. at para hindi manakit ang wrist ko kaka-browse ng mga pic na na-scan ko. share ko lang lahat ng memories ko. na hinding hindi ko maitatapon. click nyo na lang si tam.

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araw ng mcdo ngayon.

kaya nagpadeliver na lang ako dahil wala akong magawa.

nuninuninuninuninuninuni.

walang hangover nung naginuman kagabi. na-miss ko tropa ko. *sigh*

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woke up at the wrong side of the bed. im more than depressed.

i had a lot of thoughts about other people feeling bad and overlooked. kakatawa noh. pati sa emotions, second hand na rin ang nakukuha ko. di naman ako mahilig sa ukay.

anna, andrea and i went to st. scho. andun din si malene. bat ganun si "cuejay"? close ba kami para makaakbay sha ng ganun? i am not even a fan. bleh. nakipagshake hands ako at di nya binitawan, then inakbayan ako at inakay na parang matandang tatawid. imagine that. i am appalled. confused with WTF is happening. (he seemed nice though.. wag nya lang maisip isip na type ko sha eh magkakariot talaga).

christina, (OJ's ex-gf) drove us to dish abscbn. di nako nakapasok dahil hindi nako pinapasok. so nag-ktv kami nina jo, kimoy, chona, walter, anna, nina, at ang guest of honor(lolz) na si jp herrera. (hindi po sha celebrity mga frends,, isa lang po shang bagong lister na nakikanta sa quit playing games na version namin). medyo.. sinimot nga lang ng IO ang mga pera namin dahil siningil pati ang mga nagdropby. napakain tuloy ako sa ministop. medyo bonding kami ng mga sama ng loob. , , , , kimoy at chons.. bakit nga ba ganun??

hayaan na lang ang hayaan. masakit tumitig sa araw pag sikat na sikat.

pakasaya muna tayo sa trip ko lang i-upload na pampa-GV pics. (nakaharang na email add ko noh? dami kasing MAGNANAKAW dito! *tamaan ka sana hayup ka*)


dapat yung taga star circle kids ang kukunan ko dito e. kaso umalis. pwede rin naman tong isang to. *peace*


the girls of rock during their MPH pictorial. :)

MTV Pilipinas 2005.

Radioactive Sago Project and Junior Kilat opened the night with Astro and Ako si M16. ang galeng. Fillers were starred by tado, claire and marc abaya.

Hale won as MTV Pilipinas` best new artist. :) stig!! The performance with Cueshe actually sucked. Champ didnt sing when the two bands were supposed to be collaborating with after image’s next in line. Tawagin ba namang “pogi rock” ang term for them eh. Unfair for the band actually coz they really wanted to get out of the label and as i quote champuy.. “anong magagawa ko eh pogi ako.” Hehehehe. Oo nga naman. Pag pangit di naaapreciate ang talent ng iba. Kaht ba pag pogi? Hmm...

Kitchie nadal won the MTV ayos award. She performed with UAP chorale and performed wag na wag mong sasabihin. Nakakakilabot. Tsak ang ganda talaga ni kitchie. (luv you kitchie!!!!)

Naging semi-ASAP nung kumanta si Nina, Christian Bautista, Erik Santos and Rachelle Anne Go. Rivermaya grabbed two awards; Best group “you’ll be safe here” and Favorite Song “bali song”. Rachelle Anne and Christian got the best female and male awards. Funny, Parokya ni Edgar won the Best Dance award with “first day funk”. At wala silang kalaban.

Sugarfree, Hannah of Session Road, (and pagkakaalam ko may isa pa eh) performed gary v. songs.

Didnt finish the night coz i have to go sumwhere pa. i was with the halers and *haay* pagod nako.

To all the winners... congratulations!!! :)

EX.

just woke up. call omnie kung kasama ako sa backstage pass ni mam mel for MTV pilipinas mamaya.

nakakatuwa dahil yung ibang management eh naiisip ako. (hehehe...)

ANYWAY.. (see the emphasis on that), i am having an indefintie leave as Imago's road manager. sobrang mamimiss ko ang kulitan namin nina zach sa van. i really had some personal issues and ayoko namang pati ang pinakapaborito kong banda of all time ay mapahamak ng dahil pa sa effectivity ko as their RM. i called bos dar, then texted Imago. wala pong isyu ha. hayan na naman yang mga intrigang yan. hindi ko lang talaga kaya mag-field. i loved working in front of the PC.

pero shempre nasa gigs pa rin nila ako. iba na nga lang ang magaasikaso sa kanila pero if i am of any help, bat naman hindi. :)

luv u Imago. no changes at all. just the pay. hee hee.

UPLB.

It has been a week when i last saw the guys. And right after i woke up, i checked my new smart sim, and had champ’s “hu u?” message. I replied who i was then i called him. I decided last Friday when i remembered when they were having this partycentral gig and while playing onstage... he was like a kid wondering about his guitar. Imagine, while on the middle of the song, he frowned, stopped strumming and looked closely at his guitar with the WTF look on his face. Since my new (technically since i havent used mine onstage) guitar has a warranty, i made him swap his guitar with mine. So once it’s damaged i can have it repainted. Sayang kasi yung warranty kung ipaparepaint ko ng walang sira. Kaya sirain nya muna yung gitara ko.

During the conversation, the line was a bit garbled (vj: gargled), so tinawagan ko na lang sha sa landline at dun na lang kami nagusap. nabanggit nya rin ung article sa "tabloid" (and to defend Hale about the issue: how can somebody comment na lumalaki ang ulo nila kung wala naman silang basehan? Like hindi naman nila kilala personally ang mga members ng band dati? So nakita ba nila ang "unti unting" pagbabago ng attitude nila? at nakakatawa eh puro sabi sabi ang nakalagay. Is that how journalism works nowadays? It was when they had the video shoot daw, eh nandun kami nina and tapos nasa loob lang kami ng parang faculty room dun. Ano ang attitude problem sa pagppiano ni sheldon at pangngulit ni veejay? And may i mention na hindi man lang naayos ng production ang shoot. Hindi nila mapigilan ang mga batang kinuha nilang talents na everytime magsshout ng “cut” eh pinagkakaguluhan sila. Ni hindi man lang makontrol at sila champ eh as accommodating pa rin as ever. Kung sino man yang writer na yan, its pretty obvious na wala kang mapatutunguhan kundi ang gumawa ng walang kabuluhang tsismis. Pakituloy na lang ang article mo regarding arlene muhlach at iba pang showbiz celebrities na sinisira mo ang buhay. Wala kang kwenta.) then he said i should go to UPLB as well. Akala ko ganun lang kalapit ang Los Banos.. pero wow. Im so dead wrong. Went to EMI ng 4, nakarating ng festival mall ng 7pm dahil dun namin sila imimeet nina OJ, at nakarating kami ng 9. On the way, hindi ko kinakaya si veej. Sumakit talaga yung panga at pisngi ko kakatawa.

Andaming tao. Grabe.





naputulan ng string si Roll before theu played. Champ used his mint green strat and roll used mine. (yehey. sana mapasahan ako ng powers ni roll martinez. hehe)

MYMP was there. Pinauna na nga namin pero wow, isang oras nagsetup. Andami pang kinanta. May allergy daw si juris. Kaya ang nangyari, nag-abono sila monch ng 400 sa parking fee nila champ paguwi. 320am na kami nakarating sa ATC. Supposedly kukunin ko pa sa bahay nina champuy ang kanyang gitara pero pare pareho na kaming pagod. Champ dropped me sa ATC then sheldon picked me up then dropped me sa YP. Buti na lang dala nya yung van nya. Cab na lang ako pauwi. *sigh* di nako sumama kina omnie sa despedida ng friend nila ni veej. Mike (of UPLB), maraming maraming salamat sa Buko pie. Ibibigay ko kay yung isa.

, , , sherryl, chona, belai (nice meeting u!!! :) ), lei, and bernie were there. Namiss ko kayo. Malapit na uli tayong magsama ng walang hassle. Hehehe.

Im so over and out. May mga lakad pa mamaya.

hapi burtdi.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ivano0oze!!

after 4 liters of GSM blue and four seasons iced tea, may hindi nakahinga, nagemote, nagsulat, nagsandalan, between 7 people. Fun.

(one effect of alcohol...)






To ivan:

Thanks for that note on my shoe. This may also be the right opportunity to tell you and abhie that i feel so lucky that i found the both of you. People and friends may come and go, but i swear to god that your names and presence will be staying in my heart no matter what. Hindi lang yun, surprisingly, it came with a package. The melrose people. :)

Its always a good day whenever im with you. And that may be one reason i always wanted to share my fun moments and that "rock and roll" experience i am having. Coz i wont be rocking and rolling knowing that i will have steady days without you.

I love you both. Maraming salamat sa diyos at naging kaibigan ko kayo. *hugs*

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body ache.

2 days of rest. salamat po papa god.

i am really having a hard time thinking about things. deciding. weird. depression talaga to. asar.

hope everything would be over. lahat ng doubts, paranoia, low self esteem and shit.

wolfmann.

to wolfmann, wilf hernandez, may you still be the beat of our hearts. you had us pump our adrenalins and jump and smile to your rhythms. we love you very very much. we will never forget you. :( may you have that peace we keep on finding and wanting. heaven will be delighted to have you there.

what a sunday.

finally. i had 14 hours of sleep. my week was very very busy. pero fun. and dahil sunday, ginawa ko na ang dapat gawin.

- after 4 years... napalinis ko na ang aircon ko. seriously, 4 years talagang di nalinis yun. kaya pala halos magka-SARS ako.

- nakapaglaba na ako. hoooooray. thats 6 weeks of laundry.

- nakapaglinis nako ng kwarto. opo , hindi na ganun ang itsura nun. :) as in kakaibang kwarto na talaga.

- nabayaran ko ni si aeijei. buti na lang at kinuha nya na ang money. i dont owe anyone money na. woohoo. tagal na din nun eh.

- changed the sheets of my bed. yep. my sheets and pillowcases.


grabe. tao na uli ako. *sigh*

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no words can contain if i have to express what i feel for the rockestra event.

when CAMBIO started playing DV, my spine got the chill and just thought of relaxing dahil.. totoo na to. tapos na ang rehearsals. but what the heck. with MSO's opening act... whos to be nervous? SILENT SANCTUARY was up next and i had the "ingat ka" and "sandali" (tama ba yung title?) as few of my fave new songs. IMAGO, *you just made me cry.. we got emotional after the performance. akap... haaaaaaaaayyy. TWISTED HALO had a veeeeeeeerrrrrryyyyyy good one. vin dancel.. hats off po ako sobra. SUGARFREE caught everybodys heart with an opening "prom" then a very sentimental "burnout". tumakbo na ako sa tabi ng better half ko nung start na ng song. then the rockers of the said event.. SANDWICH made the crowd go wild and jumpy and hyper and all. especially with raimund's "weird" dancing struts. hehehe. saya sobra.

the all star encore was so good. kahit sabi nila eh mali mali daw. di naman e.

galing sobra. sayang ang mga di nakapanood. :p

huwaw.

well, i woke up early to get to NU107. I was with *thank you wawerz* and helped me go to dish abscbn to assemble the tarp coz NU was a sponsor for ene and i's production, which is a Sigma Rho Frat Party with Diana Rising, Kiko Machine, Hale, Dicta License and Sponge Cola. 3pm, assembled blahblah the tarp then went straight to Hale's shoot for Kahit Pa at Arellano University.

tamang kulitan. jayson paor of some songhit mag interviewed them and took some picture.







from arellano, 7pm, went back to dish to assist on some bands. some of the pics..


here are the two of "the chick magnet" of the rock scene, champ ofhale then boogie of dicta license.


no wonder he got sick again. sobrang hassle ang day for them sa vid shoot.


ayiiihiii.

parang di ko na talaga kaya, see u sa rockestra!!!!!

ps: thanks to , for helping me sa dish last night. it was a big help anna. i heart u much!

naga musiklaban gig.

(august 13, 2005)

arrived at around 747am courtesy of capt. narciso with the assistance of capt bartolome. never felt as provincial as this seeing those three big mountains and an airport as big as the letran canteen. baggages were self-claimed brought by a yellow-brownish... tractor, i guess. and the weather was really really weird. like its as humid as the beach wind. you'd feel the presence of a volcano somewhere. my stupid self brought a camera with the last line of the battery meter. forgive me with the pics.

830am: arrived at crowne hotel, naga. Jep, R2 and I had breakfast. natawa kami sa kibahan ng milo sa naga at maynila. sa manila, hindi ganito kalabnaw. andaya. P60 bucks for an almost transluscent milo. then natulog.

341pm: gumising. caught devil's advocate in HBO. room service. then natulog uli.

745pm. zach wanted to eat outside so aia, maps and i agreed on dining on a restaurant beside the hotel. roberto's yung name. wow, ansarap at ang mura ng food. first time kong nakakain ng pinangat, authentic bicol express at kasama ng kare kare, mango lechitin and ang pinakakakaibang food, shark na may gata. (na lasang 555 bicol express). nabusog kami no doubt.

900pm: start na. 8 competing bands and 1 guest band then kami na. weird, daming nagpapirma sakin at nagpapic. natawa kami ni aia and tim kasi di ko alam kung ano sasabihin ko. they had their school ids signed. wala akong nagawa but to sign. pag tumanggi ako, lalabas akong suplado. pag nag-explain, maeffort. so pirma na lang kami. lolz. at ansaya nila.
*3rd band played two trick pony. 7th band played akap. napangiti kaming lahat. hehe

1200mn: natapos din. ang gulo. binasa nila si aia ng water and beer pero hala si girl, sayaw pa rin. lalo tuloy naging wild ang crowd seeing aia perform rainsong and anino that lively. galeng talaga. pero normal lang naman yun. tsaka masaya. tumambay lang kami sa room nina zach after. watched tv at nagkwentuhan. hehe.

604am: gumising kami ni jep para magunta sa market at bumili ng mauuwi. i bought a bag. 160 lang. astig. kasama namin si tim.

840am: dito na sa maynila. sa wakas. :)



maynila. tingnan naman kung gaano kaovercrowded.


clouds. la lang. clouds lang sha. hehe.


ako at si r2. ang isa sa mga institusyon ng soupstar. :)


aia, maps and lucielle, mayonnaise manager. :) sila ang judges nung musiklaban.


da first timer sa plane, jep. na ginagaya ng posing ni champ as an angel. lolz

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im back to my old self. my old emo self.

i had my halsey pics before then i noticed 's userpic and every inch of my halsey memories started to grow back. *sigh*

*grabe , , salamat sa matyagang pagiintay at anna, sa dsl mo at pambubulabog ko ng alas singko ng madaling araw. wawa, salamat sa pagkaligaw natin.

breakfasts.

after the st scho rockestra rehearsal.. i hadnt had any glimpse of my inner eyelids til 4am. so i just went straight to abscbn studio 17 (breakfast st. 23) with abhie and waited until imago came. ene was there and from start to credits.. we were enjoying the show, the talks, two free coffees.. and *eherm*. ..*abhie... hush!!! not in this journal. nyahaha.*

to imago.. (hay naku aia... puyat na yan ng lagay na yan!??!!) may kailangan pa ba akong sabihin??? (na dahil sa galing nyo eh kinuha ni JC Quadrado ang number ko. lolz) ..*abhie.. malalaman mo rin yung kay "scientific thingy" gagawa tayo ng way jan. hehehe*

anyways, after the show, maps, ene, abhie and i went to morato to have breakfast at heaven and eggs. mejo pambuong araw ang dami nya so grabe yung busog ko/namin. tawa lang kami ng tawa. sharing and all. napatagal din kami dun ha.

pangalawa, nagMRT kami dhil ang traffic (hooray! umaga!). went to glorietta to meet up Ron. ayun, namiss ko bespren ko. binigay ko pa sa kanya yung hindi namin nagalaw na ministop kariman. *yum* kain kain. daldal and all. whats new.

masaya ang araw. thing is.. i am almost as pale as a drug addicted anemic. 26 hours na akong gising.

hehe.

complaints and shit.

im getting tired. i had a really good mood yesterday until this morning. there are some people who demands more than i can do. though, i feel responsible for some things (which i always think coz im soooo uber self involved), i dont think some people can boss me around. especially if the bossy person isnt actually the boss-type. know-it-all self involved bitch attacks again.

especially if you're underpaid and all. fuck.

andun nako... yes i wanted this.. oo masaya sumtym, but i cant stand the pressure especially kung hindi ko problema at sakin pinapasa. i mean... what the hell are they doing? i dont have any problems with the people i take care of. ang problema ay ang mga taong nakapaligid sa kanila.

i am underpaid, underappreciated, and overworked. how heller can this get???

aaaaaasssssaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

geocities and sun cellular: if you cant give the fucking service you're trying to "sell"... go make a way. letse.

sayang na panahon. pagod. puyat. *outbursts*

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tagal ko ng online. masayang week itu! :) yebah! at para sa aking panimula...




crime pa rin ba ang magburn ng cd? ... arson malamang. dahil masusunog talaga ang bahay nyo. pati kapitbahay. lalo na rito sa pandacan... welkam oil depot!



i dont think game boy pa ang tawag dito. game man... hmm.. ill think about it.



sana inadobe lang to noh? kasi kung totoo yan.. id be delighted to buy one.

sa nagsend ng pic.. u made my day. :)

colorful week. video shoot, out of town, and a rehearsal for the event im dying to see. plus.. tv appearances.. and um.. gusto ko lang banggitin ..may maliit akong pic sa pulp mag. ansaya.

miss ko na lahat ng aking prends. abhie, ivan, trish and ebriwan. nina, kimoy, wawa, chuna, sherylle, anna, val, jo and lahat lahat. shet ang adik ko na sa alis. rest day ko ngayon eh since nagulat din ako sa lagnat ko kasi antaas. pero wala na sha. yehey!!!

*sigh*

to update all the people who knew my "issues" right now... tinawagan nya ako kaninang 1130 am. kagigising nya pa lang. wala naman daw problema.. rotation lang ang nangyari kaya nagkaganun. thing is.. hindi pa sila naguusap. pero both parties.. ok na naman. at pinapapunta nya ako ng 11 sa abscbn. naks.

congrats pa rin. yun na yun. mas maganda sa personal ikwento. :)

updates and all sa aking buhay:

we(imago) went to sm batangas last friday. sobrang haba ng byahe. grabe pa ang bagsak ng ulan. after the gig, nakasabay namin si nina. buti nakahabol. tapos punta kaming 6 underground for the LSFM event then Hole (new peligro) for Pedicab and Sandwich. Kris jammed for DV then Aia for Anino when the sandwich members played it. galeng. hehe. kaya ubos battery talaga ako.

then kanina di ko na kinayang samahan si Aia sa Eat Bulaga. nawala pa yung mic nya nung turn nya na kumanta. kaasar pa yung keyboardista. hay. tapos 10pm, ratsky morato para sa nu event then tumambay kami sa 3rd floor ni tim. with dk. tawa lang kami ng tawa sa kakulitan ni zach saging. lalo na yung

..habang natutulog ang magasawa...

bruno: duhlin parang ansakit ng pwet ko...
adolfo: bukas magpacheckup ka, baka ano na yan..
bruno: parang merong sumthin sa loob eh.. pwedeng pa-dukot.. ngayon na.. *sniff sniff*
adolfo: (pinasok ang isang daliri) wala naman ah... (dalawang daliri) ... parang.. may.. (tatlong daliri)... may nakakapa ako sa loob... (pinasok ang buong kamay)... ha!!... ano to?? (hinugot ang kamay).. rolex??? bakit may rolex sa loob ng pwet mo???
bruno: (ngiti habang pumapalakpak) .. happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you.. happy birthday happy birthday.. happy birthday to you.


imagine zach doing the story telling. its like watching the zach and joey show. lolz. live.

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came home tired and all.

just cant accept the fact that russ isnt the manager anymore. he's like this big brother. the tandem russ-vj jokes will surely haunt me. soooobrang i almost cried when he told me bout the news. lungkot talaga. i havent heard the reason pero malamang sooobrang valid din naman. just cant deny that i got affected.

i may still be around. but not like before. siguro adjustment stage din ako. sana they would appreciate my sacrifices and my presence like russel did. paranoid blah blah.. pero baka maisip nilang i have selfish intentions. :( na nakikiride and all. hope they would find that all i have is the love for the band. and for the industry itself. for music.

to sir russel eustaquio:

you are my big brother, sir. i would always miss those days when we were laughing like nothing else matters. i know you'd always be around, pero masaklap na hindi kasingdalas ng dati.

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soundstage pics last saturday.

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i dunno what to post anymore.

ive been so busy and all. and at the same time, masaya rin naman talaga. hirap nga lang makisalamuha sa tao na nakikipagplastikan lang, to use you and such. not that im "someone" pero ganun talaga e. nararamdaman pala talaga yun.

i am soo not in the mood.