Check It Out!!!

I designed Champ's photo for PR and glad to see it's everywhere! :D It's in PEP, MYX, and Cosmo. :D

Didnt get to hear the single "Hanging Habagat" this morning and I hope I could get a grab of a copy of the single! :D

Day 6.

It has been raining since last night and the weather is perfect for anything hot and anything chocolate hahaha.

Havent had much sleep last night. Trish and I had been talking lately. Just trying to figure out things by my own and I guess it left me no choice but to give up.

I'm not really a stubborn person. I mean, I could be if I want to. I could also be self-righteous.

I was never bullied when I was growing up. I thought bullies exist in schools. Highschool to be exact. I fight back. But today, I dont think I have the energy to do that.

Ironic, that some people are concerned about my stress-level and toxicity, not knowing that their kind of concern was the toxic and stressful one. It had offended me, belittled me, and all the people I care about.

I almost forgot that we are individuals. I once listened to the people I look up to. I opened my mind to the idea that maybe, they're right. Not until I was there to witness and hear horrible unsolicited advices and opinion. Thinking that everybody should take one path. Their path.

Now, pictures are just pictures. Moments are just moments. I couldn't care less what my future holds for me, as long as I am keeping the people who had never judged me for my choices and for my mistakes.

It will be clear once I make a list of what you have said and done to me without me reacting on it. I have tried my very best to be the same person that I was. But I will NEVER take crap from you again.

I am tired of harboring hatred enabled by each other.

Now that I could breathe, It is not delusional that I am happier. I am not in denial that I feel a lot lighter.

I have lost a lot of people. I am tired of having the scared feeling of losing more.

I am too numb and the only feeling I have is the disgust that you think you're right, and in the position to say those things to me. Yes. I am disgusted.

Day 2

Time passed by like a train. I just caught myslef staring at the ceiling and can't get up coz of my meds. I woke up and fell as leep three times today. I didn't even think it was normal.

I just watched glee and that's it. Nothing special happened.

Day 1.

Todays too cold and gloomy. Some days like one of these are mostly the cause of slumber or nostalgia. So if I say that I woke up at the wrong side of the bed, it is a positive note. A few text messages woke me up, and had my day start right. Awesome, actually. Then Champ called and the first thing he said was... "Lume-level kay Xander Angeles ah." It made me laugh instantly. But thinking about it, hey, why not? At least my work is appreciated. :)

I am blogging and checking my emails, tweets and facebook status updates through my phone. I was a bit worried I'd be a bored caveman without my home desktop. That reminds me of buying a RAM.

The chilly air is filling my lungs with excitement and sadness. Because today is the first day of change.

I have always been closed to a lot of people. I basically grew up thinking that when you let people in, you just give them the leverage of hurting you more. That's "love" to some of us. A lot of us think 2D when it comes to life. That we forget the main reason why every one of us are connected to someone, intimately and platonically. And there's always a line or a boundary that will be crossed. Its there for a reason, that line.

It takes years to know who our real friends are. Friends are there for a shoulder to cry on, and not judge us by our choices. Friends are there to help us without writing it on a list. Friends are there to cheer us up, even that friend has a burden that occupies his/her mind. Friends are fun.

But then, a line still exists. It has been crossed for a lot of times, but I have been keeping myself as the dumb funny guy to avoid confrontation and hurt one another. Friends let you face the truth but there's always a way how to say it. It's just common decency.

The truth bites hard I know. But there's nothing more painful than losing a friend because of it.

To our dear telecom/isp networks.

To Globe:

My phone cant make outgoing calls since yesterday. It has been 24 hours. And what I mean by "outgoing calls" is whenever I try to dial every number, even your 211 and 223 numbers. My phone says "Authorization Failure". Yes, I tried transferring sims to other phones and 1) the unit i used was xperia x10 mini pro and it's still aint working there; 2) the sim i inserted in my blackberry is working. So its pretty clear that its not a unit issue. Some of your operators are complete idiots, to the point that they just want me to buy a new sim. THAT IDIOT SUGGESTED THAT I SHOULD GET A NEW SIM. Dear idiot, why would I even bother to call, wait for an operator to be available, do the troubleshooting, if I could just buy a 70-peso new sim card? Did it occur to you that keeping a number is important to some people? And I am not even going to the extent of granting you an explanation. Do us a favor and resign. Globe Telecom, you are frustrating. This takes the cake.

I also tried using your chat assist online. Since the voice prompt on your goddamned customer service hotline says you're experiencing high-volume of calls. You're offline, what a surprise, then you had this little box where I could type in my concern and a box for my email address. Then I get an automated reply:



You're kidding right? I mean... you should be. Was it too hard for you to insert an extra box for us to fill in those "important" details? So you want me to do this all over again???

To Smart:

Your f-ed up Share-it thingamajig NEVER gave me 2MBPS of speed. N E V E R. But it's okay because I'm not that anal when it comes to marketing promises. But at the very least, I WILL NOT BE PAYING FOR A SERVICE THAT GIVES ME A SPEED OF 20KBPS. THAT IS REAAAAALLLY FAR FROM WHAT YOUVE PROMISED. That's all caps for you since it has been like that for a month. A MONTH. 30 DAYS. 30 DAYS of internet speed that seemed like an astronaut trying to jog on the moon.

I already called your hotline and you said last week that there's an antenna in our area that needs to be fixed. Like that HSDPA thing or whatever you call it. Seriously, are you fixing that crap? Does it really take forever for you to fix one? Like, lets say... a month isnt enough??? Then why am I still getting billed?

Download Your Facebook Profile.

The reason why facebook is acting weird is because of the additional new features. You could also notice that facebook chat changed to a wider box, but without the clear chat history and the major overhaul of Groups pages.

Two days ago, Mark Zuckerberg announced that they are also going to put up a link on your Account Settings, where you could download your facebook profile. I haven't found one on mine yet. I think they're rolling it out slowly so everyone wont go berserk coz facebook's out for the meantime. You know how people tend to be needy brats at times.

Here's the video of the how to:

That RH Bill.

It's rare that I indulge on issues regarding Religion or Politics. Not that I don't care about it but the fact that I have an opinion about it makes me like everyone else. Well of course, we all have strong beliefs on where we stand, but there are some who never understood the phrase "to each his own".

I was supposed to do this blog before watching Glee's Grilled Cheezus episode. That's one episode anyone shouldn't miss by the way. Guess after watching it, Im hoping I still have my thoughts hours ago.

To kick things off, It was supposed to be the issue with Carlos Celdran vs The Church. I'm not a master of comprehension but to my understanding, this involves the passing of the RH Bill, where the church is having a very strong hold against it. I've seen posts about it, pros and antis, which actually convinced myself to be a PRO not just because of an idiotic blog I've read but because I also believe that we, as human beings before, should have a choice but still consider morality.

What is morality anyway? Growing up in a Catholic third-world country, rules dictated by this society, or Catholicism, made everything go haywire ever since. I have always been strong on my stand that I see the church as very narrow-minded, manipulative, and ancient. I believe in a higher being, don't get me wrong on that, but appointing people as priests with hierarchy like Jesus' lawyers makes me doubt it more. Shout out to the cuckoo Shirley Phelps.

What Carlos Celdran did was wrong. We are on the same team. But interrupting a mass in that manner... isn't really my scene. I know he wants his voice to get heard, but not on that manner. There could be one person on that mass praying for his/her child due to cancer or coma, and that is the least thing that he/she wants to witness at that very moment. Fighting fire with fire isn't gonna solve anything.

As I mentioned regarding that idiotic post, saying that RH Bill could result to "D.E.A.T.H.S." (Divorce, Euthanasia, Abortion, Two-Child Policy, Homosexuality and Same-Sex Marriage), is... sorry, I am typically out of words when I want to talk martian. It's too ignorant. I'll just pick one thing on that list, Homosexuality.

Why, on earth, is the Reproductive Health Bill, going to cause a person to just switch on teams? Is it because a woman wouldn't actually want to swallow a pill so she decides to be a lesbian? Or a man decides to be gay because he basically is trying to choose a one-child policy?

Is everyone going to fuck anyone on the streets because they can actually wear a condom? Like seriously? How does the church see us Filipino people? Hamsters?

This post might go on forever. I am not blinded by my beliefs. If someone is anti-RH bill, why would you even stop the PRO-RH to have a choice? If it gets passed, don't believe on contraceptions yourself. We are not forcing you to wear rubbers when you want to do missionary once every 200 years or never.

Abortion on the other hand is never an option. Did it occur to anyone that the RH Bill, which supports contraception could actually prevent such a choice? We are all different, some people panic if they are not expecting a child. They think its a choice. Dudes and Dudettes, it is not.

Now this is one reason I am pressing the unlike button, if theres one, on the church's fan page. It divides people to have a choice for themselves as a citizen, or, as a human being. Suppression is never the solution for prevention. Understanding is.

Homosexuality? Seriously? God.

Skrambol

Ayan ang Skrambol

Parang tayong dalawa

Walang sustansya.

Pero matamis

Hindi mapagsawaan

Malamig nga lang.

Hello Kitty AR-15 Assault Rifle

I seriously think that this is one of the Hello Kitty collection Gabby will NEVER have.

I will never EVER eat chicken nuggets again.

Say hello to mechanically separated chicken. It’s what all fast-food chicken is made from—things like chicken nuggets and patties. Also, the processed frozen chicken in the stores is made from it.

Basically, the entire chicken is smashed and pressed through a sieve—bones, eyes, guts, and all. it comes out looking like this.

There’s more: because it’s crawling with bacteria, it will be washed with ammonia, soaked in it, actually. Then, because it tastes gross, it will be reflavored artificially. Then, because it is weirdly pink, it will be dyed with artificial color.

But, hey, at least it tastes good, right?

(via early-onset-of-night)

Trauma. Gad Gad Gad

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Someday ♥

(via migs88)

The Spinning Beach Ball of Death

New in version 1.5 release:

• Fixed major issue causing application hang during "Processing Friend Information" which affected many users.
• Added a new sync option to ignore syncing birthdays of friends who omit the year of their birthday on Facebook (the current year is usually used as a placeholder when the year information is not available).

Seriously? I haven't been calm since this thing hangs in the middle AND that beach ball of death is seriously driving me nuts.