6 books and a tea.

i had measles. the most enjoyable measles ever.

well, ive never experienced just listening to norah jones, reading 6 books and having lots of strawberry tea. it made me feel so relaxed, inside and out. i re-read message in a bottle, the notebook and a walk to remember. i finished tuesdays with morrie, the da vinci code and dreamcatcher. well message in a bottle made me cry at around 5am but tuesdays with morrie got me crying for almost an hour. geez. its like everything crashed in front of me. the things i did, the friends i lost and i dont know if i still can regain everything back. well its life. and everything is beyond my control.

i just realized that if ever i may be sorry for everything that had happened, others wont care. so i detach myself of being sorry and go on with my life.

cant imagine life could be sooooo easy. and beautiful.

oh, and to share something else, last friday, we went to kit's pad at citiland. and i saw jujiin. he knows ivan. abi's best friend. small world. and juj is so cute. (i know he might read this but what the heck. u really are cute)

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last wednesday, ron and i just tripped around my room til 4am. well, it goes like this.

he had the frustration of being an fhm model. i had the frustration of being a photographer. so what we did is somehow make our dreams real somehow. he became my model and i made him my subject.

i wanted to post the pics but i think i have to get his permission first.

thursday, i ent to the hospital to visit my bandmate's grandma. when i arrived i wasnt expecting to cry that hard. grabe, sobrang nakakaiyak kasi yung itsura ng lola nya. (well, the barkada calls her mama). there are a lot of hoses that were attached to her.

friday, she passed away. i guess it's better that way. rather than seeing her catching her breath through a machine.

and uh.. 5pm of that day, rico, kit, abi and i met at rob place. just ate at mangan and a 6 hour talk marathon. which is not new at all. went to our house para maginuman and nagdebate lang naman sila ng tito kong kupal. well being kupal and bobo at the same time is a really bad combination. ive got two of those in my life.

ron, comment k n lang kung ready kang ipost ko ang pics. ehehehe.

new look for the bored.

hee hee. i got sick of my long hair. rather than spending thousand bucks for having a protein treatment and a new haircut, i did it the cheapskate way. ehehehehe.

oh. this was around 330am. after watching the village and incubus concert on videos.

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two days ago, there's this female college student who rode a taxi then locked the doors. there's this modus operandi that holduppers just crash in the cab to get ur stuff and do soething worse. afternoon, she was using her mobile phone and of course, her doors were locked. take note: shes using a 5210. then all of a sudden, the window of hind left door was punched and it almost smashed right into her face. just to get her phone.

facts that scared me:
1. its within our vicinity.
2. ive never thought a 5210 was something somebody would take the risk of hurting his fist just to get that. and man, i know a car window is a bit thick...
3. i got my new phone already. whatta story.

rainy days and mondays.

im trying to sell my 3650 coz i got sick of it. gusto ko ng bagong phone. i dunno if ill get a 7610 but its too flashy. i guess i have to settle with a P800 then.

we had a band practice last friday, then we went to kels malate last saturday. sunday was a bore so i just transferred all my phone files and burned it in a cd so i can transfer it back in my new phone. in case sipagin akong maglakwatsa bukas.

i just found myself with headphones, drowning in a pitcher of iced tea while watching sex and the city then prince and me on dvd. sheesh. i dont know whats happening to me.

ang trapik. letse.

good ole chatting.

im way bored. i chatted my way out of my dimension.
i ran out of sites to surf,
tv shows to watch,
cereal to eat,
money to spend,
people to talk with
.. so i chatted. my disguise nick.. (warfreak)

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(davedude)anyone has a place? i can come over if you want to tonyt. lets have some fun. im 23 m rizal.
(mack) (warfreak) rizal?
(warfreak) r u willing to go to san andres manila?
(warfreak) lolz
(davedude) layo pare
(davedude) xenxa na
(warfreak) hee hee
(warfreak) nagpapatawa lang
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(warfreak) what kind of music do u listen to?
(ROCKER23) alternativ rock
(ROCKER23) y
(warfreak) nuthin
(warfreak) just because of ur nick perhaps
(warfreak) like what bands?
(ROCKER23) like limp bizkit
(warfreak) .....
(warfreak) ah okay
(warfreak) alternative nga
(warfreak) rocker ka talaga huh
(warfreak) *giggle*
(ROCKER23) oo naman. pure rocker talaga ako. i love simple plan.
*warfreak starts to pee in his pants, laughing
(warfreak) babay na po. di kita kinaya.
(ROCKER23) ? y?

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(SleaZyKiD) do you know any good sites?
(warfreak) i wish
(warfreak) so i could quit chatting and surf instead
(warfreak) why not?
(SleaZyKiD) you can do both cant you?
(warfreak) nah
(warfreak) ya i could
(warfreak) but id rather quit chatting, puro sex laman ng utak ng mga tao. peste
(SleaZyKiD) ah sige. bye.
(warfreak) tangina ka. isa ka pa pala.

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naaliw ako kahit pano. sarap mamburot ng tao. lalo na pag manyakis. eheheheehehe.

prints.

ang masaksihan ang lila at rosas na mga ulap habang nagaagawan ang liwanag at dilim ay isa sa mga tagpo ng buhay na napakahirap bitawan. nakakatakot na maaaring di na maulit muli. parang gusto mong kunin, angkinin. o mas simple, isang larawang hindi pwedeng mabura.

at ang pagkawala, habang nababalot ang paligid ng dilim, lilikha na ng mga sugat na kahit hindi ganon kalalim ay masakit. inilalabas ang mga luhang hindi mo ipinagdadamot. na umaasang matutuyo rin ang mga luha, maghihilom din ang mga sugat. pero ang alaala ay tagos pa rin sa puso. napakahirap magpaalam. ilang ulit mang subukan, ganun pa rin ang hapdi. hindi ka masasanay.

sanay marinig ako ng mga anghel. habang dahandahan na silang binabawi ng antok. hindi na ako hihiling ng bituin. hindi ko na nanaising matulog sa buwan. hindi ko na kukuliting maglaro sa mga ulap. gusto ko lang magising. sa panaginip na ako lang yata ang lumikha.

tsaka bukas, sana ganun pa rin ang kulay ng mga ulap. para hindi ako mapagod umasa. hindi mahilo sa paikot ikot na buhay.

mood swing 76.

i was sent to the hospital yesterday morning. i was nauseous since 5 am and i kept on throwing up no matter what i drink or eat. my mother panicked a little coz i was about to collapse and im starting to look so pale. well, i had my regular medicine to prevent barfing. coke. my mother was so pissed coz the doctor wanted me to be observed for the whole day but i wanna go home. so ako ang nasunod. and it worked. gumaling ako. hehehe.

i had self inflicted wounds again. napraning lang ako nung lasing ako last saturday. it was fun though. para na tuloy akong adik. ganun talaga ako topakin.

well, the morning's bright today and i found myself having a bowl of banana nut clusters while watching will & grace. im watching "catwoman" with my girl later.

as of now, im still waiting for this blaster worm prevention to finish downloading. (while they're having bible study. isnt that um... bad? i mean, it touches my heart though but some other things are really not into my uh... type of lifestyle. guess im not ready yet.)

nice day. bright sunshine. cool jars of clay.