Day 6.

It has been raining since last night and the weather is perfect for anything hot and anything chocolate hahaha.

Havent had much sleep last night. Trish and I had been talking lately. Just trying to figure out things by my own and I guess it left me no choice but to give up.

I'm not really a stubborn person. I mean, I could be if I want to. I could also be self-righteous.

I was never bullied when I was growing up. I thought bullies exist in schools. Highschool to be exact. I fight back. But today, I dont think I have the energy to do that.

Ironic, that some people are concerned about my stress-level and toxicity, not knowing that their kind of concern was the toxic and stressful one. It had offended me, belittled me, and all the people I care about.

I almost forgot that we are individuals. I once listened to the people I look up to. I opened my mind to the idea that maybe, they're right. Not until I was there to witness and hear horrible unsolicited advices and opinion. Thinking that everybody should take one path. Their path.

Now, pictures are just pictures. Moments are just moments. I couldn't care less what my future holds for me, as long as I am keeping the people who had never judged me for my choices and for my mistakes.

It will be clear once I make a list of what you have said and done to me without me reacting on it. I have tried my very best to be the same person that I was. But I will NEVER take crap from you again.

I am tired of harboring hatred enabled by each other.

Now that I could breathe, It is not delusional that I am happier. I am not in denial that I feel a lot lighter.

I have lost a lot of people. I am tired of having the scared feeling of losing more.

I am too numb and the only feeling I have is the disgust that you think you're right, and in the position to say those things to me. Yes. I am disgusted.