Some Kind Of Miracle.

Have you ever really felt that sometimes, there is no point in
fighting, and the least thing that you could do is just give up? I
mean, there would be times that all those supposed hurtful things would be just plain normal, which i suppose we call numbness, but when you
dont feel anything anymore, you tend to look for the pain just to have
that kind of sense in living, then its right then and there you stop to
fight.

There
would be times in our lives that we just stare at the pink sky,
anticipating for whats going to happen within that certain day, and you
ask for something, like... change or consistency, but it always
disappoints you when some people just go and it would be tiring to meet
new ones, or how you would put up with this and that, or stand up to
something bad that was left the day before. but when you just have
those few options every single day, those frequent disappointments, you
shake your head then start to think that you are already way too weary.

Why
are we all in a certain deadline? we are all time-pressured to make the
right decisions and we all know we dont make the right ones, or even
have the right choices. then we in certain situations, we give up,
breathe hard, then just talk to ourselves in our minds or pray, as some
people call it, asking for a little miracle so things would be good
without doing anything just for that time. and little by little, the
chances that we believe that there is worth fighting for, fall like
dying leaves.

And little that we know, we are just living for
moments. moments, that we could share to those new people, moments that
could give us the strength when we are putting up to this and that, and
the moments that we have our grip on while fixing whats left of
yesterday. The moments that will make us keep fighting... that would be
enough miracle.

"...at the end of a day like this, a day once so many prayers
answered, and so many arent, we take our miracles where we find them,
we reach across the gap. And sometimes against all odds, against all
logic... we touch."

-Meredith Grey

Grey's Anatomy