ick.

There are so many things playing in my mind right now. one thing i need is to blurt it out. i lost a lot of people in my life (aside from being dead, like i felt like i lost them coz we dont see/speak to each other) and i gotta let go of the fact that they are mad at me coz I am failing at almost everything. Kelly was right. No one is actually saying it im just being my old self getting paranoid and self-saboteur. Is it weird that its 10pm and I wanna clean downstairs? I really wanna do and look at pictures. Nah. Im too cozy in my bedroom anyway.