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ok. settling down... settling down.

tomorrow's the day. after all the shitty things, pressure, drama and more shitty things, tapos na rin sa wakas. ive had a lot of emotion inside me going on actually. i BADLY needed to pick up my pieces and have my life back. like the routines i thought i never wanted.

in some little point in my life, ive achieved some things and accomplished a part of my being that someone couldve wanted. i dunno... i feel like its the only validation that i wanted not because i needed it, but of self worth. mababaw or what... at least naranasan. i miss my friends. i miss my books. i miss my md player. i miss my bed. and damn i cant believed i dropped them uninentionally just to "help" other people. shortchanged or im-not-even-asking-for-a-return thing... wala pa ring mga utang na loob. nakakalungkot lang. minsan magiisip ka kung worthy pa ba lahat. tapos "hindi" na lang ang sagot na natitira sa bulsa mong nauubos na ang laman. well... malungkot lang isipin na minsan sa dami ng bigas na dakot ng kamay mo... mas marami pa pala ang bato.

lucky for me... hindi nila ako iniwan. nagbabago ang lahat, pero lahat ng mahal ko nandyan pa rin. hindi nawala. naghintay para sakin.

kung isa sa kanila... salamat. maibubuhos ko na uli ang oras ko sa inyo.