mess.

i am really BV-ing. fuck.

first... my ipod crashed because somebody actually disconnected it from the computer without removing it safely (right-click on the taskbar... of course everybody knows it, right?). there were corrupted files and since the new itunes is much pakialamero than my neighbor, it cant update itself. and unfortunately i have to click one dreadful button... restore. >_<

i lost 3400 songs. yes. 3400. what songs? i dont even know. i had 5600 songs in my ipod and i got 2200 in my pc. do the math.

and then yesterday... electricity fluctuated four times. so what happened??? my pc crashed. now i am more than convinced to buy that UPS. coz the novel that ive been trying to finish for the past year... is now gone. this has been the second time and ive never learned to backup. stupid me saved it in c drive my documents and never thought of transferring it to the partitioned drives. and again i have to click a button. reformat.

so thank god the songs were in my e drive. coz if it was deleted as well... youll gonna receive an invitation of witnessing one flying cpu with a monitor and an ipod outside my dirty dusty window.

wish theres this button somewhere on our nape, where we can restore/reformat/delete the things you wanted to restore/reformat/delete. coz one, my body clock's a mess. two, i am lost somewhere in my own loop (dont wanna go on details... i am in one colossal loop). three, the people you BADLY wanted to forget come in question form brought up by other people who wonder where they went. last, i wanted to delete the habit of smoking, being manic-depressive, and being too paranoid.

and i am fuckin clueless. coz i am never EVER happy. i just pretend to be happy. fuck. i am such a hopeless frustrated retard.

i hate people who bitch around and yet... you cant understand where they got the attitude coz theyre fuglier than what they look like. and now i become what i hate. wow. priceless.

but this made me laugh. thanks to ivan's post.



now elmo's one hell of a retard. sana ganun ako kababaw.

i wanna be in kinder again. ah the beauty of time travel. then learn taekwondo within the age of 4.