then God sent his angels...

we went out for gabby's followup checkup. 1pm, we were waiting for the results and as she was watching PPG and laughing hard... after 20 minutes or so... she suddenly removed the headphones and leaned on me then uttered "dada ang lamig". within a snap, she seemed like she ran out of batteries.

she was sweating inside an airconditioned room and she felt so cold she said. she was nearly crying coz the pain was "para raw shang tinutusok". i told che to just rush her to the hospital kahit wala pa yung results pero buti naihabol. she suddenly closed her eyes and slept while i was carrying her. i dunno if she was asleep or anything but i was in great panic.

we went to the pedia, 3rd floor of manila med, and there was a line (intern stuff,,, i dunno) so i actually begged them to let us in first and the doctor said she should really be admitted. she was torniqueted and she squirmed like she cant take the pain anymore. i nearly cried in front of the doctor but i dont have the right to be weak at that moment. i should be her strength. her support. so i just went downstairs to call some people and texted my mom. shes in cebu right now.

then we went to the ER and she slept and curled under a blanket. the doctors had her IVed and i went outside to wait for ches mom and my god my money wasnt enough because we have been paying for the blood tests and urinalysis and that other stuff since last night and they were asking for a deposit.

i saw myself in one of those filipino movies where this unfortunate person is begging inside the hospital for her child to be admitted. hindi naman nangyari sakin yun pero i almost felt like that.

it was the longest four oclock of my life. i was nervous, frustrated, disoriented and helpless.

i felt so helpless. really really helpless.

then dianne, jm and rico went to see me at SM Manila where i broke down and cried so hard. i wasnt even able to talk for the first 20 minutes.

i ate coz i have to and now i went home to get some rest. gabby's a bit okay now and we still have to wait for the results by tomorrow.

thanks to all your prayers. sana magtuluy tuloy.