The Struggle.

i kept on living my life as it is. Eversince this month started, ive been waiting for that "mercury retrograde" to normalize. theoretically, i placed all of my bets on it just to have a reason why everything is turning out to be... weirdly bad.

its like when we played monopoly last night. 8 players. and im the only one who kept on getting the "give every player 50$" chance card and bouncing back and forth to jail. 6 times before i got the first 200 salary on passing Go. That is one obvious circumstance of what im talking about. and the shallowest of course.

also... i checked on my blood pressure. i havent been eating fatty food and i think because of the heat... i have a 160 over 110 on average. talk about near death experience.

i am emotionally scattered. nakakasawa na ang drama pero i always find an open time for it. instead of just lying down, resting, people get to flick my ears. and i rested my case after brainstorming with myself. trying to find a deeper reason than an astronomical relevance.

codependency.

i really think that there will come a day... nobody will actually care for anyone but himself.