Its halfway October and this month has been so... nauseating. There were decisions to make, and the best (or worst) part is the realization with a LOT of things. As much as i would like to bullet items for you, i dont think im in the mood of being list-y as of this moment.
I have realized that situations are always there to happen, but we choose the people we expect to listen, understand and accept us for what we say, what we act, what we are, and what we decide. When i was younger, a lot younger for that matter, i established to not be prejudgmental on who to be friends with. And as i grow old, ive seen such familiar faces that disappointed me and what hurts me the most... it was the people that i held really close to my heart. I know that those things are bound to happen, but when you speak years of best times and you think those are the memories that serve as glue that holds your pieces together, ive never thought that it will also be the branch, on the cliff where you hang using one hand, just waiting for it to break.
It was not my finest hour. Choosing one side, not realizing what other people said might be more true than what i thought exists. Than what i thought was special. And than what i thought was worth fighting for.
Im finishing my cup of coffee when i heard Charlie running upstairs. I forgot that i left him at my sisters house and when i came back, their door was already locked. It's weird coz when im squirming down rock bottom, Charlie sits beside me, and puts his head at my lap, looking at me while wagging his tail. As i look at him, i cant help but compare a dog's loyalty from a human friend. No wonder there are old cat ladies, and sadly, its much disappointing for humanity to rely on other species' warmth. Hello trust issues. Seriously... how do you expect to survive?
An adage once said, Tell me who your friends are... and I'll tell you who you are. But nobody mentioned that some friendships has expiration dates. So if we were defined during the times that we are friends with someone, would we consider the fact that we have changed after the friendship is over?
I think it's not that people change. People don't change. They just show their true colors after some time. That's how friendship works right? Being "true" to each other? It's just that we have to accept that some truth, doesnt work for everyone.
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Sorry I have to mention Ryan, Rae and Dianne, for what its worth, you were my backbone last night. I will thank you through my homemade ice cream and my promise to love you more than you could imagine.
Shet lalim mehn.. :))
ReplyDeletenye. were you trying to humor me? lol
ReplyDelete"some friendships has expiration dates"
ReplyDeleteso true. sad. but true.
although my relationship with you has none!!!
i know were not always "physically" there for each other when we need to be, but know that i looooove you so so much!!! i'm so sorry i've been kinda out of it recently, but you know naman why eh.... after tuesday, it'll be better. (hopefully! haha!)
hope to see you soon bff! I ♥ you!
<3 erika
i'm on the same situation kuya xav. although yours must be graver compared to mine. :(
ReplyDeleteits a sad truth but we have to keep moving forward. :) (i hope i have a dog, again. my first dog died when i was at school. :(( )
hello. you were never "never there". it was weird to have our friendship begin so fast and yet our attachment to each other is weirdly awesome.
ReplyDeletei know we do not have any expiration dates. we are always as fresh as a newly picked orange. (if thats a good metaphor or whatsoever LOL) i love you more! ♥♥♥
im so sorry bout your first dog. :( my first dog's name is doogie and i had her when i was 9 until i was 22. i lost her when my sister brought her to our warehouse when we had this business, without my authority, then doogie crossed the street, thinking she could get back home. she got hit by a car. :(
ReplyDeletecharlie, on the other hand, was given by erika (the comment before you). its not too late to have your new dog. adopt one. :)
Not really. It's just plain deep, that's all. And compared to every other blog I've read, this makes sense A LOT. :P
ReplyDeletehahahaha. sometimes, a person needs variety. :D
ReplyDelete"People don't change. They just show their true colors after some time"
ReplyDeleteOnce we're comfortable, we tend to unmask our trueselves
and sadly, sometimes, people can't handle it and/or it works the other way around...
Behind the "unmasking" of the trueselves, if we are willing to be one's friend, and friend by definition is not just the person that you just hang around then when reality hits you, you should somehow lower your guard, your biases, your mechanism and the judgments. not the so-called "friend" starts to ignore it. kasi hindi good times.
ReplyDeleteso its not about the handling, its about the compromising.