HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY HERO!

to the person who has been there for me... all along. who shared her dreams, her grievances, her punchlines, her craziness, her concerns and mostly her life. the only shoulder i could tap NO MATTER what my problem is. the only person that im not afraid to show my tears. the only person who understood who i really am, and never ever misjudged me. the only person who never left my side though time called her for independency, and life made her the perfect mother of 3. the only person that was there when my world stopped, then helped me pick up my pieces.

one of the people why i loved life so much. one of the people i would protect with my everything. one of the people i would love no matter what. one of my reasons why im still sane, happy, contented, and blessed. one of the people i admire.

my hero. my friend. my sister.

Happy Birthday Ate Winky!!! I Love You So Much!



before i start this post... this is a must read ANG PAGTUTUOS!. ganyan kami kabaliw. and thats why i love my friends soooooooooo much coz kaya naming sakyan ang bawat trip. AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA

went to star city with my nephews and my sister's family. twas really a fun night for everybody. god im so tired i dont even know what to post anymore.

i bought my xmas gift for che. :D hi cut na chucks para terno kami. kaso walang pink e. so black na lang para astig. hee hee.

i bought 5 ps2 games for my nephews and a watch for my mom. hahay. sarap ng pasko. sobra.

btw... my mom's home. may problema nga lang dahil dito nagcrash ang pinsan kong walang kwenta ng wala man lang pasabi. eh sobrang hindi pwede dahil pangit ang record nya. i dont fckin know what to say to him.

a.) kuya... dito ka ba magsstay? kasi hindi raw pwede sabi ni mama.
b.) *calls sa phone... pag sinagot ng pinsan* ui sino to? kuya? anjan ka pa? - wont work since alam kong sobrang dense sha.
c.) *tawag tito sa room nya while pinsan is there sa sala... bummin around* titooooooo.... aalis ka ba? kasi maglilinis ako.. (delivers this with emphasis) KASI MAGLILINIS AKO NG BAHAY GUSTO KO WALANG TAO!

i think C will work. hopefully. bukas yan muna plan ko.

hahay. bat ba di nawawala ang kadramahan sa mundo. labas pa nito masama akong tao.

the pre xmas tasks.

well we really had fun with ronald, burns, erick, rico, abhie and paolo last night at penguins. i cant even remember what we talked about. ang alam ko lang lasing si burns at kumain ako ng sisig. then we walked sa baywalk and i just ate this chocolate cake from figaro papunta kaming SSC para sa shisha. and again, i cant even remember what weve talked about. basta alam ko masaya. until 6am na at masakit na pala ang ulo ko.

then nandito ang damuho kong pinsan so hindi ako makatulog dahil ayoko namang palayasin sha rito. baka kasi kunin nya si rakkie habang tulog ako. malay ko ba. wala akong tiwala jan e.

and since malapit na nga ang pasko... naglaba ako ng damit na worth 2 months. at kinapos ako sa hanger. shit. so kailangan ko talagang magpalaundry. takot kasi ako baka mamaya masira lang damit ko. :(

then i changed my curtain, sheets and all. yey malinis na kwarto ko. :D so supposedly lilinisin ko ang bahay BUT andito nga ang pinsan kong walang kwenta.

Why do we have irrelevant relatives?

red.

hes blue and im red. yey.


soupstar christmas party and it was really really really fun. DK sang with jep, reese's band. torete hooray!!!!!!!! and UNBELIEVABLY i danced anino onstage. thank you absolut. pinalakas mo ang loob ko. gracie, joan and deekaye danced din. ANG KULIT NI FRANZ. he was dancin like aia. and aia was laughing while singing.

nagulat sila sa kulay ng hair ko. hahahaha. well.. i am officially a poinsettia. oo nga nagiging red ang buhok ko pag pasko. lol

oh btw... sana totoo na tao pag year 3000. lolz. i can eat gigantic dinners.

surprise

I BECAME YELLOW!


to that DISASTROUS PINK...


and to the maangas ALMOST violet. hooray.

BUKAS RED NA!

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havent slept yet coz of a 3am phone call from a cousin. hindi ko kinaya. at dahil walang magawa t kailangan ko ng diversion... ive got the brightest idea para may mailagay ako sa sidebar ko. di ko pa napapagaaralan kung pano ko mapapaliit yung hovering. basta basta. lalagay ko sana lahat kaso ito na muna. :D

just check my layout. eto nasa sidebar ko :D















1:25pm


alone and still cant sleep. just with my old companion mint tea and reds. *sigh* wish i could just jump into the water.


kaya ayan... nakasimangot.


kaya wag kang... nakooooowwww putek.

WTF.

to wrap the shit all up...

i am so fuckin tired of issues.

- the party wasnt actually planned. and besides... its abhies birthday as well so we just cant invite all that we can think about. as much as possible,,, id love to be with all the people i love. thing is.. hindi ako ang nagayos nun. and im not even gonna bother explaining.

- ive invited a lot of people na hindi nagpunta. ill make a list.
marielili replied. she said she wont make it. ive texted kymie, valerie and nina sa sun. i can actually recall val replying. (or not... its really vague). i told lea to tell cecil. unfortunately... wala na pala ang number ng sun ni lea. sheryll, chona didnt come. sherylle was sick daw and chona's in a faraway place.

to honestly state my feeling:

i love kymie so much. and val. and nina. ive confronted nina about her being "biba" and all and tapos na yon. its so good that she went sa birthday ko and i felt really really happy she's there. hindi ko kailangang magpakaplastik about that. because god knows i am happy.

i told sherylle that i didnt invite nina so she could come over. coz I thought (at hindi ako diniktahan ng kung sinumang hayup) na magkaaway pa rin sila.

thing is... it fuckin IRRITATES me bakit may issue na masama ang loob ko sa kung sino. dahil WALA. i dont invest too much emotion on anger and annoyance. coz it just eats people up. hindi ako punung puno ng kadramahan. hindi ako bata na ginagawang pang-inggit ang putang inang birthday coz its so cheap. i dont actually make my birthday invitation a validation kung friend kita o hindi. coz MY GOD... that is so low. the fact na magpunta ang isang tao sa araw mo ay isang MALAKING REGALO na hindi mapapantayan ng kahit anong materyal na bagay. hindi ako mukhang ganon.

so pakiusap ko lang... wag nyo akong ibenta. kung may sama kayo ng loob sa isat isa, magpakatao kayo at magharap harap. dahil sawa na akong maging tulay para maiayos lang ang mga buhay buhay. I HAVE A FUCKIN LIFE.

masaya ang araw kong yon. wag nyo namang bigyan ng masamang kwento. dahil for all i know... nagenjoy kaming dalawa ni abhie at ang mga taong nandon. yun lang at tanging yun lang ang gusto namin. to gather all of our friends at wala ng iba. hindi nako nagpapakita sa gigs dahil nagsasawa na ako sa drama ng maraming tao. umayos naman kayo. parang awa. kung ayaw nyong umayos... just leave me in peace. wag nang magmaganda dahil ang sole purpose lang of gigging is to meet friends who share that same music. and enjoy life. wag na nating pasukan ng mala-telenovelang kadramahan na hindi na bumibenta.

oo asar ako. but to no specific person. hindi ako galit coz its a big word. gusto ko lang iparating na hindi maganda ang ganyan. dahil kayo kayo na nga lang ang magkakasama... kayo kayo pa ang nagtitirahan. masyado ng malungkot ang mundo. sana wag na kayong dumagdag.



a lot of BVs. i was supposed to wake up at around 3pm coz hale played at SM North Edsa and im supposed to meet up claire then. i woke up at around 530. fuck. so i called claire and told her na hindi na kaya. i thought of taking a cab to Holy Spirit. i waited for 45 minutes and all the cabs were taken or PUTANGINA SA ARTE. so good thing abhie and ivan saved my day. they were in sm san lazaro at nagkape na lang kami dun. i love abhies hair. unfortunately, nalimutan naming magpic. instead...



the remains of a 4-hour conversation. from sinigang with apricot to serious matters.. wow. kulang pa ang oras actually.

coffee with friends. priceless.

at last.

since i cant find the layout that i wanted... i made my own. i know its crazy. AND IT REALLY IS. but at least it finally paid off. ive been doing this for 3 days. sheesh. bad thing happened.. twas all done and of course.. the normal me wasnt contented yet and i wanted a shoutbox for my journal... then everything screwed up again. ive read LJ's FAQ again and javascripts werent allowed pala. so i checked my css again for an hour then thank god.. i saw the stupid typos.





ive got my sidebar, favorite font, color and all that jazz. :D hooray! im such a geek.




went to megamall. my god the traffic.

it was converse's mega sale. of course ive got to have some new chucks. and since the sale started 2 days ago... no chucks, no glory. i was with gabby and i guess its her brat day. we actually fought when we were eating at el pollo. ganyan yun pag inaantok. inaaway ako eh napikon nako.

and since ive got no christmas shoes yet... ive had her pick up her christmas presents from dada and mama. :D she went shopping and unfortunately... she picked up out-of-the-budget toys. FOUR out-of-the-budget toys. those disney princesses toys are crazy. they should stop making those, they're making every father in this world poor. they never run out of new belle plates or cinderella squashes or snow white accessories. demmit. guess ill say goodbye to my eyetoy for the meantime. pero shes so happy and shempre doble sakin.


*sigh* she smiles like an angel. who am i to resist. argh.

so we have the toys wrapped coz usapan namin eh sa christmas nya yon paglalaruan BUT...


walang nakapagpigil. kahit ako gusto ko ring paglaruan yung ice cream maker nya. hehehehehehehe.

my god nung pauwi na kami. we waited for 1 1/2 hour for a cab. wala na talagang mangyayari sa bansang to kung lahat ng tao oportunista. alam na nga nilang nahihirapang sumakay yung ibang tao e, magiinarte pa. well whats new. christmas spirit i invoke thee.



i am pretty confused where to go later. hale at north edsa then claire at holy spirit. and then there goes che and my christmas shopping then my balikbayan friend from italy wants to meet the whole college tropa (omg omg omg ayokooooooo!) since its her daughter's 7th birthday (na inaanak ko rin.)

all this sunday. all this 5pm. wow.

whatever. im passing out. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.