i am so fuckin tired of issues.
- the party wasnt actually planned. and besides... its abhies birthday as well so we just cant invite all that we can think about. as much as possible,,, id love to be with all the people i love. thing is.. hindi ako ang nagayos nun. and im not even gonna bother explaining.
- ive invited a lot of people na hindi nagpunta. ill make a list.
marielili replied. she said she wont make it. ive texted kymie, valerie and nina sa sun. i can actually recall val replying. (or not... its really vague). i told lea to tell cecil. unfortunately... wala na pala ang number ng sun ni lea. sheryll, chona didnt come. sherylle was sick daw and chona's in a faraway place.
to honestly state my feeling:
i love kymie so much. and val. and nina. ive confronted nina about her being "biba" and all and tapos na yon. its so good that she went sa birthday ko and i felt really really happy she's there. hindi ko kailangang magpakaplastik about that. because god knows i am happy.
i told sherylle that i didnt invite nina so she could come over. coz I thought (at hindi ako diniktahan ng kung sinumang hayup) na magkaaway pa rin sila.
thing is... it fuckin IRRITATES me bakit may issue na masama ang loob ko sa kung sino. dahil WALA. i dont invest too much emotion on anger and annoyance. coz it just eats people up. hindi ako punung puno ng kadramahan. hindi ako bata na ginagawang pang-inggit ang putang inang birthday coz its so cheap. i dont actually make my birthday invitation a validation kung friend kita o hindi. coz MY GOD... that is so low. the fact na magpunta ang isang tao sa araw mo ay isang MALAKING REGALO na hindi mapapantayan ng kahit anong materyal na bagay. hindi ako mukhang ganon.
so pakiusap ko lang... wag nyo akong ibenta. kung may sama kayo ng loob sa isat isa, magpakatao kayo at magharap harap. dahil sawa na akong maging tulay para maiayos lang ang mga buhay buhay. I HAVE A FUCKIN LIFE.
masaya ang araw kong yon. wag nyo namang bigyan ng masamang kwento. dahil for all i know... nagenjoy kaming dalawa ni abhie at ang mga taong nandon. yun lang at tanging yun lang ang gusto namin. to gather all of our friends at wala ng iba. hindi nako nagpapakita sa gigs dahil nagsasawa na ako sa drama ng maraming tao. umayos naman kayo. parang awa. kung ayaw nyong umayos... just leave me in peace. wag nang magmaganda dahil ang sole purpose lang of gigging is to meet friends who share that same music. and enjoy life. wag na nating pasukan ng mala-telenovelang kadramahan na hindi na bumibenta.
oo asar ako. but to no specific person. hindi ako galit coz its a big word. gusto ko lang iparating na hindi maganda ang ganyan. dahil kayo kayo na nga lang ang magkakasama... kayo kayo pa ang nagtitirahan. masyado ng malungkot ang mundo. sana wag na kayong dumagdag.
a lot of BVs. i was supposed to wake up at around 3pm coz hale played at SM North Edsa and im supposed to meet up claire then. i woke up at around 530. fuck. so i called claire and told her na hindi na kaya. i thought of taking a cab to Holy Spirit. i waited for 45 minutes and all the cabs were taken or PUTANGINA SA ARTE. so good thing abhie and ivan saved my day. they were in sm san lazaro at nagkape na lang kami dun. i love abhies hair. unfortunately, nalimutan naming magpic. instead...
the remains of a 4-hour conversation. from sinigang with apricot to serious matters.. wow. kulang pa ang oras actually.
coffee with friends. priceless.
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