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FALLOUT BOY IS COMING TO MANILA!

*dies*

ERIKA WE MUST MEET PETE OMGA;KJHGLSKJDFHLASDFHAS

Thanks. ^_^

Well Gabby's home now. The doctor wanted us to still stay in the hospital for one more day but they are not confirming anything. Gabby's not taking any medication, shes just IVed and i feel so bad about them pricking her for blood tests. And theyre not confirming anything. Yeah its not dengue but the question is... what the hell is it and they have no clue. No explanation or whatsoever. Im really ANNOYED.

The fact that Manila Medical is Under Renovation, i dont think they have the right to drill after office hours. BECAUSE THERE ARE PATIENTS AND KIDS TRYING TO GET SOME REST!

Since she looks better and even the doctor's saying that her vitals are showing no abnormalities, we decided to take her home. Shes okay now. No signs of weakness, fever or anything. As in parang walang nangyari.

Salamat sa lahat ng nagmessage at nagdasal. sobrang salamat. malaking tulong ang matahimik kami ni che dahil alam naming maraming nasa likod namin. ^_^

*Group Hug*

then God sent his angels...

we went out for gabby's followup checkup. 1pm, we were waiting for the results and as she was watching PPG and laughing hard... after 20 minutes or so... she suddenly removed the headphones and leaned on me then uttered "dada ang lamig". within a snap, she seemed like she ran out of batteries.

she was sweating inside an airconditioned room and she felt so cold she said. she was nearly crying coz the pain was "para raw shang tinutusok". i told che to just rush her to the hospital kahit wala pa yung results pero buti naihabol. she suddenly closed her eyes and slept while i was carrying her. i dunno if she was asleep or anything but i was in great panic.

we went to the pedia, 3rd floor of manila med, and there was a line (intern stuff,,, i dunno) so i actually begged them to let us in first and the doctor said she should really be admitted. she was torniqueted and she squirmed like she cant take the pain anymore. i nearly cried in front of the doctor but i dont have the right to be weak at that moment. i should be her strength. her support. so i just went downstairs to call some people and texted my mom. shes in cebu right now.

then we went to the ER and she slept and curled under a blanket. the doctors had her IVed and i went outside to wait for ches mom and my god my money wasnt enough because we have been paying for the blood tests and urinalysis and that other stuff since last night and they were asking for a deposit.

i saw myself in one of those filipino movies where this unfortunate person is begging inside the hospital for her child to be admitted. hindi naman nangyari sakin yun pero i almost felt like that.

it was the longest four oclock of my life. i was nervous, frustrated, disoriented and helpless.

i felt so helpless. really really helpless.

then dianne, jm and rico went to see me at SM Manila where i broke down and cried so hard. i wasnt even able to talk for the first 20 minutes.

i ate coz i have to and now i went home to get some rest. gabby's a bit okay now and we still have to wait for the results by tomorrow.

thanks to all your prayers. sana magtuluy tuloy.

:(

Gabby's sick. Dinala na namin sha sa hospital kaninang 10pm because bumalik na naman yung lagnat niya. Nung sunday pa nagstart yun after the birthday party we attended. Sumasakit yung tyan nya si we thought na baka nalamigan lang. I kinda asked about her cousins na rin and they were okay so its definitely not fastfood germs.

Tapos kaninang hapon wala nsa raw lagnat so i thought shes fine na then nung gabi, nag-ym kami ni Gab then she just said "dada, masakit tyan ko" tapos kinabahan na ako. so sabi ko kay che wag ng ipagpaliban at dalhin na sa ospital.

weve waited for two hours habang naghihintay ng result ng urinalysis nya tsaka blood test. so the doctors thought its UTI pero negative nga. Blood Platelet count was normal pero mababa.

The Doctor said, baka signs na raw ng Dengue. :( my heart pumped like hell. ayokong magkasakit si gab nun. T_T mamaya may followup yung checkup nya kaya i hope everybody prays for my Gab. wala pang binigay na gamot kasi di pa naman daw positive pero may chances kasi uso na naman daw ang dengue.

ingat din kayo sa lamok. youll never know kung ano dala ng hayop na yan.

H A L E 101

This will be the first gig introducing their campus tour!!! Be there at RATSKY Morato!

Sourberry will also be playing! *woot woot*

sakay.

may mga oras ba na minsan, yung mga mabababaw na bagay ang mga nagiging dahilan kung bakit mabilis ka ng maguluhan? yung tipong may mga araw na pakiramdam mo lahat ng tao, kinamumuhian ka.

ako naman kasi, ngayon lang din dumating sa punto ng buhay na hindi na nagaaksaya ng panahon pag asar sakin yung tao. yung tipong kung ayaw mo wag mo. marami rin kasing beses na alam ko naman na nakakaasar ako. pero minsan sinasadya ko yun kasi pakiramdam ko, kailangan mo talagang maasar. hindi naman sa pagiging pakialamero pero kasi may mga oras din naman na ako yung naasar. tapos bilang magkaibigan, mutual na yung usapan na pwede tayong magasaran di ba?

minsan, gumigising na lang ako na iniisip na sana iba na uli lahat. yung tipong hindi ko kilala lahat. tapos magpapakilala uli ako. mali na kasi e. parang alam mo yun, alam ko naman talaga na ok ako. hindi sa nagcclaim na ok ako pero marami naman akong kaibigan na makakapagpatunay non. minsan lang, kanya kanyang ugali ang tao. at galit ako sa traydor. sabi ko nga, kung galit ka, sabihin mo agad. kaibigan kita di ba. hindi yung asar ka, sasabihin mo sa iba pero sabi mo sakin wala lang yun. ang gulo lang. mali kasi e. kung ayaw mong lumaki yung gulo, in the first place, you should end it with me.

tapos minsan hindi mo na alam sakyan. kaya gusto mo na lang lumayo o umiwas. kasi marami rin naman akong dapat isipin, aksaya lang tuloy ng pagod ang isipin pa yung ganung klase ng issue.

kung ako ang klase ng tao na dapat magisip na may kanya kanya tayong differences, why should i be an exemption? kung gusto mong respetuhin ko ang pagkakaiba ng mga tao at isipin ko yun, dapat maisip mo rin na iba ako. may mga prinsipyo rin ako sa sarili na dapat respetuhin ng iba. hindi rin ako perpekto. ako yung klase na pag sinabihan mo ng mali, makikinig ako. at kung may mali ako, aaminin ko. dahil maiisip ko lang lalo na takot kang marealize na ikaw ang mali all along.

at isa pa, nalulungkot ako na ako yung klase ng tao na kailangan kong patunayan sa yo ng paulit ulit na hindi ako nangiiwan sa ere. yung klase ng tao na pag nasabi ko na, ayoko ng tinatanong uli. lalo na kung yung nararamdaman ko ang kinukuwestyon mo. na para bang wala akong karapatang magisip, at makaramdam ng hindi maganda.

wala lang kagigising ko lang. at ito agad ang pumasok sakin. babaguhin ko lang ng konti ang pagiging malapit ko. tapos hindi ako napapahalagahan. hindi naman ako nagseself pity. gusto ko lang reasonable enough.

nakakasawa na kasi.

Back at the Game.

oh yeah... and im BACK AT THE GAME.

why do i want my LJ back? coz i miss my friends here so bad. and BURNS' recent post about philippine cinema made me SO EXCITED to click back.

go go see THIS ENTRY!

priceless.