Trinoma

Since my being homebound seemed to be depressing me a little bit, Mamu wanted us to go to Trinoma so we could catch up with things, (i.e. "Wedding Plans" and my recent ER episode.) I was supposed to cancel coz Trinoma is a bit far but Ehboi insisted on it so I could relax by doing my usual hobby. Eat FroYo and check on pretty things *sniggers*.

After a bowl of Mongolian, (less sodium and more tofu), went straight to White hat for some Peach, Cherries, Blueberry and Cheesecake Froyo. (Yes, its 98% Fat-free and most of the cheesecake was eaten by Ehboi. :p)

Then Ehboi surprised me with a very spirit-uplifting gift. ♥

My sister said, "WHAT THE HELL IS THAT? PARA KANG JEJEMON".

Excuse me ate, you're too old na. Jejemon's couldn't pull off this color scheme. And besides, I like Justin Bieber. Magulat ka na lang kung naka purple akong Supra. :p

But really Ehboi, you made my heart pound good. Really good. :)

Then this afternoon, Ryan asked me to go with him to Rob Place to buy a book and drown ourselves with Manila Scramble. I had two large ones. Unfortunately, I took iterax an hour before that so I was like a groggy man wearing a hoodie and wayfs inside a mall. Eating Scramble. I was too sleepy to enjoy it. So after grabbing a book, I asked Ryan if he could go ahead and get groceries while I go to the restroom to throw up, since I feel nauseated. I slept inside a cubicle for around 20 minutes with my feet showing under its door. Somebody was knocking asking if I was ok coz I think they thought I died pooping HAHAHAHA. Then I slept in the cab on our way home, tried to walk upstairs then slept again for 4 hours. Waking up to this:

Thanks to Roemart. He knows how to wake up a sleeping high-guy. :p

Love The Way You Lie (Eminem ft. Rihanna)

Song of my life. Geezus.

I was just trying out youtube instant where as you type letters, the video it suggests is shown live and it changes along as you type. I randomly typed "L" and this is the first thing that appeared. I first heard it live when I was watching the VMAs but I didn't care at first. So I watched the video and saw Dominic Monaghan (Lost) and Megan Fox (who doesnt know Megan Fox? Raise your hand and give yourself a slap on your own face) until the song made a lot of sense. Words started to seep inside me until the third chorus broke my heart.

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife

In my windpipe

I can't breathe

But I still fight

While I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right

It's like I'm in flight

High of a love

Drunk from the hate

It's like I'm huffing paint

And I love it the more that I suffer

I suffocate

And right before im about to drown

She resuscitates me

She fucking hates me

And I love it

Wait

Where you going

I'm leaving you

No you ain't

Come back

We're running right back

Here we go again

It's so insane

Cause when it's going good

It's going great

I'm Superman

With the wind in his bag

She's Lois Lane

But when it's bad

It's awful

I feel so ashamed

I snap

Who's that dude

I don't even know his name

I laid hands on her

I'll never stoop so low again

I guess I don't know my own strength

( * )

You ever love somebody so much

You can barely breathe

When you're with them

You meet

And neither one of you

Even know what hit 'em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills

Used to get 'em

Now you're getting fucking sick

Of looking at 'em

You swore you've never hit 'em

Never do nothing to hurt 'em

Now you're in each other's face

Spewing venom

And these words

When you spit 'em

You push

Pull each other's hair

Scratch, claw, bit 'em

Throw 'em down

Pin 'em

So lost in the moments

When you're in 'em

It's the rage that took over

It controls you both

So they say it's best

To go your separate ways

Guess that they don't know ya

Cause today

That was yesterday

Yesterday is over

It's a different day

Sound like broken records

Playin' over

But you promised her

Next time you'll show restraint

You don't get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game

But you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave

Out the window

Guess that's why they call it window pane

( * )

Now I know we said things

Did things

That we didn't mean

And we fall back

Into the same patterns

Same routine

But your temper's just as bad

As mine is

You're the same as me

But when it comes to love

You're just as blinded

Baby please come back

It wasn't you

Baby it was me

Maybe our relationship

Isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens

When a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is

I love you too much

To walk away though

Come inside

Pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don't you hear sincerity

In my voice when I talk

Told you this is my fault

Look me in the eyeball

Next time I'm pissed

I'll aim my fist

At the dry wall

Next time

There will be no next time

I apologize

Even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games

I just want her back

I know I'm a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I'mma tie her to the bed

And set the house on fire

( * )

This tells a story of where we should all learn how to draw the thinnest line between self-destruction and love. But who are we to set rules, right?

Isa.

Hindi ko alam kung ang alinsangan ng gabi ang dahilan kung bakit hindi pa rin ako makatulog. Binigyan na nga ako ng duktor ng gamot na pwedeng makapagpakalma sakin pero walang talab. Hanggang sa dumating ako sa sukdulang dapat pala ako matuwa kahit paano dahil ginusto ko to lahat.

Nung unang rinig ko na may sakit ako sa puso na dahilan ng pagkamatay ng tatay ko, nalungkot ako. Parang ang aga yata. Iniisip ko, "ah, wag seryosohin kasi may panahon pa."

Hanggang sa naalala ko ang lahat ng mga taong dapat sumasalo sakin sa ganitong panahon. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit pakiramdam ko pa rin, wala na talagang makakapagpabago sa kung ano ang matagal ng tumatakbo sa isip ko.

That whenever you experience joy, or satisfaction, that is just temporary. Dahil sa ilang minutong salita, lalabas ang tunay na anyo ng daan kung saan ka tumatakbo.

Naalala ko si Nino. Tatlo kaming sabay-sabay lumaki. Si Clark, si Nino, at ako. Nung nagkahiwahiwalay kami nung mga 14 ako, nabalitaan ko na lang after 6 years na namatay sha sa sakit sa puso.

Si Archie at Jeje. Ang mga "backer" ko na mahilig mang-harang para lang makipagkuwentuhan. Nasunog sa Ozone nung gabing inaaya nila ako pero hindi ako sumama. Dahil sinumbong ako ng Ninang ko na tumatakas para i-celebrate yung birthday nila.

Si Clark, binaril ng hindi kilalang lalaki, dahil yata sa babaeng may gusto sa kanya pero tinanggihan nya. Nagkataong may kuneksyon ata yung babae sa malaking isda.

Si Wine. Mula pagkabata, magkaibigan na kami. Hanggang sa nagkaroon ng away na lumaki na lang, dahilan kung bakit hindi na kami nag-usap ng anim na taon. Kung kelan nalimutan na ang galit, at pinaghandaan ang muling pagkikita, hindi ko naman inakalang magkikita kami sa ospital kung saan anim na tubo ang nakakabit sa kanya. Na pinilit nyang iabot ang kamay nya sakin at sabihing "I Miss You." Na nasayang ang anim na taon kung saan pwede pang nabawasan ang dahilan kung bakit sha nagkakanser. Stress, o kung anu ano pa. Pero walang bisyo yon.

Doon na ata ako sumuko. Yun na yata ang huling iyak ko na pakiramdam ko, inggit. Dahil sa ilang beses kong sinubukang mauna, hindi ko yata kayang ako ang gagawa ng paraan. Hanggang sa sinabi ng duktor sakin. Na masyado pa akong bata para magkasakit ngayon. Na hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong maramdaman.

Ang galing ng tao. Marami sa atin ang nagnanais maging imortal. Naalala ko lang ang mga kwentong hinahanap nila yung panghabambuhay na kabataan. O magpapakagat sa bampira para mabuhay habangbuhay. How can anyone love life? How can anyone try to look for love if it's the main reason why it breaks our hearts? How can anyone live trying to find the reason, arguing about religion, standing tall for principles, fighting for rights, if most of our lives, we tend to have our hearts broken for a million times, and yet pretend to be stronger.

How can anyone believe that we are made for one person? If that person does not stand the chance to love forever? If love is a decision, then what about pain?

Dahil sabihin ko mang marami pa akong panahon, paano pag sinayang lang ng iba? Paano kung gustuhin kong sulit ang ikli ng mga araw, paano kung walang kuwenta sa kanila?

Hindi ko talaga mundo to e. Pasensya na. Pero sa mga susunod ko pang araw, kaya ko pang magpanggap na masaya.

Blackberry Curve 8250 vs Sony Ericsson Xperia x10 mini pro

It has been so long since I wanted a new phone. I stopped right after when iPhones were released coz I used to be a non-fan of touchscreens.

When Nokia had their E series I decided, Id rather have the Blackberry. App stores (with Free apps) are a bargaining tool for me. I tried E63, and the fact that its a bit heavy, it also freezes. I am currently using a Macbook and unfortunately, I think almost all of the brands are PC integrated when it comes to upgrades.

I like the iPhone, dont get me wrong. But I'm not really a fan of its price. Also, I usually text without looking on what I press, and I dont think that skill would work with it.

I used to be a fan of Sony Ericsson. After holding xperia x10 mini pro, I realized I still am a fan. Sony Ericsson kept its interface casual, clean and sophisticated.

I will not dive into BIG specs. Theres GSM Arena for that.

I am currently using a Blackberry 8250. I am also the typical Social Network user and it was just recent that I could use my twitter thru WiFi. Facebook isn't. Googled for some time if there's a way to do it but I didn't find any. BBM and other services need you to subscribe to BIS. So it inhibits me the joy of getting free WiFi in the mall or any establishments.

Xperia x10 mini pro has a slide-up touchscreen with QWERTY keys. Ran by Android and of course, Google Integrated. Whats fun about it is its fully functional on WiFi, and there are a lot of apps which I use. Tumblr, Dropbox, YM etc. I don't know if this very small yet jampacked phone could be synced with my Mac Address Book since it's integrated with my Facebook account. Gathering details like Events, Contact pictures, and Birthdays.

X10 has a 5 MP camera with a flash, Blackberry 8250 has 2MP w/o flash. Both have expandable memories. Bluetooth device is sometimes a pain in the ass especially BB's. I guess I was spoiled by old Nokia phones.

Actually, it's like I'm comparing a fruit to a robot. I got an inkling that x10 is better but i think I'm comparing it to the wrong phone.

I still love my Blackberry though. hahahaha

Play Snake on Youtube

This is Amazing! As if we need another reason to procrastinate. :D I also suggest you use the Black Screen for a clearer play. :)

The Seven Deadly Sins Challenge

This post is supposed to be a one-sin-a-day kind of a challenge but I guess I could make it seven-sins-in-one-day.

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
1. I know Im an awesome cook.
2. I can sing well.
3. I know what I appreciate.
4. Im not a sheep. I dont easily give in to the majority's opinion.
5. I know how to love.
6. Im a smart-ass. I dont really give in to people who think theyre greater than others coz theyve achieved so much, coz I know the happiness they thought they have is just like the happiness a thirsty man has when he gets his cold glass of water.
7. I am well-loved and I thank God for that.

Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.

1. Peace of Mind. Only the selfish and the morons have it.

2. Metabolism like Joey Mead's.

3. Chad Michael Murray's/Zac Efron's hair.

4. Lucky numbers.

5. Tina Fey's friends.

6. A recording label.

7. A charity institution.

Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
1. Unsolicited Advices.
2. Unnecessary/Unbelievably Not-constructive Criticisms.
3. Someone's hunger to be the boss.
4. Apathy.
5. Insensitivity.
6. Connivance and Back-biting.
7. Lies.

Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
1. Hanging my jackets/hoodies after wearing them.
2. Fixing the bed.
3. Replying to text messages.
4. Throwing away things.
5. Giving the missent mails to the owners.
6. Cleaning shoes.
7. Going to the doctor whenever I feel sick.

Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
1. Never-ending gadgets and game consoles.
2. My own house.
3. Three cars.
4. All the clothes and the shoes that I want.
5. Books. Lots of books.
6. The biggest LCD screen and all those awesome appliances.
7. Money of course. Lots and Lots of Money.

Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
1. I love music to the extent that I download stuff and never get to listen to all of it.
2. Frozen Yoghurts. I could eat it the whole day.
3. Shakey's Pepperoni Pizza.
4. Quarter Pounders.
5. Fruit shakes.
6. Cho.co.lates.
7. Pesto.

Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.
1. Ive been with someone I wanted to spend my life with for 4 rollercoaster-ride years.
2. It takes a long time for me to let go.
3. I hate break-ups, to the extent that I become a half-wit martyr.
4. I love to cuddle. And to be intimate.
5. I always fall in love like a highschool kid.
6. Sad love songs/movies always break my heart.
7. I love holding hands in public before. Im not sure about it now.

Before I get to sleep..

I will be trying my best to dream about these two things:

The Bookshelf that I want:

And the first thing Id be eating tomorrow. (Well, aside from coffee, but I dont eat it, do I?) Coffee Bean's FroYo.