first times.

i dunno if i ran out of memorable first times. hmmm.. well the normal first times like the simple ones. not like going to zimbabwe or something like that.

4 hours to go and it like 2004 is history. when i was a kid, going to the beach on summer is an official non-sleep day, since excitement bugs you when you're in bed. cant count sheeps but minutes. and now ive reached my quarter-life crisis, ive ran out of excitements. i didnt even notice that we have to replace our dusty 2004 calendar. everybody had their sound systems set, having a blast with their fireworks, and kids, blowing their horns. its new year alright. and for me, its the normal tonight-waiting-for-tomorrow habit.

but hey. im not denying that i am really really blessed with the people around me but when had told us, "tuso talaga ang year of the monkey, maraming nasisirang relasyon. sa kaibigan, sa magsyota at sa ewan ko pa". so feng shui really works? this was the only year that ive lost two friends, a cousin, an a best friend. not that their dead. i mean ive lost them coz of misunderstandings, miscommunication, and misjudgment. to my best friend wine, since i talked a lot about my anger, i should also be outspoken about me asking for forgiveness and i would wait until i could. to my cousin, well.. she's a bitch and she's the one who should say sorry. kiddin'. but half meant.

countdowns. the pressure given by time. sa umpisa nga raw ng buhay, umpisa rin daw ng untiunting pagkamatay. grabe. sobrang negative. di talaga maganda pag pessimistic ka. hope everyone could be happy this new year. coz i know ill be.

"...life changes, but memories dont.." - wine sta maria

hope nothing changes. but the only constant thing in this world is change. so its like i wished on an exploding mother rocket, na akala ko falling star.

happy new year.