how

what could my love has to offer just to regain everything that weve lost?
how could my certainties bring back all the trust you have given before?
how could i let you pass up all the chances to make you happy just for my assurance's sake?
how could i prove that i miss all of it? all of the things that started to build my being?
how could i let that pain linger inside me until i cringe and throw up... just to make you see that you still have your freedom of loving anyone?
how could i make myself crazy on just enjoying myself too much and let you wait for me, thinking that you are also enjoying yourself? how could i not think that its too much?

how could i want to let you go and just scare the shit out of me if someday... you wouldnt be mine.. forever?

how could i promise to love you forever and still couldnt prove it.

im so sorry i still love you.