Sorry i had to go so early coz i was REALLY nauseous and yeah i think i was drunk. one thing ive realized though
a beer + 3 shots of cuervo + 2 kurant with sprite + 2 tequila rose + 3 baileys = hyperacidity.
i hope you enjoyed your day!!! i love you BFF! pictures ha!
6.17.2007
6.15.2007
Capones and the Playground.
i really didnt want to go out. and yeah anna, again, i owe it to you.went to capones and the house was full with surprises. hales going to play and they played like a lot of cover songs and four originals. i was with JM, Cadz and Ryan. i actually planned on dropping by since Ivan, Pao and Abhie were near the area, but then again, i had 6 bottles of beer. so we stayed in capones until um... 2 am i guess then went to the salcedo playground. oi leeza, denden was there too. HAHAHAHA.
it was fun swinging and slidin and goofin around. IN MAKATI AT 4AM. i am such a retard. then i had bubblegum float, fake chicken and apple pie.
i am drunk and happy and full.
6.14.2007
Deleting.
ive finally decided to have my own first day.
this will be the first day where i will be friendster-less, podcast-less, livejournal-less, and blogger-less. it has attached so much memories and i really have to start cleaning up.
thanks for the memories.
i still have multiply though. its love, i cant afford to delete it. :)
this will be the first day where i will be friendster-less, podcast-less, livejournal-less, and blogger-less. it has attached so much memories and i really have to start cleaning up.
thanks for the memories.
i still have multiply though. its love, i cant afford to delete it. :)
6.13.2007
Mamu, Anna, Hannah, Bunchu, Tookney, Celest, Don, Leeza, Shel and Seven
i really feel like i should dedicate a post for you. i really should.
Last June 11 was one of the most memorable experiences ive had. especially when i brought gabby with us. she had that kind of smile sa cab when we went home. and my happiness was overflowing i didnt know how to start thanking each and every one of you.
it was actually the first time that i brought gabby out with friends. and that experience was so overwhelming. sobrang pag tinitingnan ko yung pics natin i felt very whole. sobrang complete. talagang family.
and if i could give each and everyone of you a piece of my heart... i will. sobrang saya ko. as in sobra. at kaya ko tinatype ng paulit ulit kasi kulang talaga yung word para idescribe ang nararamdaman ko. hanggang ngayon.
sobrang mahal na mahal ko kayo. thanks for always picking me up when im down. i love you guys. <3
Last June 11 was one of the most memorable experiences ive had. especially when i brought gabby with us. she had that kind of smile sa cab when we went home. and my happiness was overflowing i didnt know how to start thanking each and every one of you.
it was actually the first time that i brought gabby out with friends. and that experience was so overwhelming. sobrang pag tinitingnan ko yung pics natin i felt very whole. sobrang complete. talagang family.
and if i could give each and everyone of you a piece of my heart... i will. sobrang saya ko. as in sobra. at kaya ko tinatype ng paulit ulit kasi kulang talaga yung word para idescribe ang nararamdaman ko. hanggang ngayon.
sobrang mahal na mahal ko kayo. thanks for always picking me up when im down. i love you guys. <3
6.11.2007
it used to be you.
the day is already starting and my sleepless swollen eyes just kept staring on the cobwebs near the corner of my door and the ceiling. i have been trying so hard to have my life back. i have been trying to just block all the images my head creates. and im so tired of being alone in a lot of things, the least that you could do is let me go. and let me heal my wounds rather than stick your finger up to it, for me to feel that im letting you hurt me because of the mere fact that i still love you.
i know i do. they even know i still do. one thing you should know though, is its too late. too late for my mind to process and ctrl+alt+del things.
we used to watch tv series in my pc. i used to cook food for you. we used to joke around in my bedroom and tickle each other til we cant breathe, i used to just wear my hair without any product on it, i used to crack punchlines that you die of laughing, i used to sneak out my room to have a stick of cigarette, we used to buy junk food while playing songs, you used to watch me play my violin or the guitar, i used to wake up beside you, we used to do things together...
before you pushed me away, i used to love a person so bad, that i basically knew that i cant live without that person...
and that person used to be you.
if you are that broken, if you are that lost, if you are that empty, if you are that frustrated, if you are that sad, if you are that void, if you are that desperate, if you are that in need of me... then why just now? why now where im so ready to face life alone with all my ammunition?
why just now where im used to the fact that were not meant for each other?
i know i do. they even know i still do. one thing you should know though, is its too late. too late for my mind to process and ctrl+alt+del things.
we used to watch tv series in my pc. i used to cook food for you. we used to joke around in my bedroom and tickle each other til we cant breathe, i used to just wear my hair without any product on it, i used to crack punchlines that you die of laughing, i used to sneak out my room to have a stick of cigarette, we used to buy junk food while playing songs, you used to watch me play my violin or the guitar, i used to wake up beside you, we used to do things together...
before you pushed me away, i used to love a person so bad, that i basically knew that i cant live without that person...
and that person used to be you.
if you are that broken, if you are that lost, if you are that empty, if you are that frustrated, if you are that sad, if you are that void, if you are that desperate, if you are that in need of me... then why just now? why now where im so ready to face life alone with all my ammunition?
why just now where im used to the fact that were not meant for each other?
6.09.2007
the yearn to learn.
every matter consists of a balance. every creation has its advantages and disadvantages. ive thought before that open-mindedness or being uninhibited was set apart from things that need balance. then again.
freedom is a very big word to handle. and freedom itself is a big thing to have. from the angry-rebels-without-a-cause teens to the patriotics, its one phase a person never misses from the path to knowing himself fully.
even the people who doesnt really need freedom thinks that they want it. its like being stranded on an island for quite some time, having that urge to go back where you think is your home, but after surviving like that, you might still want to go back to that island. even if thats where you suffered, hungered, gasped and wandered. why is this.
do we really need to suffer to feel or appreciate compassion? do we really need to thank pain to just know we're still alive? do we really hear or see things as it may seem? and as a person who lived being such a masochist, i could say yes. but how about you? do you really want to suffer and dwell in pain just to realize things and see the worth of losses?
we all complain about that invisible authoritative hand placing us on such a wrong spot everytime we dont expect it. its like destiny playing monopoly and we are its token. we could go to jail, might get boardwalk, or play with chance. we complain of not having the perfect plan in our mind working in our very eyes. since we all have different perspectives and fates, things will definitely not go our way especially if we need other people for our plans to work. which makes it more complex and a little less exciting. and then we ask for freedom to everything. from the attachments to the people within our circle or to destiny itself. and as to the golden rule, are we just insensitive of things we do wrongly before it comes around not noticing that we really deserve it?
what comes around goes around? really?
and as to a person who knows by heart whats right and wrong... how do you really sort it out? there goes being uninhibited. scratching off the word prejudgment. knowing all circumstances, all possibilties, reasons, wow... a lot of things actually. but do we really seriously need to have our minds open until our brains fall off the ground? as to acceptance, how do we really learn that word appropriately? how do we teach ourselves to just open-heartedly accept the fact, that we deserve wrong things especially if we always think twice just to have that perfect decision?
we decide not for our decisions to be right, we decide if the decision we do is not worth regretting, so we could breathe a little if things dont happen the way we want it to.
if no man is an island, then we definitely not want freedom. we always hunger for the suppresants, the chains, and the big iron ball just for our heads to not bump the ceiling because freedom makes us so giddy, we tend to jump way off the charts.
we all want the attachment. the drama. because if life is too short, we would be really tired of waiting and waiting our whole lives. even if we say that a certain person is worth waiting for. but thats plain stupid. its a thanatophobic's suicide. so logically, we attach so we could ask for freedom. and that vicious drama cycle goes on.
the thing we tend to OFTEN forget is our list of rational resolutions. not jumping on to obvious conclusions, going on extreme ends, then let half of our brain rot itself. because everything has its middle and not concluded using two colors. white is not a color. even black. because white consists of colors and black consists of nothing. so why dont we see the colors first, ya?
if we learn the art of complexity, we do not solve it, we just understand it more, but not fully, for the most intelligent being or the most saintly still cannot define the meaning of life. and if life consists of matters, matter consists of balance, balance consists of black and white, and white consists of colors... there would be an endless trail of question marks.
Not all the questions have an absolute answer. but asking it doesnt mean it's answerless. its as trivial as the yearning for the synonym of the word synonym.
freedom is a very big word to handle. and freedom itself is a big thing to have. from the angry-rebels-without-a-cause teens to the patriotics, its one phase a person never misses from the path to knowing himself fully.
even the people who doesnt really need freedom thinks that they want it. its like being stranded on an island for quite some time, having that urge to go back where you think is your home, but after surviving like that, you might still want to go back to that island. even if thats where you suffered, hungered, gasped and wandered. why is this.
do we really need to suffer to feel or appreciate compassion? do we really need to thank pain to just know we're still alive? do we really hear or see things as it may seem? and as a person who lived being such a masochist, i could say yes. but how about you? do you really want to suffer and dwell in pain just to realize things and see the worth of losses?
we all complain about that invisible authoritative hand placing us on such a wrong spot everytime we dont expect it. its like destiny playing monopoly and we are its token. we could go to jail, might get boardwalk, or play with chance. we complain of not having the perfect plan in our mind working in our very eyes. since we all have different perspectives and fates, things will definitely not go our way especially if we need other people for our plans to work. which makes it more complex and a little less exciting. and then we ask for freedom to everything. from the attachments to the people within our circle or to destiny itself. and as to the golden rule, are we just insensitive of things we do wrongly before it comes around not noticing that we really deserve it?
what comes around goes around? really?
and as to a person who knows by heart whats right and wrong... how do you really sort it out? there goes being uninhibited. scratching off the word prejudgment. knowing all circumstances, all possibilties, reasons, wow... a lot of things actually. but do we really seriously need to have our minds open until our brains fall off the ground? as to acceptance, how do we really learn that word appropriately? how do we teach ourselves to just open-heartedly accept the fact, that we deserve wrong things especially if we always think twice just to have that perfect decision?
we decide not for our decisions to be right, we decide if the decision we do is not worth regretting, so we could breathe a little if things dont happen the way we want it to.
if no man is an island, then we definitely not want freedom. we always hunger for the suppresants, the chains, and the big iron ball just for our heads to not bump the ceiling because freedom makes us so giddy, we tend to jump way off the charts.
we all want the attachment. the drama. because if life is too short, we would be really tired of waiting and waiting our whole lives. even if we say that a certain person is worth waiting for. but thats plain stupid. its a thanatophobic's suicide. so logically, we attach so we could ask for freedom. and that vicious drama cycle goes on.
the thing we tend to OFTEN forget is our list of rational resolutions. not jumping on to obvious conclusions, going on extreme ends, then let half of our brain rot itself. because everything has its middle and not concluded using two colors. white is not a color. even black. because white consists of colors and black consists of nothing. so why dont we see the colors first, ya?
if we learn the art of complexity, we do not solve it, we just understand it more, but not fully, for the most intelligent being or the most saintly still cannot define the meaning of life. and if life consists of matters, matter consists of balance, balance consists of black and white, and white consists of colors... there would be an endless trail of question marks.
Not all the questions have an absolute answer. but asking it doesnt mean it's answerless. its as trivial as the yearning for the synonym of the word synonym.
if everybody's weird... then nobody is weird.
tagged by: celestislove (wow this took me a long time to answer)
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about you. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.
1. i am Agoraphobic. i really dont like public places whenever im alone. people may think that im exposed in crowds but seriously, im having troubles with riding a jeepney. it has been 3 or 4 years since i rode a jeepney to somewhere a bit far like sm north edsa. i really hate big crowds. i love the mall but whenever im not with anyone, i feel like im having troubles breathing. i cant even walk outside our door without my iPod if i know ill be going out alone. im scared hearing all the people around me.
2. i am never an addict. to anything. i could indulge for a week, a month but i easily detach to a thing that i crave for a long time. then not want it again.
3. my mind keeps on thinking random things. problems, people, things i want to buy, winning the lottery kahit hindi ako tumataya, what to download, funny situations, fights and a lot more.
4. i dont like bringing umbrellas. kahit sobrang lakas ng ulan, ayokong nagdadala ng payong. pero nawalan ako ng choice nung nagkagirlfriend ako. lalo na siguro ngayon dahil kay gabby.
5. i am frigginly sentimental. whenever somebody gives me a thing or opens up a door for me, my heart melts as if its butter in an oven. then i usually take note of it and try to figure out on how to pay it back.
6. im weirdly a kid at heart. im a crybaby. and i love toys. i also have tantrums.
tagging: smilejansen, dorina12, moonchildgoddess, ceresn, detin12, seven
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about you. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.
1. i am Agoraphobic. i really dont like public places whenever im alone. people may think that im exposed in crowds but seriously, im having troubles with riding a jeepney. it has been 3 or 4 years since i rode a jeepney to somewhere a bit far like sm north edsa. i really hate big crowds. i love the mall but whenever im not with anyone, i feel like im having troubles breathing. i cant even walk outside our door without my iPod if i know ill be going out alone. im scared hearing all the people around me.
2. i am never an addict. to anything. i could indulge for a week, a month but i easily detach to a thing that i crave for a long time. then not want it again.
3. my mind keeps on thinking random things. problems, people, things i want to buy, winning the lottery kahit hindi ako tumataya, what to download, funny situations, fights and a lot more.
4. i dont like bringing umbrellas. kahit sobrang lakas ng ulan, ayokong nagdadala ng payong. pero nawalan ako ng choice nung nagkagirlfriend ako. lalo na siguro ngayon dahil kay gabby.
5. i am frigginly sentimental. whenever somebody gives me a thing or opens up a door for me, my heart melts as if its butter in an oven. then i usually take note of it and try to figure out on how to pay it back.
6. im weirdly a kid at heart. im a crybaby. and i love toys. i also have tantrums.
tagging: smilejansen, dorina12, moonchildgoddess, ceresn, detin12, seven
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