every matter consists of a balance. every creation has its advantages and disadvantages. ive thought before that open-mindedness or being uninhibited was set apart from things that need balance. then again.
freedom is a very big word to handle. and freedom itself is a big thing to have. from the angry-rebels-without-a-cause teens to the patriotics, its one phase a person never misses from the path to knowing himself fully.
even the people who doesnt really need freedom thinks that they want it. its like being stranded on an island for quite some time, having that urge to go back where you think is your home, but after surviving like that, you might still want to go back to that island. even if thats where you suffered, hungered, gasped and wandered. why is this.
do we really need to suffer to feel or appreciate compassion? do we really need to thank pain to just know we're still alive? do we really hear or see things as it may seem? and as a person who lived being such a masochist, i could say yes. but how about you? do you really want to suffer and dwell in pain just to realize things and see the worth of losses?
we all complain about that invisible authoritative hand placing us on such a wrong spot everytime we dont expect it. its like destiny playing monopoly and we are its token. we could go to jail, might get boardwalk, or play with chance. we complain of not having the perfect plan in our mind working in our very eyes. since we all have different perspectives and fates, things will definitely not go our way especially if we need other people for our plans to work. which makes it more complex and a little less exciting. and then we ask for freedom to everything. from the attachments to the people within our circle or to destiny itself. and as to the golden rule, are we just insensitive of things we do wrongly before it comes around not noticing that we really deserve it?
what comes around goes around? really?
and as to a person who knows by heart whats right and wrong... how do you really sort it out? there goes being uninhibited. scratching off the word prejudgment. knowing all circumstances, all possibilties, reasons, wow... a lot of things actually. but do we really seriously need to have our minds open until our brains fall off the ground? as to acceptance, how do we really learn that word appropriately? how do we teach ourselves to just open-heartedly accept the fact, that we deserve wrong things especially if we always think twice just to have that perfect decision?
we decide not for our decisions to be right, we decide if the decision we do is not worth regretting, so we could breathe a little if things dont happen the way we want it to.
if no man is an island, then we definitely not want freedom. we always hunger for the suppresants, the chains, and the big iron ball just for our heads to not bump the ceiling because freedom makes us so giddy, we tend to jump way off the charts.
we all want the attachment. the drama. because if life is too short, we would be really tired of waiting and waiting our whole lives. even if we say that a certain person is worth waiting for. but thats plain stupid. its a thanatophobic's suicide. so logically, we attach so we could ask for freedom. and that vicious drama cycle goes on.
the thing we tend to OFTEN forget is our list of rational resolutions. not jumping on to obvious conclusions, going on extreme ends, then let half of our brain rot itself. because everything has its middle and not concluded using two colors. white is not a color. even black. because white consists of colors and black consists of nothing. so why dont we see the colors first, ya?
if we learn the art of complexity, we do not solve it, we just understand it more, but not fully, for the most intelligent being or the most saintly still cannot define the meaning of life. and if life consists of matters, matter consists of balance, balance consists of black and white, and white consists of colors... there would be an endless trail of question marks.
Not all the questions have an absolute answer. but asking it doesnt mean it's answerless. its as trivial as the yearning for the synonym of the word synonym.
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