stayin all alone on a friday

last year was a prophetic year. and now they say its the year of our destiny.

well my year begins with BIG shakes. i dont wanna post why but yep.. im in big pain right now. problems are crashing in.

when you stir powdered juice in a glass.. you'll see a whirl right? my stirring begins. and right now.. im on the farthest side. the one near the glass. before going through the center... ill experience a lot AND the swirling will be more intense. at least in the end... the drink will be well mixed and i am all set.

im just trying to make my self brave and think of how to resolve it. ive got a good plan but shit... itll be a big change for me.

25 years and i think i have to grow up. im kinda nervous that the wedding might get postponed. *sigh* is this all a big test? i mean... IF this is the year of my destiny... i dont wanna see myself on rock bottom. i never got scared of that but i think more of the people who depends on me.

i swear... im gonna die fucking filthy rich. and hot.

now this is all because of a friday with no alcohol. amanna buy some vodka and get drunk.oh wait. i was drunk last wednesday. :s im not gonna be alcoholic. there's no hotness in being alcoholic. im gonna jog like crazy. but i dont wanna jog on a friday night. oh shit thats worse.

well i guess id be with rakki then. beating up all the drag racers in the hood. u know whattam tellin? yo yo zup foo.

oh shit i really need some vodka. oh wait.. no. itll be claire's birthday party tomorrow night.(HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOMMIE!) of course there will be booze. so im gonna save my thirst for tomorrow.

*sigh* well... four glasses of grenadine, sprite and vodka wont hurt. so ill just be having my vodka then.


oh yes... and they say this is the year of everybody's destiny.

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500ml of sprite plus grenadine is NOT shirley temple. [21 Jan 2006|06:49am]

its a friggin sugar rush at what... 649 am?

read mysummerstars she's entry and she got one of my most favorite book. a cabot. I LOVE YOU SHEEEEEE! my sister, che and my bestfriend trish read that and they never got out of it. i flooded (in a way) comments on her page. yup. its official. hyper.

she was the one who gave me "vinces life" my last birthday. and god i love it. can you be my book partner now? like can we have a book club or sumthin. :D

i should sleep. and now im crashing. ZZZZZzzzzzzzz