when you dont know how to hate the word OVER.

while i try to stare how the sky cries its heart out... all your
memories made my wholeself cold. and as if im like the sky who wanted
to dry my tears up. but i dont know how to anymore.



ive never ever wanted to let you go. there mightve been spaces between
us. we mightve taken time for granted a lil, but it never crossed my
mind that well be finally going on opposite paths. no matter how bad i
try to stop the word over to happen... it personifies in front of us.
suddenly, never is a promise that couldnt be broken. no matter how good
my rulebreaking talent is.



since when did "god knows how much i love you" became a cliche? seemed like
it just floated in front of you like a regular wisp of smoke you tried
to shoo away. ive never expected you having a bad judgment of
character. whats worse is you said you loved me wholeheartedly. but how
could you love me without knowing the meaning of it. and i just became
an instant cup of tea that you would sip in case you feel like having
something different. you said you love me. then its time for me to say
you didnt.



you made me look like a liar. oh... not just that. youve degraded my
whole self, my soul, my capabilities, my self esteem, my life. and my
capacity of loving a person. i dont call it my quarter-life crisis coz
i dont wanna get bitter like you. ive chosen you instead of the people
who tried to stop me from hurting myself. wrong move i know. and it
hurts so much that i cant defend you to myself. sounded like an
abhorring paradox... but yeah.. i became too numb of loving a person
that would suddenly be mr hyde. mr hyde that equalizes 15 minutes to my
asthmatic 12 hours. i know people wont get it but hey... im retarded
like youve said, so i wouldnt try to validate myself according to your
unsolicited ideals.



i still cant believe its over. i cant call it my longest nightmare... coz god knows how much i loved you. oh wait. its a cliche.