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i cant wait. 6 months. *sigh*
12.07.2005
12.05.2005
babble.
so here i am with all the thoughts flowing like helium in a balloon. trying to escape as fast as it can. images can be really disturbing and make you ponder about a lot of things like life itself. i mean.. just evaluating myself, just that thought.
there were many people who passed by my life and some remaining memories relive all the bad and the good that has been. it leaves me asking.. how am i doing right now? it just figures out that i take things too ordinary and it makes me a person of discontent. still, i am not really amazed of where i am right now. and i feel sorry for the people who really cares about me. coz i feel like im going in circles. i hurt, try to revive myself, enjoy, then hurt again. i mean, whats that all about? oh geez im babbling.
i am so addicted of falling in love. i mean im in love with the fact of being in love. im always in love. and its so weird that i get jaded whenever i feel like feeling it. i am already in love, but still, being in love for the first time is such an experience you wanna try over and over. so you cant be really in love when you try to fall in love again with a new one right? i hope this makes sense.
i am disclaiming that i am falling out. coz theres no such thing as falling out. like tucking in. tucking out is way impossible. i mean imagine a hole and then you fall in.. right? so how can you fall out? cant even imagine. ive heard many people say that. maybe they did not fall in love in the first place. coz as far as ive known.. you can only say you're not in love when it fails. so whens the right time we can say we are in love? its so uncertain. and thats fuckin weird. can we even ask ourselves if we're sure about it if we feel that we ARE in love? i dont think so coz it jades us out during that event.
but on the other hand... why need reasons? why ask for norms? its even the most subjective thing on earth. the only person that could tell us the meaning is ourselves. so why need somebody's opinion about it?
sometimes... we tend to overdo the ask for freedom. we are so free.. and imprisoned by that kind of freedom at the same time. so we think we "fall out" and experience the freedom after then go find another way to tie ourselves once again.
fuck human nature.
there were many people who passed by my life and some remaining memories relive all the bad and the good that has been. it leaves me asking.. how am i doing right now? it just figures out that i take things too ordinary and it makes me a person of discontent. still, i am not really amazed of where i am right now. and i feel sorry for the people who really cares about me. coz i feel like im going in circles. i hurt, try to revive myself, enjoy, then hurt again. i mean, whats that all about? oh geez im babbling.
i am so addicted of falling in love. i mean im in love with the fact of being in love. im always in love. and its so weird that i get jaded whenever i feel like feeling it. i am already in love, but still, being in love for the first time is such an experience you wanna try over and over. so you cant be really in love when you try to fall in love again with a new one right? i hope this makes sense.
i am disclaiming that i am falling out. coz theres no such thing as falling out. like tucking in. tucking out is way impossible. i mean imagine a hole and then you fall in.. right? so how can you fall out? cant even imagine. ive heard many people say that. maybe they did not fall in love in the first place. coz as far as ive known.. you can only say you're not in love when it fails. so whens the right time we can say we are in love? its so uncertain. and thats fuckin weird. can we even ask ourselves if we're sure about it if we feel that we ARE in love? i dont think so coz it jades us out during that event.
but on the other hand... why need reasons? why ask for norms? its even the most subjective thing on earth. the only person that could tell us the meaning is ourselves. so why need somebody's opinion about it?
sometimes... we tend to overdo the ask for freedom. we are so free.. and imprisoned by that kind of freedom at the same time. so we think we "fall out" and experience the freedom after then go find another way to tie ourselves once again.
fuck human nature.
random003.
im in my withdrawal state. i havent had a cigarette for 6 days and my body is like feeling weird about it. ive had this terrible dry cough, colds and starting to get feverish. so i decided to have 4 cigarettes yesterday and 2 this night. they say i have to do it gradually and i hope i could. im the most un-self-controlled person. i noticed that because..
the doctor yesterday told me to stay away from chocolates for the meantime. so my cough would stop sounding like a car that wont start. what i had that evening was..
chocolate fudge brownie with vanilla ice cream topped witn strawberry and chocolate syrup.
and 45 minutes ago..
grande hot chocolate and a pack of dunhill. (its all red!!! christmaaaaaass!!! *valentines and birthdays are red too dimwit!*)
pretty clear that ill not be feeling well that soon eh. tsk tsk. oh im gonna die soon you know.
i am currently addicted with God Of War. Im too busy leveling up my weapons. i almost forgot eating and brushing my teeth. my sister called telling me to have dinner at their house, and i cant believe i still brought rakki there. so i can still play God Of War. How sick is that?
while wearing my pambahay black shirt and wearing slippers, i went to robinsons place to watch a movie alone. tinopak ako bigla. i was 15 minutes late for Just Like Heaven and i am regretting that i didnt ask che to come with me. since that is fuckingly spontaneous, ive thought she wouldnt agree so anyway..
i am such a sappy fat lune. i am a big sucker to romantic comedies. *sigh*
the doctor yesterday told me to stay away from chocolates for the meantime. so my cough would stop sounding like a car that wont start. what i had that evening was..
chocolate fudge brownie with vanilla ice cream topped witn strawberry and chocolate syrup.
and 45 minutes ago..
grande hot chocolate and a pack of dunhill. (its all red!!! christmaaaaaass!!! *valentines and birthdays are red too dimwit!*)
pretty clear that ill not be feeling well that soon eh. tsk tsk. oh im gonna die soon you know.
i am currently addicted with God Of War. Im too busy leveling up my weapons. i almost forgot eating and brushing my teeth. my sister called telling me to have dinner at their house, and i cant believe i still brought rakki there. so i can still play God Of War. How sick is that?
while wearing my pambahay black shirt and wearing slippers, i went to robinsons place to watch a movie alone. tinopak ako bigla. i was 15 minutes late for Just Like Heaven and i am regretting that i didnt ask che to come with me. since that is fuckingly spontaneous, ive thought she wouldnt agree so anyway..
i am such a sappy fat lune. i am a big sucker to romantic comedies. *sigh*
12.04.2005
loser.
i just turned off my ps2. i was trying t finish off God Of War pero masakit na mata ko. instead.. i am now diverting my attention to something that would make me sleep.
so friendster surveys now is like one of the mediums of soul searching. how.. conevenient. the hell i care. game:
NAME: xavier
COMMONLY KNOWN AS: xave, xavier, yehboi, chin (used only kung kababata kita or kamaganak)
BIRTHDAY: 12/11
GLASSES/CONTACTS: glasses (na natapakan kagabi at nasira)
BRACES: yep. still stuck and torturing my cheekwalls.
HAIR COLOR: black..
TATTOOS: nopez. thinking of having it by next year.
PIERCINGS: tongue, eyebrow, 5 sa left ear and one sa right.
SIBLINGS: 1
PETS: fishes
..::FAVORITE::..
BAND: FALLOUT BOY, IMAGO!
SONG: warning - incubus
FOOD: teriyaki boy's shake sashimi. (argh. im getting hungrier and hungrier)
MOVIE: while you were sleeping (PA RIN!)
COLOR: moss green
ACTOR/ACTRESS: meg ryan/charlize theron/no actors. they act alike
SPORT: billiards, tennis
..::LAST::..
MOVIE WATCHED: harry potter 4
SHOW WATCHED: LOST. i dont have tv. 3 months na. i lost my remote control so i just download. lol
SONG LISTENED TO: pedicab - bukas
SONG STUCK IN YOUR HEAD: imago's freefall
PERSON TALKED TO: marvin, jimbo while playing scrabble
============,,,,,,,,,,,,,============
WISH: to be filthy rich
TIME YOU TALKED 2 YOUR MOM: i cant remember. two months ago ata.
COMPACT DISK LISTENED TO: paramita (cd right? mp3s pinapakinggan ko e.)
COMPACT DISK BOUGHT: orange and lemons
GAY/LESBIAN RELATIONSHIPS: uh huh? what about it you homophobic?
LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS: i dont think i would survive one
ONLINE DATING: AGREE!
SUICIDE: survived 6 times. and i know its stupid.
HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: yep. *batt batt*
THINK ABOUT SUICIDE: wtf! uv asked that! whoever did this.. dont think about it. just go ahead and try.
HATE YOURSELF: oh yeah
WISH YOU COULD LIVE SOMEHWERE ELSE: HELL YEAH!
STAND OUT: *winks* di mashadu.
WRITE IN CURSIVE OR PRINT: whatever
SURF: does this involve the sea or the net or the detergent?
WANT MORE PIERCINGS: yup left lower lip. had that before and i miss it.
WANT MORE TATTOOS: not yet
EVER CRIED OVER A GIRL: oh yeah
EVER CRIED AT A CHICK FLICK: hahahaha. ya!
EVER LIED TO SOMEONE: nope. *rolls eyes*
EVER BROKE A COMPACT DISK: putanginang tanong to.
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP: own a record company
MAKES YOU HAPPY: gabby and che. *sigh*
MAKES YOU SAD: that i try to help then feel sed
NUMBER OF TIMES YOU'VE HAD A BROKEN HEART: *shrugs*
OF TIMES YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE: twice
OF THINGS YOU REGRET: my fathers death. my school/course transferring/shifting and a lot of
others
OF THINGS YOU WEAR ON YOURWRIST: bracelet given by abhie, my "x" bracelet and my big fossil watch
OF BELTS YOU HAVE: 1 green cheap belt. with a lot of metal on it.
MADE YOU CRY: *sigh*
WENT TO THE MOVIES WITH: che is my movie buddy
SLEPT IN YOUR BED: madami. *winks*
SENT YOU AN EMAIL: halers. and yg notices.
APPLES OR BANANAS: bananas. with peanut butter. *drools*
RED OR BLUE: blue
HALLOWEEN OR CHRISTMAS: christmas
MOUSE OR RAT: depende sa mood.
LORD OF THE RINGS OR HARRY POTTER: HARRY POTTER!!! YEH!
CARE BEARS OR TELLYTUBIES: care bears
BLACK OR WHITE: white
SAID YOU LOVED SOMEONE AND MEANT IT: always
GONE OUT IT PUBLIC IN PAJAMAS: yeah! lolz!
BEEN ON STAGE: of course
WISHED YOU WERE OLDER: nope.. steady lang
FRIENDSHIP/LOVE: both....
WANT CHILDREN: yeh. two. :)
MOST IMPORTANT THINGs IN A RELATIONSHIP: trust, sincerity
..::FINISH THE SENTENCE::..
I MISS: my mom. my dad. my old self.
I AM: a paranoid schizophrenic daydreamer
PEOPLE DESCRIBE ME AS: cool. but i dont think the same.
I AM TIRED OF: this world and all the baduy people na mahilig makialam sa pamamagitan ng inosenteng tanong. sa mga taong mahilig magmarunong, magmaganda at wala sa lugar.
so friendster surveys now is like one of the mediums of soul searching. how.. conevenient. the hell i care. game:
NAME: xavier
COMMONLY KNOWN AS: xave, xavier, yehboi, chin (used only kung kababata kita or kamaganak)
BIRTHDAY: 12/11
GLASSES/CONTACTS: glasses (na natapakan kagabi at nasira)
BRACES: yep. still stuck and torturing my cheekwalls.
HAIR COLOR: black..
TATTOOS: nopez. thinking of having it by next year.
PIERCINGS: tongue, eyebrow, 5 sa left ear and one sa right.
SIBLINGS: 1
PETS: fishes
..::FAVORITE::..
BAND: FALLOUT BOY, IMAGO!
SONG: warning - incubus
FOOD: teriyaki boy's shake sashimi. (argh. im getting hungrier and hungrier)
MOVIE: while you were sleeping (PA RIN!)
COLOR: moss green
ACTOR/ACTRESS: meg ryan/charlize theron/no actors. they act alike
SPORT: billiards, tennis
..::LAST::..
MOVIE WATCHED: harry potter 4
SHOW WATCHED: LOST. i dont have tv. 3 months na. i lost my remote control so i just download. lol
SONG LISTENED TO: pedicab - bukas
SONG STUCK IN YOUR HEAD: imago's freefall
PERSON TALKED TO: marvin, jimbo while playing scrabble
============,,,,,,,,,,,,,============
WISH: to be filthy rich
TIME YOU TALKED 2 YOUR MOM: i cant remember. two months ago ata.
COMPACT DISK LISTENED TO: paramita (cd right? mp3s pinapakinggan ko e.)
COMPACT DISK BOUGHT: orange and lemons
GAY/LESBIAN RELATIONSHIPS: uh huh? what about it you homophobic?
LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS: i dont think i would survive one
ONLINE DATING: AGREE!
SUICIDE: survived 6 times. and i know its stupid.
HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: yep. *batt batt*
THINK ABOUT SUICIDE: wtf! uv asked that! whoever did this.. dont think about it. just go ahead and try.
HATE YOURSELF: oh yeah
WISH YOU COULD LIVE SOMEHWERE ELSE: HELL YEAH!
STAND OUT: *winks* di mashadu.
WRITE IN CURSIVE OR PRINT: whatever
SURF: does this involve the sea or the net or the detergent?
WANT MORE PIERCINGS: yup left lower lip. had that before and i miss it.
WANT MORE TATTOOS: not yet
EVER CRIED OVER A GIRL: oh yeah
EVER CRIED AT A CHICK FLICK: hahahaha. ya!
EVER LIED TO SOMEONE: nope. *rolls eyes*
EVER BROKE A COMPACT DISK: putanginang tanong to.
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP: own a record company
MAKES YOU HAPPY: gabby and che. *sigh*
MAKES YOU SAD: that i try to help then feel sed
NUMBER OF TIMES YOU'VE HAD A BROKEN HEART: *shrugs*
OF TIMES YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE: twice
OF THINGS YOU REGRET: my fathers death. my school/course transferring/shifting and a lot of
others
OF THINGS YOU WEAR ON YOURWRIST: bracelet given by abhie, my "x" bracelet and my big fossil watch
OF BELTS YOU HAVE: 1 green cheap belt. with a lot of metal on it.
MADE YOU CRY: *sigh*
WENT TO THE MOVIES WITH: che is my movie buddy
SLEPT IN YOUR BED: madami. *winks*
SENT YOU AN EMAIL: halers. and yg notices.
APPLES OR BANANAS: bananas. with peanut butter. *drools*
RED OR BLUE: blue
HALLOWEEN OR CHRISTMAS: christmas
MOUSE OR RAT: depende sa mood.
LORD OF THE RINGS OR HARRY POTTER: HARRY POTTER!!! YEH!
CARE BEARS OR TELLYTUBIES: care bears
BLACK OR WHITE: white
SAID YOU LOVED SOMEONE AND MEANT IT: always
GONE OUT IT PUBLIC IN PAJAMAS: yeah! lolz!
BEEN ON STAGE: of course
WISHED YOU WERE OLDER: nope.. steady lang
FRIENDSHIP/LOVE: both....
WANT CHILDREN: yeh. two. :)
MOST IMPORTANT THINGs IN A RELATIONSHIP: trust, sincerity
..::FINISH THE SENTENCE::..
I MISS: my mom. my dad. my old self.
I AM: a paranoid schizophrenic daydreamer
PEOPLE DESCRIBE ME AS: cool. but i dont think the same.
I AM TIRED OF: this world and all the baduy people na mahilig makialam sa pamamagitan ng inosenteng tanong. sa mga taong mahilig magmarunong, magmaganda at wala sa lugar.
LOST s02e09
so i downloaded this for two hours. i love you !!!!!!
while playing final fantasy X, watched friends and SNL, the dl was done. kinda fast.
[00:17] whoa jin! nice korean abs. *yeah sun... sayid is literally digging his beloved's grave and there you are with your koala hug.*
[01:43] is this a LOVE episode sgain? cmon sawyer.
[02:47] kate is really climbing up trees for sawyer. *sigh* ay kabayo. could they eat horse meat? that was pretty big!
[03:50] ooohhh all about kate now!!! shes a jerk magnet. teehee...
[05:00] PUTANG INA!
[07:22] oh kate.... :(
[10:02] come on sayid! shannon didnt deserve a bad fabric. you couldve wrapped her nicely. omg. :(
[11:02] "...at least i loved her.." was pretty nervous im gonna hear kenny rankin singin what matters most.
[13:34] .... that scared the hell out of me
[18:42] i feel ya kate... :( ... O_o OH okay. i dodnt see that kiss coming. geez. sumegue pa hmf.
[19:36] lol that was pretty awkward.
[29:24] shit. book. freaky looking book. omg. OH MY GOD ITS ANOTHER FILM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[42:13] ina mo ana lucia nagiinarte ka pa.
[44:35] OH MY GOD MICHAEL!!!!! THAT PC IS NOT FOR FUCKIN CHATTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[END] .............................. *goosebumps*
who are the writers of this series????????? god
while playing final fantasy X, watched friends and SNL, the dl was done. kinda fast.
[00:17] whoa jin! nice korean abs. *yeah sun... sayid is literally digging his beloved's grave and there you are with your koala hug.*
[01:43] is this a LOVE episode sgain? cmon sawyer.
[02:47] kate is really climbing up trees for sawyer. *sigh* ay kabayo. could they eat horse meat? that was pretty big!
[03:50] ooohhh all about kate now!!! shes a jerk magnet. teehee...
[05:00] PUTANG INA!
[07:22] oh kate.... :(
[10:02] come on sayid! shannon didnt deserve a bad fabric. you couldve wrapped her nicely. omg. :(
[11:02] "...at least i loved her.." was pretty nervous im gonna hear kenny rankin singin what matters most.
[13:34] .... that scared the hell out of me
[18:42] i feel ya kate... :( ... O_o OH okay. i dodnt see that kiss coming. geez. sumegue pa hmf.
[19:36] lol that was pretty awkward.
[29:24] shit. book. freaky looking book. omg. OH MY GOD ITS ANOTHER FILM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[42:13] ina mo ana lucia nagiinarte ka pa.
[44:35] OH MY GOD MICHAEL!!!!! THAT PC IS NOT FOR FUCKIN CHATTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[END] .............................. *goosebumps*
12.03.2005
NUROCK AWARDS and some pics @ mtv summit.
twas a REALLY GOOD NIGHT. imago bagged the best video, aia got the best female, pedicab got the best new artist, updharmnadown got the raw award, radioactivesagoproject's performance.. was UNBELIEVABLE!!!
migs ayesa two nights in a row.. too much. hes really good. skinny skinny pants eh.
i was with chill, jerome, cris, juana, chuckie and mike.
i still have fever. grabe na yung ubo ko. this is my 5th non smoking day. withdrawal syndrome is much worse than being a cold turkey. OR both is the worst. ive talked to ria and armie last night. ive seen old friends ja and yey, tim was really good loking in his pinstriped coat, myrene and aia has always been sooo sexy, zach's really cute with his camera and all, and free pizza. :D
twas so stupid id didnt bring my camera. i came from greenhills coz i had rakki modified. hoooraayyyy!!!! i never thought i had 40gb harddisk on my ps2. geez. wish i could still sell it.
here are some pics i got from's post from mtv summit. i mean... who wouldnt LOVE these girls. they are so adorable, sexy, beautiful and DEFINITELY a LOST FAN!!! :D
i look like a monster. jesus h christ.
two girls in lost. lol right jan. 1623. :D
you wouldnt wanna mess up with this lady.
migs ayesa two nights in a row.. too much. hes really good. skinny skinny pants eh.
i was with chill, jerome, cris, juana, chuckie and mike.
i still have fever. grabe na yung ubo ko. this is my 5th non smoking day. withdrawal syndrome is much worse than being a cold turkey. OR both is the worst. ive talked to ria and armie last night. ive seen old friends ja and yey, tim was really good loking in his pinstriped coat, myrene and aia has always been sooo sexy, zach's really cute with his camera and all, and free pizza. :D
twas so stupid id didnt bring my camera. i came from greenhills coz i had rakki modified. hoooraayyyy!!!! i never thought i had 40gb harddisk on my ps2. geez. wish i could still sell it.
here are some pics i got from
i look like a monster. jesus h christ.
two girls in lost. lol right jan. 1623. :D
you wouldnt wanna mess up with this lady.
MTV summit.
twas really a pretty tiring night. there were food, free jagermeister, vodka from pretty girls, and good music. kaso i had to go in the middle of the event coz it was roll and om's birthday. ilang beses akong inaya ni roll na sumama sa kanila and pinapasabay na nya ako kahit supposedly susunod ako. baka naisip nya na topakin ako at di ako sumunod.
the surprise for omnie and roll was sooo touching. grabe ako kaya yung excited and sobrang natouch. there's this cake in tictac form for roll and kay omnie is a pretty delicious snare drum. naglowbatt ako di ko nakuhanan ng pics. and there were party hats, confetti, celest had a guitar (did you play it celest? hmmm) grabe sobrang saya. andaming halers na andun and roll was really really drunk. shempre 21 na sha. :)
so here are the pics muna.
the pretty girls @mtv summit. claire and jan. too bad i was torn between everything that night. i couldve spent the whole evening night with them and got wasted.
imago and sandwich. sila yung kasama ko the whole night nung nagdinner and usap usap re ps2 and all. mamaya NUrockawards na!!!
birthday boy number 1. mr roll martinez. he got really drunk lol. ayan yung "wistful" look nya na hiniram nya kay champ.
birthday boy number 2. mr omnie saroca. na ubod hyper that night. :D
borrowed my beanie na hindi nya naman sinuot nung tutugtog na. lol
tom taus. hmm.. mali.. um.. atom?
the surprise for omnie and roll was sooo touching. grabe ako kaya yung excited and sobrang natouch. there's this cake in tictac form for roll and kay omnie is a pretty delicious snare drum. naglowbatt ako di ko nakuhanan ng pics. and there were party hats, confetti, celest had a guitar (did you play it celest? hmmm) grabe sobrang saya. andaming halers na andun and roll was really really drunk. shempre 21 na sha. :)
so here are the pics muna.
the pretty girls @mtv summit. claire and jan. too bad i was torn between everything that night. i couldve spent the whole evening night with them and got wasted.
imago and sandwich. sila yung kasama ko the whole night nung nagdinner and usap usap re ps2 and all. mamaya NUrockawards na!!!
birthday boy number 1. mr roll martinez. he got really drunk lol. ayan yung "wistful" look nya na hiniram nya kay champ.
birthday boy number 2. mr omnie saroca. na ubod hyper that night. :D
borrowed my beanie na hindi nya naman sinuot nung tutugtog na. lol
tom taus. hmm.. mali.. um.. atom?
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