what could my love has to offer just to regain everything that weve lost?
how could my certainties bring back all the trust you have given before?
how could i let you pass up all the chances to make you happy just for my assurance's sake?
how could i prove that i miss all of it? all of the things that started to build my being?
how could i let that pain linger inside me until i cringe and throw up... just to make you see that you still have your freedom of loving anyone?
how could i make myself crazy on just enjoying myself too much and let you wait for me, thinking that you are also enjoying yourself? how could i not think that its too much?
how could i want to let you go and just scare the shit out of me if someday... you wouldnt be mine.. forever?
how could i promise to love you forever and still couldnt prove it.
im so sorry i still love you.
4.10.2007
4.09.2007
two cents.
posted it in our yahoogroups since somebody posted that they are disappointed sa TWILIGHT kasi masyado raw nagpakalalim.
well, everyone's point of view is actually accepted. so here's my two
cents.
liking a certain genre of music is always subjective. i also dont want
to be biased but i think the second album portrays the growth on how
each of the band members did their part, from triggering their own
depth by means of personal experiences, favorites, influences etc.
some of the songs in the first album was actually written during their
school days, hence it sounds younger, and spontaneous. you know how it
feels to do something the first time. its either you can call your
best or not. either way, small beginnings are usually phenomenal.
regarding of its deepness... it actually depends on the listener if
they actually have the time to ponder what it actually means. you
could listen carefully to the words, on how the vocals delivered it,
and how the accompaniments gave thickness to that certain emotion. i
could say na kung hindi ka nga naman interesado, tatamarin ka talaga.
i could also say that comparing a certain artist to another is a big
no. because no matter how they would sound alike, its still different.
and categories/genres are overrated. have you ever compared an
abstract painting to a portrait? or simpler... apples to oranges? the
music business might have created the competition but its up to the
music lovers on how they would be affected by it. so comparing them
because tv ads or articles said so, is a complete submission to
another's opinion. so you get to ask yourself, what about your OWN
perspective?
opinions are supposed to be constructive. almost all opinions are. so
this one's healthy. napasagot nga ako e.
but for me... i actually LOVE the second album. its actually good for
Hale to make thousands of people realize that they're in for the music
and not for selling-out.
n_n
well, everyone's point of view is actually accepted. so here's my two
cents.
liking a certain genre of music is always subjective. i also dont want
to be biased but i think the second album portrays the growth on how
each of the band members did their part, from triggering their own
depth by means of personal experiences, favorites, influences etc.
some of the songs in the first album was actually written during their
school days, hence it sounds younger, and spontaneous. you know how it
feels to do something the first time. its either you can call your
best or not. either way, small beginnings are usually phenomenal.
regarding of its deepness... it actually depends on the listener if
they actually have the time to ponder what it actually means. you
could listen carefully to the words, on how the vocals delivered it,
and how the accompaniments gave thickness to that certain emotion. i
could say na kung hindi ka nga naman interesado, tatamarin ka talaga.
i could also say that comparing a certain artist to another is a big
no. because no matter how they would sound alike, its still different.
and categories/genres are overrated. have you ever compared an
abstract painting to a portrait? or simpler... apples to oranges? the
music business might have created the competition but its up to the
music lovers on how they would be affected by it. so comparing them
because tv ads or articles said so, is a complete submission to
another's opinion. so you get to ask yourself, what about your OWN
perspective?
opinions are supposed to be constructive. almost all opinions are. so
this one's healthy. napasagot nga ako e.
but for me... i actually LOVE the second album. its actually good for
Hale to make thousands of people realize that they're in for the music
and not for selling-out.
n_n
4.07.2007
Im not Holy, but ill tell you some about My God...
emphasis on MY. we all have our different outtakes on the word, and here's mine.
i have sinned. a lot. and i think enumerating it to a certain person with cleansing you "professionally" would help rehabilitate our so-called soul if its broken in case. i am a believer of a supreme being. but that certain God ive grown with was once said a giver and also a punisher. mine is just good. He doesnt punish at all.
I am strongly grateful with all the blessings he has given me. in case a day, a week, a month or a year goes haywire, i dont see it as a punishment of a deed i could not be proud of. we have a destiny and all at the same time, we choose our destiny, but those choices were set pre-made. so destiny contradicts the word itself. confusing, right? so many of us ignore the part where it confuses us. and thats where they make use of that word. ano bang tagalog ng destiny.. "bahala na"?
in my account, we choose our path and once it goes blocked with a lot of so-called challenges, why see it as a punishment? weirdly, My God wouldnt be as cruel. he just gives me the blessings that i am worthy of handling.
evil doesnt exist. its just the absence of Him. like darkness. its just the absence of light. so its not like we are doing evil things hence getting punished. thats not how it works. i see it as the effect of what we had done. the consequences. but it wasnt made by him, its by our own free will.
and all at the same time, we do not have the right to pinpoint and judge each other by using God's word. God may have interpreted it as something else. He is a knowledgeable being as we all know. And according to a certain book, he doesnt want two characters to grab a bite to that fruit of knowledge, and again, God is not selfish.
so i wonder, why would Shirley Phelps thank God for AIDS, death and a lot of negative stuff. My God did not bring it here.
I may not be a traditional catholic going to 7 churches but for the heck of it, i just ate tuna. still yummy though. i guess My God created the tuna too.
i have sinned. a lot. and i think enumerating it to a certain person with cleansing you "professionally" would help rehabilitate our so-called soul if its broken in case. i am a believer of a supreme being. but that certain God ive grown with was once said a giver and also a punisher. mine is just good. He doesnt punish at all.
I am strongly grateful with all the blessings he has given me. in case a day, a week, a month or a year goes haywire, i dont see it as a punishment of a deed i could not be proud of. we have a destiny and all at the same time, we choose our destiny, but those choices were set pre-made. so destiny contradicts the word itself. confusing, right? so many of us ignore the part where it confuses us. and thats where they make use of that word. ano bang tagalog ng destiny.. "bahala na"?
in my account, we choose our path and once it goes blocked with a lot of so-called challenges, why see it as a punishment? weirdly, My God wouldnt be as cruel. he just gives me the blessings that i am worthy of handling.
evil doesnt exist. its just the absence of Him. like darkness. its just the absence of light. so its not like we are doing evil things hence getting punished. thats not how it works. i see it as the effect of what we had done. the consequences. but it wasnt made by him, its by our own free will.
and all at the same time, we do not have the right to pinpoint and judge each other by using God's word. God may have interpreted it as something else. He is a knowledgeable being as we all know. And according to a certain book, he doesnt want two characters to grab a bite to that fruit of knowledge, and again, God is not selfish.
so i wonder, why would Shirley Phelps thank God for AIDS, death and a lot of negative stuff. My God did not bring it here.
I may not be a traditional catholic going to 7 churches but for the heck of it, i just ate tuna. still yummy though. i guess My God created the tuna too.
chasing cars SUBTLE version nakanangtoots.
since batong bato na kami ngayong byernes santo, nagrecord kami ng di oras. :D
4.05.2007
holy cow.
its a thursday morning, abhie and ivan is actually sleeping in my room. i wasted three days converting files and little that i know that i didnt make any plans for the holy days. that sounded strange.. holy days. and the plan that i was actually thinking about is not holy. not that its unholy though, if u know what i mean. theyre actually going to bulacan a lil later and i really think i should post this. hahaha
anyway, im not going to make the bora plan out coz ive already spent my money for it. sad but not THAT sad. at least i have something i could keep for a longer time. anyway bora is still there. i think im still going but not that soon. on may, perhaps.
i dont know if im ready to repent though. its not that i will be intentionally doing all the sins that ive been doing (since i always justify that what i do doesnt hurt anyone so i dont consider it anyway) but i think that certain lifestyle is something like smoking. if youre planning to quit it, much as well do it gradually or youll withdraw like hell. so i cant drastically give it up coz its just the holy week. there would still be holy weeks in the future years, right?
i guess dwelling on the summer heat is punishment enough, suffering from the fire.
anyway, im not going to make the bora plan out coz ive already spent my money for it. sad but not THAT sad. at least i have something i could keep for a longer time. anyway bora is still there. i think im still going but not that soon. on may, perhaps.
i dont know if im ready to repent though. its not that i will be intentionally doing all the sins that ive been doing (since i always justify that what i do doesnt hurt anyone so i dont consider it anyway) but i think that certain lifestyle is something like smoking. if youre planning to quit it, much as well do it gradually or youll withdraw like hell. so i cant drastically give it up coz its just the holy week. there would still be holy weeks in the future years, right?
i guess dwelling on the summer heat is punishment enough, suffering from the fire.
4.04.2007
weekend.
blow by blow weekend ko. tapos nagpapic pa ako sa mga hardcore. \m/ YEH!
first nag-morato last friday for the Hale gig. di ko makita pic namin nina shel. pffft. anyways, lasing ako since thursday hanggang saturday. birthday pa ni che nung sunday so sabi ng atay ko... "pwede pahinga po ako please?"
the hot babes of my life. <3 mamu, anna and liza
sabi sa yo hot babe e. ayan init na init na ata.
i got my ipod vid last saturday. damn it was fiiiiiiiiiiinne, tsssssss. so i've put all of my favorite mtvs and youtube episodes. movies like almost famous, crazybeautiful, IF ONLY, mallrats , empire records at kung anu ano pa, aside from BIG BIG memory for music. damn di na ata ako mahihiwalay dun. <3 then trish and i went to glorietta for the oxygen fashion show. i really didnt notice that Derek Ramsey has a pair of wutwut buns. nahirapan sha maglakad dahil sumikip ang pantalon coz of his butt. geez. ok i outgayed myself. then had a few drinks nung cocktail party so itinuloy namin sa cyma greenbelt. had two pitchers of strawberry margarita. hay nako jm picture namin nasan na. then band rehearsal ng 11pm so lasing lasing ako sa studio. hahahaha. belated happy birthday rey. sorry tanga ako sa dates.
woke up early nung sunday to go to GMA for Hale's SOP. saw dikay there. haba na ng buhok ni deeks. namiss kitaaaa. had a lot of pics that i actually havent imagine of having. ^___^
i guess its time for me to have the ultimate pogi picture. but hopefully next time, with less foundation.
miro. sayang di sha nakasama dun sa pic.
as i quote her, "huy sorry amoy tuta ako", jolens is as lovable as a puppy. hindi sha amoy tuta mind you. pero alam ko mabango naman mga tuta e. shes still cute. i dont know maraming nababaduyan sa kanya but what the fuck jolens, stand up with your vibrant color. pakialam natin sa kanila. *apir*
since walang tulugan has been our barkadas long-time motto, why not grab a pic with the one who started it all. institusyon na yan tsong. hardcore!
then went to iceberg to cool ourselves. hindi nakakatawa ang init. i swear.
bunchu: "hindi pako nakakakain ng halu-halo"
me: ha? anong hindi mo kinakain? saging? or nata de coco? or kamote? alangan namang ice cream eh gatas at yelo na yung iba.
bunchu: "kinakain ko lahat. ayoko lang ng hinahalo."
me: O_o
anna, me, lea, krissy, jamie, hazel bunchu
takaaaaaaw. kaya di na makapagdrive sa sobrang busog e.
with mamu, the agot isidro look alike. hehe
tapos nag rob place ermita for the 88.3 gig then excited umuwi kasi magddownload pa ng sandamakmak. hehehehehe. tomorrow sina abhie naman ang ka-camwhore ko. wow. ive never expected for summer to be good. lumalabas na uli ako ng bahay. O_O
first nag-morato last friday for the Hale gig. di ko makita pic namin nina shel. pffft. anyways, lasing ako since thursday hanggang saturday. birthday pa ni che nung sunday so sabi ng atay ko... "pwede pahinga po ako please?"
the hot babes of my life. <3 mamu, anna and liza
sabi sa yo hot babe e. ayan init na init na ata.
i got my ipod vid last saturday. damn it was fiiiiiiiiiiinne, tsssssss. so i've put all of my favorite mtvs and youtube episodes. movies like almost famous, crazybeautiful, IF ONLY, mallrats , empire records at kung anu ano pa, aside from BIG BIG memory for music. damn di na ata ako mahihiwalay dun. <3 then trish and i went to glorietta for the oxygen fashion show. i really didnt notice that Derek Ramsey has a pair of wutwut buns. nahirapan sha maglakad dahil sumikip ang pantalon coz of his butt. geez. ok i outgayed myself. then had a few drinks nung cocktail party so itinuloy namin sa cyma greenbelt. had two pitchers of strawberry margarita. hay nako jm picture namin nasan na. then band rehearsal ng 11pm so lasing lasing ako sa studio. hahahaha. belated happy birthday rey. sorry tanga ako sa dates.
woke up early nung sunday to go to GMA for Hale's SOP. saw dikay there. haba na ng buhok ni deeks. namiss kitaaaa. had a lot of pics that i actually havent imagine of having. ^___^
i guess its time for me to have the ultimate pogi picture. but hopefully next time, with less foundation.
miro. sayang di sha nakasama dun sa pic.
as i quote her, "huy sorry amoy tuta ako", jolens is as lovable as a puppy. hindi sha amoy tuta mind you. pero alam ko mabango naman mga tuta e. shes still cute. i dont know maraming nababaduyan sa kanya but what the fuck jolens, stand up with your vibrant color. pakialam natin sa kanila. *apir*
since walang tulugan has been our barkadas long-time motto, why not grab a pic with the one who started it all. institusyon na yan tsong. hardcore!
then went to iceberg to cool ourselves. hindi nakakatawa ang init. i swear.
bunchu: "hindi pako nakakakain ng halu-halo"
me: ha? anong hindi mo kinakain? saging? or nata de coco? or kamote? alangan namang ice cream eh gatas at yelo na yung iba.
bunchu: "kinakain ko lahat. ayoko lang ng hinahalo."
me: O_o
anna, me, lea, krissy, jamie, hazel bunchu
takaaaaaaw. kaya di na makapagdrive sa sobrang busog e.
with mamu, the agot isidro look alike. hehe
tapos nag rob place ermita for the 88.3 gig then excited umuwi kasi magddownload pa ng sandamakmak. hehehehehe. tomorrow sina abhie naman ang ka-camwhore ko. wow. ive never expected for summer to be good. lumalabas na uli ako ng bahay. O_O
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