Ay. O_o

530am, she texted me. saying sorry about what had happened "kanina". i wondered, bat sha nagsosorry?

ah oo nga. kasi when they were transferring to another bar, i joked, "sasama ka ba kay edward or magsstay ka sakin?" i never realized the answer until now. sumama sha kay edward. (sabi ng friend ko ang ganda ng pangalan nya, hindi bagay. ang bitter ko naman nun kung ako yung nagsabi nun. lol)

i emailed her a long one. pero i think when i clicked on the send button then re-read it again, nagustuhan ko to.

"i give a lot of advice on love pero kahapon ko lang narealize na
nalimutan ko yung stand ko. for myself.  that if you love, and the
person you love is unfulfilled, if all she could see in you is
disappointment, then
why bother? it's good enough that you love her, but she obviously wants
something else. (thats what jamiesweet posted and made me realize ALOT!)

nagpakatotoo ka lang naman e. its my turn to be real and keep myself
awake for what i realized about what had happened. im not sorry for myself.
im just so sorry it ended in this manner.

expected ko na rin na minsan, maiiyak ako kasi maaalala ko lahat. pero
ibubuhos ko na lang sa sinusulat kong book para maisip ko na kwento ng ibang
tao yun. yung tipong nasa tuktok ng happiness hanggang gumulong pababa.
then in the end, what youll just do is the simplest thing. pick up
yourself, then stand again, for life."

tapos nagchachat kami nung friend ko. kinukulit nya ako dun sa someday ni nina. sabi ko, narinig ko na and its good. until she sent the lyrics.

Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see this through my eyes
By then I won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared

I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the last girl on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long (cause)

Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You’ll see, I won’t even miss you
Someday someday

Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye (cause)

Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You’ll see, I won’t even miss you
Someday

I know someone’s gonna be there

Someday someone’s gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You’ll see, I won’t even miss you
Someday someday

ay. O_o sa akin nga. lol