Oh Man.

Ive got my gabby pics on my phone and since i could not sleep due to i dont know what anymore, (naginuman pa kami moments ago and supposedly inantok nako at nakalma ang utak ko but wow, 745am na) i thought of uploading it in my multiply and i kinda forgot about the album i created 2 years ago for "my family". (view this album)

(blame this part on the alcohol) and oh man, i feel soooooooo FUCKING SSSSSSSAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDD AAAAAAAARRRRRGHHHHHHHHH i wanna fuckin HURT SOMEBODY NOW!!! i am honestly clueless on what to do on those pictures. IT FUCKIN BREAKS MY HEART AND I HATE IT OVER AND OVER COZ I SHOULD BE OKAY BY NOW BUT IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING I-DONT-KNOW-WHAT AND IT SUDDENLY DAWNED ON ME THAT I AM FUCKING SAD. REALLY. I AM SO PATHETIC DAMN THIS SHOULD FUCKIN STOP. YOU ARE EVERYWHERE AND NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO PRETEND THAT I AM OKAY... THE PAIN OOZES OUT OF ME AND I AM ALL FUCKED UP NOW. I AM. I WANNA HAVE MY NAME CHANGED, GET OUT OF THIS FUCKING ROOM OR IF POSSIBLE, GET OUT OF MYSELF. I WANNA DELETE EVERYTHING THAT REMINDS ME OF WHAT WE HAD. AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO START DOING IT BECAUSE I AM SUCH A FUCKING RETARD AND I DONT KNOW IF IM STRANDED IN THIS DENIAL. I AM SO TIRED I WANT MY HEART, MY MIND AND MYSELF BACK. I WANT IT BAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCKKK. FUCK FUCK FUCK

anyway, that paragraph above is brought to you by my alter-ego, thank you. but seriously...

IT FUCKIN BREAKS MY HEART.