Third from the last Chapters.

So heres an excerpt from the last Chapters of "Kissing Christian". I know there are people asking about it and my aim is to have this printed sometime July. Heres a part with Jeremy and Rachel.

“I will always be unreluctant on showing the world how stupid I am. And I don’t care what they would think about me. But I cant face the world right now with me protecting you while everybody’s angry with what you’ve done. Nobody could justify what you did to me. Not even you… I could and I would… but not right now. I cant make you see how much I love you right now. You will always be the girl i want to spend my life with. But I don’t want you to wait. I don’t want you to hope. I want you to be the girl that will love me without doubting it. That I may have ruined your favorite dress, threw away an important note, or said that you have the worst cooking, then somebody comes up and asks you if you love me… I’d want you to say yes… not maybe, not pausing for a minute. I want you to be sure. Cause I will never be a perfect person. And i want you to love me because i am me.”

“It hurts me this much that for the past years of our lives, my love for you still overwhelms me. I still cry when I tell them how we ended up together. Now ill stop myself to cry when they ask me how it ended.”

We wrapped each other with our arms for almost an hour. Until our legs got tired and cramped up, I tried to say goodbye.

Our eyes swollen, catching our breaths, we both stopped talking. I know shed like me to just forgive her as simple as that. I do. I do forgive her. But I cant forget it. I cant be able to forget it.

When we stood up, she hugged me again.

“Don’t leave.”
“I cant stay. Its getting late.”

We held each others hands while we were looking at each others faces. I was wiping her tears, both smiling. Finding our swollen eyes really funny. I was brushing her hair off her face.

“I cant kiss you right now, Im really sorry.”
“Yeah, me too.”

Then we kissed. I kissed her gently like it would be the last kiss. I kissed her sweetly so she would not forget a kiss of a person whose always ready to leave his life behind, his everything behind, just to feel her kiss. I kissed her like nothing else.

I found myself walking on the streets, under the moon where we kept our promises, crying. Holding my heart on the sweaty palms of my hand. Holding the star that i gave her. Holding a diamond ring.