Minutes

ive been haunted by sleepless thoughts
and your smell
your smile
that lingers around
the four corners of my room
and my mind
keeps on breaking
my heart

those images
scattered around the web
sticking to the very last of my soul
catching my breath
my heartbeat
my warmth
replaced by that pain
i couldnt heal this easy
but i want to heal now

i want my heart back
i want it so bad
it still screams your name
your laughters
and its screaming to be saved
from the aches it suffers
from the very mere memory
of this feeling inside
thats now empty and void

i want my heart back
i want my yawns back
i want all my dreams
sewn together
after it has been ripped
by words ive never thought
you had from the beginning
i want the promises
to break itself
i want myself back

how much i wanted
to take everything back
i have given you
my body is too weak
whenever i see you
were my eyes deceived?
was my heart been lied to?
or is it just me
that deceives and lies to myself

how much i want
to take you back
and wrap you once again
in my arms
how much i want
to hold your hands
and embrace you through
the nights, the rainy nights
then see the burst
of the suns rays again
with you

how much i wanted
to blame all the angels
for not reminding me
that you were slipping away
right under my nose

how much i wanted
for you to fall
but someone else
caught you
while i was still waiting
at the very bottom
of my deepest wars

and you let him catch you
and you let him see your smile
and you let him hold your hand
and you let him wrap you around his arms
and you let him hear you laugh
and you let him smell your hair
and you let him feel your warmth
and you let him read your thoughts

that was supposed to be for me...

i still love you...
but if love will crush my head
and my heart over and over..

i dont want to anymore.