scaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrreeeeeeeed

just woke up and I HAVE TO POST this dream i had . i woke up hugging my pillow, sitting at the corner of my bed.

it all started in a jeepney ride (and there are 6 of us.. no mentioning of names) then, friend number 1 borrowed my ipod and she was about to pay the fare but i insisted. i gave the driver a 500peso bill and waited for my change. we have reached the last stop and still, i was waiting for it. the driver was talking to someone and when i approached him "ma, yung sukli ko po"... he said, "pasensha ka na pero sa susunod ko na lang iaabot sayo"... and i wondered... how the hell would he do that e di ko sha kilala... then he ran away.. just around 20 feet, he stabbed a gas tank in a motorcycle using a screwdriver, imagine a fountain-like splurt of gas, bathed himself with it, then HE FRIGGIN LIGHTED it. HE BURNED HIMSELF IN FRONT OF ME.

my friends tugged me like it was nothing then rain fell soo hard we have to stay inside a tapsilugan near our place. i stepped outside a door and saw that it was already flooding.. "stranded na tayo rito" my friend said. (then theres some vague parts) and a man entered... in red... he grabbed me on my neck and said i have to give him my money.. and i said i had no phone (and i think i had 1500 in my pocket, 1000 na lang pala since kinuha nung driver) and i was so sick worried he might get my ipod. i was shouting but everybody was in slo-mo and seemed nobody was hearing me. i sorta thought there that i was hypnotized or sumn. my money clip fell (with a single thousand buck clipped) then he scurried away. i was about to cry in shock when friend number 1 gave me back my ipod saying that i left it in her bag. (vague part again)

venue: school and there's this girl bully who sported the hair that i wanted (like that travis brit mohawk) and we were really trying to bleed out each other.. which is weird coz i dunno how weve done that... then there's this uh.. stairs when she just ran away like she was scared of somebody, and when i looked back, theres this pretty girl coming towards us. she introduced me to the girl then she rode her car... (we stared at her wondering.. why the fuck is she so scared). i smiled at this new girl and introduced my self..

"hi im xavier" *offered my hand*..
"hi im asant" *shaking my hand*. i didnt hear her name at first then i asked her again.. she said "ASANT".
i said "cool. what does that mean?"
"its satan, jumbled all the letters"
"oh cool. (trying to make a small talk like i always do).. i think hes just always... misinterpreted" (and i acted sooooooooo cool that twas really cool. sa dreams lang ha.)

WHY THE FUCK WOULD I SAY THAT?

then the flood subsided but twas really traffic so we just decided to take a walk, we had some talks then her sandal snapped off, and i said "buhatin na alng kita", which i did, (so buhat ko sya hanggang dun sa part na walang tubig) and i stayed in their house then suddenly all the familiar faces were there. not just ordinary familiar faces.

asant's grandma called me coz somebody was calling me outside their house pa raw. then i saw blue 10-foot boulder size egg shakers rolling... then it pushed me into an alley then i saw my friends there. ronald (who died of cancer), clark (who was shot last month), and raul (my grade 5 bestfriend who allegedly died of leukemia). i just stood there, my heart beating so fast staring at them. i ran inside asant's house, trying to run upstairs shouting "berryl.. shane???" then berryl and shane (my childhood friends that i last saw uh.. 12-15 years ago) asked them if they had a spare sando and short coz i went outside the house without a short on. so i was naked, (ew, right) just covering my.. uh... with my hands and WORRYING NOT ABOUT BEING NAKED IN PUBLIC but worrying on how my back skin looks like. tangina. so shane gave me a blue checkered boxer shorts (which i really own in real life) then went outside again, to stare at raul. (kasi di ako makapaniwalang kaharap ko sila that time)

then clark approached me, giving me porn cds. lol

"ui okay tong porn mo ah... parang andaming tracks"
"oo nga.. nakuha ko dun sa store sa greenhills"
"di ba illegal yun? nakapamili ka?"
"hindi... sinabi ko lang gusto ko tapos inabot na yan"

*wakes up*

looking at che using my pc... and she said she was trying to wake me up since 10 in the morning and it was already 3pm when i went off my bed.

u interpret it. coz im sure im so goddamn scared.