twisting the twisted

so i have to kiss you like it was just a kiss.
blame the blue pill, cuss the alcohol.
like the nights a mirror ball of surrealism.
then the jealous sky brightens a lil soon.
when we pretend we're sober, everythings vague.
we laugh, we talk, then we make a dmc bracelet.
like it was nothing.
nothing else but a futile nothingness.
switch off imaginary feelings.
like sniffing mayonnaise is never existent.
then you suddenly talk about feelings.
remind me youre sober.
remind me that i believe it.
i agree to your truth.
your selective honesty.
no, you dont need to remind me that.
i sigh.
i nod.
you pretend you think.
and i doubt you just act it out.
we say "its complicated"
we agree its just nothing.
it was only a kiss.
it was only a kiss.
but i am never mr. brightside.

you say im special.
effortlessly
stupidly
i believed
but i beg for you to believe
that i feel the same way
vulnerable and doubtless
my insides jump for joy
like it was true
and i pretend i believe it
i pretend that i pretend
you tell promises
effortlessly
stupidly
i believed

then i let you kiss me
then i kiss you back
its only a kiss
and a carousel of pretentions.

a carousel i enjoy riding
until i puke out my insides
that were jumping for joy.

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at para sa twisted halo...

ang dalawang cd na nalikha ninyo ay mas higit pa sa marapat na masundan. at dahil man sa kung anumang klase ng pagkakataon.... kinailangan mang maghiwalay...

ang mga awit nyo ay patuloy ko pa ring maririnig. salamat sa lahat.